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Only to each other and within the dream. There's no inherent value in anything because everything is everything and there's no separation. It's all the same. Of course, I value things and things are relatively valuable; not denying that, but it means nothing and is all empty. A gold watch is no more valuable or less valuable than dog shit. Give me the gold watch though as it seems to be more valuable and I don't care what is, only what things seem to be. Might as well pretend. Nothing else to do. Its infinite. Infinitely valueless or valuably finite. Don't ask.

I see you've been watching what I used to watch.

Thanks for sharing. Will check it out. I used to love watching Leo on his couch with his plants and crumpled white shirt with his 666 logo and digging in his nose with his all gum smiles looking at you telling about his awakenings. I'll watch while I reminisce, been awhile.😘

I don't really get involved with suicidals anymore, especially in severe cases. I have seen through that too. I will be careful with what I say here on the topic because I don't want to offend anyone and who knows who's reading this. What I see is an energy transformation. Everything depends on the situation at hand. On the story behind it. Most of the times it just needs a release. Expression. Somewhere to go; it's compressed. When a person is really suicidal, they really don't talk about it. There's usually nothing to really say. Most suicidals want to live, they just don't know how. I can read or hear the story behind it and notice how they respond and tell how severe the issue is. Most times it's not and is just a way of expressing feelings and that alone may help with the situation in and of itself. When I say severe, I mean how severe the energy is compressed or contracted or how severe the feeling. If the story is mostly of comparison and comparing theirs to others and mostly about whose is more severe and who is suffering more and how no one knows what they're going through and mine is worse than yours and you just can't imaging the pain I'm going through and all that, that's the energy relieving itself. It was so compressed and had nowhere to go but to self-nihilate. Ever tried to open a jar. When you hit the bottom it released air within the bottle and makes it easier to open and when you open it, you hear the pressure releasing and it makes a pop. Something like that. No sense in trying to talk that person out of it or make suggestions because it's already doing it for itself or doing it on it's own by telling the stories. When there are no stories present and there are just feelings expressed, then it's a bit more in the infancy stage. I'll stop here and these are just my own analyses. Take everyone seriously and try to show compassion. I've seen how this can turn around once relieved and things turn out to be even better than before. They definitely don't need any non-dual teachings at this point or in these stages because non-duality cannot be applied and is not a reward system for someone to gain something from; if anything it's a loss.

Yes, this is exactly how it works. So on point. Energy at play. Energetic response at play. The feeling is the secret.

Nothing is more obvious to me that life is just going it's thing and that there's no one in control of anything. So obvious. More obvious than even my existence. More obvious than me knowing I'm alive. More obvious than my image in the mirror looking back at me.

