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This might not resonate and I also feel your pain. You cannot wake up to God the Divine beauty precisely because you are that. NOTHING. It exists because of you, not the other way around. NOTHING exists because something exists. If you didn't exist NOTHING would exist. Cannot have hot without cold, white without black, up without down, etc. An empty room isn't touched by it's contents precisely because it is empty, void and without qualities. In order for there to be a room it has to be bounded, measured, limited, and has some quality to it. The contents of the room doesn't touch the room and the room couldn't exist without it's borders. Without limitation, boundaries, measurements, there is no room. You are limited, bounded and measured, your opposite is God or the Divine or Nothing. Everything has an opposite in this material, relative world. If there wasn't, NOTHING would exist. God cannot exist with you. You cannot exist with God. Has to be one or the other. Hot and cold cannot exist together. They both collapse to form a union. While you're in this form you cannot wake up to God. You will die. God cannot be both. It is both but it cannot BE both at the same time. All your work and practices and processes will lead nowhere precisely because they're being done while their opposite is what holds them together - so to speak. Like two sides of a coin. You are trying to get enlightened as a somebody but you can't because that somebody has an opposite. You are only a somebody because a nobody exists. That nobody exists because of a somebody. Problem is while you're one, the other cannot shine. Drop the need for enlightenment and drop the processes and doings so the other can shine. It cannot be visible to you when there are paintings all over it. You don't notice the empty canvas, you notice the painting. Two people walk in a room one knew a painting was on the wall the other didn't. One notices a missing painting, the other sees just an existing wall. Cannot notice something that some other thing covers. Notice that you can't see empty space, but empty space is a thing. When you sleep it emerges, when you awaken it gets hidden. Stop trying to awaken and go to sleep instead.

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My appetite is fairly big. I can eat, but never put on any weight. Even if I pig on icecream and pizza.

I can only start a personal journal for so long till I discard it. I find just talking about myself and my life....let's see...what's the word.....a few words describes that,....a drag, boring, stale, neurotic, narcissistic, psychotic....wait, that's a bit much. Imagine talking about myself on paper after living with myself all day and everyday, that's like I can't get enough of self. That's why I used the word narcissistic - in that way, I mean. I can do it for so long. I'd rather talk about other people (not gossip), life, the world, reality, even if I'm included it's not like talking constantly about what I did today or yesterday, or what I went through as a child or how this or that affected me or how I feel about this person or that person and what I this or I that or I didn't do or I feel or I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I. Lol. I've had enough of I. I want to know.....see I again....I wish that I could.....wait, I again......i never know what.....my, my.,,.I again. I'm sick of I. I mean why relive life. Stale news on paper is quite boring to me. Yes, I'll talk about something that happened or about me at times but I can't just journal about that everyday. I will pop in once in awhile but not on a constant basis. Ironically this post is about I but it's not a typical post and I'm trying to make a point about I, so I have to reference the I. Don't get me wrong, I will talk about I but it is sporadic and spontaneous and if that's the thought at the time. I tried once to document my spiritual journey and progress and that lasted for about a week or two before I got bored with that and found it a drag. There is no process or journey here, it's all spontaneous and embodied so I would be just talking about myself again. Life is just so spontaneous and freeing that it really doesn't need documenting. It's still a fun thing to do anyway if that's why you're doing it, or why I'm doing it, because if it's to get somewhere with this or to prove a point or something like that, then that's the drag part. I love writing and sharing my thoughts sometimes and it's quite spontaneous. I speak a lot about reality because I enjoy the topic. I, I, I, I...let me get back to I.

I wonder what's above the sky. Hehe. There is no sky. Goodnight.

If you kept picking apples from a tree and I said stop picking the apples from off the tree, would you need someone to tell you how to stop picking apples off the tree? No, because you're the one picking apples in the first place so you know how to stop. You are not the thinker of thoughts or else you would know how to stop thinking.

Ok. Try to post cooking of street food from anywhere. Even if it was the making of what you posted. It's not just for pics of pastries

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All it takes for most men to WANT to have sex with a woman is her appearance. For most women, it takes more than a physical appearance to WANT to have sex with a man; but not just that, even if she wants to, it doesn't mean she'll go ahead and do it. Females have more men hitting on them, yes, than women hitting on men but not many she would actually want to, or have sex with. Wanting sex for us doesn't just come from feeling horny, but with a specific type of guy. A woman can have sex with someone she's not physically attracted to just like men, but a man will do it purely for physical reasons while a woman, in this case, it would be circumstantial. A man could be horny, and if an attractive woman hits on him, and is willing to sleep with him, more than likely he'd go, especially if he's single. For a horny woman, that takes more than just a guy hitting on her, physically attractive to her or not. So no, women don't have more options for sex preferences - men do. Going out the door and having multiple guys hitting on me DOES mean I'll have more options for sex, but it DOESN'T mean my preferences are abundant. Sex for most women is different than what it is for men, please understand that. MEN WILL FIND MORE WOMEN THEY'D SLEEP WITH THAN WOMEN WITH MEN. This is not about status, wealth, attractiveness, competence, confidence, security, etc. either, just in general. All a man needs is for her to be his type, and sometimes not, and he's willing if he's single and looking and sometimes not also. Women aren't generally out looking for strange men just to have sex with, so her options are limited in that way. Men aren't out approaching lots of women just to go have coffee or tea. Notice what I put in the heading: Sexual Preference, not just options.

