Princess Arabia

Doesn't make a difference if you love or hate me. You're not choosing to love or hate me. Can you choose to hate me? Go ahead and try. If you say yes, and hate develops, please tell me how you did it.

The recognition that this is a dream and that there's no one here, inside or outside and that it's all an energetic form that is contracted and with that comes the appearance of separation and that I need to do something to make this experience a better one for a journey that is happening where there is no time nor space. I'm perfectly fine with whatever happens. An individual is still here, but the recognition that it's all illusory is apparent. What you're saying is fine, too but it won't change what happens. No effort needed as what is just is.

Nothing. Even if it appears to, it's of no value.

This forum is accessible from anywhere. Your point is redundant. I can be in a swimming pool in Dubai and still access the forum and talk shit.

Great, see you when you get back. Nice scenery. You'll be stuck in that redundance too when those trees and scenery gets old. That tree will be in that same spot for 100 more years so is the grass and the sky.

Ok, great. How's dinner going. How's mom and dad. How the neighbors. Getting married soon?

I bought an apple today and i loved it. I buy lots of things I love. I could do 5meo and do it too and have a "breakthrough experience" as you say, then what you still "die". You see God, then what, your body still appears to rot. You see eyes in your hands, then what, you still go to work, eat and shit out that pasta you ate, then "die".

Who says there's any fear. What I say is not true. There's no truth or falsehood. It's just what is. Show me where I said don't do it. Where is the bias....because I said "and then you die", so what, that's not a bias. Knock yourself out, why force someone to do it. Why do you care. Do you care about saving me...from what?

@DavinoBenefit is only for an individual that seeks to benefit from what is. You make no sense because you say "is what is". Then you say benefit from. So benefit is benefitting for an individual who wants to die before they die. Ok, lets scrap all that. What is the benefit.

Appearing as life. There is only what is. So nothing you or I say matters.

Doesn't matter. If I was to do as you say, that will be what happened. You doing what you're doing is what happening. What are we bullshitting ourselves about. You are already "dead" - so to speak. Nothing wrong or right in doing psychedelics, it's the same as taking a shit with different results.

There's no death, so there can't be any life, only apparently so.

You really don't "die" because there's no you to die. I just said that. IT just happened. Just like the body appears to rot. Nothing is aware of anything. Only appears that way.

No. Only appears to happen; but only for an individual who is lost in it's dream. The dream of I am....I am this and I am that. I am a person seeking for something to happen when nothing is really happening only appears to be. Nothing wrong with that but it will never change anything in the Absolute sense.

And then you die.

There's Noone to know.

