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There's a reason why lust is placed at lower levels of spiritual development, close to survival. It is purely based on pleasure and instant gratification, and it's primary purpose is multiplication. Lust is a necessary part of survival, but it can also lead to and strengthen higher forms of love, such as romantic love. Romantic love is still placed at lower levels in spiritual development, compared to unconditional love. While homosexuality is no different from other kinds of romantic love, incest arising out of lust and sometimes romantic love, reduces the effects of love closer to unconditional love, created by parent,child or siblings or other close relationships, which are generally free of lust. Hence, incest is something that is naturally resisted by our soul, knowing that unconditional love is the only place where the soul can find complete peace and retain its blissful nature. Romantic love also can lead to unconditional love, but it is weaker than those created by the love for close relations.

Sorry that we don't seem to understand you. You need help from someone who is good in explaining these things to you, that could be a good spiritual teacher or a psychologist. The only thing that can say that sounds sensible is that the cycle of suffering you are going through is not permanent. They seem endless at short notice, but you will find that to be a lie sometimes later.

Sounds like a night well spent!

The truth is, all these stuff exists in India, and comparatively more common than in western countries, but they are exaggerated to great proportions by a few. Many also fail to see the reasons behind such behaviours and develop hatred instead of compassion. Lack of quality education, infrastructure and healthcare has played a vital role in these stereotyped behaviours.

Ha ha, works great when you wish to develop your compassion and you have very few opportunities around you to practice it.

The outside world does affect it, as you have stated physical exercise brings the sense of self back to you to some extent. So, don't believe that the outside world cannot change you, instead seek external help from a psychologist or a good spiritual teacher. Exercise is something from the outside, not from the inside. You don't have to do extremely hard physical exercise, if it causes you lot of pain. You have made the assumption that the bodymind wants you to do that in extremes. Instead, entertain the fact that physical exercise is one of the many ways to ground yourself, that's why it is helping you to get back your sense of self. Try easy yoga poses that helps you ground, it's available in the internet. Try having fun with different poses or exercises instead of repeating a single thing again and again. Try walking as an exercise outside as frequently as can, as long it doesn't cause you pain. Can you try to describe the feeling in detail? How did you come to the assumption that you are not in control? Try connecting with nature in depth, try to observe an ant or a squirrel or a bird which has life moving around. Also open YouTube and watch natural videos like these with the biggest screen you have: These videos are not only meant for relaxation, but also helps you bring life back into you.

You don't have to let go of the idea of a family, instead you can try to expand the idea of family to everyone and everything around you.

Another question would be: What actions led to this experience? What were you trying to do before coming to this state?

@Sugarcoat, I have a few questions, you don't have to answer it if you feel uncomfortable or difficulty in doing so: 1. The physical pain you talk about, how does it feel like? Does it feel like a headache? An external wound? And when does it occur? When you do nothing? When you slip into loss of sense of self? When you are forced against your will? 2. The feeling of not having free will, can you describe in detail why you think that way and at exactly what point you feel that? My advice would be to do grounding exercises, you can search for yoga asanas related to grounding and try them everyday instead of exercise.

I had a sort of nightmare too yesterday, but there were no trucks in it.

Apart from seeing or getting advice from a spiritual teacher, you may have to see a psychologist as well. Although spiritual teachers are good with grounding and stuff, psychologists know a thing or two about treating these things as well. It's not necessary to know the cause in detail to treat a disease.

True, the names sound like cringe movies now, because of the poor reception the sequels had, very few know about the originals.

For the great men, I think it's how much mental effort required.

Okay, I think I watched the movie when I was young. I remember a scene where they ask a super computer some serious questions about life. I don't remember anything else though. It's funny you mentioned the 70's, just a few weeks ago, I started watching movies from that era, like French connection, dirty harry, serpico etc. Those films are as good as the new ones!

Yeah, if you need it to be faster, you need to pay. Otherwise you have to be contend with the slowness and also the ads.

Yeah, there has to be a balance between allowing radically open minded discussions and disallowing all kinds of marketing, low quality abuses, posts etc. Reddit has a huge population and hence need for filtering, so automatically they are forced to become closed minded. But I believe this forum is fairly balanced, atleast during the time I spent here. I don't have much experience in reddit though, to be fair.

Are they only books or made into part of movies as well?

Yeah, but I would like something without the upvote mechanism, as it can cause biases.

Fear is a double edged sword. For example, fearing that junk foods will harm you will force you to consider reducing or stopping them. But, it you continue eating junk food with the fear still present, it may increase the negative effects of junk food due to placebo effect.

It's easy for the Indians as they got used to the living conditions for a long period of their lives, but it's relatively difficult for foreigners, especially from Western countries. They not only have the challenges created by living conditions, but also the cultural challenges. But, once westerners get used it to it, they can survive like an Indian! Good to know, I do enjoy the climate in hill stations which generally have low temperatures and high humidity, and feels like heaven during harsh summers, but maybe we don't notice the humidity because we got used to relatively higher humidity levels every day in India. Maybe the lush green trees in the hill stations help too.

Yes, but integrated with additional features.

Yeah, but the free version is 3.5 whereas Bing uses version 4 and it's also free. It's available as an app in Play Store as well. You can download it here. You have to create an account in Bing to use it though. And it's also sometimes slow in responding, but far accurate. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.microsoft.bing

Why not use Bing chat, which is completely free, uses chatgpt 4, can speak like a human and uses upto date information? The only negative issue I believe is that it can't act like a friend or provide emotional support, but is better than chatgpt 3.5 when it comes to studies or logical problem solving. It also provides sources, so you can cross check it easily. Personally, I don't use AI platforms much, except for image generation, as I am able to find everything I need using good old Google search. But, it is really a boon for those who need information quicker and in a concise version, and also acts like a human, that gives a personal touch to traditional robotic search engines, and also displays healthy characters like compassion, humility etc.

Hush, those are secrets!

Very hard to imagine, maybe like this?; Or something like this: