Princess Arabia

This is the only thing that cannot register. I still feel me but I don't feel as it. Everything else does but I don't feel as it. So maybe the i that I can't feel to be it isn't there but.....me not do this now. I will re read what you said but not try to explain anything now, thanks.

It just seems like it doesn't need a past nor a ground. It just seems to be fresh and new. As far as the hand movement exercise, both were true I said ill move it up next and up it went and I also said ill move it up next and I didn't move it up, I kept swaying from side to side. Anyway, thanks for your explanation even though it didn't really compute with what this is, but I guess I just need some time to get used to the simplisticity of it or what I think is it or what I imagine it to be, but its hard because this is it right here right now.

It is all there is isn't that it is also your car or it is also your fridge. It is all there is simply means it is all there is. Issing.

Oh my.

It really doesn't matter. What those "nows" was was like a reel that just kept on playing and me trying to capture it. It doesn't matter what you've said. Its like what I read and what I'm typing now are two different things. Like your comment is imagination and my response us happening live, so one now or two nows, doesn't matter, its just now and now and now, each time I said now, it just seemed like a dead now, so I'm just saying another now to try and capture the now but I can't because there's no now, its just this now. I can't even. Its just here ever present. Saying now is one moment too late.

Just a quick note. I realize that non-duality is just a consept and the Absolute is beyond that because non-duality is just a pointer. I'm not into anything. I'm just into what I am into. What I enjoy watching and reading. I don't adopt any belief systems in this field and I will just say what I say. Whether it's true or not is yet to be taken or left by the listener. I'm very raw and direct and I know a lot of things I've said in the past about things were not so, but that's what I thought at the time to be so, I make no excuses for that as that's just what was. Even now I don't know anything I just speak what I speak from the heart and not even it sometimes just comes out. So ilm not saying what is true or not and not claiming this video to be anything other than what I was watching and listening to before what was written above, thats it.

It happened while listening to this video about 2hrs in. It's 4hrs long and I had it running on my phone while playing on my laptop. Then I heard something that made me stop and looked up, then looked around me and it was like the room and out the window was alive. Like I could see the Absoulte (i'm just calling it that as thats the name I use) I wasn't calling it anything at the timebibwas just in awe from how the room and the outside looked, as if it was moving but in a stillness, a moving stillness, it was weird and I kept saying oh my god , oh my god, like 20x. Then I started crying but nothing new as I cry akot when I think about stuff but this was different. It wasn't something I felt like the other little bouts I have filled with emotions. This was not a thought orva memory about anything it was like I was inside a movie, later it was like I was watching the movie, i kept going in and out as in watchingbtgen being a part of then watching then being a part of. Going nowhere but moving. As I described above, I can still see it. But its not as prevalent as when it first happened. Goodnight now. Nothing special now as it's stabilized , but its still there. Don't know about when I wake up. We'll see. I was very sober and was drinking water all night, thats it.

This is no spectacular thing. It is right here. But it is happening. Not as in today and then tomorrow but as in continuously, but always now, the only thing is that, continuously is only in my mind. Its like I'm looking at 2 realities. The normal one and then simultaneously the alive one. You can too if you just look where you are.

I just re read what you said. No, I'm looking at it now, and that's too long ago, my cat was not a part of reality when I typed that. I am saying its like I was seeing a movie, right before my eyes and my cat was only being imagined then, she was not a part of the movie when I was typing that. She is now because she's back. But it was like watching a movie with my cat only in my thoughts, like I wasn't even in the movie,

I'm looking right at what. Reality. Sure I'm looking at reality but its alive and I'm not saying I'm seein god or anything other than that this is it, there's nothing else but this, its right here and right now. Only thing is I can't see it in me but everything else i can. I'm not really seeing anything different but I can see the aliveness. The breath so to speak its hard to describe.

I'm going to log off now and go to bed but I just want to say, I'm not claiming any enlightenment or any awakening. I don't know what that is all i know is that this is it. It is not hidden, it is everything. It is what's living. It is what's alive. Even, I was going to say my dead mother but that is just speculation because ilm not seeing my dead mother now, ilm just assuming and thinking if I was to see my mother in her grave now that would be itm so thats just my imagination. But right here now now its here. It is whats being everything. The only thing I'm not sure of is if it is being me. Because I can still feel me and everything about me is the same except for what I'm conscious of. What I'm conscious of I can see it but not see it like I normally see I can SEE it, even in the space I can see it, some how I can't see it in me. Anyway, I'm going to bed now and i think you can see it too if you just look around you. Funny how nobody responded yet. I just started laughing cause now my cat is gone out the window and nobody is responding and I don't hear anything but that whistling sound. But I'm not going to make a spectacle of this because I know I'm not all alone , just right now I can't hear or see anybody but its night time here and its dark outside so thats normal. I wish somebody would say something here though cause I'm starting to freak out thinking about that video where that man was all alone walking through town video taping himself all alone. But I'm not going to freak out because ........ooops somebody just made a comment. Ok, enough, of that phew.

