Princess Arabia

I have a strange and weird theory. It's not what we're used to hearing but I'll lay it on you just the same. Not saying it's the case but it popped into my head, and I just wanted to write about it. It's insane but here goes. God is second order. God is everything but that everything is only what's manifested. What's appearing. What is seen, experienced, thought about, felt, imagined and so on and so forth. God is what the me is. The individual, the I AM, the dream, imagination, concepts, ideas, thoughts, everything that we know. Words, language, structures, stories, everything....but it isn't nothing. God isn't no-thing. It's not infinite. It's limited. It's born out of nothing. Nothing is first order. Nothing is the Nothing-head. Nothing is prior to God but nothing is prior to nothing. God is what's experiencing. God is what's talking, being, walking, running, dancing, smiling, yawning, peeing, shitting, typing, learning, teaching, all the verbs. God is issing out of nothing. God is the dream. God is something. It is. Nothing is no-thing. It is not. It is absence. God is presence. God is not truth. Nothing is. God is lost. God is thinking. Thinking it's real. God is a mind but that mind doesn't exist. It's the dream. The dream of life. It's existence. It exist. It stands out. Nothing doesn't stand out. Nothing is 'not happening' God is happening.. I am God, and I am exists. I am stands out. I Am is manifested. I am, me, the individual is God, but that's not real. God isn't real. God is fiction. God is illusion. God is Maya. God is limited. Nothing is nothing. Nothing is not everything. God is. Nothing is happening but God appears and what appears is limited. Nothing is nothing but it's a something that is being God which is every-thing. The Absolute is a thing. It's every-thing. It isn't total. It's totally everything but nothing is totally absolutely no-thing, which is what this is. The Absolute is absolutely limited to being everything but nothing is limitless. The mind is not there. Where is it. It's God, it's nothing being a mind so therefore it's limited. Infinitely limited. Infinity is limited. Limited to being infinite. That's a limitation. For infinity to be totally infinite it cannot be infinite. That's a label, a category. Can infinity be totally and absolutely be finite. No. It's infinite and cannot be any other way. That's a limitation. There you have it. My independent thesis of reality and my absolute crazy theory about God, infinity, the absolute, existence and nothingness. Now I will screw my head back together and think of something else crazy to write about. Hope you enjoyed reading that fantastical theory of everything and nothing.

We seek truth, but truth isn't lost. There's no space between us and truth. Truth is direct. Immediate. It is not in front or close. It is not out there. Truth is what is. If you feel you're a person, that's truth. If you seek enlightenment, that's truth. If you seek happiness, that's truth. If you run from pain, that's truth. If you seek truth, that's truth. If you lie, that's truth. If you're rich, that's truth. If you're poor, that's truth. If you're horny, envious, hateful, loving.......it's all truth. If you agree with this post, that's truth, disagree, that's truth. Truth is what's happening. Show me what's not happening.

I'm doing this to make me happy. I want to achieve such and such so I can be happy. I want to have sex to feel good. I don't want to feel lonely. I want to feel loved. I need a partner to satisfy me. I'm suffering. I want to make more money. I feel like i'm not good enough. How can I be more happy. What would make me happier. How can I achieve happiness. I need less to make me happy. I want more to feel happy. Why aren't I happy. Happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, joy, joy, joy, joy, joy, joy, joy, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss, bliss. What about sadness. What about sorrow. What about despair and hopelessness. What about these other emotions. Don't we talk about integration. We say we're all about truth. These are also truths. Why abandon them. Why the bias. Why only seek happiness and leave sadness behind. I want to feel sad. I want to feel hopeless. I want to feel despair and horror. Why not say these things too. Why leave them out. Can't have one without the other. We seek truth but only what serves us. Sadness is also an emotion, yet we seek happiness and don't want to feel sadness. I want truth, we say, yet when we feel sad, we don't like it. We feel happy and we're ecstatic. Do you want truth or do you want what makes you feel good. Suffering is truth. Sadness is truth. Why run from it. Why try to escape it. You don't want truth, you can't handle truth.

Me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me. self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self,self. Aren't you sick of it yet. Self this and self that. My,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,my,myself. I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,i,i,i,i,i,i,i,i,i. Me, Myself and I.

