Princess Arabia

I must say when I was writing that I was concerned you'd take it that way. It's not what I meant at all. You don't owe them anything, and they were being entertained too. It goes both ways. All I'm saying is nothing wrong for paying a bill that came to you as it's just a nice gesture of saying thank you. If the bill was given to them and they just outright thought you should have paid and handed it over to you, if they had been rude to you the whole night or the night just didn't go very well, if the bill was overly expensive and you consumed way less than 30%, I mean I could go on about circumstances where it would probably have been appropriate to waiver, but from what you explained, I didn't see any other reason than you were afraid of being used which just leads to fear-based actions and never produces good results. People-using is a real thing, but having a fear of it isn't good because you are saying, imo, you are not able to spot that on your own and are afraid of being used without realizing it until it's too late. It's either you go all in without the fear knowing you're in good standing with yourself, and your integrity, or you get the hell out and never look back. The fear will just create irrational behaviors and regrets. Concern, yes, but leave that at home when you're in the mix and for later contemplation when the highs wear off.

Well shut it off. You can always get it back later if you feel inclined to.

You are fighting a war inside your head. This is humans tragedy. Looking for value. Thinking there's something better than something else, inherently. It's all the same. We give life meaning. Watch if you want, don't if you don't. You're not missing out if you do or don't. Preference. I've burnt through this stage. I was there. Now I watch whatever without judgement. This question would have never come up if you weren't battling with thoughts. Actually, it's just thoughts battling without the you. Certain things just naturally fall away when there's the absence of certain things, one of which is thinking there's inherently anything more important than the next. Now it's just pure freedom doing it's thing as to whether to watch Netflix or not without the intrusive thoughts. Not saying nothing has meaning or some things aren't more valuable than others, but now it doesn't become neurotic and just flows and the individual isn't seeking for something that's not there which is a sense of importance. That breeds exactly where you're at right now and inner conflict ensues. The meaning and value now becomes free to be what it is and not what has to or should be.

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I agree. Sometimes looking at the circumstances at hand instead of what that trickery mind says is best.

Why? You were there in their company and being entertained for hrs. What's wrong with paying. It's not like you're paying for the group next door. I kind of understand the friend, but if it wouldn't have broken your pocket, just do it this one time.

This will kill the vibe every time. They did the appropriate thing by paying the bill for drinks they had before you were there. That, to me, was in good standing and the rest of the bill shouldn't have been a problem for you; especially that amount. You said you guys talked for hrs and had a good time and you're worried about being used. Learn to discern. That's not using.

This.

I enjoyed that.

Lived there for 2yrs. Was there when the Wynn opened, same day.

It's so cool, my State being mentioned on the forum. Yes, Jersey sucks, but i've gotten used to it. Great tomatoes, though, and blueberries.

Are you serious. What does enlightenment have to do with taste. I couldn't get pass the sound much less the message. This one of the reasons why I don't do the enlightenment thing, if anything an enlightened being would embrace the diversity, not say what should or shouldn't be. I didn't see horror, I heard something that was not pleasant to the ears. There was no judgment or thought that went into it. My ears just wasn't liking the sound. It's that simple. We overcomplicate things. You don't like the song? Ok, I do.

I didn't take it as a personal attack. Especially how you said what you said and the reasons behind it. All I was pointing to is your criticism of people not liking that song or that type of music is coming from a personal bias and resistance to what is also. You're trying to have it both ways. That song, to me, was so bad I couldn't even get pass the first few seconds. So what. No need for me to feel like something is wrong because I don't like it. It's what is.

Love you too.

Why you playing.....I'm just go leave this alone. Thank God for evidence in writing.

Whatever you say. You're resisting the fact that I don't like that music. You're putting meaning behind the fact I don't like that music. Joking around and calling you fucked up is one thing, now you have taken it a bit further by explaining why i don't like that song. That is the twisted shit.

@Someone hereI'm waiting.......

Please don't leave this thread without directly quoting me where I said there is no God. Please quote verbatim....waiting.....

You got it backwards. There's a body with no I.

Ok sir, lovely art. I'm fucked up in the head all right and wouldn't trust anyone who said otherwise. We're all fucked up. So fucked up, we blend in. When I try to go straight, i get knocked back down the pot of boiling water. Easier to just stay fucked up.😶‍🌫️

No wonder you fucked up in the head😂

Don't know about that either.

You're right. So I'll say, I have not seen you before my eyes, don't know if you're really there, don't know about a Universe either, know nothing about cosmological whatever and ontological whatever. Just words on a screen as far as i'm concerned. All I can see is what's here around me at the moment. So there could well be a God somewhere looking at me. He can stay there as far as i'm concerned. Not interested in his hide and seek games if he's there watching me. Kinda creepy if ya ask me.

There is no God sitting around somewhere watching anything. Energy is appearing as form out of no-thing which is Absolute. Anything can appear and we have labelled having sex with children pedophilia. That nothingness appears as that. There is no Absolute form. The Absolute is formless. It is the child, it is the pedophile.