Princess Arabia

We're not seeking enlightenment, we're seeking an end to our suffering. Sad to see how we use reality so much for our selfish endeavors. All these awakening stories and enlightenment stories of how it impacts me and what I've gained and referring to it as "my awakening", really is funny. Everything is about my this and my that for the individual. Isn't it obvious how it's unbalanced and doesn't have any grounds to stand on but it's own illusory world of me and mine but uses other to get to where it wants to go.

Nothing wrong with any teaching. Nothing Absolutely wrong OR RIGHT (let's make that clear) with anything. This is freedom. Freedom doesn't feel good. Freedom isn't for anyone. It isn't limited to human conditioning. Freedom means all is welcome, nothing is off limits. Freedom is freedom trying to get enlightened to end suffering. Trying to awaken to it's non-existing true nature, congratulating someone in some trip report it had thinking it's God. That's also freedom being that. Can't go wrong and I won't say on the Absolute level but relatively speaking.....no...it's all on the absolute level because relativity is an illusion.

A lot of spiritual teachers went through immense suffering and found relief so now they're trying to teach other me's how not to suffer. This is just more pipe dreams and dream world talking to dream world. What is there to let go of when nothing can be held unto. They'll teach, let go of thoughts, let go of this and that, surrender to this and that but next week tell you nothing can be held unto. Thoughts aren't yours to let go of in the first place. When I realized that I wasn't my thoughts and blah blah.......ok then, there's no need to teach you're not your thoughts then is there, no thoughts to let go of if they're not yours.

This seeking energy is just wrapped up in and filled with addictive tendencies. It's just addicted to itself. Me,me,me,me,me,me,me. It can't help it. There's nothing outside of that institutionalized me world. Self-improvement, self-love, self-abidance, self- this and self that. All so not happening but seems to be for that world. Thats the dream. It's crazy because it seems so real. I cry when I realize how this stuff is. There's nothing wonderful about feeling (whatever that feeling is) even if it's not real or it doesn't matter. The feeling is the secret alright. It's the trick.

There is no Source. Everything is just being what it is without distance. Source suggest distance time and space. Nothing has a source. Yes, a mango seems to come from a mango tree, but the tree is not the source of that mango. That mango is 'Nothing' being a mango, that tree is 'Nothing' being a tree.

Enjoy!!

Think of it like this, do you still hang unto that drunk state you were in whenever it was. That high from smoking weed. Plenty of people have had experiences from altered states using drugs or alcohol. One can feel soooooo good on even some pills, they feel ecstasy and joy and bliss, then back down to reality it is. Why do you think these drugs are so popular. They make one feel good. They alter your state. Some can feel love, even feel God as they say....Oh God, whatever...all states, all experiences then it's back to 'normal'. Doesn't mean you're high forever, doesn't mean you have changed and turned into an enlightened being doesn't mean Jack shit other than you've felt like you've had an experience of......whatever that is. Keep going? There is no next, there is no when, if, there, why because, after, in between.....none of that really exists. There is just timelessness energy appearing as, that's it. It can appear as a person thinking they're enlightened - all empty and void of substance. We have seemingly turned the Absolute into a shit show of limitation and stale cum. We have limited infinity and turned it into a climatic opera rehearsal where we can look forward to an exciting finish and go tell it on the mountains to our other delusional buddies waiting to feel that enlightened bliss from some altered state then telling the stale story to our other fools that think infinity is there as a theatre movement for them to witness and become something from. There is no here and now, now and then, here and there, no next, no because of and no other interjection, abbreviation adjective or whatever in this here immediacy of Absolute wholeness and nothingness fill with emptiness and bizarre oneness of splendor freedom and liberated cockroaches. Nothing can turn this into a theatre of shit show enlightenment, only this itself can be that. Energy can play around all it wants and be all it wants but it can never be what's next, it can never be what's to come, it can never be "keep goin", IT CAN ONLY BE WHAT IS AND WHAT IS IS ALL THERE IS. So even it's keep going with your awakening bullshit and i will be enlightened fantasy is still what is and can be nothing but what is so that awakening means Jack shit to what is because it is also what is "acting like" it's awakening to itself. Such drama it loves to create. Then it leaves that energy high and dry then having it's buddies cheer him on and say keep going like this is even moving. It ain't, its not standing still either. So your future enlightenment is a shit show enlightenment prank by the absolute as the absolute acting like it needs to be enlightened because it ain't got nothing else to do but fuck around and play around for infinity.

Yeah, they're buddies. They're cool. These guys are the best. Something can seem to open up when watching these guys sometimes. Something seems to resonate that's not the person/me/individual. Like an intuition.