Your breath isn't real. The Absolute appears as breath. Of course, I'm not saying it doesn't appear to be real and without it you'd still be alive and that we don't need air to breathe, etc. What I'm saying is there's no God giving you breath and taking it away. Breath is just breath. Just like a hand is a hand and the heart a heart. Breath didn't come from a creator who gave it to you and can take it away. When you're dead, it's the Absolute appearing as a dead person. Everything is presence being. There's no continuation of any kind, only appears that way. The mind cannot grasp or understand (this) because it operates in a linear fashion and resides in the past and the future. That's why I say there really is no mind since the past and future are projections of the mind and doesn't really exists. If mind is all there is, then mind doesn't exist because to exist means to stand out. Anyway, that's all semantics and up for grabs. I'll continue to say mind because I feel like I have one. Whether it exists or not is not up for my debates and musings with myself.

Yes, I was going to add in my statement that sometimes it's just a matter of words, semantics, language. All depends on what's being pointed to and the meanings behind the words used. Some used interchangeably and can sometimes be misunderstood. That's the challenge with language and meaning, it's relativistic and carries different meanings to the one perceiving.

Silence: Silence is good. It's refreshing. It helps with clarity, builds concentration, let's the ripples relax and temper down, it allows for wisdom to flow through. Don't get me wrong when I speak of spiritual practices and rituals in a way like I'm saying they're no good or a waste of time. They're not. Clubbing is not a waste of time either. It gives one an experience, especially when they're young to help with socialization, getting to know how you respond and react to crowds, etc...nothing is really pointless. It all depends on the perspective one has of it, how they use it, reflect on it, learn from it, etc. Silene, to me comes spontaneously. Not trying to accomplish something. Like I'd be in the middle of something and just stop. Silence. Leave the thoughts alone, no observation of any kind, just plain old silence. When I come back, it feels refreshing and a bounce of energy emerges. Then I continue with what I was doing. Or if I'm on a nice walk, no headphones, music or anything, just walking and listening to the air or the trees, or looking up in the sky, or just walking. I can sit there in silence, but I don't try to be silent. I don't use it as a tool to try and accomplish anything, it just happens. That's how I view it. It's a way and a means all by itself. Doesn't matter if it feels good or not, I'm not looking to feel good. I'm doing what comes naturally. I'm not trying to become, I'm being. In this way, I don't act, I become the practice, I become it and it becomes me. It is me, it is who I am. There's no point to get at, then silence stops. It's a way of being. Nothing to accomplish. Nothing to say, I'm there now so i don't have to do this anymore. It acts as a bodily function. The body does it naturally. That's how silence is for me. I don't need a retreat to be silent. I am silence itself.

Time and space appears to exist so it's not like we're not having the experience of it. It's not like a chair exists and time doesn't. The chair doesn't exist either. It only appears to, appears as a physical object to the one observing. Nothing can just pop up and be observed without the appearance of time and space either. That still requires the appearance of both for you to even see it there. What is being said here is that space is also popping up and time is also popping up - using your language. Without you being there neither pops up. Your perception of the object, whether physical or abstract, creates the space and your thought creates the time. The Absolute, which is you, appears simultaneously or at the same time to render the experience of frequency happening. Time, space, frequency....all of it is appearing with your consciousness to produce the effects. This is why I've said before that consciousness is the dream and awareness also, they are not absolute. Youre trying to grasp this with the logical mind but try to think of it as everything is the Absolute appearing and consciousness and awareness are what's used to filter those appearances to give the effect of experience, a world, a you with a life and to allow for things to not seem unreal or imagined. Absolute also apparently appears as consciousness and awareness. Leo and most says that consciousness is fundamental but I'm still working on that because I can't see how that is when it implies someone to be conscious of something when that is duality.

