Princess Arabia

I really don't have one. The only thing I can say is, if I'm loving someone based on my feelings and not how they wish or love to be loved, then that's selfish love, regardless of how it makes me feel. I really don't see love in relationships as a one size fits all because we're all different and for me it's usually getting to know the person and what they like and to try to accommodate that without losing or sacrificing my own desires in the process. It's a bit deeper than that, but for the sake of brevity, I'll leave it there, unless you expand.

Hi Mom, The feeling is starting to get weird. I look at your photo in my room now, and the feeling that comes up for me now is like you never existed or you still exist. It's like a question mark in my head. Was she ever here or is she really gone. I'm not going off of what I intellectually know about what death is but how I feel. People die all the time, but this hits home, so it's different for me but, the initial shock is just starting to wear off. It's been about 3weeks and I guess I'm starting to process it. I don't know the stages people go through with this kind of stuff, having mom pass away, I can only go by my own. I'm not in denial, it's just starting to feel weird. The other night I was drinking and when I got home and saw your picture, I started bawling my eyes out. I cried so much I fell asleep and when I woke up, my eyes were so puffy I looked like a dead fish. I have the YouTube poster Pic I got from the funeral home up and it just looks weird seeing you on a poster pic with the YT emblem on it. I get mixed feelings about that but I don't dwell on it too much since I understand times have changed and this is the Era of social media, just like the convenience of starting a journal online about my feelings. I'm sitting here wondering what it must be like to be here one minute and then gone the next. Most people don't think about death till it hit's home. I know why, but it's just weird when I see your picture now, it's like you were never here. That just started today and is probably a part of my personal grieving process and now I am wondering what it's gonna be like in the coming days and weeks. I just hope I don't start to freak out and start asking everybody, "have you seen my momma, she's missing". The only thing that's a surety in life, most people don't talk about and some even get angry if you do. I guess if I knew I didn't exist, I wouldn't want to confront it either. Anyway mom, just thought I'd express those feelings to you as it's coming up. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll see you as Popeye eating spinach and the next day as Dulcimenia gossiping with the neighbors. Dunno. Whatever comes up, comes up. Love you, Your little baby girl.

I would marry him as long as he didn't touch me. Just kidding, but he lived to 94 and died after he finally took a bath. Shocked his system and body, I guess.

Off topic, but Is this a more recent pic of you, you look different. Had to do a double take.

I see where most people aren't interested in what the "common" man has to say. Generally, if you don't have a degree, well-versed articulate or somewhat visually appealing, people are most likely to dismiss your opinions or least likely to pay attention. There are exceptions to the rule, of course, but I'm generalizing. This is how people generally get misled and I think someone's mindset is more important to understand than how they are coming across in the moment because people can train themselves to communicate a certain way so as to influence the listener in one way or another causing one to sound convincing even when they themselves don't even believe what they are saying. Politicians are a good example of this. My biggest challenge with communicating with the outside world, Is I find people usually have their assessment of me before hand in their minds and if I don't match that assessment, it becomes quite an effort for them to see the 'real me', underneath the fictitious character they've invented, which usually results in the remark, "oh, you're very intelligent", but it's not that I'm so intelligent, it's more they saw me as the dumb pretty girl who is superficial and vain, and only knows how to cook and entice a man. Cook I can, but I definitely don't know how to entice a man because I never really try to, it just happens. In fact, I most often communicate the opposite, except for when I'm working, which often times produces the adverse effect because now I become a challenge and a pursuit which I despise if I'm not interested.

The biggest bum or loser there ever was or is.

I felt every minute of this. Up until the 10:00 minute mark I felt his pain, then after that I put my hand on my heart after which I noticed the instructor also had his hand on the guy's heart. Very intense.

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Different factors but I think the top two are too much Social Media consumption, (not just the consumption, but how it's being consumed) and environmental toxins ingested in a variety of different ways. I would also state the lack of expanded consciousness as consciousness is expanding rapidly at a pace more so than ever before. The latter was just a hunch.

