Princess Arabia

Here's a video that kind of explains this topic and shows how the senses operates. It's all dream stuff but still.

I didn't, only seems that way. This is why I say dream stuff. You speak to the dream as the dream.

it's hard convincing no one there's no one. There not really a convincing but just a talking about because there's no one to convince. The no one will turn around and turn you into a someone that needs to act as a no one or else you're lying. It's pointless, like literally. There's no one on the other end doing that either but it's starting to turn into a circus show for no one.

Who is supposed to follow a structure and what structure. I'm not over here trying to be a no one. I can't say to myself i have to follow this protocol as a non-human to be a non-human and stick to the plan or else I'm not a non-human. I don't exist as the person I think I am. I never said I don't exist I'm saying there's no I to exist and there's no one to see anything. The I cannot say it doesn't exist. I can't even have this conversation anymore. I can't keep explaining to people that there's no one with autonomy and free will inside these bodies for there to be a turn around expecting someone to act as if there's no one. It's OK.

To make a point. I could have said a boat is seen. Conclusions are conclusions without someone coming to them. No one has to exist for conclusions to be. I didn't come to a conclusion. A conclusion was concluded.

Lol. No we're not stupid. There's just no we, but that's another story for another time.

Nobody has intelligence. No one is intelligent. It's just intelligence. It's just bodies. Intelligence seems to run through these bodies. It's not really, but it seems to, to appear as a person with intelligence. Einstein was just as dumb as a church mouse. (expression). It's whatever this is being intelligence. It's whatever this is being an equation called C=MC2. You're not asking this question, the question asks itself. There are no intelligent people just people that seem intelligent.

Forum acting up again since yesterday big time.

I'm saying as long as there is an emotional reaction to something then it's capable of feeling like the source of the trauma. Everything is just everything with no baggage around it until the person relates to it and personalize it. The sun can also cause sun burn and whatever else and creates trauma for the individual but I wasn't using the sun as an example in this case even though it can be the source of someone's trauma if seen and related to on an emotional level. Anything can. Nothing in of itself causes trauma. The individual that senses and abstracts does. It's how the person relates to the seeming object that makes the difference. One can get raped and not be traumatized by it and another traumatized. The rape didn't traumatize. The relationship the person had with the rape did. Goes for every single incident.

It's abstractions and interpretations by the energy that feels itself to be. Everything now is personal. It arises within that energy. If that energy doesn't sense someone there having a past a present and a future then trauma is just trauma just like the sun is just the sun. The sun isn't seen as something happening to someone because feelings and emotions isn't being related to when experiencing the sun.

Someone will say you don't actually believe that or you will go jump in front of a car. Go prove you don't exist. Total misunderstanding. Understanding seems to be more than I thought it was. Understanding seems to be more fundamental than previously understood. I'm not sure. Anyway, there's no one to make the decision to go jump in front of a car to prove their existence. There's either jumping in front of a car happening or not. That sense of self didn't come back yet I'm waiting for it. Jesus, wtf. Somehow I can see now how I don't die. No one will be at a funeral for this body. That's a story being projected unto others.

I'm taking this shit so calmly. Just sitting here typing away as I normally do. Nothing dramatic is happening, the lawn mower by the neighbor going off, the birds chirping as usual the sun shining and cars going by. Life goes on as usual, except it's a fucking dream. I'm probably lucid in the dream. Idk. I'm not freaking out I'm not on anything i'm just sitting here having an understanding. It's weird, I'm understanding that ilm not really here. I'm not experiencing not being here because it feels like it still. Ilm not shifting either. I'm simply, and it's not an intellectual understanding, I'm understanding that I'm not here. I'm understanding that I do not exist as a person in this body. I'm understanding that death with not come because there's just simply no one to die here. There will just be no more sense of a person in this body. Death is death of a sense. It's an understanding but it doesn't seem conceptual or intellectual. It just seems like a knowing understanding.

No I don't mind, I welcome comments. Feel free anytime. On the thing of death its just I realize now what it is. How I will never experience it and how the illusion happens. It doesn't; just as my being/presence isn't happening.

Oh my oh no. This is some weird shit. Everything seems to be the same, except fora sense of not being here. Jesus, there's no me here. There's no you there, I should have left this shit alone. Good thing is there is no continuity and it's not linear. So it's all a timeline, a story that's not happening. I'll come back. So it will seem.

Death is the giveaway that one doesn't exist. Jesus Christ i'm not really here. I think I am. I most definitely am not. OMG, how didn't I see this before like truly see it. I'm not referring to no self and all that jazz. Like I'm not actually here. The body seems to be but I'm not in it. There is just no I to be in a body. Like truly. I don't feel it as I speak but it might come back. Death is nothing to fear, if anything life is. Life is the illusion. Life is the pretense. It tricks. It deceives. There's no life, there's no death. There's simply what is.

How is death an illusion. A body appears to an observer as alive and a body appears to an observer dead. One doesn't die, there's no one to die. You, yeah you, reading this there is no you. There is not a person inside that body that ages and dies. Other dead bodies appear so you think you will die some day. No, you are already not here. No one is.

It is just as silly to expect the silly to not be silly. How else can silly be. Nothing becomes something else. Everything just is. Becoming is an illusion.

