Princess Arabia

When I use the word trauma, it sounds harsh and the ego doesn't like to hear that. It knows what it's doing and is in control. Most of the questions asked here on the forum seeking advice is trauma-based. I'll give examples: How can I become more confident. I lack motivation, how can I become more motivated. How can I do approaching better, how can I make them like me, how can I not feel rejected, how can I attract more women to me, etcetc. Why are these things desires. Because of a sense of lack, why do we have a sense of lack because we have been taught otherwise and we believe it. The sense of self will latch on to anything that can make it FEEL better BECAUSE IT FEELS TRAUMATIZED. It doesn't recognize it as trauma because it feels so normal. The only reason why people who recognize trauma to be so is because it's feels different from the rest. It got developed at a later stage. The trauma I'm talking about is from when the fucking baby left the mother's womb. Why is it trauma to ask for advice on motivation? Well, why does one feel unmotivated to begin with. I'm talking about questions about the self or person not random questions like where does rain come from. We don't feel normal and think something is wrong because we don't feel confident or motivated. No rule book suggests those feelings need to be present. It's the trauma that surfaced that makes one thinks they need to fix their lack of confidence or lack of motivation. If one wasn't traumatized, lack of confidence wouldn't be a disturbance. Do you ask for advice when the body feels hungry or thirsty. Do you ask for advice when you feel in love or loved or feel good about something. There are no right or wrongs or no good or bad but what you think about it and how it's perceived. We don't perceive the above mentioned positive things as needing fixing but we see the confidence and motivation thing as needing fixing because we've been traumatized into believing we must succeed or keep doing in order to feel loved, important, needed, etcetc. That's traumatizing. Pressure is traumatizing. Keeping up with standards is pressure. I'll stop here because I can write a book on this.

Just because people are functioning doesn't mean they're not traumatized. There are functioning alcoholics and druggies everywhere. The trauma I speak of is so widespread, and infectious it goes unnoticed to the point of normality. How can it be detected when just about everyone is infected. We all think it's normal to feel fear, to feel anxious and depressed, to can't sleep, to feel jealousy and envy, to want revenge, to have prejudices and racists thoughts, to feel hate and to want to hurt others. I could write a book. These are the things I speak of, I try to clarify in my writings and in this case i said I wasn't referring to the normal trauma felt from childhood or bullying stuff like that, just from identifying as a human being is traumatizing and what comes with that. It has been normalized but the effects still linger throughout generations and generations. All you have to do is look around you. You will miss it for normalizing trauma and say it's just life or that's normal but it isn't. There's nothing normal about suffering. We did that out of ignorance and as a coping mechanism and made up stories about it saying it's God's will and we awaken from suffering. First of all we've identified with it because we've identified with everything that arises and claimed everything as ours and that's the essence and the cause of the trauma. We can't even see the perfection of life because we're viewing it through traumatized lens. Go read Leo's latest blog post #124 about not a single bad or wrong thing has ever happened in the Universe, that's how.....and I would replace selfish with......that's how traumatized we are.

There will never be a time where anyone can rightfully say they've found Truth or found God. Neither exists on it's own and are total concepts. What is this God you speak of, everything right. How can you find everything. Tell me without a story wrapped up in a pretty piece of paper around it like God forgot itself to remember itself or whatever story we've concocted up about all there is. God isn't lost, what is there to find. Truth is another word for God so that's self-explanatory. Sometimes, like I've said before, this seems strangely weird because I can't see how this is so hard to realize. I just can't get beyond that. Maybe I'm missing something. I try to see what it is I'm missing but I can't seem to find it. The only thing that seems to be lost is what I'm missing. If there is no separation, God is all there is, time and space are illusory, life is a dream and we're hallucinating reality, where is the search for Truth or God to lead to. Is God somewhere hiding, is truth somewhere else. Where, Mars, Pluto. After all these years why are we still searching for Truth. Oh my, go away Truth. You don't seem to wanna be found. I thought Truth and God were the same thing and I thought God was everything. Take this equation to kindergarten and I bet they solve the puzzle in 2 secs.

