Princess Arabia

I still have to finish watching Leo's new video. I'm only half-way through. It's pretty good. He's crying a lot in the video. He seems very passionate about the topic. Whenever he cries, i feel like I wanna cry. His crying moves me. It's a different kind of emotion. It touches a part of me that doesn't get touched very often. I think only Leo's crying can bring that out. It's like the cream of the crop type emotion. Laughter is good, but the emotion that gets touched inside of me when I see Leo cry, surpasses laughter's impact. It doesn't feel good or bad. It's like an indescribable feeling. Only when he's talking about Reality, though. If I see him cry, if he falls off that scooter and bash his head, it won't mean the same thing. So it's not about Leo at this point, it's about what he's talking about that brings on this emotion when he cries. It's weird. I stare right into his eyes in these moments and all i see is rawness. Directness. What is. No interpretations. All I see is what is when I see him cry talking about Infinity. That's the impact Infinity has on me.

By the time Truth gets figured out, I'll be in the grave being Truth. I don't see what's so hard to realize there's no such thing as TRUTH. If it's being used as an expression, fine; but standing on it's own, there can never be "A TRUTH". How can there be in Infinity. Ok, Truth is NOTHING. Same thing. Everybody is talking about this Truth, but they don't know what it is. If you know what truth is then what is there to keep talking about. How can you be searching for something but you don't know what you're searching for. What if it's staring you in the face; you wouldn't even know it. If I'm searching for something, I at least must know what I'm searching for. If I'm searching for Truth, I must at least know what it is. Is it lost. It's not material, so I'm using the mind to search for truth and when I find it, the mind will tell me. So the mind must know what truth is already. I don't know, I'm just reasoning this stuff out. I am trying to make sense of all this stuff so don't take what I'm saying literally. It's the mind talking.....i think.... I don't want to sound Absolute like I'm dead on and know what I'm talking about. These are just thoughts coming out. This right here looks like truth to me. These writings, these words, this here what's happening right now as I'm typing. This seems like truth. Maybe define what type of truth. What Reality is, what is the Ultimate Truth what is really going on behind the scenes, I don't know. What kind of truth, what are you looking for. To me, truth is what is happening. If that's not truth then what is Truth.

You're the issue. The issue is dead without you. You've made it an issue. Go check out dating websites for the elderly. Maybe they'll give you some motivation and inspire you when you see how they're living it up.