I haven't seen the use of the word "suffering" this much since I got into Spirituality. Before spirituality I usually only heard the word when describing Jesus's crucifixion, maybe people with severed limbs, tortured animals or people that starved to death. On a few other occasions but never this much as I've seen in spiritual circles. Maybe I just see it used more because of the global use of the internet, but it's everywhere. Don't think a week even goes by on the forum where it's not mentioned and used in a comment, post or thread. Gosh, I think I suffer just from hearing the word. This energy is really going through a hard time. We have to glorify it to ease it's impact. Nothing worthwhile comes easy, we say. Yet without air we die and it's the easiest thing to get. It's available to everyone. All our bodily functions takes no effort on our part, unless we're sick, but we still insist on believing we should struggle for worthwhile things. The rain doesn't struggle to fall and the sun doesn't suffer when shining. We have been so deeply programmed and we will fight for the rights of those programming. It's not until we get exhausted and the suffering gets unbearable that we ease up a bit and say it was great to suffer because it brought me here. That may be true, but do you really think it's the suffering or that you just got tired of trying everything. Life has beaten you up to exhaustion. The energy that has carried you has worn out. Couldn't start up anymore. Needed a new engine. Maybe it's that most people just aren't exhausted enough. The ego knows how to cope and does it very well. I don't think things should come easy or we wouldn't know the value of appreciation and gratitude, but to suffer just to awaken to whatever is a bit much; especially extreme suffering. We've invented so many stories in life to cope with the fact that it's not personal and then we say suffering is good to wake us up. The human energy is the worst kind. The me energy. It's brutal and cruel to the one that it arises within. Don't know why it happens but it's brutal. It causes so much pain and suffering it turns us neurotic and insane. It needs to go away; far far away and never return. Even though the human isn't really, it sure feels like it. Then we say the feeling is the secret. Jesus, who invented all this stuff. It's genius. Only way to have a world. Only way to keep this going. My goodness, no wonder no one sees through this shit. Even those that have, there still remain remnants and they have to keep up with their practices or else the ego tightens up again. It's brutal. Go away. Oh sorry, it's the only way to reach God. Another Invention of the ego to deal with the pain. It's clever, very clever. I don't buy it, sorry. I think it's all inventions of the ego to cope. There's definitely an intelligence at play though. Working on that. I don't feel the way I do out the blue. Too many turn to Spirituality and even Religion because of suffering but Religion is more of a conformity. Group think. Tradition and programming and culture. There's a reason for that other than an inherent need to know what's true. I have to think and see things outside the box in order to come up with my own thing. Put the pieces together. I didn't search out this stuff, I stumbled across it. It found me, so-to-speak. I'm glad I did because I've found a goldmine even if it's just my personal gold mine and to reality it's nothing. I have a very fluid mind so things change all the time. I'm not stuck and attached to belief systems, so those change too. The only thing that doesn't change is what doesn't.

What Leo said in that clip in the Joe Roegan thread about how everything is nothing and how that explains everything or whatever he said about what explains everything , is why I've realized there's no one and how the me energy operates and functions. That explains just about everything. I am yet to find anything that disputes the no one theory. I'm aware I've turned it into a concept at times but that's what talking about something does. No one can actually practice not being a me and doing the work to not be a me anyway, so it doesn't really matter. They can only build a story around the no me concept plus there's no one actually doing that.

We're all looking for a release. Relief. Relieving of pain. A relief from ourselves. It's fucking tiring to that energy. For that energy. However it's phrased. As if it's not enough, we search for more stress, more circumstances and experiences to need relief from. Why? We'd rather do that than die.

Life is not such a mystery anymore. Reality is to me. More interesting. People have become so predictable and the same things keep happening only with different content. Can't find sex, have no money, I'm anxious or depressed. I've been traumatized. (Not mocking, just pointing out). I'm the first one to feel other's misery and feel compassion. I hate to see others suffer and feel emotional pain because I too have been there. I know the feeling. This is not about that. We can always expect drama, gossiping, confusion, anger, hatred, suicidal thoughts, envy, comparisons, malicious competitions (who is better than whom). Shootings, murder, rape, bad weather, catastrophes, political warfare.....i mean the same ole, same ole. New generation, same ole, same ole. It's like life is just going in a circle with different faces. Things calm down for a minute then something happens to stir the pot. Doesn't take long. I mean globally. The news never stops. Always something new but same essence. This is why I talk so much about Reality. Existence. Metaphysics. Non-duality. It's more interesting to me. Not in the sense of just conceptual but non-duality cannot be applied and nothing can be gained from and I don't talk about it outside of here much so it's my little cave of communicating with myself about it. As far as reality and existence goes, to me, there's a lot that can be talked about because real life situations can also be applied and integrated into it. I can turn any mundane thing into spiritual talk because it's hard to differentiate the two now because I see them as one of the same. There's not much work that needs to be done in this way for me other than with the mind and that goes everywhere with me and is forever present. So I'm constantly "doing the work", in an abstract manner. I can stop in the middle of anything and be anything. Meaning, I can be in one state in one sec and another in the next. It's all about states. I'm constantly going within. I'm also constantly looking at energetic patterns and seeing how myself and others reflect what I've been "taught" and see the "evidence". Just by observing life. I see Reality as a project (somewhat). In the way of a science project, not as something to study as much as to observe. Like a mermaid in a giant fish tank. I even observe my cat and her behaviors. I notice how present she constantly is and how her love is so unconditional but also conditional at the same time. I even notice the fucking wind.

