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Hi there, I'm currently reading The Magnus Opus by John Kreiter and this is definitely not my first spiritual/occult book. I have read everything from "the book of the dead" to the entire Seth-material by Jane Roberts, and I am just confused by the different opinions (?) on personality after death. In the Seth-material Seth talks about the eternal validity of our personality, that we are as valid now that we will ever be (and also continue to learn and evolve) even after physical death. John Kreiter among others talk about the dissipation of the ego and loss of identiy, some spiritual literature talk about "the big black sea of consciousness" while for example "the book of the dead" talks about an hallucinatory nightmarish experience. What are your take on this?

Hello there :-) Since reading Ramaji 1000 and written several forum posts here to discuss levels of consciousness and what it really means, I couldn't resist booking a RASA-session out of curiosity! I'm not sure if I really agree with the LOC-system, but I feel that the spiritual teachers are sincere so want to give it a go. I will post about my impression afterwards! As I've written before I think I'm somewhere in the 500's because I'm an intense spiritual seeker since 10 years back. My work is about helping people and I'm a great manifestor. Things flow through me. I still suffer from feelings of extreme inferiority (not often, but it happens) and low self worth even it's mostly gone. Meditation is not great though, I wonder if that's a requirement for being an awakened being? I replace meditation with a lot of self inquiry and journaling.

RASA = energy transmission from an already enlightened being RAMAJI = popular advaita spiritual teacher, author of Ramaji1000 (basic concep is that there are levels to enlightenment and enlightenment=maximum clarity not transcending humanity and being unaffected by life) So I was first assessed as LOC734 and now my latest session I was assessed to LOC804. This is my report of this LOC-level: First concept to be encountered in meditation is the absence of a self. I am "here" and thoughts and feelings are "there", feelings of being the observer. Naturally this leads to more happiness as identification with troublesome thoughts becomes less. It doesn't eradicate emotional pain but it's more manageable. As I was going in to the 800s emotional pain intensified as more psychic trash was floating up to be dealt with. Some people even experience trash from previous lifetimes but most have enough from this one. My best tool to move forward atm is breath meditation. I was moved to write a small report after seeing posts here about enlightenment and free will. It's a popular opinion to claim that there's no free will but there's multiple dimesions and timelines operating at the same time and we can switch between these. With higher levels of consciousness I think this becomes pretty obvious as the self returns as a much more powerful self, a universal self. The little ego I might be powerless to a large degree, but the universal self is an amazing creator. My experience is increased doing-power as the "non-doer" and also a signficant effect on other people. My presence has effect and people find me a lot more attractive, but I just radiate more love and acceptance their way and they pick up on that. I don't feel much peace and love otherwise but I feel that I'm getting there. End of report

Yes, seen from the absolute/highest perspective but this is not accessible for most people. Even as an "enlightened" being, there is still duality operating and intentions that leads to actions and results.

Hey! I have a question about dealing with triggers in romantic relationships. I wanted to post this in the relationship-forum but think it fits better here. The problem: I need a lot of attention in romantic relationships, especially sexual attention. I'm a female, don't need to go into too much detail but I find it hard to find men that I can connect with intellectually that also enjoy sex as much as I do. I'm not extreme or anything but my reaction to sexual rejection is strong. Rejection can be when it's been 1-2 days without sex and a boyfriend isn't showing much interest in me even if I'm reaaaally trying to get his attention (I get really creative in sex and no I'm not ugly, fat or old just find it fun and think it's an important part of deep emotional connection) If I don't sense a high interest in my partner, emotional pain is instantly activated. I really work on myself spiritually so I can be the witnessing presence to this most of the time, but it's challenging. To the question: Lately I've seen "old reactive ego patterns" clearly as they float to the surface. Romantic relationships bring it all out for me, but I wonder if this is a productive purge (getting it all out and into the light to be transmuted) or if it's a sign of incompatibility. Since I'm not completely enlightened, it can be really hard to tell, especially if I'm with someone that is also working intensely on spiritual awakening. I guess core question is about telling productive purge from just creating new emotional pain, being desperate for attention isn't very enlightened for sure but perhaps there can be some kind of yin yang balance to it...?

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Yes studied it profoundly.

What do you mean with "white light spiritual blast"? I must have missed that part of the book, I'm having a session in 2 weeks but attended group RASA yesterday. I'm currently in a process where a loooot of psychic trash floats up and I'm moving pretty fast. Currently looking forward to more LOVE, being able to radiate love without ego fixations getting in the way

Done this type of purging as well, prefer other substances though but thanks for the invitation!

