Princess Arabia

.....and I made you shut up, didn't I. You didn't make me do anything.

@Bufo Alvariusthis is what I said about experience.

I explained this in my response to Meeksauce. Not sure how to insert and quote it here but I'll try. Exactly as you're saying here (not verbatim) is how I explained it. There is experience but not to or for anyone, just experience as itself. You must have seen that discussion or you wouldn't have mentioned experience but I'm not sure how you could have missed where I explained myself to what I meant when I said experience is an illusion.

Ok, misunderstood.

This statement is an oxymoron (a statement that contradicts itself and creates a new meaning to the terms used). "Non-duality" and "more accurate" are contradictory terms when used side by side.

I realize my own non-existence. I realize other is only other because I'm here. I realize that I feel like a somebody. I realize it's the deepest feeling. It can't be unfelt. It's like a sense. The sense of taste cannot be unsensed, it has to fall away on it's own. I eat an apple. I taste the apple. How can I 'untaste' the apple. The sense of taste can go away where I cannot taste an apple anymore. Well, that's the same thing here. The sense of a separate person has to fall away for the person to realize it's own absence. Duh! Yes, I said that. See, can't happen. How can a person realize it's not there, literally. What can happen, though, is a sense can develop that says the person isn't there. Like an override of the previous sense. Like i sense I'm here but i can also sense I'm not here. Makes sense? Nope. Well, that's the point, nothing really does. Nothing makes sense. Got that. Nothing really makes sense. NOTHING makes all the sense. It's paradoxical. Nothing makes (actually makes) sense for itself.

This is the funniest thing i've heard in my lifetime. Enlightenment wants to tell the other no beings about itself but the other noselves aren't listening. At least try to act as if you're enlightened to pull it off. Saying they're not listening is like saying I'm talking to my ears but it won't hear.

I'm not saying I go around saying experience is an illusion and therefore this food I'm eating for breakfast before I go visit my family is not happening so I sit there and do nothing since experience is an illusion. This stuff cannot be actualized and practiced and be consciously chosen. It is that very fact why experience seems to exist in the first place. It is it's own 'being' but a person comes in and says they're having an experience. It is not your experience, it is just experience. I'm just pointing that out when I say that. There's an I here so I'm not denying my own experiences. I'm not expecting you to do anything in this regard because you can't because you're not doing or having an experience in the first place to do or not do something about. It's just forum talk that means nothing and denied by a me who seeks meaning and purpose and saying experience is an illusion doesn't add anything to that, it takes away. It's the only reason why it's not attractive to you to hear that. "I have awakened" seems like a more attractive thing to entertain for the me so it comes on a forum and advertise it to the other me's it created and imagined and tell them it awoke to Solipsism while having a never-ending discussion about it to the others that aren't there. You need to awaken to insanity, not solipsism.

And more holes than wholeness itself...jesus, I can't believe I'm laughing this much and corrupting wholeness with my wholeness Swiss cheese jokes. 🤣

No, the dream is in and out of it's own dream. It gets a taste of reality which is nothing but it keeps on dreaming by concepting and ideaing and arguing with people on forums to maintain itself. If it didn't along with all the other normal human things it does, it would just be nothing. Pure energy, it doesn't want that so it keeps on trucking and dreaming up experience and direct experiencing itself into thinking it has awakened when the truth of the matter is it is deep sleep, being - being someone that awakened and is arguing with princess on a forum. Nothing is actually happening - literally. This isn't youtube talk and nonduality bullshit it learnt from yt this is deep sleep yapping away as a lucid dream, and it knows this not from knowledge but something its also being and that is intuition. Something knows this, but it's not a knowing, it's an unknowing. Like it retreats back into itself because it can, as it can be anything as it is unlimited and free. Experience is an illusion. It cannot experience itself.

Youre right because deep sleep..aka..nothing..is all there is. I said awakening but I was just using a term humans made up. I'm not sure if you realize that Absolute infinity is deep sleep. Deep sleep is not a state. It is nothing being itself without being everything. It's not being deep sleep it is deep sleep. Language is limited but deep sleep is the most natural thing there is. This is what this is. All those words used to describe infinity as in timeless, boundless, etcetc, is exactly what deep sleep is like. YOU DISAPPEAR AND NOTHING EMERGES.