The world/earth/reality/life/existence seems balanced, right? Not in the sense of people and their bullshit with wars and fighting murders, or hurricanes and earthquakes and tsunamis etcetc, just in the sense of the sun doesn't turn cold, the moon doesn't turn into an orange, the sky doesn't flip upside down where the ground is above and the sky is below, you don't see a bird with an elephant trunk or a stone doesn't start walking. Shit like that. Weird stuff like born with two heads and no hands or two sexual organs exists, and with two different color eyes, and things I've never even heard about, but the above-mentioned things I'm sure won't happen like the sun turning into an ice bath and the moon into a pigeon. Get the drift? Now, what makes you think you can word yourself into balance. What makes you think you can put on paper using thoughts to fit yourself into existence how it already is. Do you think you can strategies your way to fit into life. To technique your way into what your mind thinks it needs to balance out the equation. Do you see people falling over left and right and busses flying up to the clouds out of control, or someone's head just bursting into 1000 pieces into thin air and splattering the neighbor's lawn. No, everything is in tact. We can't talk our way into how this is going to make that and how that is going to turn into this. Yes, tell me how to bake a cake, give me the recipe, but do you really think you figured out how this recipe made this cake. How flour and eggs turned into cake. How milk and sugar added will become pound cake with some butter added. No. You didn't figure out this shit. Tell me the logistics. Tell me the science of it all. Tell me how you made your hand move. Yes, ask questions, ask advice, teach, coach, write books, lecture, tell me how meditation works, tell me what to do to wake up, recommend stuff, do all those things, but do you really think you know anything. Do you really think you can tell anybody anything. Do you think all you're saying is you figuring shit out to pass on to teach anyone anything and that you did all that by yourself just because you think you learnt how to read and write and some intellectual knowledge. Do you really think you're telling anybody anything they don't already know. No one can learn anything they don't already know. It's impossible. I'm not saying they consciously know it or are aware that they know it, but it's because it was already "embedded" in the CODE. Already within the "blueprint", so-to-speak of life. When you teach me how to bake a cake and I understand what you've taught me, for example, it's because that was already embedded within the system. The process that seemed to happened for me to understand that didn't really happen. It only seemed like a process. It was instant. There wasn't really any teaching or learning going on. Just a bunch of words uttering and a person who thinks they're listening and comprehending on their own, and now they believe they understood all on their own and now they're able to bake that cake because they're a genius or they're capable. No, that's just a front. A fucking play, a pretense. Life is a pretense. There's nothing or nobody doing anything. Do you think this is some non-dual bullshit. Think again. Matter of fact, don't even think because you can't even tell me how you're thinking. You can't tell me the process of how you're able to think, but you want to tell me your thoughts. Yes, tell me, but don't for once think that you're telling me anything i don't already know. I already know everything and you know nothing. You already know everything and I know nothing. That's the fucking paradox. There's nothing anybody is saying, teaching, advising or lecturing about that the other don't already know. No one knows anything but yet everyone knows everything. IT'S ALL FUCKING ONE DOING, BEING, BECOMING IT ALL. It's total. I will continue to do and be whatever I will do and be, and so will you. Life goes on, but swallow that pride and don't think there's anything intelligent or smart about you. YOU'RE NOTHING AND A NOBODY. THAT'S TRUTH. You're but an empty shell and these words mean nothing.

Do you think all those babies running around in the hood with all those baby daddies locked up for child support and all those cavemen back in the day screwing those hot cave women who couldn't even read and write and all those swingers clubs with people screwing in the back room and those back alley sexual escapades and my momma and poppa thought about strategies to get it going on and feed that horny body when it wanted to jack it up at any age. Stop living in your head and, like NIKE said, "Just Do It". The only strategy and technique you need to figure out is how to flip her upside the head and which poop-a-lick position she likes. Welcome to the forum; you're gonna love it here.

Leo's Palace is corrupted.😛

I looked inward and found NOTHING.

I don't get it. This is planet Earth. We are here living lives. We get up go to work pay our bills, go to school, learn trades and skills, communicate, hang out, go to bars, have sex, do pick-up, put on make-up, eat dinner, sleep, buy clothes, go on forums, watch TV and movies, talk to the neighbors, worry about everything, be addicted to everything and fear everything. OK, those are just ordinary mundane things that we do on a day-to-day basis along with other stuff. Now, the question is, with all this Spirituality stuff, opening to the cosmos, recognizing the true self, staying present, be in the now, doing psychedelics, seeking truth, learning about consciousness, reality, God, etcrtcetc, where is it leading you. (don't get me wrong I love this stuff too and i will keep doing it, but for it's own sake like I love to cook and eat and decorate). I'm not asking rhetorically, I'm asking for literal answers. What are you trying to accomplish, seriously. I stated mine, because I love it for it's own sake but not trying to get anywhere other than for it's effects. Just like cooking, the effects from that is doing art and turning something into something else and being creative and seeing how a potato turns into potato hash. Etc. I still have to work to buy the potatoes and stove and then I shit it out and pee out the water I drank. Meditation might make me calmer for the day and sitting in silence might feel good in the moment. But for the end result, what is it. Where am I going, what am I becoming in the long run and to end up where. I still am on planet earth doing worldly things and on this forum typing words everyday and out in nature enjoying the sun. But what then, I'm going to get old and die just like all of you so where are you all trying to get to if it's not to get old and die and end up in the grave. If that's not going to happen and I'm just imagining all this and dreaming all this and nothing is real and there's just what's happening and appearing, where am I going still. Where are you going and what will you get from all your spiritual endeavors in the long run. That's the question.

