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Please don't give up! And in my opinion, stop feeding those belief about the eyes and pinneal gland and etc... It's not helping you. I'd wait until the mind slows down a bit! Maybe do things that u like to do, like the things we call addictions Do you usually drink coffee or drinks that have caffeine? Try to stop using them as they put in a more tense state. have you considered going to a psychiatrist? maybe he/she prescribes you some medicament When u have those strong sensation in your body (of anxiety or desperation) be aware of them and watch how they slow down, or conversely, how they get stronger. That may calm you as well I wish you good luck

@kag101 Thank you for this reply, i thought in going to a psychiatrist but i was feeling better, but still the trauma and insecurity is in my daily life. I am pretty much determined to go now As you john, i also thought it might have done some damage to my brain lol

hey, how are you doing? I recently read "The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead" by Timothy Leary, and it is very helpful for me. I recommend you to read it if it is difficult for you to escape insanity during a trip or after

lol nice, i was shocked

during the trip i was convinced everything was a show., exactly like the Truman show lol. and i was traumatized. I'm still recovering this post is nice and has nice advice (from @electroBeam) some comments of the post that i really liked: from @Nahm "Even more practically (and obnoxiously to ‘get through’)...I would literally slap yourself across the face a few times. Literally. Also have someone else do this. Seriously, yet to slap the seriousness right out of you. Then, I would make a list of everything you can think of which contributes to relaxation no longer being a thought, or having anything to do with thought - and fully realizing relaxation is feeling, and or is more ‘actual’ relative to thinking about relaxation. I would do all those things you can come up with. For starters, go get a massage. Maybe order a neck massager device thingy. Do deep breath stretches early in the morning, hold extended stretches while breathing into them, feeling the literal deeper & deeper release of the muscles. Stretch like that multiple times a day. " "Now there is no not make this about ‘the path’, awakening, enlightenment, etc. If you notice you did / are, then you have or are conceptualizing it. That is the one thing we don’t want to transpire. Feeling can not be thought, in spite of pretty much everyone pretending it can. Make this tangible, about things in your life that feel good to you, and that are relieving & relaxing. Anything from choosing a perspective which resonates, to checking yourself into a spa / retreat center. Maybe this is possible for you where you’re at in life now, maybe not quite possible now, but I hope & think you get the bigger point I’m trying to make."

Same here, a week ago i had a similar ugly schizophrenic experience with wet mushrooms. It was a disturbed paranoid mind. I am trying to go trough the experience, live life and surrender more. i have hope for my life. I do not permit myself to get stuck into that negative train of thoughts, not healthy. My mind sabotages too, but that's to be expected so I let it happen But honestly I thought I was going to stay like this forever and I even thought I had to kill myself because i wouldn't have choice... Strength and please take care of yourself, if it is necessary go to therapy or psychiatrist. everything is going to be fine pro tip: when my mind starts to build the horrifying negativity, i get angry. And it usually helps lol. Expressing emotions help me not to get caught in the doubt/overthinking

when i was meditating on not doing and succeded i felt totally free while interacting with people which i wouldn't feel comfortable normally. but i think it was a process of letting go of ideas rather of what you say (focusing on sensations till reach mental silence).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzgUkhViIFw microtonal music

In my own experience it is better to focus your energy on the activities you love (don't fear to do that, is the best you can do) and you will meet people in the way. They will go if you stop hanging with them. Maybe it is your ego telling you that if you continue hanging with them you will waste time and energy. If you follow your path they will have an example to do so themselves