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I guess if Leo lived in Jerusalem it would seem more fitting. Shows how we have categorized and labeled and disowned. It's all Divine or none of it is. Go live life and live wherever the hell you want; not because one seem more spiritual than the next. The Divine is also in Las Vegas. Matter of fact it's the go-go dancer twerking in the champagne room as we speak and also the guy getting a hard on and jerking off. Free your mind.

Love this remark. Only a God could say something like that.

Funniest comment.

I'm not looking to make shit make sense because it doesn't. I'm not looking to get anything from spirituality because I can't. It's all empty. I'm not nihilistic. Quite the opposite. I don't care to change things. As far as I'm concerned, it's the ones doing spiritual work, practices and processes that are nihilistic. They're looking to change something looking for a better experience because they're not happy with how things are and think there must be more to life than this. In my book, that's nihilism - even though not really; just saying, if anything, to me, that's nihilistic. I'm not looking to fit anything into my world. Most are. I'm not denying the human genome or that humanity exists and all that. That's a word that came with a definition and meaning. Where does that fit into all this. As far as I'm concerned, I was taught everything I know whether it be through direct experience or by someone else through whatever medium. Intuition is a different thing, that cannot be taught it's innate. I go by intuition a lot; doesn't mean it's true or false or right or wrong. I try not to label things in that way. I don't care about truth because I don't know what falsehood is. I care about what is; and as far as I'm concerned, that's true. Whatever is, must be true by definition. I don't follow the herd. I'm a bit radical in thinking and I can see through life's bullshit. Yes, bullshit. Life is bullshit itself. There's none. It's all a play of energy. I've gone full circle. I see that there's nothing to see or get. I've seen, but not with the eyes, how it's the most marvelous, indescribable, most everything one can imagine at the top of the describable list of awesomeness and greatness that I can't even put into words. Don't get me wrong, don't think I'm saying what you're thinking I'm saying. What this is is too up there for me to even put in a box or label. Too great for me to even try and figure out. I will not taint it by trying to think I can even figure it out. I don't want to "flaw" it. I'm having fun with it. It's the most unimaginable thing there is. I'm getting goose bumps by even writing this post. I feel unworthy to even be trying to figure out life. Not in the sense of human's feelings of unworthiness but unworthy in the sense of "how dare me". What do I have at my disposal to even be attempting this feat. I'll be using what life gave me to try to figure out life - how paradoxical and ironic is that; not sure of the use of words there but that's what came out and I don't care to change it if those are the wrong words; see, that's what's true - using wrong words if that's the case. What's true is what is, not what could be, some "what if's", what I'd like to be or become or see or feel or imagine. In a sense, that's also true. I love this stuff so much, I can't even write in a journal much about anything else. I tried but couldn't. Not enough there to write home to mom about. I'll save the other stuff for casual conversations, responses and comments. As far as I'm concerned this is all tied in. It's all the same stuff just in boxes and categories and labels; just as how there's one forum with different sub-topics. I'll just stick to this being my forum and write about sub-topics underneath this. Literally THIS. I see no major difference in relationships/sex/politics/health/self-improvement/etc, and this. It's all this. All one fucking thing. It all ties in. This is political, sexual, controversial, and every topic under the sun. I see no separation. I'm not the crab being pulled into the pot. I'm not the one to be coming out the pot and be dragged down by the other crabs to stay drowned. I see I'm in water, I see that I'm a fish, I see that everything and everything is literally everything. I see there's no escaping this. I see I'm a prisoner and I see I'm free. I see that I'm a slave and the slave master. I see I'm literally every fucking thing. I see that I'm not seeing shit, i see that seeing is a scam. I see that the senses mean Jack shit. I see that I'm not an I and that there's no me. Not in the sense of non-duality's bullshit but literally no one there. I see that knowing is bullshit and feelings are bullshit and cravings and desires are bullshit. I see that the world is bullshit. I see the unseeable. I'm just bullshitting myself. I see infinity. I see the Absolute wonder in everything. I see that I'm curious. I see that all is a bullshit scam and that it's all reflective of nothing. I see that fear is so I can live. I see that life is non-existent. I see that non-existence is all there fucking is. The absence of fucking it all. I see that's all there is and I see that this is the most divine, untouchable, inescapable non thing there is. I see that it doesn't really matter because there is no because. Jesus Christ, this is just so fucking awesome. This forum has made me see all that. This forum is infinity and I've been bathing and basking as infinity the whole time without realizing it. Until now. This is everything. There's nothing but everything and that's seen. It's seen that nothing, literally nothing, can be seen.....IF WE JUST STOP LOOKING.

