Princess Arabia

Your computer didn't lag, that game didn't stall, your phone didn't act up, that game didn't glitch, etcetcetcetc. That was the absolute appearing however the fuck it wants. Everything is fresh and new. EDIT: Soon as I wrote that, my other device wants to act up as if to answer me back saying STFU; I'll show ya.

.....and I stopped at the 2nd page, imagine if I'd do the 3rd.

Three more posts and you'll beat the record. You're at 17 now for the month.

You have created an idea of God and then projected that idea of God unto Leo and now you blast him away because he doesn't live up to your idea of God. That's what's happening here. Replace the word God with ego in the above quote and that's pretty much the case. The ego gives birth to itself, fills it with desires, longings, etc, and now the ego must deny it's own creation. God didn't create anything. The ego doesn't really exist and is illusory. It's an idea and a bunch of stories.

What/Who's there to notice that. Does a rainbow disappear the moment it's seen to not be real, No, the rainbow disappears when whatever is making the rainbow appear to be in the first place disappears. Same with the ego. The one that created the ego cannot be around to see it's disappearance.

If I'm pure awareness, why do I need to practice self-inquiry and any spiritual practice for that matter. Who is the one trying to find this out. Who is the one that is going to know that it is pure awareness. Why do I have to practice what I already am. Is a cat also pure awareness. Why am I not seeing cats and dogs in the mirror wondering who they are. Looking like, hmmmm, I wonder what is this that's licking my paw. Who is this beast in the mirror. Only humans who think they're special would invent some notion like self-inquiry. I'm going to continue to unwrap, debunk, question and go to the core of all these spiritual teachings till I can't go any further. Not to try and prove something but to see how contradictory they are and, in my opinion, are only there to soothe the false egoic structure and the one that thinks it's real into feeling better about it's illusory existence and to bring about some ease of the dis-ease that has plagued it for most of it's non-existent life.

Speak it, my friend.

How the fuck am i going to think I'm something other than what i am. Why is it such a mystery. You are not the body. You are not the mind. What am i then. The empty space that houses the body and mind. Can't believe some people actually fall for that trick. I'm an empty space. I'm laughing just thinking about this shit. I am awareness. Even bigger bullshit. Can't you see that you're aware. Who is aware. Me?. The human? The empty space? Awareness? Who are you. Who is it that tells me who I am. Are you empty space telling me I'm empty space. Are you awareness telling me I'm also awareness. Are you aware of me shitting on the toilet. If you're awareness then I have to be awareness and I have to be aware of everything. Is that how it works. Or I'm just aware of what I'm aware of and know about. Who is aware of the killer that killed the next door neighbor. The killer? He's aware of himself. He's not the killer? He's only aware of himself smashing that guy's head to pieces. They locked up awareness. They locked up a body/mind and awareness is aware of that. Awareness is aware of the killer in jail. So if I'm not the killer(say I killed someone) and I'm only aware of myself killing somebody and they catch me and I'm punished then I'm alright because i'm just the empty space of awareness being aware of my stupid actions. So who killed the guy. Who should be punished. Not that empty space fo sure, can't catch that. Awareness is going around murdering people and getting away with that shit because it's empty space. What the....... Ok. That's a bit silly. Who am I. I'm nobody. I'm a sense. Something that feels like a somebody in a body but no one is actually there. No one can do self inquiry because there's no self to inquire into. It's that stupid energy inquiring into itself. Who am I. You're nothing. It's just a body. The body is doing it's own thing. There's no one in the driver's seat. It's so silly doing self inquiry. You tell me I'm God then tell me to inquire into the self. Self inquiry is the most deceptive form of spiritual practice if I ever saw one. Who is inquiring and into what. Then I need another no-self to teach me how to inquire into my no-self self. Is that teacher God, telling me how to inquire into God or is he Mr. Awareness Empty Space teaching another empty space how to inquire into empty space. Ok, I rest. I'm so silly.