As long as I'm looking at a picture, I can do it easily; but from my head, it's a bit more challenging. I googled that hand and drew it from there. I draw best when I'm looking at the thing I'm drawing. Your profile Pic is a good one to draw.

This is some scary shit. I know we say direct experience and all but how is it direct experience when my eyes are seeing the same thing another head with different eyes is seeing. I hear a bang and you hear the same bang with different ears. I know I keep coming back to this revelation but I haven't settled the score yet. Still trying to figure it out and how come nobody else talks about this. Am I missing something here. Two different people with two different noses, smell that burning toast. I look out the window and see the neighbor's dog and my cat sees the same dog with her cat eyes coming from her cat head. I should make a thread about this because I'm really curious about it and since I know no one will respond to this post and explain how that's possible. The only answer to it I see (no pun intended) is the non-duality term "seeing is just happening but by no one". If this is the case, then this is proof that there's no one in these bodies and that we're not really personally experiencing anything and that the senses are not personal. It's just seeing happening. ,How is John seeing this post and Mary also seeing this post with two different heads and two different sets of eyes. If John says those are his eyes and Mary says those are her eyes, then how are they seeing the same things from different heads. At a rally with thousands of people and one speaker, thousands of different sets of eyes see the same speaker and hear the same speaker with different eyes and ears. The sense of sight is active then and the hearing sense for everyone in that vicinity providing those senses are working properly but the sense of touch isn't because if I touch the person's hand that's beside me at the rally, no one else feels that hand but me, but if I see a cat on the roof with my sense of sight, others can also see the same cat. If I'm tasting ice-cream, no one else can taste the ice cream i'm eating, so how is it that it's only the sense of sight and hearing that is shared simultaneously with others.

My power hand. Fight the power. Drawn by me 10yrs ago.

My bookworm artistry. Google bookworm, you'll see it. Drew this around 10yrs ago with a pencil.

Me when I used to model

Do you see how this stuff just seems to go round and round and round; no end in sight. All explanations are infinite, all understandings, queries, questions, answers, insights, the need to know, all of it just keeps on going.....nowhere.

You are imagining reality simply because you are imagining you. Imagination is like a sense. So it's a sense of self that's not there. It's not that you are imagining anything,you are imagination itself, imagining a person there. Now everything that's sensed, that's imagination. If that sense was to fall away, it would just simply be whays happening, but to no one.

My two favorite silly lines in the video "How's selling dick pills raising your consciousness" and "sitting around with your stupid friends." Most intense was "because you are free of your own bullshit" about annihilation of the self. The last 5-10 mins made a sista cry. I'm in love with reality to the point where sometimes it turns to hate, but I'm aware that that hate is frustration love and it doesn't last long. I realized a lot of what was said. Beautiful.

According to this video, I'm doing deep spiritual work without even realizing it.

I love it. Brings a lot of meat to the forum.

The enjoyment is in the pain and the pain in the enjoyment. Can't separate the two. Momma went through a lot of pain to have you but the enjoyment was in the delivery. Lots of pain involved in birthing, the joys are felt in the rewards.

Take your time with James, please. Show some love. He's on a roll, don't mess his groove up. Hehe.

You're right, nothing mentioned about God realization. Thanks for the correction.

One of your best, Leo. I totally enjoyed this one. Still have to watch the last 50mins, though. You also said a lot of things I was surprised to hear you say. Agreeably so.

You have a lot of threads going at once. You're going through a phase and will be gone for a while pretty soon, happens every time. Probably doing psychedelics and getting insights upon insights. Much love.

Wasn't it you just had a thread saying God Realization is an illusion. My my, how fast we change our beliefs.

I've spoken of this before in my journal. I've said the individual seeks it's own absence. Let me see if I can find it; if that's what you're actually referring to. It's in the last paragraph.

That's what they led you to believe. How you act in the marriage is but it's not as far as the structure goes. Hit your wife and see if it's a private matter. Divorce and see if it's a private matter. Abuse your kids and see if it's a private matter. Want to change your name and see if it's a private matter.. Dint have a marriage certificate and see if it's a private matter.

Should be a good one. Have to be well rested for this one. You're sneaking them in, aren't you. Surprise, surprise. Miss seeing that lovely bald head and typing my infamous comment. 🥰

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