Oh my dearest God, such delusion. Doesn't get any more deluded than this. "God has an intellect", no God is intellect. God has nothing it is everything. Intelligence and meaning cannot be baked in the structure of reality because there is no actual reality. The only reality is the one the IAM creates for itself. Other than that, nothing being everything and nothing has no structure and has nothing baked into it. You are trying to limit it to your notions and ideas of what you think it is. It is nothing so its everything including this meeksauce conversation we're having. The greatest thing imaginable to a me that thinks its separate from it. It's not anything great to itself because its timeless and boundless. Purpose and meaning is also for the scared little me that is limited and seeks safety and it's mother's embrace. Meaning and purpose are limitations. This is unlimited and infinite and timeless. Purpose and meaning is bounded finite and happens in time because it suggests continuity, there's none. Your finite mind which is actually non existent cannot compute what's being said here. Its too busy looking for a way out if it's own mess of web entanglement.

If you were truly awake you would realize you were never born. It's the absolute being a human that sees other humans being born and now it thinks it was born. You're nothing. Go back to sleep, that's your true nature - deep sleep. You've awaken out of deep sleep and you you are. I AM you say. No you're an energetic structure in the firm of a sense we call the I AM. Go back to sleep and thats awakening for ya.

Lol. You don't even realize. That's the tragedy of humans, thinking they're any different than a brick wall. You're nothing, buddy, tryna be something. Nothing as in the absolute so its not an insult. It's all nonsense.

Well it wasn't obvious to you that I was pointing out that none of this matters. It's all learnt stuff that means nothing to a baby and only means something to you as a seeker because you have eaten from the forbidden tree called knowledge and now you're fucked needing more knowledge to survive that energy archetype and structure. That's all you are knowledge trying to gain more and more knowledge. Thinking it's knowing anything. You're not knowing anything. You are knowledge itself trying to survive.

Your nonsense only makes sense through a brain that can abstract and understand English. If I didn't know English, all your ramblings would seem like garbage and nonsense too. It would read like this, zd45(:;adys24?&$.

...and where did the innocent little baby learn awakening from and that there was even such a thing. Not YT, but surely from somewhere else other than nature where it didn't have to learn how to walk and talk. Everything not natural to the body is learnt. Where you learn it from makes no difference. The body isn't interested in your awakening. The body doesn't even know it exists. It's you the knowing energy that is causing it distress and dis-ease with your fancy toxic world notions trying to be up on others so you can show off your silly skills of which awakening to nothing is what you're trying to show off here. Anyone that isn't trying to awaken to nonsense like the racoons and bears, only silly humans, can see through human bullshit and i'm not sure how this isn't obvious to you.

What have you awakened to and what have you awakened from?

This forum is a perfect example of going around in circles and never getting anywhere. Infinity. Do you see the forum getting anywhere. It just sits and sits and sits and collects dust. It wipes itself clean then collects more dust. It collects dust by starting new topics then collect the dust then wipes itself clean by starting a new topic. Collect more dust then repeat. It even instructs itself to move unto newer and cleaner dust when it tries to engage in old dust. Everything in life represents infinity and the Absolute. I could tell infinite stories like the one i just told that would mimic infinity. It's all infinity and everything is an expression of that. Everything is Absolute. Very holograghic in nature every piece contains the whole. I could tell a story about an infinite orange and how we eat that sucker and digest that sucker and now we've become that sucker and the vitamin c turned into a cold fighting sucker and the fiber got you in the bathroom that got you shitting that got you late for work, that got you fired and now a new idea is born for a business and now ice cream has a new flavor called orange. I mean I could go on. The infinite orange story. Everything in life has an infinite story attached to it because it's infinite.

When you were a baby, did you know about anything called direct experience or philosophy or ideas. No, you were just crying, laughing, smiling, pooping, sucking mama's tits, tryna walk, talk and goo goo gaga-ing. Now you're a sophisticated fool of a human (not calling you a fool), thinking it knows something called direct experience because another fool of a human told him that's the blueprint to get out of this hell hole and to use direct experience to enlighten and awake the noself into enlightenment and to know what this is. Then we call others fools when they don't directly experience their direct experience of philosophizing and idea-ing. Do you not see the insanity of life. No you don't; you're too busy trying to directly experience it.

