Princess Arabia

I used to be a Model so this will be interesting to watch. I remember the Tyra days when she used to walk the runway for Victoria Secret. Haven't seen the show in awhile so I'm saving it here for reference. It's live now and they're currently on the Pink Carpet. These days it's all about Anok Yai. Can't wait to see her walk that runway.

This is actually a dating and relationship journal. I threw the other one out because I didn't think I'd want to talk too much on this topic from a female perspective on a male dominated forum. I've decided to try again because I find myself wanting to say some things but without tainting my other journal which is mostly about reality and spirituality. Plus, I can. Some might even appreciate a female's perspective on this in this field and maybe learn a thing or two about how we think. I don't know, I'll just let it flow and see how it goes. I love the title I gave it. I think it's a but catchy. I'm feeling adventurous right now even though there's nothing adventurous in my dating life. Anyone can comment and jump in for some tea or coffee or some wine and cheese. Just don't overstay your welcome and leave after the date. Don't spend the night. I need a ring for that. Hehe.

Lol. It's like the vegans that don't eat meat but the meats are tearing each other apart and devouring each other.

Ok. I'll go with you and make the story sound better by saying everyone is me, not there is no me. So you are me and i am you. Sounds better and more believable than there's no you. Let's go to the bathroom together then...c'mon let's go. Better yet, go for me since you are me. 🥰

All that so-called awakenings and realizations did was strengthen that sense of self and made it more neurotic. A real and natural occurrence, though still a story, would realize those insects have nothing inside them and it's nothing being an insect and that there's nothing to step outside of nothing to kill it.

Everything doesn't make up the Absolute. Everything is the Absolute. Everything is whole and complete in it's own right. They are only appearances anyway.

Just random stuff about anything.

Russia is the largest country in the world and it has some amazing landscapes and architecture. The buildings are very well built in certain parts like Moscow with their own uniqueness and Russian flair. It's architecture is very distinctive and instantly recognizable. Siberia occupies approx. 3/4 of Russia and Russia has some of the longest rivers in the world including The Volga which is the longest river in Europe. Join me as I explore and feature this vast country and it's nightlife, food, geography, culture, historic buildings, historical background and more.....

You don't see birth and death needing processes and practices to implement themselves. Nothing is saying oh my I need to birth this baby how do I go about that. I should go on a retreat for 9mths to realize how to birth this baby or you don't see death staring one in the face and them saying oh my I need to meditate to bring this death on or go talk to a guru to help me die. This sounds ridiculous but there's a subtle message underlying all that. Everything in nature is all just happening all on it's own. Even the notion that there are drivers in the driving seat with free will and choice is the appearance of that energy. Nobody is doing anything. Nothing is being done. It's all just free-flowing timeless energy boundless and free appearing to happen. There is no God that accepts or rejects anything. No God dreaming about anything. No one aware or conscious of anything. No experiences or perceptions happening. No one knowing anything or to even know anything; it's just knowing. There's no one to give orders to itself about anything like I'll just do nothing. No one to stop anything, make anything happen. It's going nowhere, didn't come from anywhere, can't get behind, Infront of, closer to or away from. It's immediate with no space, no in between, no cause and effect, no reason or purpose but can appear as such. No one to read this and say this is all crap; that just happens but by no one. No one to deny or accept. This just is and it's all appearing in no time and nowhere and to no one.

Lmao. It's ok. A little derailment is ok from time to time. Maybe the head of France and Russia may see it and come together. Hehe.

@SchizophoniaOk. Will check it out.

Perception is an illusion and no one awakens to oneness. No one knows anything. The senses aren't real. Nothing is real. It's all a bag of bunches of nothing appearing as.....isn't that great.