@Danioover9000Can you ever make a post without referring to Spiral Dynamics, Stages of Development and the 9 Stages of Ego Development. I'm not telling you what or how to post and I'm not being synical or disrespectful, but it's very noticeable and I'm genuinely wondering if that's possible for you. Maybe that's just your thing and are fascinated by it but sometimes it would be refreshing to see another side of you or see you post from a different perspective just to break up the monotony a bit and to see what else is in that brilliant mind of yours. Just saying, and it's coming from a place of love, so don't take it any other way which you're also free to do.❤️

That's your experience. My friends, which are few and beyond, couldn't care less who I date because I don't base my dating on their opinions, only mine. It's not about who is a Saint or not but how we are wired and our experiences. It's funny how you say "downgrade if she has a good personality" yet you say males are more adept to accepting women how they are. Men are more visual and women more emotional, but both still boils down to how it makes you feel, even the visual. We don't love ourselves unconditionally, that's one reason we're incapable of giving love unconditionally, amongst other reasons, but that's ok because we are already unconditionally loved.

Nice. But understand that you did this for yourself. You created Leo to reveal this to you. You gave him the authority. Leo is only a reflection of you. Stop calling yourself an idiot and that you're still learning or you will forever be in a state of idiocy and learning, never getting it, even though there's really nothing to get because you are that, everything. Nothing wrong with constantly learning, if it's coming from a place of knowing who and what you truly are and expanding from that place. Just like you said, you're "looking forward to creating a greater being of love". You're already that which you wish to be, you're just going to linearly experience it, and from what I've read you say, I believe you're on the right track. Being thankful and expressing that gratitude will only bring forth more things in your experience to be thankful for, while the opposite is also true.

From your statement, you should love her even for the reasons you stated that women are looking for because that's who she is. Nobody loves you for what you are, we only love people because of the way they make us feel. If she had no teeth, no tits or ass or was just simply relatively unattractive in every sense of the word, you wouldn't even give her the time of day, and the only reason why you wouldn't is because of how that made you feel. Your statement is one of the most biased statements I've ever seen.

This I understand and makes so much sense. When certain parts of the body aches, that's when you notice it and your focus turns towards it. Other than just normal day-to-day maintenance of the body when you're going through the motions and just mechanically doing what's normal, we don't really notice it until we're going through some kind of pain in a particular part. So, when I compare that to Reality or humans, most are just going through the motions; and it's not until some form of emotional suffering is being experienced, that it stops you in your tracks and makes you ponder and think and bring you back home/within, not without. Without suffering and pain we'd be more lost and just floating in air, so-to-speak. Eckhart Tolle was about to jump, literally, when he awoken, even though that extremity isn't required. When you cut your finger and it bleeds, you're not going to cut it some more to try to heal it, you start the healing process by doing whatever means necessary. Some may apply the wrong kind of "bandage", which is what most of society is doing, some may use the right kind and some may apply nothing at all. Our work is to figure out the right kind and apply it, whatever that is for you and can come in many different formats. I think true healing comes when we recognize that we were never broken to begin with and all we need to do is take off the fake "bandages" and just breathe and let the Universe guide us just as the body knows how to heal itself given the proper conditions. Religion and Spirituality serves it's purpose, but when used as a bandage to try to heal a wound that is not even there, that's when it becomes suffocating; and, now, we try to invent ways, means and processes to uncover that bandage that was never needed in the first place and the cycle never ends. That's the loop. Coming from a place of knowing, already fulfilled and needing nothing but only to experience that part of Infinity we choose in any given moment is the true challenge that most are not ready/able to overcome or are blinded to recognize our true purpose here as God/Infinity. This is what my inner guidance has revealed to me, if it's not so, then I know nothing.

I received the warning sign last night. 'Hackers may be trying to steal your info blah blah......GO BACK". I thought the website may have been hacked or something. I tried like 3x. So I waited till this morning and was able to enter. I was going to post something but decided to search the forum if any similar thread was already up. I see it started on Monday, but I received the message Tues night. Even as I was able to, it was a bit slower than usual. Anyway, here I am so I guess it's fixed. Had me concerned for a sec.

Don't start?

❤️I had no point. Was trying to be funny, but I guess the jokes on me.

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Oops! There goes your moderator job. ??