NOTHING IS WHAT'S REAL. It's Absolute. Infinite.

Nothing's real; like literally. No pun intended.

Do you see how this shit never ends and nobody getting anywhere. Where is there to go when everything is everything. I sit in awe and wonder how life was able to pull this shit off. I'm just in the middle of this drama too. There's no one, but I'm typing away. Then I die and rot in a grave; but then we say death is a concept and there's no one to die. This is some weird shit and people are here just typing away, so it seems, as if something is really happening. What are we awakening to. The alarm clock and back to bed? I wonder what tomorrow brings. Oh no, i forgot, there's no tomorrow only the present moment. Good nite!!

I doubt that's what he was saying. He seems to be more respectful than that. Ewww.

There's no one here. Life is talking to itself. Hi life.

"What is left after no self" is the question. The self didn't just automatically become a no self. There was never any there already. Embody? Integrate? Small self? Lived experience, even ego, all illusory. All the dream. I mean, I agree with you but only as the dream. We can talk dream stuff if you like but why not just wake up to nothing, speaking as nothing to nothing. It is already, but it's fooling itself.

There is already no self and no such thing as next but only for the "me" and the sense of separation. So, there's some traces of that illusory sense there even though not really because it's not really there. It's tricky. No steps to follow and embodying is a thing for the separate self. Your whole sentence suggests there's a sense of self there.

I did.

It is everything. It is the space in which it appears to be a becoming. It's not actually happening as it would take it and an outside something to make something happen. Something (even though it's not a thing) needs a subject and an object to 'happen' it is both the subject and the object so the same thing cannot be happening or becoming the same thing as it is everything. It is only apparent, which means appearing to happen, which means not really happening as in high heels makes a woman appear taller but she hasn't grown an inch, she didn't actually become taller, it never really happened. Nothing is being the woman, the high heels and the appearance of her looking taller, but since it is nothing, nothing is happening but it appears as something happening. 😏😏😏😏

Your problem is using women for sex only. Now you're looking for an alternative. Plenty of men out there are having satisfying relationships with women and enjoying the company of women. They see no need to choose one or the other as in celibacy VS pick up. It's just simply natural for them and they're not necessarily going out to pick up women it just happens. When these men truly enjoy the women they're with and not just looking for a quick horny fix, it tends to be more of a two-way street, things just naturally takes it's course. If break-up happens it happens, if staying together happens, it happens, none if this, I'll go celibate or I'll get this addiction out my system stuff. For you, maybe but that's what happens when it's all about getting laid and using the other sex for self-gratification. Just because it's that way for you, doesn't mean it's that way for others and they won't have some great experiences with it. It's like some can have just a glass or two of wine and enjoy it or guzzle down the whole bottle and be addicted from trying to fill an empty void. Plenty are meeting women naturally without setting out to pick-up women for sex, that's a more natural approach that doesn't lead to what you're addressing. Looking at women as people who you enjoy the company of and trying to find the one that fits into that will not create these kinds of tension you're experiencing and having to be doing something about. It will always be those who have bad intentions with women that encounter these resistances. If I recall you have some strange fantasies about women and that will reflect how women themselves sense the energy around you. Now you're having to reprogram yourself because your relations are proving to be unsatisfying with women.

Appearing as, it's not really being anything but that's the paradox. Nothing is actually happening. That doesn't sit well, now does it.

There is no real internalizing of an idea that reality is nothing. Nothing is what's speaking and being this idea, just as it's speaking and being what you're speaking about. Only a nothing can be all that and why it's free and liberated from bounds, constraints, ideas and concepts because it is all those things. Nothing is everything and everything is nothing. There's nothing here that needs to admit to that because it's not happening, there's noone here that anything is happening to and no one thats limited or unlimited already, there just is no one and limited and unlimited is nothing being that.

