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I am not sure, but I believe this has to do with: how we process information, how we percieve things, how mindful we are of the monkey mind, how aware we are, how we filter, how we use cognition to shed judgements/fears/angers/etc, how alert we are to crucial nuances in human behaviour, etc... so, I believe it's our cognition (mental capacity) expanding further and further into a meta perspective... but I don't really know... I've been at Green for decades, so I am only guessing...

I was at a concert, my daughter and her friend were complaining about bullies to an amazing man, who has decided he would teach them spiritually, whenever they are in need. He told them what I already know. What I have been doing myself with my bully, though it can be very, very, hard. I am glad my daughter is learning this young. The best way to respond to bullies is: to send them LOVE energetically (and sometimes verbally if it is safe to do so). No matter how toxic they behave outwardly, they are suffering inside. See the love enter you from the universe, feel it fill your heart, and then blast it out to them, genuinely & completely showering them in love (and maybe top yourself up too after the bullying).

@Eric Tarpall That form of visual imagination is very useful for artists, suprisingly, many people would not be capable of imagining that much through the minds eye, awesome! Maybe try to turn objects over and see if you would see the underside too (your car outside, etc). @Serotoninluv It somewhat saddens me to hear that imagination may distract from raising awareness. On one hand, I understand that it is only the mind, not infinity often coming up with some of the mechanisms in the process of imagining... On the other hand, I believe that for many artists, musicians, etc that "imagination" is often a direct tapping into total infinate awareness on level beyond our current understanding... I suppose I have a lot of attachment to imagination and would be hesitant to discard it from either the PD tool box, or the awareness tool box... but I don't know...

@Michael569 Amazing, Thanks! I have access to a kidney and bladder tea that works well for me, but it's not meant to be taken long term. I will look into Dr's Morse's herbs and treatments, etc too. I just went to another Chinese Medicine Dr. and she found severe pain in the kidney part of my feet, there is an issue there too. Thanks. The tissue regeneration is very important, Thanks again! That said, there is apparently a mechanism that would force my bladder lining to shed (like an attack defense) if it starts to re-grow... Let me know if you have any ideas on how to communicate with my body that attack is over... or if you think the diet modifications might be enough to stop the perception that we are under attack? I really appriciate your help.

@Quantum_fluctuations I have many years of experience with this ( I still struggle with it weekly when I exchange our daughter with her dad). I will try to help. If you can get away from an abuser, great! If not, this may help: I believe that an abuser is a hurt, whiny, child inside that will resort to the worst measures to get your attention (they personalize harsh language, insults, threats, etc). That said, most of the time any attention you offer (kindness or reciprocal attitude) will just fuel more abuse... even indifference or ignoring them can set them off more. So, what works best for me right now is: I treat the attacker (verbal or physical) like an aggressive/ rabbid wild dog. I remain calm, yet alert -(ready, rather than afraid, and project only peace). I send them love energetically only (even too much verbal kindness can trigger them). I try to never give in to any gas-lighting; I respond, but I speak as little as possible, using an even tone, only slightly cheerful and don't raise my voice, (even if they yell). I SPEAK TO THEM IN PUBLIC ONLY, they are typically less toxic with an audience to witness their behaviour. I try not to take anything personally, even when they personalize it to trigger me. I phone the police if I am legitimately threatened, stalked, etc. I find herbal remedies such as rescue remedy can help before I have to deal with the abusive behaviour. Also having a friend/s helps create a bigger abuse shield. That all said, having to do this egg-shell-walk to de-escalate/minimize abuse has been taking a toll on my health. If you can avoid going into the belly of that beast, it might be best. Good luck!

To net, or not to net? ... is my question, to those that are, or are not, caught in it's web... (p.s. I missed you forum) So, we went 8 months with no internet at home (occasional library use only). The time-warp to *only limited use* of VHS & Cassette tapes from my youth, was of unbelievable benefit for my daughter!!! Recently I was thinking about both the benefits and hinderances to my development without net... Then the univese answered in the form of a snail-mail letter from the govermnment offering us a free computer, and $10/month net for the next few years... I took the offer. Apparently my daughter will need the internet in school eventually and it's supposed to be good if she has technology skills... but I don't know if I believe that completely... she seems so much happier and more engaged when we are net free...and for myself, I have more time +more books +less distraction +more nature = more real life... but also less evolutionary resources, less forum, less Leo, etc I've been really tempted to cancel it already, and we just got it. I feel like I've opened a pandora's box!!! The other downside is that it is limited. So no videos. That helps keep my daughter from youtube, Netflix etc... which is perfect, but keeps me from Leo videos etc too. Is there a way to get them in audio only? Fortunately I have a photographic memory and could picture Leo's elf-wizard face chatting at me even if I can't see him... lol...

