Princess Arabia

You're right. I've been brainwashed. I don't know what the hell i'm talking about and I've been ostracized from the Absolute. It has kicked me to the curb because I'm ignorant, uneducated about what's happening and need to go study some more to get it right....no but seriously, it doesn't really matter. All of these musings are just stories and are empty, means nothing and have no power. Life is happening including my misunderstandings and your sureties. Neither is right or wrong, it's just what is. Take it from me though, you're just as clueless as I am about what this is. It can't be known. I just realized that awareness is also just a fucking story. No such thing. It's all one energy appearing as someone that seems to be aware. That's all folks.

On point again. The only thing I'll state is that it's not that happiness naturally arises, but that the sadness isn't there from thought.

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Check this out. He says beautiful women are a disappointment. But it's not their fault. It's that men think beauty will make them feel better in a cruel world only to be disappointed when that beautiful woman didn't change anything for them. They think it's the missing link.

Men are so clueless. They think women only exist for them. They take femininity as trying to seduce. If they wear a suit and tie, women don't go around saying men are trying to seduce. We can't even dress in peace without them thinking we're trying to seduce.

While guys bitch and complain about women going for status and a provider. They can't carry those babies in the work place.

Well, same thing. If a woman said she would love to sleep with 3 men in a day, she'd get flack. Men wouldn't think that would make for a cool story, only for them. Women get called whores and sluts just by dressing a certain way, even if they're virgins and nobody knows. Just by me saying I'm an escort I get flack, without even knowing the details of my work. All men have to do is say they banged 50 chicks and they get a medal. Men are full of shit in this regard and then they wonder why women are sometimes so hard to get. Nobody loves to be slut-shamed just for being female. If she dances a certain way she's a slut, much less being a stripper. She's the slut, while the men get to whack off in the champagne room and go home to their wives pretending nothing happened and the stripper slut gets to pay her rent. Don't get me started. Nothing is as it seems; men are the biggest whores, they just get praised for it.

Idk. I don't even know if we should be eating eggs. I've heard they're the cause of shingles. Plus, if they're not farm raised, they're not as nutritious. I eat eggs, but idk about them being the healthiest form of protein, but they do provide a sufficient amount. Not all eggs are the same. It's one of those things like meat or no meat. Won't send you to the degenerative disease isle, it's just a matter of preference. Eggs contain amino acids which the body needs and most plants do not provide that. There are always swaps and different options, though.

MLWA.....figure that out.

Why, because you can't. Maybe consider that it may be possible somewhere for a male. He doesn't necessarily have to cum with them. What I said makes perfect sense. I only referred to that number because it's the number in the story.

If that was a man in the video saying he slept with 100 women in a day, lots of men would be envious and jealous of him and would want to be like him. Goes to show, men and women are not relatively equal.

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Don't forget about the guys too. They are no much better. At least she's profiting. What are they getting but some quick lay and to cum, something attainable with a loved one but they chose to do it with a stranger, like so many men. Wasn't for the men these women would be out of business. I guess that makes them whore baiters.

I'm not saying there are two, I'm saying you're confusing being aware that you shouldn't beat your child or smoke cigs, or do drugs, or look before you cross the road with pure awareness There is only awareness, I'm aware of that. That statement right there "I'm aware of that" is a function of the one awareness that you are. The same awareness that makes an alcoholic beat his wife is not awareness itself. Awareness is aware of the husband beating his wife. The husband is conscious of his actions. I'm tired.

Came across this video and thought I'd share here. It might help. Watch anyway.

Ok, I see where you're coming from with this awareness thing. Pretty much like the consciousness thing as in how conscious you are and high and low consciousness and very aware and somewhat aware and not aware etcetc. I get it now. Only thing is Awareness is awareness and the awareness that I'm speaking about is not the different states of awareness or levels of awareness. I'm conscious while writing this sentence is not the same as the consciousness that's fundamental and permeates through all of existence. Youre speaking of the adjective awareness, the one that describes a state of being, how aware are you etc. I'm speaking of the Awareness that looks through everybody's eyes and is the one awareness that we all are.

Here's the video.