We will all never agree on everything. This is life in a nutshell. Nothing being everything. All different. Never exactly duplicated. Even twins aren't exactly the same. All fresh and new. Save your frustrations. Well, that's life being frustration too. This forum is a great replica of life's expressions. Everything about it. We tend to think we need extravagant things to appear; or we need to feel an extraordinary feeling to feel, see, experience reality as it is or to see it for what it is. The real reality isn't lurking behind some psychedelic experience or some mystical experience or some flashy lights and elephants in walls. It is timelessly what is appearing. The coffee cup, the pencil, the grass, the birds chirping, the hurricane, the sunshine, that man cursing, all of it. It's all magical. We can't see it because it's known. There's a kind of normalcy with things known. That's why we crave fresh and new. How can we all agree on everything when it's all fresh and new. All ideas are fresh and new. If I have an idea of baking a cake yesterday and an idea of baking a cake today and an idea of baking a cake tomorrow, all those ideas on those respective days would be fresh and new ideas even if they were of the same essence. If I read a book yesterday and reread the same book today, I wouldn't be reading the exact same book. This computer is not the same computer it was 5mins ago, a sec ago. How can anything be the same it only appears that way as in the same idea or even day. There is no today. There is only timelessness. So, no matter what appears to happen, nothing can ever duplicate itself so no one can ever get this exactly. THIS CAN NEVER BE DUPLICATED, and the sane goes for life. It can never be GOTTEN or GRASPED. It cannot be wrapped up nicely in a gift wrap and be presented as a case study to KNOW what Reality is. Knowing is one sec too far. The fact that one knows has turned reality into a dead weight. It cannot be truly known. This is how this is neither alive or dead. It just is.

All dream stuff, You have personalized God to extremes and made it into a replica of humanity while ignoring the rest of existence. You have intellectualized it all and turned reality into some kind of structural thing to be analyzed and reasoned out. What is, is everything. Even this attempt to put God in a box is also everything, so it really doesn't matter the accuracy of any of it. The I AM is the dream and it doesn't have a reality on it's own. It's all energy and energy can not be personalized but only in fantasy and in a dream.

Is a rainbow real. Is it really there. Yes and no. Are those eye floaters really there or are they seeming to appear. Is that reflection really there. When the moon reflects in the river, is the moon actually in the river. Most will agree that the moon isn't in the river; but will most agree that the reflection is real or is it unreal. Some will say both. The reflection seems real but that's all it is - a reflection. You'd say it's a reflection of something real. A rainbow cannot be grasped or held unto and is empty and void of any depth and substance. Most would agree with that. A moon's reflection cannot be grasped either and the moon cannot be taken out the water the same way your body cannot be taken out the mirror. Would you say your body's reflection is real or is it unreal. I say the reflection is real, any reflection is real as long as we're referring to reflection. The reflection is there. Is it an appearance, yes. The moon appears to be in the water and is only a reflection. You see, these terms aren't as cut and dry when distinguishing between the terms real and unreal. Most will say water is water but not most will say something that's a reflection is real or that an appearance is real. It all depends, and depends on how one looks at it. It's all a matter of perspective; and because of that, how can anything really be real. Things might appear to be real, but what makes something real or unreal. That too will be a matter of perspective, opinion and belief. So, don't be so quick to say what's real or unreal is truth or untruth or not there or there or whatever adjective you want to use, it's not that dry cut when it comes to language, communication and perception. I say nothing is really real and everything is. But in the Absolute sense nothing is, not even relativity.

We look up to some and look down on others. We look at drug addicts in street alleys shooting up in a different yes, but less than flattering light like say Osho or Moojii. We speak of some with respect and awe while bastardizing others. The drugged out individual on the street corner isn't someone to look up to Sadhguru is or Allan Watts, or Oprah or Rolling Stone. Then we wonder why there's a drug epidemic in the first place.

People don't even know who they are but they love to talk about conscious this and conscious that. First go figure out if you yourself are conscious before labelling and categorizing people into the low conscious and high conscious domain. If i ask you who you are, you'd probably say consciousness. I guess there are categories of consciousness for people to be at even though you'll say consciousness is everything. States of consciousness too. It cracks me up to see the same thing in spiritualists as I see in the materialists. Categorizing who is better than who.

I cannot take life very seriously. I just can't. Seriousness just says you're scared to me. Yeah, fear of some sort will always be there but to take life seriously on a whole, doesn't compute. Especially since life itself doesn't take itself that seriously. Infact, it plays too much.

I shouldn't have a journal of this kind since I have a hang up about men just wanting sex and getting laid so much. Maybe precisely why i need to talk it out. It's my only gripe with men. Maybe as a working girl I should love it as it helps my work and i wouldn't have been in business this long if men weren't horny pigs. I know people are reading this thinking what they're thinking and saying wtf is her problem but Idgaf, it's a journal for speaking the mind and that's what I'm going to do. You all probably know by now I have no filter even though I'm trying my best lately to put one on. I haven't gotten into any fights lately on the forum I've just been like mostly saying OK to this and that and letting things be. When I first came on here I was very hot blooded because I used to get picked on. Still do, but not as much and i don't show too much emotions when do so it doesn't stick, plus the haters haven't been on for a while. Some just can't stand me just because of what I do while they're out looking for strange pussy to fuck and cold approaching hundreds of women just to get in their pants. The hypocrisy is astounding. Then calling working girls low-conscious. The defense is that men have high testosterones levels. Oh God, if I hear that one more time as a defense to whore down the planet, I'll puke.

I should get out of grown men's discussion where getting laid is a highly-prized pursuit.