@Emerald Thanks for clarifying that for everyone, awesome! @Simke What katykat, Emerald, Shin, & bejapuskas said is rad, you are fortunate to recieve that wisdom. The only thing I have to add is: what stood out to me, is that *openmindedness* seems incredibly important to you... especially in order to enjoy quality time & interactions with others. It is likely something you highly value. It may be best to seek open-minded people for intimacy. Alternately, you could used percieved closedmindedness in others as a way to learn & grow yourself... that said, if it festers in resentment, that might not be very helpful... I don't know... Tip: Women tied in deeply with nature and all things of the *sacred feminine* seem less egoic & and more open-minded in general...

@Pilgrim What stood out to me in your post was what seemed like a desire to change your entire personality. On one hand, a big part of PD work is to evolve... that said, there is a difference between wanting to work on your dysfunctional personality quirks, and wanting to change who you are completely (to the extent medications etc could transform you) .... I have no expertise here, and no real wisdom, my only insight is that, possibly, there is a chance that self-acceptance may be of benefit for you here... I don't know...

What comes to mind for me, is a wave of righteous indignance... somehow, something (that from a metaperspective would seem insignificant) seems almost equal to a massive global cause (with the intensiity of the "need" for defensiveness) .... mindfulness is really important here... to recognize the craving to defend as or before it fully comes up, and to let go of the "need" to defend...

Looks like I could get to Seattle, by boat, pretty cheap... but then I'd need a place to stay for 2 nights, because the ferry only runs at night on the way there, and only in the morning on the way back. It would be much easier for me to go to Vancouver, if that becomes a stop, but Seattle is possible if I can track down old friends there... keep me posted ?

I adore Bruce Lipton... I always think of how he explained the transformation process: the un-imaginal cells of the butterfly (the ones unwilling to transform) commit a-pop-tosis and die ... I wish I could watch this video... I'm @ the library with no headphones... I'm having a harsh physical health issue too, for about 2.5 months... I am stoked to watch this soon!

A friend accused me of creating one of these a few months ago... At first I was almost appalled at the idea.... I thought I was doing the exact opposite ... But quite quickly I saw that my negative thinking was more than capable of manifesting itself in this way.... By taking control of our negative thought patterns, we can ensure that the only self-fulfilling prophecies we create are the ones that are serving us, rather than working against us

@Elysian Thank you, super helpful insights, what you wrote totally resonated with me... I will look into sound therapy too! @Shan I'm afraid I do not have a miraculous success story for you either... That said, I have found things that help... mostly detachment, calming, and big picture thinking... For me, all of it is triggered by a specific individual - in specific situations, and I cannot completely remove that individual (we are both parents), so, I am trying everything... vitamins, various therapies & techniques, all kinds of alternative ideas, etc... When I figure it out, or fully determine what works best for me, I will update you...wishing you great success in your journey

@Joseph Maynor I love the signed agreements with yourself .

Hey Super-Rad-Forum-Community, @Nahm, @Henri, @Joseph Maynor, @Arman, @pluto, @Shin, @Soulbass, @Outer, @Spiral, @Arkandeus, @Stretch, @Enizeo, @Dodo, @msd, @Haumea, etc.... it won't let me type any more @so& so's... so @ "YOU" (reader) too You are likely sick of my seemingly eternal mushroom cloud of issues with Family Court/ my ex... but I am really struggling again & help! 1. How do I get back to a place of total acceptance of any outcome again? (In the material world, my child is too precious for a "bad" outcome) 2. How do I embody the Ultimate Truth Warrior? (in an arena where the lies of others are powerful weapons, and I still dwell behind a fear-shield) 3. How do I respectfully tolerate a "system" where an authoritarian individual seemingly controls much of our future fate? (in the material realm) 4.How can I focus on packing and moving etc to our new life, permanently, with this shit-storm constantly brewing? or, How can I maintain/regain my positive habits, with court-prep, whole property to pack, a whole life to physically shift for the higher good? (hard to focus on present, meditate, be clear, practice gratitude, etc, too overwhelmed, no concentration power, regression to survival mode) Basically, my Ex lied again, and got yet another trial. They are trying to take away all of the amazing things I "won" back in October, including : A new life in an awesome new place (with incredible support/ friends for both of us), the no contact order that protects me (a tiny bit) from some of the harassment, plus my parenting rights re: health and education etc. For some reason, I have to keep fighting for that stuff, and now they are going further, attempting to totally discredit my mental functioning, physical capacity, etc as a parent in general!!! What is the universe saying? BTW, She sees her dad regardless, I am not preventing that. Thanks sooooo much if you comment... even if you swear at me and order me to get my shit on track, I will appreciate you

I struggle with this too... I really don't know the answer... but if I'd guess... I'd say maybe starting with ones you could succeed with might help build confidence to tackle the more challenging habits???... but maybe that's ass backwards???... who knows... but I'm wishing you the best new habits that stick, because they are meant for you, they suit your higher-self/goals, and get you on the right path

