Princess Arabia

Being human is exhausting. Keeping up the charade is exhausting. It's so fucked up that even trying to let go is exhausting. Surrendering is exhausting. Trying not doing anything is exhausting 'cause you're still trying not to do anything.

Least you seem honest.

The only way to free the mind is to stop trying to awaken or to get enlightened. That's what's keeping it in bondage.

This explains everything. You don't want a relationship. You really don't even care if you have sex or not, that's just a bonus. You're attracted to the chase. The thrill of the ride. You get bored easily and love the whole "who will it be next" thing. She gave you her Instagram because she knew she was just a novelty to you and wouldn't see you again, plus it's a way to get more followers. You're playing the same game she's playing. You get a kick from the chase and the actual playing the game is exciting for you.....until it's not....and becomes overwhelming and tiring. Then you come on here, the dumping ground, to complain and explain to everybody why they're wrong.

Told you, as soon as I got off this thread and went on the forum, first post I saw/read was related to something i wrote today. I'm not joking with this shit. All one has to do is live life, observe and notice shit to notice shit. It's all you, baby. That's all folks. Next topic. I need to talk about food and recipes next.

Listen to all those stupid silly excuses people that ask for advice make for themselves. Yes, but. It's a fucking game. I've seen through this shit. They don't want advice, they don't need your stinkin' silly advice. They aren't looking to be told what to do, they are playing this silly fucking game of I am here and you are there. We are separate beings and I'll play stupid and ask stupid questions. What else is there to do. I'll act as if I'm a horny twenty year old looking to get laid and make you come up with silly answers to make me feel good about myself and I'll act as if I'm desperate and have you waste your precious little time on me, advising me because that's also me bullshitting myself and have nothing else to do in this finite infinite infinity. No one there but a bunch of questions and answers talking to itself. Yes...i get what you're saying, but...... But nothing, go jerk off to infinity and go play with yourself somewhere else.

Don't think I asked those rhetoric questions because I have doubts...or not. For a specific reason....or not. I don't believe or do believe, don't know or not know. Curious and not. Being led and not. One thing I've definitely realized without a doubt and can't be told otherwise is that whatever it is that exists is all there is. Don't know what it is, but there's nothing else. Everything else are effects. Reflections if you may, but I'm not comfortable with that word reflection. Doesn't matter, it's just a word. I bet you for every question I asked above, rhetorically or not, I will see something in the coming days strategically placed in my view to answer those questions. Not in a way to be definite answers but I will experience the symptoms of those questions. I will see things whether circumstances, experiences or situations reflecting the essence upon which those questions were built upon. Not sure if I said that right. Doesn't matter, I know what I'm trying to say. I can guarantee that much. Always been the case, why would it stop now. Why would I stop this game I play now. Why would the evidences of myself stop now. Jesus Christ, Jesus fucking Christ, all of my silly queries, all of my questionings, all of my musings and games and silly jokes are distractions. Distractions from nothing. Even saying they are distractions is a fucking game. Time doesn't really exist but I feel like my journey home is close. I feel like what I designed for myself is coming to an end. I feel like I'm about to solve the puzzle. I feel like I want to stop this joke. I feel like it has gone too far. I feel like this human thing has run it's course. I feel like I pushed it too far. I feel like it's too limited. I feel like it's about to explode. I feel like I need to start over. I feel like....like...like...nothing.