What are you talking about. What will be left for the mind to do. It needs to feel worthwhile and needs to pursue. It will never find what it's looking for because it's what's looking, but that doesn't matter as long as it's looking for something. There's nothing that can be done about it either until the seeking tires itself out or it just dies. It's called the pursuit of God by God. How can one stop that. God can't even stop it because that implies separation. God isn't separate from itself only appears to be, so in that way it's not really pursuing anything it's just an appearance of such. IOW, it doesn't matter if there's an apparent pursuit or not because it's pursuit pursuing which is also God. If God is everything and there is no separation, then what are we pursuing, like you said, but our own tails. Reality is a strange loop, no.

Because Tom doesn't make her feel like Harry does in those moments. She might want a Tom when she feels like feeling something else.

What is freedom. Freedom is terrifying, it's not anything conceivable or perceivable. It cannot be wanted, it cannot be known, it cannot be desired because those are conditions placed upon it. The moment one says they want freedom they have put themselves into enslavement. The search for freedom is what hides freedom. The moment one seeks liberation is the moment one has imprisoned themselves. Do you want to appear as someone enslaved and imprisoned. Do you want to appear as someone unhappy, miserable, sad, lonely and suffering. Probably not. That's freedom. You wanting to be happy is a condition, how is that free. It's like fucking handcuffs. We have glorified the handcuff called happiness and now we have chained ourselves to it and we seek it and search for it day in and day out. Would you search for your car if it's not missing. The search for happiness, freedom and liberation from any emotion is what hides the very thing one searches for. This is not a suggestion to stop, because there's actually no one doing that. It's energetic and until that energetic whatever it's called dissolves or falls away, it will continue to seek for relief. Phew, well that was exhausting. It can be felt but only when it falls away, not while it's there. It will feel like an orgasm, like tension that was built up being released.

The joke's also on me because I'm expecting anything to be different than what it is. It's the perfect fucking hide and seek game that's being played. It's so in plain sight and direct it appears hidden. Just about everything that appears hides the fact that this is already whole and complete. It's amazing how it can appear to create seeming effects and appear as something outside of itself. It is doing that, it is that, and it is the effects. Look at all the depictions captured to look like infinity and you can see how it seems to create an effect from itself. Same thing here. It's all effects from the one or all there is. What's visible are the effects out of nothing. It's beautiful and chilling at the same time. Not knowing what effects will arise and what will it reveal itself to be. It's only beautiful to the one that sees ugliness, the one that labels. I don't see beauty anymore, I just see effects which I may call beautiful or not.

Hehe, definitely need silence for that.

It cannot be spoken of but it can speak.

lol. You're tripping. Where's the post about love. C'mon we're waiting.

Yes, the silence OP is speaking of is sound. What I'm speaking of is nothing.

The stats speak for themselves. Just look across the world and see what people worship based on their geographic location. All the beliefs and world views and practices. All instilled, programmed and conditioned. Not because they thought it through because there's nothing to think through. If they really thought it through, they would probably realize there's nothing and nobody to worship in the first place.

Lol

Oh God. Silence is already the case. It's called nothing/nothingness/no-thing/emptiness/stillness/aliveness/boundlessness/fulfillment/freedom/Absolute/God/liberation/unconditional love......you call it what you want. One cannot hear it because everything is it. The silence you speak of arises from it. There is nothing but it. What you are listening to and what you call silence is a replica of it. All you hear and see is silence appearing as noise. Silence cannot be heard or known or listened to because all there is is that.

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What are you ignoring. You can only ignore something you believe exist.

Notice how you feel when I speak about certain things. Notice the resistance. Notice how the one that speaks certain things is the one expected to uphold the law. Anybody else can speak their opinions, get things wrong, speak nonsense, speak their mind, but as soon as the speaker ousts ones existence notice the response and the reaction. If you know you exist as a person or whatever you exist as, why does it matter what anyone has to say about it. Notice in this journal section, it's mostly personal stories or documentations or random thoughts and ideas or people trying to accomplish something - for the most part. Are they right in everything they post, are they wrong, should they write something else, should they not post something, are they being misleading, are they being delusional. Why don't you care as much about their thoughts and musings and want them to change what they're saying. Is it because it's not threatening. Why is this 'no one' stuff so threatening. Why come up with some story about how dangerous it is. Just check into yourself and try to figure out why does it bother you so much. Maybe you won't find anything there but more stories and that's too painful to look at. Strip yourself of everything you know yourself to be and nothing is left. Where are you then.

