Princess Arabia

Who Am I? KNOWLEDGE......that's it. Without it, i'm nobody. Paradoxically, without knowledge there's just a body. Body doesn't need knowledge to function. I do.

Everyone around you is affirming your existence. If there were no other, you wouldn't exist because there's no way to stand out apart from yourself and to exist means to stand out. Look at me, I stand out. No you don't. Show me how you stand out from everything that's around you. Take yourself out the picture and show me you apart from what's in the mix. You want to go meta. That's the lucid dream. You're not lucid dreaming. You are the lucid dream itself.

This shit is so simple. It will take an infinite about of years and decades to figure out what's going on here if you look anywhere else than what's appearing. You can never find anything that's not appearing. You lost your pocketbook. You didn't find it, it appeared. It was never lost. Where was it. It was the same place where it was, nowhere and everywhere. It appeared outta nowhere and now it's everywhere because where you are is everywhere and that pocketbook is no different. Go somewhere now. Aren't you there. Go somewhere else. You're there too. Everywhere you go you're there, so how can you not be everywhere. Where is the place you were at prior to where you are now. In memory, so it's nowhere. Get it. You're nowhere and everywhere.

It's all TRUTH. There's nothing but TRUTH. What appears is TRUTH. That lie you told your gf is TRUTH. It happened, didn't it.

Watch out for these silly teachings. You are not the doer. How to realize you are not the doer.....do this, and proceed to list a bunch of exercises to follow and do. God is all there is. You must do this to realize you are God. Well, is God all there is or what. Higher and Lower self. What. I have two selves now. First there's a self, then there's no self, then there's no self self, then there's a higher self and a lower self, then it's lose the self, then it's You're God. God sure has many aliases. It likes to act and be all sorts of selves. Let's hide out and play inquiry. Hide and seek. Who is that that's witnessing me doing crap. There's someone g that I can't see that's witnessing me taking a shower. I wonder if I will ever find that something. Oops...it can't be found because it's invisible....IT'S ME. Then who is that taking a shower. That's the body with no one inside. Inquire into who is noticing that pussy getting wet. You naughty boy you awareness. Awareness is a pervert. It likes to play peek-a-boo. Reincarnation. Come back as a different person from the no person you were in the first place. Two other no selves are going to have sex and birth another noself that'll be you, then you'll be inquiring into who am I, but previously you knew you were coming back to a noself. Karma. What you do is going to come back to bite you in the ass but you're a no doer. Shadow work. The shadow of a person who's God is creating all types of havoc in God's life. Oh I forgot, you're only God sometimes. Notice how your shadow is always behind you and only visible to you when you look at it. Just don't look and you won't need to work to get rid of it. Spiritual bypassing. Honk honk. I'm passing by what's actually happening and I want to imagine something else to happen. That's enough....

It's the title of the thread and the wordings in the content. Not too many would put two and two together. You're explain health issues and correlating it with somatic energetic experience. Not much advice to be given there. The body isn't fond of our spiritual exercises because it's not natural to it, so it's only natural it's going to react and get thrown off balance. Except for a few like maybe yoga and certain kinds of meditations.

People will hear me talk or write about non-duality, the Absolute, existence, reality, etcetc and think I'm parroting from some guru or teacher or whomever yet I can have a journal talking about this stuff everyday all day and in my own words with understanding and clarity. Of course, I listen to non-dual speakers, (not that many) and I have a been in this field for about 6yrs now so i have something to compare to and i have a way of discerning my own truths. No such thing but, hey, language is limited. Not saying what I say is the case, but it's from an understanding, experience, knowledge and all that is illusory anyway.

Time to see the doctor. That's what that means and lay off them strudels.😜

They will manufacture the poison, then feed it to you and then sell you the drug to try and eliminate the poison. That's how the food industry and the pharmaceuticals work. Read the fine print. Such and such may cause cancer and is harmful if so and so. Here, come and get some, while they sit in their luxury mansions reaping in the benefits from us suckers. They chemicalize the food and then sell us the treatment after we get sick. Not just food now, air fresheners, soaps, body lotion, sun tan oils, dish detergent, toothpaste and everything under the sun. Feed the kids yellow#5 then treat them for ADHD. Shelves filled with these dyes that fucks up the endocrine system feed it to kids who blow up schools and malls then weep over the dead bodies. We want to control guns not what we produce and give to society to fuck us up. Poor guns. A piece of machine. Some shit piece of tool that can sit in a closet and rot is the problem. While we give that brain something to see that isn't there. Some delusional thought process and imagery that goes along with that because the bodies system is off whack and consciousness is now fucked in it's way of seeing the world and now it wants to act up and take it out on life and everyone around it. Let me stop.