Yes, and that something is this fullness, vibrancy that we call life, but it's not actually anything, it is everything, nothing being everything BUT IT'S EMPTY. Nothing is not what the mind interprets as nothing, it's a kind of something but with no qualities, boundless, unlimited and free.

The body is falling asleep and waking up all on it's own. It took hours of habitual sleep and waking at the same time to form that pattern, so it will take hours and repetition to undo that. Nothing you can do or not do but to allow for the changes to happen naturally. If bedtime was 10 p.m. and automatic waking was say 6.a.m and now going to bed is 12midnight and waking is still 6,a.m the body is programmed to wake at 6 a.m. You feel groggy because of less hours of sleep but that has to continue for awhile for the body to get used to. Only solution i see here is to wing it out and try not to be more than 2hrs over, only because the vacay isn't forever and will cut short anyway. Drink lots of water in the morning before anything else to try and balance out the grogginess.

It's not that the ego is false and it's being denied, it just simply does not exist. Nothing exists. Exist means to stand out and nothing stands out. It's all nothing appearing and nothing is everything so there is really no existence but the one the dream has created for itself including trying to hold unto itself as being human. It always loses this battle as we can see what happens "in the end" because it was never there to begin with.

It's not that it's anti-human, where did this term "human" come from. What is it. You have labeled yourself human because everybody else around you has done the same, yet you defend it as if it's truth or a known fact. I'm not speaking of human characteristics or traits or personalities, etc, I'm specifically referring to the word itself. Human. What is that, without just describing how you see humans to be. All you can do is just that. Why not call it "pencil", "potato", no, the difference is in the distinction and category, it's a label and we've given it meaning and slapped on a purpose. Yet you defend it so, seem so attached to that identity, yet you seek openness and speak on becoming unlimited and all that jazz, yet you insist on being something else. This is not a denial of humanity, it's a confirmation of what is. What is, is just that, what is; with no labels, meaning, purpose, distinction or intention. The human/observer/sense of self/individual/person, is the one that has seemingly slapped all those things unto what is and now it tries to undo that by trying to become....become something other than what is. It calls itself something but wants to be something else. This isn't about anti-human spirituality, it's about the flaws of human-spirituality and that's the hindrance; no human and everything is as you speak of in regards to the natural flow and openness to what is already. Take that sense away and all is perfect. Can't you see what you've done. You've put a label on yourself, told yourself what you are, attached yourself to that label, defend that label but in the same breath want to be with the cosmos and break the record by turning a human into an elephant. (analogy here), but it's just what you're trying to accomplish. You keep saying it's hard and might have accomplished some effects through psychedelics but it's an impossible feat. Why, because there's no true becoming....no true transcending,,,no true ...."ingings" of any kind, that's all the dream of separation which is not really happening in the first place. The human/person/individual is the most unnatural thing in this existence, infact, it is it's own existence/reality/dream. Everything else is natural but the human. The one that senses itself to be separate. It's so unnatural it has to practice and process it's way into being. It wants to stay still and silent and seeks for peace and happiness. It just cannot stand itself, how unnatural it is. Yet you insist on being that. I'm not saying the "thing" we see and believe to be human doesn't exist, yes it does, but it's a part of nature itself, the body that is and all it's workings but without the human part, without the one inside, without that sense, it believes to be there but it isn't. That's the illusion/dream that's the unnatural part, without that all is just simply what is and no need for anything to be done. There's no need for that sense to even change, as that's also nature/this/absolute appearing as that but it is a very annoying and disruptive appearance and just what also is this. Also, there's nothing natural about Spirituality, it's either everything or nothing. In the sense of it being man-made, concepts, ideas and stories, there's nothing natural about that.

Nice video.