I can't see it but I can see it. It is this. Everything I'm conscious of is it. It is not consciousness my consciousness is seeing it. I'm not aware of it. It is me saying I'm aware of seeing it. I cannot see it in me, I cannot feel it in me. It is only apart from me. Like I'm not apart of it. Like ilm separate from it. It feels weird, i feel like me but I don't know. Its weird. Everything is normal but i feel separate from it, kike I'm just the watcher. Like I'm ........now ilm just trying to describe it and its not working, so I'll just leave that alone but its here. Everywhere, alive. Its like I'm the conscious one and its not its just doing everything and ilm conscious of its doing and presence, thatls the best way to describe it. Sorry for all the errors but I don't feel like proof reading right now. I'm not hysterical or anything never was only kept saying Oh god, oh god oh god oh god and started crying then decided about 5 mins in to document it. I was about to type ilm still not sure, but I'm sure. There's no mistaking this. You can too its right there where you are, alive, thats me telling you but still just look around you, thats it see it right there right now where you are. Ilm very stable, was through this whole writing I only cried for like 5 to 10 mins. I'm writing like I write any other 'ist now except I'm not bothering to correct any spelling or grammar. This is different from my its obvious post. This is not obvious. This is just here. Right here.

There's no enlightenment no awakening just a seeing. I can just see it. In the trees in the wind, I can hear that hissing silent sound in my room but that's not it. It isn't it isn't that sound. That sound is just a sound. The tree is just a tree I don't see it in the tree but I see it in the tree, no as the tree.

As I am typing this, I'm still in awe. This is live right now. But it's leaving me. No its not. I want it to leave but it won't. This is not hysteria, I am calm right now typing this but I'm thinking it was just a glimpse and now its leaving but as I'm typing im typing as it. I think I am. I'm trying to be normal incase im just being silly. I'm very normal I'm not doing anything no drinking no weed. I think I'm back to normal. No. I'm just not crying anymore but it is here, not over there just everywhere but only what I'm conscious of.

There is no, I have to die and blend into anything. There is no if I say I thats not it. There is no if I can recognize myself thats not it. It's just it. Doing me. Writing this, but I can see myself writing this. And I am saying i am writing this. Thoughts and everything. I can't see the thoughts so I don't know what thoughts are but I can see what I can see and I can see it. I can't feel it, I can only feel my nose and my fingers typing. Its not within me it is me.

That just appeared out of nowhere. Lol

You're using an immaterial thing (thought) to formulate your sentences. To post on an apparent physical computer which relates the message through an immaterial medium called the internet which requires an immaterial signal called Wifi. If you notice the only thing material is the apparent computer, apparent meaning seeming real or true but not necessarily so.

I don't understand, there is no past. Also how can something infinitely exist in passing if there is no time.

Yeah but you still know that the movie is still just a movie. How am I confused. The relative is still a part of the Absolute, but the relative is illusory. If you know the relative is illusory then what's the point in not acknowledging that the advice is also illusory. It's like saying I know we live in an illusory world and nothing is really happening, but still take this advice as if it's real.

Because there is no one doing anything. It's utter perfection like you said.

Looks around where, if there is no space. Oh, I forgot, space doesn't exist neither does time. It's illusory. So, God is illusory confused looking for illusory advice and it takes an illusory human to give it to another illusory human who is all alone since there is no other. Did you illusorily understood this illusory explanation?

Or if everything is full of shit.

There's no movement only apparently so. Thats the fucking mystery and the joke. Stillness, with experience apparently happening to no one. That's the dream of the I AM.

Did you notice the question asked. "If I let go of my stories, what remains". That answers everything. This shit is in plain sight and no one taunted him to ask that question. He's not even that into Spirituality and all this bullshit we always get into on here. But look at what he asked.

There's no ultimate experience. There's no one experiencing anything, experience is the dream of the 'I". The contraction of the I energy. Let that go and it's just raw aliveness with no I with the recognition that experience never really happened. That there was no I to begin with.