Life fucks wit you, then it gives you drugs to cope and provide therapists to talk you through that mess. Then it fucks wit you some more, then takes a break and keeps you busy from seeing it's shit with a bribe. Something to keep yo ass happy for a little while, while planning it's next fucked up shit that takes you away from that 'happy high'. Then it starts plotting again. The pendulum swings higher to the sadness scale the happier you get, so try not to get too happy now. It'll say "how did you like that roller coaster ride, was it fun". Then tomorrow ask "how would you like to swing today, high or low or in between", but because you are life itself, you have no choice you just have to take whatever fucked up shit it gives ya. Try saying you'd like to be happy today and see if you can make it through. Now anxiety kicks in because you're on watch to make sure nothing fucks up your happiness and you tippy toe around everything and everybody smiling all day because you say happiness comes from within but by nighttime comes you want a drink or a smoke from keeping up that charades all day and need to release some of that sadness that was choking up underneath from some fucked up thought you had during the day but tried to ignore it because you want to stifle sadness to be happy. Now you're neurotic and getting on everybody's nerves because you're off-balanced because the body is now confused with what it wants to do and what it feels. The end.

Your computer didn't lag, that game didn't stall, your phone didn't act up, that game didn't glitch, etcetcetcetc. That was the absolute appearing however the fuck it wants. Everything is fresh and new. EDIT: Soon as I wrote that, my other device wants to act up as if to answer me back saying STFU; I'll show ya.

.....and I stopped at the 2nd page, imagine if I'd do the 3rd.

Three more posts and you'll beat the record. You're at 17 now for the month.

You have created an idea of God and then projected that idea of God unto Leo and now you blast him away because he doesn't live up to your idea of God. That's what's happening here. Replace the word God with ego in the above quote and that's pretty much the case. The ego gives birth to itself, fills it with desires, longings, etc, and now the ego must deny it's own creation. God didn't create anything. The ego doesn't really exist and is illusory. It's an idea and a bunch of stories.

What/Who's there to notice that. Does a rainbow disappear the moment it's seen to not be real, No, the rainbow disappears when whatever is making the rainbow appear to be in the first place disappears. Same with the ego. The one that created the ego cannot be around to see it's disappearance.

If I'm pure awareness, why do I need to practice self-inquiry and any spiritual practice for that matter. Who is the one trying to find this out. Who is the one that is going to know that it is pure awareness. Why do I have to practice what I already am. Is a cat also pure awareness. Why am I not seeing cats and dogs in the mirror wondering who they are. Looking like, hmmmm, I wonder what is this that's licking my paw. Who is this beast in the mirror. Only humans who think they're special would invent some notion like self-inquiry. I'm going to continue to unwrap, debunk, question and go to the core of all these spiritual teachings till I can't go any further. Not to try and prove something but to see how contradictory they are and, in my opinion, are only there to soothe the false egoic structure and the one that thinks it's real into feeling better about it's illusory existence and to bring about some ease of the dis-ease that has plagued it for most of it's non-existent life.

Speak it, my friend.

How the fuck am i going to think I'm something other than what i am. Why is it such a mystery. You are not the body. You are not the mind. What am i then. The empty space that houses the body and mind. Can't believe some people actually fall for that trick. I'm an empty space. I'm laughing just thinking about this shit. I am awareness. Even bigger bullshit. Can't you see that you're aware. Who is aware. Me?. The human? The empty space? Awareness? Who are you. Who is it that tells me who I am. Are you empty space telling me I'm empty space. Are you awareness telling me I'm also awareness. Are you aware of me shitting on the toilet. If you're awareness then I have to be awareness and I have to be aware of everything. Is that how it works. Or I'm just aware of what I'm aware of and know about. Who is aware of the killer that killed the next door neighbor. The killer? He's aware of himself. He's not the killer? He's only aware of himself smashing that guy's head to pieces. They locked up awareness. They locked up a body/mind and awareness is aware of that. Awareness is aware of the killer in jail. So if I'm not the killer(say I killed someone) and I'm only aware of myself killing somebody and they catch me and I'm punished then I'm alright because i'm just the empty space of awareness being aware of my stupid actions. So who killed the guy. Who should be punished. Not that empty space fo sure, can't catch that. Awareness is going around murdering people and getting away with that shit because it's empty space. What the....... Ok. That's a bit silly. Who am I. I'm nobody. I'm a sense. Something that feels like a somebody in a body but no one is actually there. No one can do self inquiry because there's no self to inquire into. It's that stupid energy inquiring into itself. Who am I. You're nothing. It's just a body. The body is doing it's own thing. There's no one in the driver's seat. It's so silly doing self inquiry. You tell me I'm God then tell me to inquire into the self. Self inquiry is the most deceptive form of spiritual practice if I ever saw one. Who is inquiring and into what. Then I need another no-self to teach me how to inquire into my no-self self. Is that teacher God, telling me how to inquire into God or is he Mr. Awareness Empty Space teaching another empty space how to inquire into empty space. Ok, I rest. I'm so silly.

This is so not true; if anything it's the opposite. You have narrowed down dating, commitment, companionship and relationships down to being financial and seem to not realize people seek genuine companionship too and the wealthy are even more inclined to want a more stable relationship status. It's very rare you find people in the wealthy category single.

