Princess Arabia

There are certain things I can rule out instantly. There are patterns at play here. For instance, eating patterns. It will affect their behavior and their perception. If they are fat (or not) and only eat fast food, soda pops and chips and dip and are very unhealthy eaters, I don't even bother. Not talking about occasionally but all the time. That is a very unhealthy mind and comes with plenty of disorders. If they are dressed too flashy, that shows inward insecurity - I said too flashy. If they drive a car that stands out too much, that also smells internal problems and immaturity. Sounds weird and judemental, but I've studied the mind and behavioral patterns enough to see it a mile coming. I'm too simple and straightforward to have to deal with too many complexities and games or to babysit anybody.

You have to know what it is you're interested in, right? I'm not interested in bodies. I'm interested in how one thinks, their mindset, how they make me feel and how well I respond to them. Of course, I won't just give any and anybody the chance to get to know me or for me to get to know them, that's all based on instinct, not logic.

I'm not in the mindset of just going out and getting attracted then dating. I work the bottom up in this regard. If the interaction happens, I'll date to see if I'm attracted, then take it from there. I'm not here to fall in love then fall out. For me it's a see, interact, connect, date, feel attraction (or not), expand then we work from there to expand more. Not sure about his mindset, but that's how mine work. So, it's not like I was interested in him, how would I know that from just seeing him, plenty of similar bodies out there, not too many mindsets the same and are compatible with mine. That goes for everybody else. People work backwards. They get attracted to the body then get frustrated with the mind and try to force the two mind's compatibilities'. I start with the mind and work with the body. Afterall, you can make love in the dark but the mind is 24/7. Most close their eyes while making out anyway, why is that. Eyes wide shut, in my mind.

I told you he approached me and i decided to give it a chance. Not that I would have with anybody but I didn't see why not. I don't see reasons "to", I see reasons "not to". Seeing a reason to, is transactional. Seeing a reason "not to", in my mind anyway, is also transactional because there's a reason, but it's not for a benefit and to gain something. Seeing someone you're attracted to without knowing them and wanting to get to know them for potential intimacy is transactional. Getting to know somebody and just enjoying them for being them is not transactional. That's partially what I mean by transactional. It's hard for me to explain these things to someone because my mind operates differently when it comes to these things. We all want something from someone, but when you're not looking to gain something, that's not transactional. I wzs not interested in him, perse but the idea of just being with someone that you connect with but for no transactional reason. My mind got disconnected quickly because the non-transaction turned into a transaction. Meaning I didn't get the satisfaction of no strings attached.

I don't need to contemplate such things. If the memory pops up, so be it I may or may not react, but there's no need for me to contemplate a memory, good or bad.

You're 83. Wow, nice. Not sure if I did the math right. Not much time to discover that opening in the cosmos. Lol. That explanation also explains why you bring up so much atrocities, you've been through it and it's hard to unsee the seen.

Delusion breeds suffering. No one can live a happy life all the time while deluded. We are not disconnected from truth existentially and the ego's construction is not built on truth, it's built on delusion. Success in obtaining your goal doesn't equal to happiness and satisfaction with yourself and reality. The cards will eventually come crashing down and the lies exposed in one way or another. Whether through, loss, suffering, pain, neurosis, physochis, sadness, depression loneliness, fear, or whatever. Success without delusion is the goldmine which is possible.

I get anxiety attacks (exaggeration) when my phone or computer wants to me to update. I'm like, what kind of problems will I encounter now after the update.