I just watched a very interesting video on the forum posted by Integration Journey with Rupert Spira speaking on conscious relationships. Really nice video. When it comes to what I'm about to say here, I'd rather speak on it here rather than taint someone's thread with non-dual talk (hate the term non-dual but I use it for clarity and expression), especially if the thread isn't about that. When it comes to relationships with other, sexual/intimate relationships, we seek them out and yearn for them as a sign of unity and wanting to feel the oneness that we are. Afterall, love is the absence of separation so if we feel separate, it's only natural that that energy would want to engage in activities that would make it feel whole again. Doesn't work because it's not really separate but it's a nice try and well worth it if the relationship turns out to be a flourishing one and one of love, understanding and compassion. Nothing can truly take the place of what is already which is no separation. What he's really explaining in that video, is because there's no one really in these bodies, the sense of self (ego) is more likely to taint that relationship and turn it into a needy one, one of 'seeking for' and now nature cannot really do it's thing without the seeming interruption of the natural flow of the essence of oneness. It's not really but only seems to and only in appearance. When that sense is present, it can get very neurotic and seems to be imbalanced and ungrounded and will project that unto everything including the relationship. He's (Rupert) not going to say there's no one really there and that relationship is just happening, who says that (but me, hehe) but that's really the case. The sense of self is the one that seeks for this unity; and if it's into spirituality, then it's more likely to want to seek out a more conscious one, one that's more likely to be compatible with that energy flow so to has a better experience which is all that sense seeks for - a better experience. The reason why our natural essence is peace and tranquility and all that jazz is because there's no one in these bodies already. It's not that the person's natural essence is peace, etc, it's that the sense of a self is not peaceful, at a dis-ease, neurotic, never satisfied and all that jazz. When that's not present, which it's not already but felt as if it is, it's just what's happening but to no one. How can that not be peaceful and bliss. Saying to someone who seeks bliss and harmony that there's no one really there, they'll look at you crazy, but will continue to do practices and processes to attain that state. That's the dream. We hear all the time how our natural state is peace but never really understanding that it's because there's no one there. That's what that really means, the absence of the neurotic and dis-eased self. Even when there's anger and rage and sadness and all those what we call negative things are happening, because there's no one processing that and claiming ownership of nothing and doesn't see other but just what's appearing and doesn't see objects, it doesn't affect the energy as in someone where that sense is present, that's the natural peace that's being spoken about. It's not that those other things won't arise because they will, it's that no one senses them to be personal. This is why the sense of self feels the need to do processes and practice itself away in these contexts because it doesn't feel natural and is trying to feel a sense of naturality. It's a life-long practice because the effects doesn't last forever. Thousands of hours and decade long practices, when stopped will go right back to homeostasis and that's what 'never getting anywhere means'. It's already not happening so how can it change anything for real. This is the freedom I speak about but for no one and it's already done. Not suggesting one stops anything but it's just energy's attempts at unity for something that's already not broken. Nothing wrong either way, again, but only in appearance and to the one observing.

I know I speak of "no one" a lot and how there's no one in these bodies and how life is doing life, etc. It's not that I get a kick out of this or I'm just parroting non-dual speakers or whatever else it might seem like, but it does make for a better understanding of things in general. I mean, the amount of 'clarity' and understandings I've gained from this notion alone is incredible. So many unanswered questions answered to the point where things are starting to fall into place from this realization. I don't try to apply this and I don't use it as an excuse to or not to, (even though no one would be doing that even if it was the case) and I don't need to keep saying no one is doing that or even constantly refer back to that once it's fully 'established' (hard to find the right words to use in these kinds of statements, but i won't get hung up on words here). I don't live my life as a no one nor do I not feel as a someone, that sense is still here; it's that something else is also here that (again, not sure of the word) intuits or maybe 'counter senses' the sense of self. Not sure that's even a thing, but it's irrelevant if it's a thing or not. Ut's kind of a weird sense but it's there and I can't really explain it. It's not an intellectual sense, not even a felt sense, not sure how to categorize it, but anyway that's not the point of this post. I don't really want to go too much in depth about that because it's all stories anyway will be too intellectualized and loses it's freshness and rawness and seem like I'm explaining away something that can't really be explained. I don't mind a little here and there, but even now I can feel a sense of forgetting what this post was really about and I can feel the self sense hitting hard. I lost the flow. That's what I mean. It goes in and out, in and out. Of course, it's not really there but the sense is and that's what's driving the show. The sense is there as much as a sense of smell is but just as one can lose their sense of smell, it's nit that they've lost anything, it's that the sense was never really there to begin with; smelling was happening to no one and now that part of the sense of someone smelling no longer is. That's what happens in dementia, sense of self isn't there. I'll start another post on what I really wanted to write about here before this one gets too long. Don't care the length, but I'm losing momentum.