Please, in the next two days, could you, if you have a moment.... close your eyes, think of my amazing 5 year old daughter, bring the luminous light of her best interests into your hearts, and send it out to us The last time I was right here, in this vortex, you helped, and it worked!!!.... I asked the forum for energetic support... not only was I granted all of my wishes, but a *literal* raging storm vanished, (much like the internal emotional battlefield), and the sun shone down on my magic wish day, last Oct 17, 2017. Thank you all, so grateful! So, the same thing is happening again tomorrow/ tues & wed/ for the next two days (more family court), where my ex will once again get a final chance to take away all of those wishes that we won. It's his day to present tomorrow, and mine on Wed. I will have to discuss all of the violence and play numerous triggering and traumatic recordings of the danger and threats to the new Judge. I now feel enclosed and protected in harmony, like I'm in the eye of the storm... I have been so concerned about this for months, but just like last time, I now have a strange calmness... and have released concern for the outcome (though not as fully surrendered as last time). This is not my final destination, there are numerous things, waiting for me to explore. Thanks so much!

Need more energetic support!!! Trial did not end after 2 days, it's still going, and not well! Please help! Thanks!

@PartumCreed It's working!!! Either my surrender, or that plus a combination of everyone's positive thoughts The potentially more difficult Judge didn't show, the wish granting Judge magically in his place!!! (and this Judge is a real truth seeker, & looks a bit like a Judicial version of Sting). The forest fire smoke that had clouded the air, has disappeared just like the storm last time. It's not over yet, only halfway through day one.... keep sending love! So much gratitude to anyone helping energetically!!! I am so elated, it's like witnessing real magic done with a wand of truth!

loved this, dealing with this and child exposed myself...very insightful!

@Nahm @Arkandeus You guys are amazing! I can meditate somewhat again now It kind of threw me for a loop that I could loose that ability with a major trauma trigger.... I even thought about giving up personal development ...after years of doing this stuff, just because the trauma seems to be stored so deeply... and it was so frustrating that all of my PD work seemed for nothing... when I am really triggered. Your comments REALLY helped me! I also found a really cool gift from infinity! ... it was in a burn pile but a friend saved it...a drawing I did at a PD workshop...it was of my daughter and I, of where we wanted to be with this big move... and it looks almost exactly like where we ended up even the placement and appearance of the barn and house! I hadn't realized it was a visualization manifestation at all! Our heads have no bodies, only magic sparkles and wings The court has to let us keep this dream! This song helped me too, and finding some new ways to counter my Ex's bullshit for court. The song, to me, is about how these challenges that bring me back to basic animal survival mode, are there to strengthen my spirit

@Nahm @Arkandeus , I haven't been able to meditate currently, too overwhelmed. I understand it is the best medicine... just not able to access the calm again/ yet... sadly, not even 5 minutes right now... He's been stalking me again ...and now my friends too... but it's always just slightly "legally within reason" for him to continue, and now it's his "evidence" too... (I am still waiting to see all of his new videos of me just submitted to court NOTE: I was stalked and filmed for 4 years by an insurance company after I was run over, he is filming intentionally because of that )... it's hard to even breathe when you are in survival mode... best metaphor I can think of right now: would most people have the capacity to sit and breathe/ meditate with a tiger hunting nearby? @Arkandeus, It's after midnight... Tomorrow I guess... I adore all that you said, truly, I wish my mind was as receptive as my heart to your words...thanks sooooo much!!! I know the Judge doesn't really control anything, and that my material life is finite... that said, the perception of suffering still exists, and the other parent would not be a good choice for my child to fully experience daily, regardless of any lessons she may learn.... I feel the urgency and importance of my protection, it's become so difficult to detach from that... yes, I would love to be liberated... thanks for your help! @Nahm re: "no contact order" it exists... but it's a pretty bullshit piece of paper.... I am forced to see him to exchange the child, and the "contact" is super toxic... I've called the police etc for help, but the order from Family Court is "Not Police Enforceable".... I know I have said this 100 times on the forum alone, but when you have a child, it's the only scenario when you can't get away from a toxic human... the other parent... it's like a perpetual prison I can never escape from... the rest of life can be bliss, amazing friends, stunning days, infinite possibilities.... but 6 times a month (so far) I am back in that jail, and the recovery takes time too.... ideas? Yes, I have little respite. Choosing to relax, does not enable it now. Zooming in, or out, I see the best and worst, but the worst is too intolerable. I really like the last things you said! I will do that! Thanks!

@SaaraSabina As single mothers, I believe that it is crucial for us to access our super-hero-like higher-selves ... that live above all disorders ... without drowning in the material world's various forms of suffering... easier said than done?... of course...

@Soulbass So true, can blow ones limiting beliefs out the window! Also, it's you too... you are also your own psychic and healer ... when you can tap into that

@Zweistein I think @pluto's picture is perfect. The darkness in the middle scares most people off...they'd rather look at the fake world, painted just how they like to imagine it...