Gave him a chance away from my norm of working. Just wanted to hang out without it being transactional. He approached and I accepted. Spoke on the phone a few times and even went for short drives. All this within about 1-2weeks. He says he doesn't like texting but I said text before you call so I'm not caught off guard or if I'm busy, I can reply with a quick text. He texted one night and i texted back saying I was busy and will call back when I'm not busy. (I was actually cooking dinner). I never called back that night, but I did text the next day. His responses were short and abrupt and he started ignoring my other texts. I sensed he was upset that I didn't call or text the same night and said something about it. He then went on to proceed saying how he doesn't like to text and that's why he's ignoring my texts. That was it. Then he texted for days and even called once. I never spoke to him again. Upset about me not responding the same night, which was late anyway, says a lot about you and whatever else you'll be upset about. No time for that. His last text to me was him saying I wished I had a picture of you. We never spoke again. Not interested to. I have to get to know you a bit for me to be attracted to you on some level and we never got pass first base. I'm not attracted to a man's physique, his personality is what does it for me. Looks can be deceiving, the mind says who you are. That's the stage I'm at. I can tell alot about you from what bothers, angers, and troubles you. My body is not up for grabs; so if I'm not mentally stimulated, it's a no no unless it's work and no intimacy involved. My time is also not up for grabs only on auction when it comes to the opposite sex in the real/physical world. I don't need to be succumbed to other people's mental problems just for kicks. His mind took him to lala land as to why I didn't call back and now his disliking texts turned into desperation and infinite texting. Shows how it was just a form of control.

A guy tried that with me one time and ignored me. I was gone in the mind and when his ignored calls and texting stopped trying to find out what was wrong on my end, I realized he realized I was gone FOREVER. No explanation on my part. Bitches, like she calls them, might be like that, but not real women of caliber and who knows what's up. All she's doing is telling guys how to get women they'll end up cheating on because they don't make him feel like a man only boost his fragile ego.

I couldn't even get pass the first video. That's pickmeisha advice. Advice for women trying to seek dusty's attention. A so-called high-value man WILL show the woman some attention when he's able. Will make time for the woman he's attracted to and a so-called high-value woman will reciprocate appropriately. No need for games between the two. They'll both be busy but will make time for each other and enjoy each other in the moment. She won't be thinking he's high-value because he ignores her or has no time for her. That's not what any woman who knows how to attract a high-value man thinks. Anyway, I can't even bother to watch the rest to taint my mind. I'm not about to play attention, high value games and worry about a man's lack of attention when appropriate. Next!!

The mind will perceive the body rotting then realize it wasn't real. It was the mind imagining the body. No contradiction there.

Yeah. Only in his mind. The mind battling itself.

...And at a certain point you'll realize they are not. When the body rots, you will realize it. When your thoughts, ideas, circumstances, sensations, feelings emotions, etc change, disappear and become just a memory, you'll realize they were not. Nothing real changes, nothing unreal exists.

This is speculation and assumption. It's ok, though, I can't be in control of thoughts. It is only true for you and that's ok too.

Ok, thanks.

Just wanted to hear what you had to say. I know whatever you are I am also. We use different words for the same things/meanings at times. So what is awareness, just a thought, a timeless thought.

So you are the I AM.

So, who/what are you.

The body isn't real and there is no spirit. It is all one "thing" of which the body appears and everything appears including the thought that there is a spirit.

No, I had a glimpse of reality being alive and saw it light up right Infront of my eyes but I'm aware it was only a glimpse and an experience. I see the dream as my stories and ideas about reality and not reality itself. I know everything starts with a thought in the relative world but I don't see awareness as a thought but that which is aware of the thought and the dream.

Lol. Funny because I just made a journal entry about time and space and in the end, I said something similar and had to quit and take a break cause the mind was going haywire talking about how time and space doesn't exist.

Pretty good/funny. "imagination is alive" didn't cross the mind. That explains it. Filled in a few holes.

It was funny because of the way he put it. Any other name there and it wouldn't have been as funny. So, it's not just what was said, but who was referenced. We all know how you speak and it was a good replica. Concerning your statement here, "when it's all imaginary", something I'm not clear about, if reality/existence is alive how is the present imaginary. What's happening now, isn't that what is but only the thoughts, ideas and concepts, etc about it imaginary?

Lmao🤣