Can't really explain "NOTHING". Hard for nothing to explain nothing. You're going to find a lot of different definitions and a lot of people disagreeing with the definitions of nothing precisely because they are nothing. Saying no-thing is even contradictory because "thing" implies something and is saying it is not a thing but something else. Tricky. I think it can be intuited, though.

Very nice. Glad you had this wonderful experience. Sounds like a life-changing experience that had positive impacts and was well worth the trip.

Yeah, because it's more juicy to talk about a pedophilic symbol than to talk about Reality being nothing. Who cares.

Now you want to read the comments because he says don't read the comments. Love it. The forbidden tastes better.

Honestly, you know what I really think. I think everybody has something deep down in them that KNOWS the truth about what reality really is. Not the constructed, conformed or programmed ego, but something deep down; whether within the body or out or this BEING we talk about or whatever. They just need to hear it in a way they love to hear it. Afterall, it's all about LOVE, ain't it. You say Leo says it in a more profound way that is convincing, that's also a clue. Notice how we agree and disagree then agree and have mixed feelings about what people say about reality and will disagree and agree with the same things interchangeably? Keep an eye out for that. Observe how it all depends on WHO says what and how we resonate with things and how the WHO is important and how complicated and profound it sounds. Sounds too simplistic, doesn't resonate, sounds magnificent, complicated, like a big explosion of truth and filled with profundities and mysterious insights and sounds like something coming from a genius with cherries on top - those are usually greeted with more resonance than a simple reality just is.

I think you do have a point in some of the things you're saying. Not your experiences because they are obviously the case, but your interpretations of them. However, what I think you fail to realize is that a lot of people have been traumatized, are unstable even though they function well in society. People's attractor-factor may not be of a "healthy" nature and they gravitate more towards behaviors that aren't necessarily good for them. When you generalize and group what you see into "just how women are", it tends to veil your way of seeing women in general and now you think all or most women are like that or even that you have to mend your ways in order to attract the dysfunction. Obviously, being attracted to serial killers and rapists and people who aren't normally considered "good for anyone" is dysfunctional and you seem to be complaining about how you're not a part of that dysfunction. If I thought that most men were only attracted to bitches bad women of low calibre and air heads, I wouldn't complain about men for that, I'd just keep it moving until I found someone who likes me for who I am and that I feel comfortable being myself around and i wouldn't group all men into that category.

A narcissist can be bad for a woman, doesn't make him a serial killer. I was responding to the serial killer part and mentioned rapists and "bad" men in those categories not just men who are emotionally bad for women. Women love to "fix" men or believe he'll change for her, so that's nothing new or finds excitement and allure in bad boys; far cry from serial killers and rapists. Also it goes both ways where men are constantly going for the 'bitch" because she's more challenging only to get annoyed with them after a while. Believe it or not, nice girls also finish last sometimes and initially. It's the looks that men gravitate more towards bitchy or not, a menace or not, a pain in the ass or not. It's just easier for us to be chosen because men are more visual creatures and first thing seen is one's appearance. Guys usually have to be more than just a body. Guys get bored with nice, quiet women too, with high morals. Why do you think OF and porn sells.

That clip of Leo (not sure what video it's from) speaks of some of the stuff I speak about. Reality being nothing, appearances is the hollow-point or whatever he's saying in the video. I can understand what he says now because of exposure and comparison and my own insights. When Leo says there's no one or it's all nothing and just appearances, he'll say in an intellectual way with fancy wording, when I say there's no one or nothing happening, i get the gas chamber. Hehe. @YimpaForum secretary, do you know what video that clip is from. Would like to watch the whole thing, (again).

Running off to get stuffed. Lol

Maybe if he had given her a dollar. Lol. Then she would have been the desperate one.