Depends on the role they're playing in your life. In this case - dating, be aware of how you feel around them, how they treat others and how they talk about others and especially other women. If they blame their exes a lot and if they show you respect. Also, how they treat themselves. All these pointers will vary on a scale, so don't try to be overly picky and judgemental about it. Do more observing and have fun in the process. Lighten up and go with the flow. People will reveal themselves to you, eventually. You're very young, so just enjoy dating around for the experience without getting too attached. Later on, you'll become more adept to making better choices as to who is more suitable for your personality type.

Mom, I don't have any regrets in life. I've come to the understanding that everything in life, good or bad, is there for a reason and is happening for the highest good; and I probably wouldn't be where I am today mentally if it wasn't for the things I experienced. But I must say, up to this point, the only thing I regret is not giving you a hug and holding you one last time before your passing and to see that beautiful smile of yours again in person. I will cherish our memories together and will never forget the times we shared as mother and daughter and how you raised me to become the loving person I am today. You never really directly taught me to be loving, but I saw how much you loved God and the strength you emitted from that love. The light around you was enough for me to see how much love you had inside you, and even when you used to scold me, I knew it was coming from love even back then when it was happening. There was a time in my adulthood, not too long ago you said to me you wish you had raised us better and how you were sorry you never showed us more of how a parent should raise a child and I was shocked to hear you say that. I never responded, because I had to process it for a minute because I thought you did a great job. You made sure I went to school, infact, you made sure all of us finished high school, and I never forgot the time when the busses went on strike and you made us walk. Mom, it was far, so far my shoes got torn apart and my feet got blistered up. Lol. You made me go to church with you and I never went a night without dinner. You never spoke badly about your children to either of us, and you made sure we respected our elders. There is so much more good I can say, but I'll leave it at that for now. Even the bad times were good because, it made us closer in the end. Mom, when I was taking the picture of your resting bed, and when they were lowering it, I wanted to jump in and hug it but I didn't want to create a scene, so I thought I better not incase they called the paramedics. Lol. I haven't gotten used to this yet, and probably never will, but I know you're still here with me so I'm not worried about getting used to you not being here physically, as long as I can still feel you and I have your pictures hanging in my room. It's a bitter-sweet thing, because every time I look at them now I look at you differently in the sense that you are no longer here physically. Bye for now and, i'll try not to get too sad because I know that's not what you would have wanted. It's spontaneous, my flowing emotions, but I try not to hold it in. I realize this will be an ongoing thing for now and only time will make the pain less unbearable. I love you and miss you and will be talking to you soon, or I should say writing you soon, because every few minutes I'm saying hi to you. Now I have two of you I'm talking to, my soul guide, and now you. I know you're both the same, but my mind doesn't, and I dare not confuse it so I let it do it's thing. Lots of hugs and kisses' Your little baby girl.

You're right about the "idea of love". Most people are attracted to the idea of love. This is why most relationships fail to last. When we are in the "business" of wanting to share our love, we will become more loving. Most are looking to gain something. May I suggest you don't go around wanting love but to become the love you would like to experience. There are infinite ways to express love and we attract what we are. Remember, you're only seeking yourself, and God creates by BEING; so, energetically, we have to become what we want to experience. God is Infinite love, and the only thing sad is we are unaware of how to love not what to love. Become that and the Universe will have no other choice but to reflect that back to you, because Reality is a mirror, and we cannot experience anything outside our own state of Consciousness.

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Are all your past videos about what God is still apply. I know you've realized a lot more, but is there anything in them that you were mistaken, or misled about as far as you can recall. E.g "What is Consciousness", "What is Reality", 'What is God", "Guided Excercises For Realizing You Are God", etc?

I don't believe "passionate love" is based on looks. Initial attraction, yes but not passionate. I think what it has more to do with is how you make a person feel. The stronger the emotion the more passion. Maybe you're speaking from a male's perspective or from your own personal experience but I'm just generalizing. Looks is the engine but feelings are the driving force. People will stay longer in relationships if they feel good about it regardless of how their partner looks and will have more passionate sex if their partner can invoke a certain feeling that's lodged in their memory that they long to re-live or made them feel something they have never felt before.