This is nothing to do with anything. This Journal has no motive nor an agenda. It's just writing. There's no purpose for it but it's still happening. Not by me because there's no me. Not that I don't have a sense of writing this, but feeling is just happening, but not by me. I never said when I was 2 or 3 years old that I am feeling a me inside or I didn't say to myself oh here I am, this is me, or I will make myself feel a me it just happened. If I want a glass of water I say to myself, I'm thirsty, I want some water. I didn't have to do anything there, it just happened. When I get up to go pour myself a glass of water, I don't say to myself, how am I going to do this? How am I going to get up, walk and place my hand on the glass and pour it in my mouth. It just happens. Even if I want to be cute and test it out and have a monolog skit and prank myself and say, I'm going to say I'm getting up and i am walking and I will place my hand on this glass and drink and act as if I'm teaching myself the process like a fool, that will still just be happening. No matter what I say, do, whether I say there's no me or there's a me or there's no mention of a me or no me, that would still be what happened. There's no escaping what happens. What happens is Reality. Not what I thought happened, not what I wish happened, not what I hope to happen, not what I think about what happened, not what I didn't want to happen, not my stories about why it happened and neither my analysis of what happened but what actually happens. The mind-fuck, though, is that nothing really happens. How? Because if what is happening is the only reality and now I'm saying that reality is what happens then how did my drinking of the water yesterday not reality now. If my writing of this is reality and tomorrow it will be a memory how did reality change into a memory. If I say well, that was reality but not anymore and what i'm doing now is the real reality than from which moment do i consider it to be reality. Is it the moment when I started this sentence or is it errrr...now....errr, is this my new reality or does it continue till the sentence finishes. Reality is tricky. What is the present moment. Is it errr....now...errr, or is it errr...now errr. Is it the presence inside me? Is that the present, but I already said there's no me. Is it the presence in my body, what part, the brain, the mind, where is this presence. Ok so it doesn't have a location, so how is it called presence. Where is it. Ok, let's say there's a me a person, where am I. Ok, I'm here. Where. Sitting on the couch. I see a foot, and a hand and a stomach and a toe. Is that me. What about the back of my head, my heart, my lungs. Ok I can feel the back of my head, but I can't feel my lungs. Ok I can feel where the lungs are located, but why can't I see it. What are my eyes. I can't see them, but I can see through them, is that me. So I'm using me to see me. Why can't I see all of me and why can't I see my eyes. Don't ask why, just accept it that that's me, this is me, I am me. I'm a lot of things. I'm the eye. Ok the eye is me. The foot is me. The body is me but I can only see part of me. Hmmm. Why can I see parts of you that I can't see of myself. I can't see the back of my own head without a mirror, but I can see yours. Thats not fair. I only get to see my kidney if I do surgery and ask to see it before the transplant, that's not fair. Ok, I will say there's a me, no, I change my mind, there's no me, sike, there's a me, no me, a me, no me, me, no me, me, no, me, me, me. There's a me, I'm still writing, there's no me, I'm still writing. Didn't make a difference. Now, is that no difference because there's really a me or there's really a no me, or it didn't matter because they were just words. Does it matter what I say in this regard. No because writing is still happening. Does it matter if I say to someone there's a me VS there's no me. Maybe, maybe not. They will react. Thats the only difference, how they react. Does it matter if I fill out a job interview and say to the lady there's no me but I'll write my name and pretend there's a me. Yeah, I might not get the job she might think I'm a looney. The difference is how she reacts. Wait.,.so the difference with me saying I'm a me VS saying there's no me is how others react. Ok. Interesting. How will I act if I tell myself there's no me, I guess I'll act invisible, or act as someone else, or go beserk, or someone shrugs and call me an idiot and I get mad. If I'm looking at a tree and i'm looking at my foot, I'm perceiving a tree with vision and my foot with vision. Same with a car, a house or a frog. If I'm looking at my hand same thing. Is the tree me, no. Is the foot me, yes. So I can perceive a tree and my foot with the same act of looking. Everything that I perceive except for what is not my body isn't me. As soon as I perceive a part of my body its me. The same act of looking. Why isn't the tree me. Because me is looking at the tree. Why is the foot me, because me is looking at the foot. Hold up. So if I'm smelling a tree that's not me, is that a different sense I'm using. Ok I look at a tree that's not me and a foot that's me and i smell a tree that's not me and smell a foot that's me. Looking and smelling are two acts that uses different senses. The tree isn't me but the foot is me even though it's the eyes that perceive both. So I guess the eyes can perceive itself since the foot is me and the eyes is me. Ok so the foot is not me but a part of me. So where is me. Ok, the foot is mine. Mine who. Who is the mine. Ok that's enough of that. Me is driving me crazy. So maybe it's just perception happening. Happening by no one. I can't really see how I can perceive parts of the body and not other parts and I can't see how I can perceive something that's not me and perceive something that's me using the same mode to do the perceiving. Is the tree perceiving me back. Is the tree looking back at me. They say the Universe is like a mirror, so if I'm looking at a tree the tree should be looking back. Wait, they say I'm projecting the tree from my consciousness. So, my consciousness is a projector that means I'm not consciousness. Ok I am consciousness projecting a tree from my own consciousness. Isn't this fun. I could write all night.

Made this Yoghurt Parfait this morning. Pretty simple. Yogurt of choice and top with fruit and nut. This is Greek Yoghurt, topped with 🍓, blueberries, raspberries and banana. With a sprinkle of chopped Brazilian Nuts and Hemp Seeds. Delish! Can drizzle with honey if desired.

It is undefinable, but nothing wrong if there's an attempt to. You're putting stipulations on what already is. Even the trying to define it, is also it.

I didn't say it is complicated. It appears complicated. It's neither, it just is. Even saying it is simple is saying too much because now there's a comparison.

Because it appears to be complicated. Two sides of the same coin.

Mountain Rose Herbs is a good company.

❤️❤️ I was going to turn it off when I first saw it was a cat, didn't think I would stomach it. But I'm glad I made it through. Cried the whole way but it touched me so deeply. I had to keep seeing the divine in that cat to help me through it. Wasn't forced to watch, but I wanted to.

Porn is porn. Jerking off is jerking off. If you just watch some porn and jerk off and leave it at that all those other mind fuckery wouldn't even come into play. Now, there's a problem, now we analyze, now we build upon what we think is the cause, now we go get help, now we talk and make it seem sooooo complicated. Now life goes on and porn will still be there after you die. It doesn't care about your neurotic relationship to it. It is impersonal. But not you, everything is about you. Life revolves around you. Not porn. It's not even porn. We gave it that name. It's just energy fucking. Having a grand ole time while we need to go get therapy. Go jerk off and jerk off some more. Jerking off is having a party too. Everything is having a party except the mind. The mind hates parties. It wants to vent, argue, criticize, judge, complain, demonize, hate, envy, attack, I mean everything but party. Even when it parties, it gets nervous and has to drink and do drugs to feel at ease and uninhibited. It can't relax. It needs constant stimulation. Complications. Go jerk off and feel good without having to not feel good about feeling good. Even when it feels good it has to feel guilt and shame. Go jerk off some more and jerk away the guilt. You'd be wishing you could jerk off some more when you turn into that emptiness . No fingers or hands or porn to jerk off to. You'd be coming back for more. Then you'll be right back in therapy. Geesh, an Infinitude of total madness.

Ok, I'll go get some therapy. I hear IFS is good.