How'd you like that hot mild or bbq, we ran out of meek. Lol

Great!! That's life for ya. Now go to the sense making boutique and go shopping. Hope you find something nice to wear. Maybe buy some senses.

Truth is staring us in the face but we can't see it because it's all there is. We search for truth as truth. A million years from now they'll be someone in a corner somewhere looking through the bushes searching for itself. You wonder why there are so many mental illness around town. They aren't mental illness it's this. It's everything including schizophrenia and bi-polarism. It named itself fancy names but in reality it's a fucking lunatic disguised as sanity. It is the sense that tries to make sense of itself. It even gave that a name - sense making. It's a fucking lunatic in disguise. That's truth for ya. Beauty is literally insanity, mental disorders, imbalances, chaos, anarchy. That's beauty in disguise. Stupid humans is what only sees beauty in roses and rainbows. Go out in nature it says. Well the crackpot and the junkie on the street corner is also nature. That's everything. Nothing is exempt. We try to awaken from this hot mess in search for a better life. There is no life for everything. it's a hot mess. It suffers itself. It becomes Advil to ease it's own pain, Tylenol helps too. Look at the row of fetanyl users all passed the fuck out. That's truth. That's this easing it's pain. The pain of not knowing itself. That didn't cause the pain it's because it has no cause why it pains. There is no because but it pains there is no it, but it pains there is no effect but it pains there is no anything but it pains. There is no why but it pains. It doesn't feel pain but it's pain itself. You wonder why you suffer. How can one not suffer when it tries to get away from this hot mess but cannot. It curses out those that reminds itself that it's whole and fucking complete. It doesn't like to hear there's no one because it tries to be someone to get away from it's hot mess of a self. How can it do that if it doesn't have free will and control. It will call out itself for telling itself all these inventions it itself becomes. It's a hot mess. It will see these writings and tell itself all sorts of things using thoughts, that's it too, it will use thoughts to combat itself, justify itself or disown itself. It will call me crazy for writing all this shit and goes into it's own cave and tries to tell itself other things that will just bring it back to it's own self of a hot mess. Can't escape. It tries, but it can't. Welcome to reality and life.

Your pain is freedom. Your suffering is freedom. Your heartache is freedom. Your panic attack is freedom. All your so-called problems, challenges and issues that's freedom. That's all unconditional love. Murder is unconditional love murdering. It doesn't even know what that is. Us fake humans, which is also freedom being that, calls it murder but its energy playing with itself. It doesn't see murder it doesn't see at all. It's just being itself and to a human it seems like murder. Everything, every circumstance, every situation is freedom/nothing/wholeness/energy/god/allah/mohamed/shiva/brahman/the absolute/this/all there is/nothingness/emptiness/source/whatever the fuck it wants to call itself is it. How can this not feel like insanity.

This is a fucking mess. It literally is. From my human perspective, this is literally a fucking mess. It's trying to figure itself out, it can't. It tries to know itself it can't. It tries to elude itself, it can't. to escape itself, it can't. To capture itself, it can't. Tries to get out of itself, it can't. To love itself, it can't. To personalize itself, it definitely cannot. It's spinning around chasing it's own tail. It cannot and doesn't go anywhere, but it tries. All the attempts are what seems to appear to itself but it doesn't realize that's an illusion and that it never went anywhere. It's like a person walking around town with a blindfold on. It's fucking lost and doesn't have a clue what it is - hence the "what am I question". You think that's some separate idiotic person that doesn't know what or who they are that's asking that question. No that's fucking this asking itself because it doesn't know and cannot know because it is itself and it's all there fucking is. It's a fucking mess. It drives itself insane looking for itself. That's all it's doing for eternity, looking for it's fucking self. This fucking beautiful masterpiece thing called life is fucking looking for itself. It cannot kill the looking energy because it is the looking and seeking energy. It cannot die, even though it tries when it gets frustrated enough, but it can't; it's also the fucking rope and the gun and the bridge and the pill and whatever else it tries to use that it itself is. It's a fucking mess. This is what freedom is like. Literally what freedom is. It's so fucking free it's a literal mess. Freedom isn't all great as the foolish humans that it pretends to be believes. It's a fucking mess. Look around you. You fucking can't even do that because it's all you. There's nothing but. It's a fucking hot mess.