Now I know nothing about spiritual matters and know nothing about what's going on spiritually and what the construction constructed for itself to uphold. Yes, you're right, and so does a baby. A baby that's closer to the rawness of life than you and your knowledge about life can ever be. Don't forget the cat. Of course, it's all apparent, but still.

Yeah, I would too. You missed the whole point. Suzie can do anything with whomever, does she secretly love it or desire it or not, is the question. I said nothing about a woman telling a man anything.

Exactly, that's what I'm doing writing poetry. Isn't poetry beautiful. It's all poetry, my dear. The sun still shines no matter what's written here. The sun won't care what nonsense is being written. It still shines. Only the human that has an agenda, biases and a timeline filled with stories about life will care about what's being said. Otherwise it wouldn't care less like the sun. If you think I'm supposed to make sense then you're the one that doesn't, and is living in a fantasy land. Trying to make sense of what's spontaneously appearing, what doesn't have a past and a future, is boundless, free and doesn't need to make sense unto itself is utter insanity and is itself delusional. So I'll continue to write my poetry and be free to not make any sense whatsoever while you stay over there in your world of mystique and delusion trying to make sense and putting your delusional pieces together to fit into your piece of the puzzle, A puzzle that only exist in your delusional mind of "I'm here and the world is over there" mentality and i must make sense of it or else I will go mad. Good luck and chime in sometime to tell me how that's going.

The world is traumatized. We've all been traumatized by society, I'm not even referring to the obviously traumatized ones and the ones that say they are dealing with childhood trauma and go to therapy and so on and so forth. I'm talking about like everyone on some level. EVERYONE. Even the monks in a cave felt traumatized before that that's why they decided to get away. That's why silence is so appealing to the seeker because it's a refuge from the ongoing traumatization. It meditates everyday so as to keep it's sanity and to ground itself back from the trauma. It seeks refuge in gurus and spirituality. These gurus and leaders seeks theirs in their followers. It's a loop. Nothing wrong or bad - just saying - life is traumatizing for everyone....until it's not. Until the end of the individual however that comes about. Individual/person/human = trauma. It cannot be any other way. The trauma can only be minimized or lessened but never can it be totally eliminated. IT IS A FUNCTION OF THAT ENERGY and no one is doing that and that's why no one can undo it.

What most people forget to add when talking about what women like is that it all depends on whose doing the what. She might want to be fucked like a whatever with Harry but not by Tom. Ya dig.

You have to get the women who are into this stuff and it varies. I think the men more secretly desire (whatever that may be), but women will usually tell you upfront or let it be known as long as they feel comfortable enough with the person to. The choking is a bit extreme even though it's a desire for some, mildly of course and within limits. As far as cuffing, whips and chains and spanking, that's on a personal bases and can only be known to be what someone likes by getting to know them and communicated. Most people probably don't mind a little bit of dirty talk and doing freaky things as in what Emerald described, but the harsher stuff would come in after getting to know and to see if that's what they're into. You have to get to know the person on a personal level or join some kind of club; something like that that only caters to those things and that kind of lifestyle.

I never said that was all women and, of course, all women are different. It's only vulgar to you because of how you view women and your ideas about how you think women should be. If that was a man that liked that, it wouldn't be deemed as vulgar just male fantasy. Mind you, I'm not like that and i don't personally find those things appealing or a turn on, but some females do, enough to go searching for that lifestyle from men who are willing to give it to them and treat them that way in bed. I try to open people's minds up about certain things in life, that's all. I see so many assumptions being made and close-mindedness about people and the world and sometimes I just feel like opening them up a bit. I'm gladly receptive for when I'm being shown more than what my mind can conceive of and other ways of seeing the world so I don't get caught off guard or hit with too many surprises about life.

That's not how things are over here or over anywhere else in particular. It can be anywhere. Even in your own neighborhood. You don't know what goes on behind closed doors. Just as you have fantasies in your head to do things that isn't the norm in your society and dream of being a certain way other than what's expected of you as your culture expects, there are people actually doing things not expected of them and that's not within the culture's norm - doing it behind closed doors.