Back sooner than I thought. Ah James, poor James....we love you James.

I just pretty much learnt/heard of Indras Net. I heard the term twice in a couple days and decided to look it up. I think, maybe once, I've heard the term a few years back because the term doesn't seem 100% new and sounds like some term i've heard before but I never researched or explored it. I was trying to explain something on the forum yesterday about the moon's reflection and they mentioned something about indras net. They probably assumed I 'm familiar with the term but i'm not. Infact, it's between that interaction and Olber's comment about it today on the solipsism thread, that prompted me to check it out. I'm writing about this because my previous post, the one exactly prior to this which I made yesterday about my sister and Paris and me being in my bubble and everyone in their bubble and so on sounds a bit similar to the indras net concept. The difference I believe is that I think each person isn't connected to the other and is their own individual net but only as a reflection. Anyway, this post isn't to try and figure anything out but to say how I'll be coming up with things all on my own all the time just to see it explained somewhere else or is a thing in some well-known philosophy - true or not, is the case or not. I see it happen all the time. Now I'm starting to wonder if I'm spiritually gifted or that I'm truly alone doing this all by myself. I know the terms "all alone" and "by myself" sounds solipstic(sic) sic means not sure of the spelling, but I don't really mean it like that; infact, i'm not sure what I really mean. I was like a virgin to spirituality when I found Leo's channel. I never knew about any of this stuff prior which has been about 5-6/7 years now. I know it was before covid but not too long before maybe 1-2yrs before. I was listening to and watching law of attraction videos and stuff like that for like a year before that but that was it. Then yt recommended Leo's channel and I never looked back. Sure I've watched tons of other videos since, had my share of questions and confusions and all that, but ilve never subscribed to any particular ideologies or philosophies knowingly; meaning knowing this wzs so and so like say Buddhism and then I ascribed to it. No, I'd find out later that what I've said was a Buddhist tradition or belief or advaita or something like that. If it weren't for people telling me how what I'm saying is advaita or other mentioning the name, I would have never known about that tradition or whater it is philosophy. I would probably watch a video and see advaita in the description but it's not because I searched out advaita and deliberately watched because of that, I may just be resonating with something said and liked to watch the video for it's own sake. I get accused of advaita stuff all the time but I'll just be saying stuff on behalf of my own accord and what I 'believe' to be the case; I put belief in quotes but it's beyond belief but for the sake of writing I'll just say believe. Sure, I was introduced to non-duality and I got a bit fixated on that because it answered just about every unanswered question I had in the past but I'm not even all over the place as much with that and stick to just two or three speakers. I never watch Tony Parsons but have been accused of mimmicking him in the past. Advaita is not the same as non-duality and they are teachers, I'm not into teachers of non-duality only speakers. People who aren't giving you a call to action. Do this or that. It wasn't until I was being accused of advaita stuff that I really even realize there was a thing called advaita (about 2yrs ago), so I'm not it's brand new to me now but I don't know much about any of these common philosophies and what they teach prese and what belongs to which and why. All I know is that from all the things i've heard, seen, experienced, intuited, thought about feel, idk, whatever, and from listening to what sone speakers have to say (yes, there are influences, but they tie in with my own) I just speak from my own gut influence and that's how I'm able to speak with my own words, give my own analogies and can speak so indepth on the topics I speak on. Not saying I know them to be true or that everything I say is the case, no, what the heck do I know, but I'm saying most of it isn't just from someone else's saying, it is coming from what I say and sometimes feel to be the case, then I'll get accused of following some philosophy. I'm rambling on, I'll break this thought up.