I would respond to that, but I would be banned.😉

Just because someone told me there is a God, doesn't mean I have to believe it. Just because I was told about God Realization, doesn't mean there's such a thing. Just because people believe in awakening and enlightenment, doesn't mean I have to. Doesn't mean I shouldn't either. I could go either way. Why do I go towards one way over the next. Is it because I was told. Are they just beliefs. Is it because I need it to be true. Is it a feeling. Do I intuit it. How do I know I can trust my intuition. How can I know I can believe in what I'm being told. How can I know that my verifications aren't illusions. How can I know that what I've come to realize is actually the case. They say I'm dreaming, hallucinating, there is no self, thoughts and feelings isn't who I am, but how can I tell if I'm not or won't be dreaming awakening and enlightenment; dreaming Realizing God. What does any of that even mean. I mean truly. Like really truly mean. Are they another set of beliefs. Almost like doctrines, buttered up to seem different from religious beliefs. Wrapped up in pretty wrapping paper to seem more important than believing in the 10 commandments and Jesus raising Nazareth from the dead. Why do YOU believe in God Realization. How do you know everything is God. Did God tell you this. Psychedelics told you. Who told you. Is it God telling itself everything is God. How can I tell anything. Yes, things seem a particular way but how can I tell anything without comparison. Anything I think I know is because I relate it to something else I know. What if I didn't know the previous thing, would I know the current thing. I think Religion is bullshit and think Spirituality makes more sense. Why is that. Can anything actually stand on it's own. If so, what. What exists independent of anything else. God? I thought God was everything. So, without anything there is no God? .......to be continued......

Things are just popping in and out of existence out of nowhere. You think the money in your bank account came from your job or a check or from you earning it. It came from nowhere. That man crossing the road in front of you came from nowhere. This post came outta nowhere. Shit's just appearing in and out of existence and coming from nowhere. That long lost cousin, went nowhere. That forum user that was on here earlier and is not on right now, is nowhere. Your hunger just appears outta nowhere. Your belly feeling full didn't happen because you ate, that fullness is new and isn't caused by anything. That girl that cheated on you isn't the same girl you met. You met no one. Ok, that's enough. Hehe.

Maybe OCD.

Why do you start so many threads in such a short space of time. I counted 10 threads currently in your name. Do you even marinate on the responses. Is this an obsession. Maybe start a journal to help with the recurring thoughts.

That would be epic. Would love to see that.

Hi there, can you see me!

In the way it is delivered. It ain't. I've seen lots of similarities. If you listen to Rose's Roses, some simple old lady recording from her kitchen and lots of Leo's older videos , they're pretty much saying the same things when it comes to reality. The wording is different but it's really the same thing except Leo calls the energy God and she says there's no awareness (which Leo just said recently) and consciousness.

Lol. This made me chuckle. Assessments were perfect, though.

Watching it now. I've seen it before like 5yrs ago but it rings differently to my ears now. It pretty much comes together with a lot of the stuff I've come to recognize to be the case.

Only to each other and within the dream. There's no inherent value in anything because everything is everything and there's no separation. It's all the same. Of course, I value things and things are relatively valuable; not denying that, but it means nothing and is all empty. A gold watch is no more valuable or less valuable than dog shit. Give me the gold watch though as it seems to be more valuable and I don't care what is, only what things seem to be. Might as well pretend. Nothing else to do. Its infinite. Infinitely valueless or valuably finite. Don't ask.

I see you've been watching what I used to watch.

Thanks for sharing. Will check it out. I used to love watching Leo on his couch with his plants and crumpled white shirt with his 666 logo and digging in his nose with his all gum smiles looking at you telling about his awakenings. I'll watch while I reminisce, been awhile.😘

I don't really get involved with suicidals anymore, especially in severe cases. I have seen through that too. I will be careful with what I say here on the topic because I don't want to offend anyone and who knows who's reading this. What I see is an energy transformation. Everything depends on the situation at hand. On the story behind it. Most of the times it just needs a release. Expression. Somewhere to go; it's compressed. When a person is really suicidal, they really don't talk about it. There's usually nothing to really say. Most suicidals want to live, they just don't know how. I can read or hear the story behind it and notice how they respond and tell how severe the issue is. Most times it's not and is just a way of expressing feelings and that alone may help with the situation in and of itself. When I say severe, I mean how severe the energy is compressed or contracted or how severe the feeling. If the story is mostly of comparison and comparing theirs to others and mostly about whose is more severe and who is suffering more and how no one knows what they're going through and mine is worse than yours and you just can't imaging the pain I'm going through and all that, that's the energy relieving itself. It was so compressed and had nowhere to go but to self-nihilate. Ever tried to open a jar. When you hit the bottom it released air within the bottle and makes it easier to open and when you open it, you hear the pressure releasing and it makes a pop. Something like that. No sense in trying to talk that person out of it or make suggestions because it's already doing it for itself or doing it on it's own by telling the stories. When there are no stories present and there are just feelings expressed, then it's a bit more in the infancy stage. I'll stop here and these are just my own analyses. Take everyone seriously and try to show compassion. I've seen how this can turn around once relieved and things turn out to be even better than before. They definitely don't need any non-dual teachings at this point or in these stages because non-duality cannot be applied and is not a reward system for someone to gain something from; if anything it's a loss.