This is so not true; if anything it's the opposite. You have narrowed down dating, commitment, companionship and relationships down to being financial and seem to not realize people seek genuine companionship too and the wealthy are even more inclined to want a more stable relationship status. It's very rare you find people in the wealthy category single.

If I see anything claiming to be truth, if I see any arguments for God that doesn't involve a cockroach or a bird or a lion or a wall or a bench, I'm out - metaphorically speaking. I'm so through with this narcissistic, neurotic approaches to God and life and it's human bullshit self-serving, egotistical delusional God deception nonsensical narratives. Everything about God and it's existence is revolved around humans and our delusions. The only reason I'm still into Spirituality is because I just love the concept; and, yes, it's a concept. Not much more in life that interests me other than the art of food making. I just love to see people turn food into art. I call it art because that's exactly what it is. Turning a mushroom into a burger is art. Putting together a colorful salad with earth's food is art. Spirituality in the sense of nature and how anything is possible and the dynamics of existence is a passion of mine. So-called humans have turned it into something to get something out of, to use and abuse for their own gain just like anything else we put our hands on. If there's no personal value involved, they don't want anything to do with it. They aren't roaches or birds or elephants so when it comes to anything spiritual, those creatures don't matter, it's only about the human and what it can do for them and which guru is telling them things to ease their God forsaken suffering. It's pretty pathetic. We have turned spirituality into a personal agenda and we suffer more because of that. Now we invent all sorts of shit to try and counteract that. We invent all kinds of concepts and ideas to make up for what we've done. Shadow work, self-inquiry, trying to realize who we are, terms like spiritual bypassing to drag the crabs back into the pot. We're so clever but we miss the fact that it's the cleverness that is really over-shadowing what's really going on here. I'll tell you what's really going on here. Nothing is personal. Life doesn't see you. It doesn't give a shit if you're suffering or not. It doesn't give a shit if you realize God or not. It doesn't give a shit if you awaken to anything or not. It doesn't give a shit if a hurricane comes and blows you and your entire family away or not. It doesn't give a shit if you get sex or not. It doesn't give a shit if you're angry or sad or pessimistic or happy or in bliss. It will show you that nothing belongs to you. It will give you shit and take it back. It will show up how it wants to no matter how much you practice life and turn it into a process. It will not dedicate anything to you. It will tell you to kiss it's ass. There is nothing here for you. You have no purpose, rhyme or reason. Yes, you can get from life things and more things and some more things. Then what, all that leaves you with is wanting for more, and more and more. Is that really a gain. Is that really life giving you anything if you can never be satisfied. Life is actually against the human. Not intentionally, because it doesn't see a human but because the human has turned it into a self-fulfilling deceit. It's so greedy, it doesn't realize it's causing it's own demise. It can't help it and it's not it's fault. That's the fucking tragedy. These words won't even register to a human. It won't even realize what I'm saying. It'll think I'm being mad and angry or talking stupid shit while it goes about life thinking it's in in control. It suffers along the way and blames the world and other humans for it's suffering. Instead of trying to realize God or awakening to what you're not, how about sitting back and wonder why the world is as it is. Why are few so rich and many suffer. Why when a problem gets solved, here comes another not too far behind, why is it left to you to figure life out when you were just a baby with no life blueprint on how to live life, why does it take a stranger on the internet to tell you who you are and not your mommy and poppy, why are so many making millions from that ignorance while you remain poor and meditating away to reach God realization. I'll tell you why, because there's nothing to any of this stuff. It's all empty and means nothing. There's no one here and life us just doing life, even the one that thinks it's a person life is doing that. Life is cruel. Life is suffering. There's no way around that. In life there is nothing personal and it's for no one, Nothing has even been done to you or for you personally and this belief is what's fucking everybody up to the point of depression, anxiety and needing therapy. Drug addicts and alcoholism and everything else of this nature is borne from this false belief that we are humans with a soul, consciousness, awareness and have a purpose and that we matter. This is the only thing I've recognized, realized, that it's not personal and that sense of personhood is a fucking thing from hell.