It'll pass, give it time. I suggest not trying to feel better. Allow for the feelings to be there. Take it one day at a time. Hour by hour, minute by minute. I promise you, it will pass easier if you don't try to do anything about the feelings that come up. The same way you enjoy happiness is the same way you dislike sadness. Other side of the coin. Treat both as phenomena and sensations that passes. It hurts and doesn't feel good now; but I promise, it will pass.

There is a you, and there is a mind? So according to this statement, mind isn't all there is. I'm not trying to nit pick, but I also learn from people's post to gather information i use to formulate my own ideas because I believe everybody is a piece of the puzzle. This doesn't compute. You're suggesting there's a you and there's a mind so which one is it. All is mind or is there a person and also a mind?

Never_give_up.

There's nothing to deal with. Do we go around asking how to deal with bums, with smart people, with confident people, with whatever.....only stupid people. Why are the stupid such a problem. They're only stupid because you say they're stupid, then you ask how to deal with your own categorization of people. It's lens, btw and practice.

Searching for happiness means you're suffering and unhappy. Trying to hold on to happiness is insanity.

I didn't see it in you, I saw it in the statements you wrote. Don't be too concerned about it, it's passed and it's the dwelling on it that'll be the problem, not the actual situation itself that's passing.

After awhile life will start to teach you things if you're willing to listen and observe. Nice to see this was revealed during a shroom trip, for me it was my own happiness experiences and the realization after the fact what was hidden underneath that that I couldn't see at the time but in retrospect. Just about every one of those happiness experiences because I only felt the mental pain because the happiness was gone. If I didn't know what happiness felt like neither would I with pain. It would just be there without a label and I wouldn't suffer because of it because I wouldn't know the difference. It would just be a felt sensation with no thought of i'm suffering attached.

Nice!! That is a good one.

Ok

There's also pain in happiness. That's what lots fail to see. If what you've said is true, and I somewhat agree (I see it as independent on it own, but nevertheless), then it's opposite must also be the case where there is suffering in joy, yes when it stops and it becomes a loss.

I know I can be a nuisance to the egos that just wants to be stroke. I charge for that. Here I keep it real. If you think this is the fake me, no in real life I'm faking to seem real. That's authenticity and recognizing truth within an illusory world of fakeness. I feel so bad for those trying to be authentic and true in the world of impermanence, trickeries, corruption and egos trying to stay alive. Don't you realize you're fighting an illusion. The ego wants to be accepted so badly it will trick itself into believing it's real. I don't even have to pretend. I just be myself. It's automatic. It's a response. It's not on purpose. I'm as real as it gets when I'm being fake. The ego ain't real it's fake. So we're just being authentically fake. All this stuff doesn't phase me. I'm through with all this pretending in life unless it's beneficial and I'm turning something into something else. I'm not stuck on authenticity. There's nothing authentic about you. Nothing authentic about anything. We just follow shit blindly without really thinking it through. All one has to be is observant and take themselves out the picture and realize life isn't personal.

Living in the past are we. Let's stick to the here and now, please.

No worries. I could feel the love a mile away. It's just you didn't know how to manage it. Like I said in my journal, we need love management classes, not anger management. Ok enough and let's get back to topic before Mr. Hell breaks loose.

I was on topic. I even quoted your comments. Geesh, you wreak of trying to control people. Ruining the thread for you is saying things you don't want to hear.

No. We're great. Always.

Maybe I've been under a rock, but I haven't see that many threads about it. I know your number is an exaggeration but still. You did just that by not only responding to the previous hell thread but by starting your own. The irony. This thread is not about heaven, it's about the absence of it. It's also about hell. You have done the very thing you'd like to eradicate.

Jesus, hell just got recontexualized. Hell just felt like heaven reading this. Hehe.