I can barely do one much less. I still don't understand how she did this in person. I kinda watched the video and my impression is that it happened virtually but felt real. Let me try to find the video, it's in the Ceo gunned down thread. I have no judgements, but personally I couldn't do it. Only reason why I even do escort work and am a working girl is because sex is not a requirement I mean the actual penetration act of a penis into the vagina and when I realized how having sex itself wasn't necessary, I was able to stick with it. I couldn't take numerous men inside of me days in and days out, I would go mad and feel washed up and used and abused. Lol. I don't enjoy sex with strange men only with men I know and are somewhat attracted to in some way shape or form even if it's just the way he is and not necessarily his looks. She says she enjoys this and was having sex on campus with numerous men for free so why no do it this way and make a living, according to her. Idk, it's a matter of personal preference.

I guess, I felt insulted like I'm trying to con my way into this stuff and that I'm trying to manipulate the convo and trying to maneuver my way into being right. Anyway, it was only in the moment, and not taken as anything to write home to mom about. Done and gone. Accuse me of anything but not trying to be right but merely having more understandings. There's nothing shady or wishy washy in this intention and it is the only thing i sincerely care about and that is to understand my true nature. I don't force it, I don't go searching for answers, and I have an open mind. Setting the aspiration and having the intention is all that's needed and everything else will fall into place of which action is the least effective. Can't know the Self gotta be the Self - there's only one Self and I am that. Meditation is what I already am as it means to become familiar with. I cannot become anything that I already am, I just have to recognize what i am not.

You're not understanding what awareness is. You're missing the fact that this fluctuation is also an activity that you're aware of. You're not going deep enough. Anything you say, awareness is doing, there's also an awareness of that. Awareness cannot be known. Get to see this. If you say awareness is being such and such and is doing such and such. Who's aware of that. There is something that knows, while it itself is unknowable.

Look into this. This is not the case. You're referring to mind here, which is not the same thing as awareness. You are aware of the mind and it's identifications and mis-identifications. Not awareness. Awareness is the only real thing. Everything else is coming and going, including the appearance of mind identification. Awareness is pure. Untouched. It cannot identify because it is what's aware of the identifications. This is why I say this is freedom and liberation and is already the case. It's the mind that's enslaved into thinking that it's this and that while Awareness, your true nature, is unscathed.

I believe you're the one with the ego trip. You seem very sure of yourself and isn't leaving any room for err. I don't need your help. Neither do you need my help. No one needs to be helped in this regard. Only have a better understanding. Your reply here shows me you are not even the one to make me understand anything as you're not even addressing what I've said only trying to show how right you are. That's why you thought I was doing the same. I will leave this right here and let you ruminate a bit and maybe come to see how awareness is untouched and unbothered by this whole conversation and you're right its not separate but it isn't identified only the contents are and awareness is also aware of that.

This is where I believe you're mistaken. Awareness doesn't identify with anything, the egoic mind does. Awareness is that which is aware of the false identification. The feeling of being the thoughts, of being the mind belongs to no one and the egoic structure falsely identifies with this. They are just feelings and thoughts without an actual person attached, but the person thinks its the thinker and doer. Awareness, being your true nature is aware of these attachments. It is aware of the misidentification. It is not a thing that can tell the egoic mind to stop being misidentified as the egoic mind and false identification really doesn't exist and is only an appearance within awareness.

Sweetheart, I'm not in this game to protect my mistakes. I'd rather own a mistake and learn/understand and evolve up the ladder, not be right. I still don't see where anything you're telling me allows for that, though. I'm really crushed, sob sob that you actually thought I would try and "cover" a mistake. I'm not like that at all. You don't understand how much I'm in love with this stuff. Not obsessed, jn love. It's not a chore or work or practice or process for me, it's who/what I am. I don't see it as a competition, a trying to get something from, an end to suffering plight or I know more than you ego trip. If you're saying something to me that I can truly see where I'm mistaken, i would truly and honestly say, you're right and i overlooked that or whatever. In this case, I still don't see where what I'm saying is not the case and I truly think you're the one being misled or not understanding. I will keep trying to see what you're saying incase I'm missing something, though, as I'm well aware that I could be wrong about anything but in this case, I don't think I am. Awareness cannot be touched. It is like the space in the room. Unbothered by anything and has no qualities. It is the very source that gives life to the mind and objects and everything that's perceived and without it nothing exists. It is who we are at the core and I am aware that I am aware.