Ok. I see.

The reason why humans love to call God a "he" is because they think they're real, they see themselves as a person so now everything they relate to is in relation to them. God must be a person since he's made in my image, they're probably saying. God is this, he is this, he has qualities now because they see qualities in themselves. They can't help it. Even if they intuit that God is not a person, which I'm sure they really don't see God as a person, but it's just an automatic response. They have created an image of God and now relate to it as a "he", even an "it". I understand language is limited but that's besides the point. Just look at how people express their thoughts about God and relate to it (yes, I said it), as if it's different from them. No one really knows what this God they're talking about is. They were born into it or was taught and now believe it's a thing that can be related to. We can call energy God if we want but it's still energy. Energy has no qualities and cannot be related to. It isn't personal. It sees no one. It's everything. There's no God that rules over anything and there's no God that created anything. It's all energy and energy is all there is. It even parades around as a "he" God.

@Leo GuraThese statements seem contradictory. Explain.

Every time I look at this forum, there's an issue with the non-existing ego. You're going to tell me there's someone there behind that mask. The dream can't seem to go away. It can't because it's just a dream. End of dream, end of person. It's sad, yet, it isn't. Only to this me.

Lol. Best regards.

There's no me to be free. Free of/from what? This is already freedom playing a part. Who starts a thread by just saying "contemplate" only James after starting 10 more threads. It's an observation. You find your journal boring to write in because you feel the need to be seen. It's a waste of time to click on a thread that just says contemplate.

Forum is on lightening speed this morning. I can't keep up. Thanks Leo for fixing the issue. I was getting annoyed with this stupid thing getting kicked off every few minutes.

If there's a problem, it's because there's a 'me' attached to the situation. No 'me', no problem, just what's occurring.

You started a journal, but it didn't last. I guess you feel the need to start a thread about every thought. Journals are great for expressions but I guess not for the one that needs to be seen or heard for saying nothing.

We're constantly chasing happiness and avoiding suffering. Neither lasts. When suffering ends, it ends. Phew! That's it. When happiness ends, it's not "phew, that's it", it's where did you go. Come back. I need to feel you. I need you in my life, boo boo. Sob, sob. Where did you go. I need to find you again and the search begins. We find it, and boo hoo again we mourn it's passing, and the cycle begins. We got a taste of it. Suffering, on the other hand, never gets chased, mourned and saught after like a long lost love, it just comes and goes. Happiness is what's making us suffer. The lack of it. We're not avoiding mental pain, we're chasing happiness. What will make me suffer never enters our mind. What will make me happy constantly does. It's like an addiction. We feed off of the chase. Wanting more and more. Suffering isn't chased, desired or wanted because it doesn't feel good. It's not a goal we strive for. How can it be the enemy. If a man is gay and is constantly hurt by men, women wouldn't be the enemy just as men aren't the enemy in this way for straight men and vice versa. What you're seeking is the enemy if the lack of it causes us pain. The lack of suffering brings us joy, so how is that the enemy. The lack of happiness is what's causing the suffering and what brings us the most pain. So, therefore happiness is the real culprit, whether you realize it or not.

Yes. It's a felt sense. There's also a felt sense that it's not. It comes and goes. It's hard to explain. What is quite obvious, though, is that there's no one here nor there. We can't be individuals sharing the same senses and it be real. I'm reading your writings and you reading my writings. Can't be. Two separate individuals can't be sensing the same things. Plus by the time you've read this it'll be time passing and time is an illusion so the reader and writer have to be illusory.

No it won't. The same way a live tree won't respond back hi. A live person isn't responding either. It's the Absolute responding to itself. No one responds to anyone. Not even here. Responding is happening all on it's own and without a responder.

Yes. Experience is an illusion. Requires an experiencer. Experiencer isn't actually there.

I said earlier I was just like everyone else. I'm not claiming anything.

Nothing is real.