I use this section to express my thoughts and feelings and they are usually sporadic and spontaneous. I write with intention and with a specific topic for each post, but the words just come out as I go. Now, I also use it to express how I feel about some particular post I've seen on the forum that i would not necessarily voice on the particular thread for consideration purposes even though I'm still cognizant of what I post here in regards to that, as I'm aware it's still being read; by whom I don't know and is irrelevant. I try not to start conflicts, and I try to keep a lot more of my opinions to myself and am not as boisterous and open as I used to be here and have toned down my rhetoric a bit on the forum because some would take it too personally or I would be misunderstood because of my style of communication. I'm very open and speak matter-of-factly and sometimes without censors and with lots of passion and sometimes without thought of the other person's feelings and just with the intention of getting my own thoughts across. That's selfish and unnecessary, and a bit arrogant so I've learnt to tone that down a bit as it really doesn't serve any purposes other than to piss people off. I'm a bit thick-skinned and can usually handle criticisms as long as they're respectably done, so I tend to see others in the same light or I tend to not be aware of when I'm going overboard in that respect because of my tolerance level. I don't see things as personal attacks as much as I see attacks as coming from something personal. About them. So I try to see my own attacks as such. It's not easy to self-retrospect and can feel painful, that's why it's rarely done, but for my own sanity, peace and compassionate side, I try to do it often, to avoid those feelings of regret. This forum has taught me a lot in these aspects and i've also learnt a lot about myself and human behavior. It can be utilized as a place for learning if one is interested about expanding themselves and their knowledge about human behaviors and ways of communicating. I tend to use everything as a learning tool even if it means being vulnerable and exposing my own human bullsit.

Wow, serial killers must be in the thousands and millions and roaming the streets. Dude, check your logics and see they don't even match up or make sense. Just because you met one like this, doesn't make it the norm. Just because you've seen women go for gangsters and rapists and "bad" men, doesn't mean most do. You are one out of 8 fucking billion. Try to see how we see the world how we are and that we have a tendency to think the world is only how we see it. It's natural. Be one up on the show to recognize how it's all your perceptions and not how things actually are on the whole. There's a situation for every scenario but we'll tend to only see the ones we believe in because that's just how the brain works and how the illusion becomes objective. Understand this and you'll start to open the mind go see other perspectives and not get so caught up in your dream state. Not denying your experiences, just saying you're seeing them as truth and cannot see it any other way.

Spiritual people will tend to feel more empty inside after a while than the hedonists because there's so much one can do spiritually and the options aren't as much as in the regular world. The ego is constantly searching for more and it WILL become bored with it's practices and WILL get to a point where it doesn't see itself advancing like it thinks it should. It will start to blame others or thinks it has to go seek out more advanced teachings or sources for it's growth. It will hop around seeking , and it depends on the reasons for it's search, it will get back to the initial point of 'not good enough". "They" aren't giving me what I want. I've outgrown this and it moves on and on, practice more and more, take more and more, until it just starts to feel empty and void because nothing is working to accomplish it's never-ending goal of feeling fulfilled. In the hedonistic world, there are plenty of things to do and new inventions are always in play to satisfy the ego. Always something bigger and better to strive for and consume. They can also get to a point of boredom, but their choices are more varied and more people indulging, so it doesn't become as empty for a while. Society makes sure of that. Always some new news, invention and marketing strategies to accommodate the ego. Lots of emptiness and loneliness in this community because it's limited and most are searching for something that's already there but can't be seen because of the search. Temporarily, yes, but NEVER reaching anywhere permanent. If its something they really and truly enjoy, not so much because that's self-fulfilling and speaks for itself; but if it becomes a chore or something to get, that's more transitory and will leave them feeling more empty than when they started and start to develop a grudge for the community until it does a 360° and it becomes a cycle. NOTHING EVER ENDS BECAUSE NOTHING EVER TRULY STARTED.

Ok, my chef teacher. I'll try that and hope I get an A next time.😏😉😼😛😜

Nice. True test.