Talking about this type of stuff daily as we are both working with ego triggers atm.

Yes, I'm working with my ego triggers and inferiority complex and "lack of love, lack of attention, lack... something's missing" it's in my focus Purging IS happening and has been happening since february this year, but have a little left to purge!

Yep you're right but have a hard time backing away when all I need is ATTENTION (and sex) I really feel bad for all the guys out there that are with women with low sex drives. I listened to a video with @Leo Gura (https://www.actualized.org/articles/how-to-make-a-guy-fall-in-love-with-you ) about how to keep a man and he really emphasize having your weight handled (check, fitness girl), having an active life (check), and providing interesting, creative sex (check, no boring vanilla stuff here) and yes they fall in love but I need MORE and it's a constant trigger. I've considered having a rotation but I'm very loyal so, perhaps not an option.

Talked to Ramaji about it and he thought old pain and a triggering partner could be a blessing. But yes perhaps an ideal partner would match me in having a high sex-drive or sharing sex as a love language. My type of guys are rarely like that unfortunately. Enlightenment for me is perfect clarity and ability to deal with psychic trash. I'm not having perfect clarity atm even though I've come a long way. I know I'm not seeing everything as is, but currently in a process of letting everything false and inauthentic be washed away. Perhaps this romantic relationship will be washed away as well, perhaps not. I'm an enneagram 4w3 - a pretty dramatic person that LOVE attention and getting seen as special. Partner is 5w6.

Can't leave can you?

Thanks! I also get kriya (?) during psychadelic sessions so I know what you mean. Now I decided to continue with RASA instead of a retreat with Jan, but I'll consider it in the future

Hello wise friends, Have a new question here, a question I am very hesistant to ask because I absolutely HATE when people ask questions for someone else. I typically don't go into other people's businesses but... this is the situation: My friend is completely stuck in the "I need my small ego-I to die"-phase and it's annoying as fuck. He's seen his higher self and been there through various drugs (DMT, LSD, 5-Meo etc) and even regular medication (SDRI) can work periodically. This has led to the typical "I can not live with myself any longer"-dilemma where people typically break through (like Eckhart Tolle, Katie Byron, Russel Brand etc) but no break through occurs. I was there myself 9 years ago and broke through quite fast w/o drugs, just agonizing emotional pain lol. This dude can take so much pain, too much. He desperately wants to understand non-doership but he just don't get it when I try to explain it. I don't think his brain is ready for it, or I dunno... are there any alternative routes to jump into non-doership from the point he's at? It's been 2 years of this bs where I try to guide him but fail. I think this is not my business, but he keeps begging me for help to transcend. Any advice?

Thank you, this is great. I'll let you know how this goes!

Hello again, New enlightenment question. I've noticed that there are a lot of opinions on what happens to the ego during/after the awakening process. A lot of enlightened teachers say that there are no such thing as a "perfect personality" so basically you can be an enlightened wreck. Addicted, broke, fat, whatever. I have thought about this a lot, and I just can't believe that you can be enlightened with a poor functioning ego. It just doesn't make sense. I have been working a lot with the 12 steg program (AA/NA etc) and recovery from addiction (drugs, alcohol, food, sugar, porn, shopping, gaming) is essential on the 12-step path to awakening. When I meet what I perceive as very spiritually conscious people they are always fit and not addicted to anything. They earn good money, live their purpose and are genuinley happy, nice, successful etc. It goes hand in hand. I also think ailments are a manifestation from something not right in the psyche. I'm thinking about this because I was given a high score on my LOC (Level of Consciousness ref. Ramaji 1000) but struggle with feelings of inferiority, low self worth and a feeling of being flawed. I just think this is not very enlightened mind. Any thoughts?

Hah, thanks!

Thanks, your answer was very helpful

I can accept the fact that being in a state of bliss creates a type of neglect for the body, and that they just do what they enjoy doing and if they get fat so be it. I can see that depending on the type of ego/personality fixations, enlightenment will generate different results. I'm curious to know what happens after LOC1000 with fully awakened kundalini. I tend to believe people like Elon Musk are highly awake, he must be in the 700's at least.

so why are some LOC1000 gurus fat? I find that incomprehensible. Goes against loving what is and being intensely present.

Getting rid of labels enables success imo.

Just curious, what has happened to your spiritual journey after meeting Jan? I'm considering a retreat in September!

Hm... just gave him a chance, you're right. He's the real deal, but I find literally NO contact info whatsoever, is his shaktipat just through youtube videos? Not one on one? Found it!