Human Mint

Lack of application of things that you are naturally good at. It could be whatever you consider valuable. I mean, idk if it ruin your life the same way heroin will do but it's certanly a pain in the ass when you don't invest time in them for years and you want them later.

Lack of workethic

Lack of integrity

Red moment now Something red that i am still mastering: to put in words what i want in a social circle. I can do it, but i don't feel so confortable. There is a fear: waiting for other's aproval hits me hard. So the red thing to do would be to stick like a bitch with my thoughts on what i want. Example 1: i am in a group, i have an idea, proceed to share the idea like a leader. Look to peoples eyes when i speak, but sticking to my idea, because what's important in the moment is my idea. And ALSO: to listen to their opinion, genuily. But this last step can only be done after i express MY opinion without problem, efortless. If who I'm talking to doesn't listen to my idea, then I won't listen to theirs. If that's the case i need also say something like -"hey, you need to listen to me if you want me to listen to you, basic science. Let me repeat myself (and proceed to repeat the words)" Example 2: i am in a group or with a teacher, i have a difficulty learning something, my problem becomes priority number one to resolve. I ask the necessary questions relentlessly, and until i don't learn i am not ok. This is very foundational, you learn this in primary, but somehow i am so fucking rusty in this department. Lack of application. This does concern me because in the activities I attend i have troubles with it. Application step now: to walk in with this intent in mind. Without thinking it too much, but somehow well orchestrated TRIAL AND ERROR TRIAL AND ERROR TRIAL AND ERROR TRIAL AND ERROR TRIAL AND ERROR

An Orange thing "An Orange would perform much better when surrounded by like-minded people with the same/similar values and vision." Someone in the forum. I am realizing now that this is a grand recurring theme in my life right now. Meeting with people that are like-minded and to work together, but with a cold relationship; i.e Orange. I enjoy it so much, and there is a ton of growth in there.

It sounds like a 'don't judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree' kind of thing

I've found this video quite effective

I honestly do think that if you take some distance from your father you can actually alleviate a lot of the fear installed by this person, and thus focusing with more peace in what you truly value. And if your intention continues to be integrating yourself with your family, then why not talking about this with them?

Hi, if it is possible get the fuck over there lol. Of course it will parallise you

Grounding in my own ego sounds on what i should be focused on, it goes against a lot of my expectations, but i want to try it. Now the thing is to implement it somehow: i made a list of questions for the sake of real change and because i feel sick by all of this. -¿What would it be like to ground myself in my own ego? ¿What does that even mean? -¿How can i get really confortable withy my own ego? -¿What is preventing me from being myself fully and from understanding my own needs? -¿What would be a way of expressing my own real needs? -¿What do i have to let go of in order to be confortable with myself? -¿Why is it better to be selfish with my own needs?

I think that to kill social anxiety once and for all is necessary selflessness and love. My question would rather be: what particular actions one can take to be more selfess in regards to social interactions? Because selfishness brings social anxiety as one is always afraid that the self image may be threatened. Then being focused in the self image would be a form of selfishness, and it brings patologies such as social anxiety. So, again, what actions in your life lessens the obsesive or subconscious, wounded thinking on the self image? Just whatever thing that gets you out of your head basically...

So now that the intent is set, maybe i should be more open to failure, orwhat i consider failure

More simple even: work ethic/discipline unlocks playfulness/adventure. That's the counterintuitive aspect of life purpose.

Made me laugh the fact that you even learn from Winnie the Pooh

@Vivaldo Where are you from? There are certain videos that are not that deep and still super valuable, and most people will find it useful if they listened to it

I am failing in making a habit managable. Consistency is the goal, and what leads to consistency are simple things: Chosing a personal valuable activity to master. Small and simple actions every day. Investing focus and time in it. That's pretty much it. Engagement requires effort. I am failing in consistency because i run away from it for dumb reasons. Its quite an exercise to drop the "how to" preocupation. It is liberating.

Sharing and expecting nothing in return i guess, not even that they watch the video. Some people simply wont listen to it even if you share to them.

So far, doing well. The learning curve is quite slow honestly, but it's just the way it is for now, I know I can reach more engagement. I have plenty of room for improvement. A piece of mastery:

Weed opened my mind so much till it started to close it up. I really loved it the first times but then it had no meaningful impact no more. After that, i started to try out psychedelics, but really what i needed to do is experience more of sober day to day life, developing full comitment with it. I was in a sense expecting that substances solve something while doing nothing, and mad because things weren't unfolding as i wanted. I am pretty sensitive to it, i remember sometimes having intense visuals with the eyes closed (beautiful images changing every second) and i conected a lot of dots with my life. Also i think the fact that i was pretty young played a big role in the kind of experiences i had with it. But after to much usage of it it turns into a numbing instrument.

This converstation is pretty good

A quote from Leo's video, sort of what he say: "Learn to give yourself the love that society and your parents didn't"

Hey, I am sorry to hear that... how is your current lifestyle like? Don't even believe this because it is not true. If it were true why would you bother to post it in here or to see a doc?

Lol. It doesn't matter how hard one tries, you cannot answer this if the assumption is wrong

@Mason RiggleThen the mother decided to change her identity to a man, so the boy had two fathers