If I see anything claiming to be truth, if I see any arguments for God that doesn't involve a cockroach or a bird or a lion or a wall or a bench, I'm out - metaphorically speaking. I'm so through with this narcissistic, neurotic approaches to God and life and it's human bullshit self-serving, egotistical delusional God deception nonsensical narratives. Everything about God and it's existence is revolved around humans and our delusions. The only reason I'm still into Spirituality is because I just love the concept; and, yes, it's a concept. Not much more in life that interests me other than the art of food making. I just love to see people turn food into art. I call it art because that's exactly what it is. Turning a mushroom into a burger is art. Putting together a colorful salad with earth's food is art. Spirituality in the sense of nature and how anything is possible and the dynamics of existence is a passion of mine. So-called humans have turned it into something to get something out of, to use and abuse for their own gain just like anything else we put our hands on. If there's no personal value involved, they don't want anything to do with it. They aren't roaches or birds or elephants so when it comes to anything spiritual, those creatures don't matter, it's only about the human and what it can do for them and which guru is telling them things to ease their God forsaken suffering. It's pretty pathetic. We have turned spirituality into a personal agenda and we suffer more because of that. Now we invent all sorts of shit to try and counteract that. We invent all kinds of concepts and ideas to make up for what we've done. Shadow work, self-inquiry, trying to realize who we are, terms like spiritual bypassing to drag the crabs back into the pot. We're so clever but we miss the fact that it's the cleverness that is really over-shadowing what's really going on here. I'll tell you what's really going on here. Nothing is personal. Life doesn't see you. It doesn't give a shit if you're suffering or not. It doesn't give a shit if you realize God or not. It doesn't give a shit if you awaken to anything or not. It doesn't give a shit if a hurricane comes and blows you and your entire family away or not. It doesn't give a shit if you get sex or not. It doesn't give a shit if you're angry or sad or pessimistic or happy or in bliss. It will show you that nothing belongs to you. It will give you shit and take it back. It will show up how it wants to no matter how much you practice life and turn it into a process. It will not dedicate anything to you. It will tell you to kiss it's ass. There is nothing here for you. You have no purpose, rhyme or reason. Yes, you can get from life things and more things and some more things. Then what, all that leaves you with is wanting for more, and more and more. Is that really a gain. Is that really life giving you anything if you can never be satisfied. Life is actually against the human. Not intentionally, because it doesn't see a human but because the human has turned it into a self-fulfilling deceit. It's so greedy, it doesn't realize it's causing it's own demise. It can't help it and it's not it's fault. That's the fucking tragedy. These words won't even register to a human. It won't even realize what I'm saying. It'll think I'm being mad and angry or talking stupid shit while it goes about life thinking it's in in control. It suffers along the way and blames the world and other humans for it's suffering. Instead of trying to realize God or awakening to what you're not, how about sitting back and wonder why the world is as it is. Why are few so rich and many suffer. Why when a problem gets solved, here comes another not too far behind, why is it left to you to figure life out when you were just a baby with no life blueprint on how to live life, why does it take a stranger on the internet to tell you who you are and not your mommy and poppy, why are so many making millions from that ignorance while you remain poor and meditating away to reach God realization. I'll tell you why, because there's nothing to any of this stuff. It's all empty and means nothing. There's no one here and life us just doing life, even the one that thinks it's a person life is doing that. Life is cruel. Life is suffering. There's no way around that. In life there is nothing personal and it's for no one, Nothing has even been done to you or for you personally and this belief is what's fucking everybody up to the point of depression, anxiety and needing therapy. Drug addicts and alcoholism and everything else of this nature is borne from this false belief that we are humans with a soul, consciousness, awareness and have a purpose and that we matter. This is the only thing I've recognized, realized, that it's not personal and that sense of personhood is a fucking thing from hell.

Ok. I see.

The reason why humans love to call God a "he" is because they think they're real, they see themselves as a person so now everything they relate to is in relation to them. God must be a person since he's made in my image, they're probably saying. God is this, he is this, he has qualities now because they see qualities in themselves. They can't help it. Even if they intuit that God is not a person, which I'm sure they really don't see God as a person, but it's just an automatic response. They have created an image of God and now relate to it as a "he", even an "it". I understand language is limited but that's besides the point. Just look at how people express their thoughts about God and relate to it (yes, I said it), as if it's different from them. No one really knows what this God they're talking about is. They were born into it or was taught and now believe it's a thing that can be related to. We can call energy God if we want but it's still energy. Energy has no qualities and cannot be related to. It isn't personal. It sees no one. It's everything. There's no God that rules over anything and there's no God that created anything. It's all energy and energy is all there is. It even parades around as a "he" God.

@Leo GuraThese statements seem contradictory. Explain.

Every time I look at this forum, there's an issue with the non-existing ego. You're going to tell me there's someone there behind that mask. The dream can't seem to go away. It can't because it's just a dream. End of dream, end of person. It's sad, yet, it isn't. Only to this me.

Lol. Best regards.