Yes, this is exactly how it works. So on point. Energy at play. Energetic response at play. The feeling is the secret.

Nothing is more obvious to me that life is just going it's thing and that there's no one in control of anything. So obvious. More obvious than even my existence. More obvious than me knowing I'm alive. More obvious than my image in the mirror looking back at me.

I haven't seen the use of the word "suffering" this much since I got into Spirituality. Before spirituality I usually only heard the word when describing Jesus's crucifixion, maybe people with severed limbs, tortured animals or people that starved to death. On a few other occasions but never this much as I've seen in spiritual circles. Maybe I just see it used more because of the global use of the internet, but it's everywhere. Don't think a week even goes by on the forum where it's not mentioned and used in a comment, post or thread. Gosh, I think I suffer just from hearing the word. This energy is really going through a hard time. We have to glorify it to ease it's impact. Nothing worthwhile comes easy, we say. Yet without air we die and it's the easiest thing to get. It's available to everyone. All our bodily functions takes no effort on our part, unless we're sick, but we still insist on believing we should struggle for worthwhile things. The rain doesn't struggle to fall and the sun doesn't suffer when shining. We have been so deeply programmed and we will fight for the rights of those programming. It's not until we get exhausted and the suffering gets unbearable that we ease up a bit and say it was great to suffer because it brought me here. That may be true, but do you really think it's the suffering or that you just got tired of trying everything. Life has beaten you up to exhaustion. The energy that has carried you has worn out. Couldn't start up anymore. Needed a new engine. Maybe it's that most people just aren't exhausted enough. The ego knows how to cope and does it very well. I don't think things should come easy or we wouldn't know the value of appreciation and gratitude, but to suffer just to awaken to whatever is a bit much; especially extreme suffering. We've invented so many stories in life to cope with the fact that it's not personal and then we say suffering is good to wake us up. The human energy is the worst kind. The me energy. It's brutal and cruel to the one that it arises within. Don't know why it happens but it's brutal. It causes so much pain and suffering it turns us neurotic and insane. It needs to go away; far far away and never return. Even though the human isn't really, it sure feels like it. Then we say the feeling is the secret. Jesus, who invented all this stuff. It's genius. Only way to have a world. Only way to keep this going. My goodness, no wonder no one sees through this shit. Even those that have, there still remain remnants and they have to keep up with their practices or else the ego tightens up again. It's brutal. Go away. Oh sorry, it's the only way to reach God. Another Invention of the ego to deal with the pain. It's clever, very clever. I don't buy it, sorry. I think it's all inventions of the ego to cope. There's definitely an intelligence at play though. Working on that. I don't feel the way I do out the blue. Too many turn to Spirituality and even Religion because of suffering but Religion is more of a conformity. Group think. Tradition and programming and culture. There's a reason for that other than an inherent need to know what's true. I have to think and see things outside the box in order to come up with my own thing. Put the pieces together. I didn't search out this stuff, I stumbled across it. It found me, so-to-speak. I'm glad I did because I've found a goldmine even if it's just my personal gold mine and to reality it's nothing. I have a very fluid mind so things change all the time. I'm not stuck and attached to belief systems, so those change too. The only thing that doesn't change is what doesn't.

What Leo said in that clip in the Joe Roegan thread about how everything is nothing and how that explains everything or whatever he said about what explains everything , is why I've realized there's no one and how the me energy operates and functions. That explains just about everything. I am yet to find anything that disputes the no one theory. I'm aware I've turned it into a concept at times but that's what talking about something does. No one can actually practice not being a me and doing the work to not be a me anyway, so it doesn't really matter. They can only build a story around the no me concept plus there's no one actually doing that.