Where does the person go when the body 'dies'. To Timbuktu, I guess, or it just shoots out and disappear into space. Oh, I forgot, there is no person there, awareness is observing the person. Oh, it's just a body. I'm not the body/mind, I observe the body/mind's death. Shit, I got an eye witness, judge. Judge is awareness too so judge shouldn't need my eye-witness testimony. The killer is awareness too, so how am I pointing out myself. Gosh what a mess. Neti Neti not this not that.

When the eyes first open from deep sleep, the body seems to need time to adjust to that narcissistic, arrogant, neurotic, illusory sense of self that will take over for the rest of the day until it goes back to sleep. Coffee..please. I'm grumpy. Notice the body can feel a sense of shock if woken up too suddenly. The illusory self is creeping in slowly. Deep sleep, it's not there. Not there now, but somehow it appears to feel like one's there. That's the I AM. Needs time to realize that it is. I AM that I AM. Only illusion.

This shouldn't even be in the mental illness section. Asking about death is not a mental illness, thinking one is alive is. We're all dis-eased and restless. This is death.

Yeah, John (or whatever his name is, her hubby) died. She popped up and i clicked on it. Didn't even realize she was away 'cause I had stopped watching her for awhile. No one tops Alexis.

The dream cannot imagine what no separation is and cannot fathom what that really means because the dream can only operate from a dualistic paradigm. If not for the appearance of thought and memory time wouldn't even seem to be a thing. The dream is it's own reality and cannot step out of that reality. It's a subject/object paradigm and relates to things as such. It's like an institution. What isn't the dream? What's appearing. What's the dream? The individual that relates to what's appearing. Sees what's appearing as separate from it, it's over there and i am over here, subject/object, claims and owns everything and sees what appears as happening to it and it becomes personal and owned. Take the i am out and there is no dream. The I am isn't dreaming it is the dream itself and the only illusion.

Yeah. I Guess.

I was wrong about humans being the only species to be chasing states. Lots of other animals do, I see. Interesting. Shows how it doesn't matter, it's all energetic. It's not humans, it's not animals but energy.

@PurpleTreeok, so humans are like animals and animals like humans. Not much different. If humans were to do the exact same things you've mentioned here, I wouldn't call it 'chasing happiness'; still a bit of a difference. You've opened up my eyes a bit though. State chasing seems to be universal. Chasing states is not the same as chasing happiness though.

Of course, this is natural. NATURE at it's finest. Chasing happiness is not. Chasing down states is not a natural energetic response, it's delusion.

Yes, I understand. Far cry from my question. Dogs whimper, animals show emotions and feel down. I'm saying they're not chasing happiness. Dolphins in captivity that get depressed is still an energetic response. Energy responding to energy being in captivity. Humans are the only species running down and chasing different states.

No, Mr Spira, you're delusional just like the other Spiritual gurus. Dream talking to the dream as the dream trying to help the dream find it's tail. Consciousness doesn't know itself, it is the dream of knowing itself.

Why isn't a spider trying to be happy or a whale?

Everybody is just going on about their business searching for ways to have a better experience, find ways to make themselves happy, trying not to suffer, owns every goddamn emotion, my happiness, my suffering, my this and my that and everything else they're seeming go about doing but the one thing i don't see being asked is why. Why do I have to go through all this when I didn't ask to come here. Nobody cares about this. We are responsible for, we need to work hard to, we need to get the skills for, we need to learn this and that, we need to be this way and that way in order to get this or that or for that to come to us and blah blah but noone much is concerned with this most cruel thing that could ever happen to a human. Never asked to come here but we have to suffer and go through hell; some just more than others. I know why this isn't being talked about and addressed much as with a lot more questions like these, and that's why I'm sticking to my story. It's so obvious.

The most neurotic and delusional spiritualists are the ones that seem to appear to know what they're talking about the most and are very intelligent by nature. They can dissect and formulate and figure out and compose beautifully and present a masterpiece thesis to the unsuspected one who is impressed by such knowledge they feed them and the way it's skillfully crafted and delivered.

Human spiritualists are addicted to chasing States.

Presence is not all there is, absence is more like it. Everything you think you know spiritually, turn that shit around backwards and it's the opposite that's the case. All your Spiritual jargon is nonsense. Then you have the neurotics trying to be still and present searching for the absence of presence which is already the case.

There is no God that is watching you as itself. No God that forgot itself, no God that pretends to be human, none of that is real, they're just ideas and stories. No God created anything, scheming anything, figuring anything out, waiting to wake up to itself, waiting to be realized or recognized, all that is stories and ideas. No God that that is being you or me, no God that knows itself or is all knowing. Now, if you want to call What Is, God, Nothing God, the Absolute God, Emptiness God and so on and so forth, fine and dandy, it's all energy anyway BEING. There is no space between anything and nothing that is close or far from anything else. It's immediate. Fire and wood turns to ash, that's immediate. Something like that.