The person (that energy) is restless. Not at peace. It chases states. Chases highs when it feels low. Always has the tool kit out. Always at the buffet table choosing from the array of assortments laid out for it to feel a particular way. Nothing will ever satisfy it for long. It's always more or more intense. Then it attracts those seeking the same. It's a never-ending cycle. It will always be awake. Never asleep and at peace. It cannot not want. It cannot not seek. It cannot not want to know. It cannot not want more knowledge. It tries to be silent and remain still. Meditate, attend retreats, does practices and processes it's way into being. Sleep is it's only recluse. Once awaken, it comes back into existence - seemingly. It's not there, but it thinks it is. It seeks it's true nature. It listens to gurus and invests in belief systems and ideas about how to feel better about it's existence. How to maneuver it's way around the dis-ease. It tries all sorts of things but is never truly satisfied and never truly feels fulfilled. It curses it's surroundings. It curses the others it imagines. The others aren't fictions. It is. Fiction can only seem to arise when the observer sees realness. It sees itself as real so others are real. Happens here too. I'm not exempt. It comes and goes. Sometimes I see energy, sometimes I see a person and sometimes I see a cardboard box. None of that is real. None of that is actually happening. Something here knows. The person doesn't. There is no person. The eyes reveals that. I can tell no one is looking through them. Who is the I that says that. No one. Something knows but it's not knowable. Knowing cannot know itself. It just knows. Something knowable needs a subject/object relationship. There's none in wholeness, none where there's no separation. None in Absolute Unconditional Love. Love is no separation. That's what Love is. It cannot be felt. It cannot be known. There's no one to know it. All feelings of love is just that, a feeling. This is already. This is home. There's no where to go. It's chasing it's own tail. No one is doing that. It's everything. It's also confused and lost. No one is. That energy is. It's awake and trying to find it's absence. It seeks to not be. It takes drugs to disappear but that's artificially inseminated. It will always cone back because it's not there to begin with so how can it really go away. Cannot get rid of something that ain't happening. Sob sob!!

Yes, I guess that's it but in tincture form. Take it orally.

Issue seems to be solved. Haven't seen that annoying insufficient storage thang for a minute.

Some of these spiritual practices and rituals can help the body in some way shape or form and can be tremendously useful in feelings of peace and serenity and help to overcome certain traumas, etc. Great, but they won't get anyone further towards or away from the Absolute. Nothing will.

You're welcome.

Oil of oregano.

Whatever happened to the days when boy sees girl, likes girl, talks to girl, date girl. Girl sees guy, talks to guy or responds to guy, likes guy, dates guy....or not....then moves on to the next and tries again. They make out or maybe not. Nowadays it's all these hacks and tricks and notions and ideas and all these mind games and it goes on and on and on, on the couch all alone watching internet bullshit then we blame the loneliness epidemic. Too much intellectualizing shit and not enough action. Shut up and go out and mingle, not listen to some internet dude logicizing about relationships.

A woman has a sexy outfit on, men thinks she's wearing it for men. A woman does her hair nicely, men (of course only some) thinks she did it for men. A woman wears make-up, men thinks it's for a man's viewing pleasure. Some men take what a woman does BECAUSE SHE'S A WOMAN as doing it for other men. Some women, on some occasions, will not do some of those things because they're aware that some men sees it as trying to get their attention so they don't even bother. They'll "unfeminize" themselves because of men if anything. Yes, there are times, many times to be fair, where women dress for men. Not all the time and not all women. Some women are married and some are lesbians. These women can still wear sexy clothes and make-up and those types of men will think those women are doing it for men. A woman not interested in dating men, meeting any men, not interested in men's roaming eyes will wear sexy clothes and make-up JUST BECAUSE IT'S A FEMININE THING TO DO and not for men. Please don't think all or even most women are the way we are in this context because of men. It's just the nature of being a female. This is why men see women as rejecting them so much because he thinks she's out trying to catch men but not him when she ignores or says no to his advances. They think we're always trying to lure and seduce men in just by being a woman and do what women do. The only way a man can feel rejected is if he thinks she's up for grabs but just not with him. If he approaches a woman he knows for sure is a lesbian but tries his luck anyway, he wouldn't feel as rejected by her. He'll just say she isn't interested in any man and wouldn't take it as personal. Same goes for a married woman that he knows is married or even just taken. He feels rejected when she's single and out and about. Especially if she looks sexy and just being a woman, oh she rejected me. Some are rejecting the idea, not you, but they take it personal anyway since they think we're on this earth just for men and when we say no it's about them and when we wear make-up we're trying to seduce men. Are you always trying to seduce a woman when you wear a tie or a watch.

How silly.