I enjoyed these two videos about Reality. Kastrup and Huffman are featured. I'm familiar with both and always interested in what they have to say about Quantum Physics, Reality and the structure of the brain and mind. What I like to do is this: I listen to what the extreme non-duality talkers have to say. The ones that say there is no one, nothing is really happening, there's no person inside these bodies, there is no world, all there is is this, the energy that thinks it's separate is a dream. People like Jim Newman, Alexis, Roses Roses, Paul Hedderman, Kenneth Madden. Then I listen to speakers like Katstrup, Huffman and any interesting video with speakers talking about reality, quantum physics consciousness and so on, relatable videos, not just any ole speaker but reputable ones. Whether what they're saying is true or not because they all have skeptics and not all of them agree with each another. Then I try to compare them all and formulate my own thesis on the information received. Even what Leo says. I don't dismiss or accept any of it, I just listen with an open mind and try to see where the commonalities are. What are they all saying in the underlying structure of their messages. Simply saying there's no one is a bit simplistic and doesn't really make sense all on it's own, but saying all is mind, the brain constructs reality, particles when observed reacts differently, there's a delay in perception, the brain filters out what's not important, the mind acts like a computer and so on, it makes for a better understanding of what either side really means and it's like putting together the pieces of the puzzle, in a sense. When a non-duality speaker says there's no person in these bodies in control and free will is an illusion, I don't just go with that and start parroting without having an understanding of what that means or is pointing to and when I analyze to myself what the other speakers are saying, it's pretty much the same thing. I say, if that may be the case, then that other thing may be the case, and it fits nicely with what that other is saying. All of this is also done with my observing myself, people, the universe reality, habits, patterns, structures and not just going off of what these people are saying. I conduct my own experiments this way. I'm not a scientist or quantum mechanist or Universalist or whatever but I am a part reality or all of it and I'm not just something on the outside looking in so I can use my senses and intuition to help in my own little experimental hobby. Anyway, these two videos I found interesting; and I wanted to put them here for future reference and to re-watch again to get a better understanding. Nothing is concrete in my mind and it's all an ongoing process and it's what I like to do and find fascinating. I'm not hung up on anything in particular but certain things to me are just baseline and obviously the case but even then i'm still open for other possibilities to emerge and shed a new light on things. I also observe how algorithms work and how technology is able to do what it does and compare that to how reality may be structured. None of that can be made possible without the other as it's all conjoined and nothing is separate from another. Algorithms are possible only because of how the mind works, maybe the brain. It's all an experiment to me, and since I'm involved in all this because I am also not separate from it, it's always interesting what i can come up with by also observing myself and also others. Whether I am or not, there is no self or not, consciousness and awareness is the dream or not, there are no others or not, free will or not, determinism is a thing or not, it's all up for exploration and experimenting with. Everything and everyone is a piece of the puzzle; and even if there is no puzzle to solve, there's nothing else better to do and be a part of than exploring reality and the likes, for me that is. Even the mundane parts of life plays a role so I don't exclude any of it.

Who or what turns on a remote controlled TV? Is it the remote, the person or the TV itself. Did the remote turn the tv on, did the person using the remote turn the TV on or did the TV turn on itself.

There really isn't any NOW. It's just that it's the word we use to describe the present moment and there really isn't even a present moment. Let me try my best to explain it to you to the best of my knowledge. Think of a night dream or when you're asleep. The space and time in that dream is also dreamt up. While dreaming you're at the beach, where is the space and time then. You dream you're walking to the store, but you're laying in bed. Everything that is happening within the dream is happening within the time and space that's also within the dream. When you wake up, were you ever at the beach or walked to the store? No, it never really happened. The dream happened but what you were dreaming about never really happened. Where was this dream coming from. You'll say the brain, the mind, consciousness but it actually came from nowhere and came from nothing. It appeared while you were sleeping from nowhere. It didn't come from out of your head, if that's what you think. No time and space was needed for you to dream. Time and space was being dreamt and nothing really happened. You only remember dreaming after you wake up. When thoughts and mind appear. Thought is time and perception is space. All that's gone while you're asleep. When you're awake it appears. Same thing here. You are the dream. Everything you conceive of and perceive is illusory. There is no conceiver or perceiver. Things are just appearing and happening. The dream was appearing and happening, but you weren't there to say wow, look at this dream im dreaming. There was no actual observer. Even in lucid dreams. That just seems more real but it's still dreaming. Bear in mind that the word "dream" is just a word and what we've given meaning to. What's happening here can be called anything so don't get caught up with the word, just try and grasp what it is I'm saying. If you didn't know anything, you wouldn't be able to have a perception. Perception and knowing in the waking state is the dream. It's not really happening. The present moment, NOW, what is, All there is, Being, is "The Thing" you say you don't know what it is. No one knows. Another name is God or Absolute. It appears as everything. It's being everything. NOW. What you saw yesterday is now a memory happening NOW. Absolute is appearing as a memory NOW. When you think of the future, the Absolute is appearing as the future. The Absolute appears as space and time. The Absolute/God is nothing that's why it can appear as anything. That frequency you talk about is the Absolute appearing as such. The time the frequency needs to be perceived is the Absolute appearing as apparent frequency that needs time to be perceived. I'll stop here. Any questions, I'll try to answer. Hope you understand what I'm saying here.

If I walk to the store and it took me 15mins to get there from my previous destination, how could that happen without there being time and space? It never really happened. Nothing is happening. Time is also nothing appearing as time including space. The time you talk about is the same as a chair. The space you think is there can also be called a tree. Just as a tree appears, time and space also appears, now. Neither is separate from each other, neither is a thing. Only appears that way. To the observer. No observer no nothing. Magic baby magic.

@SchizophoniaLooks good. Haven't tried.