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I'm not telling anything if I'm not asked directly. So I keep everything to myself Sometimes I may give some hints and check how someone response. I think this is a safest way to push someone into right direction without causing strong ego reaction.

@Forestluv It's so true!!! Few days after doing 5 meo DMT I was laying on my bed half-asleep. I was dreaming that I'm vaping 5 meo b I inhaled fully and it kicked me into nondual state. It was more powerful than any of my LSD trips. It's easy to underestimate 5 meo DMT. I would even say that I was able to learn more during LSD trip. The thing is 5 meo DMT is so powerful energetically that it will change your whole energetic structure.

@4201 Few drops of vinegar.

Personality is structure, ego is content.

I am able to reach nondual state through Wim Hof breathing technique and than forcefully "pushing" air into my head and abdomen. The thing.. is 5 meo DMT unlocked my abilities to do that.

I also had pain in my chest. In my case it definitely wasn't medical but emotional issue. It wasn't ordinary kind of pain. It didn't feel physical. It might be related to heart chakra.

ENFJ? LOLOLOL, NOO! He is ISTP. He is definitely using Se, he has same rough eye gaze as Martin Ball (also ISTP) He is Rambo kind of guy He is overdoing Fe. He is heavily emoting but there is no fine tuning - it's on or off. What is also very visible he doesn't like theoretical stuff - Ne blindspot. He prefers more tangible stuff.

As I mentioned before I have been in similar situation. What works for me is looking at her but as a person but rather as a pointer to something. Luckily I'm in contact with her so I was able to learn things about her and FEEL her presence. Because I knew how it feels to talk to her I was able replicate that feeling. This way I was able to switch from thinking to feeling. I am less obsessive now I rather have that constant warm, fluffy feeling of love. My thoughts about her have less and less content.

I had relatively very good upbringing. It didn't help me because I have awful personality I feel lucky that I'm not "lucky". Being able to enter relationships easily is very dangerous thing. You can marry too early and choose wrong person. Than everything becomes extremly complicated.

I experiences something very similar but it's 4 years now :9 It was unbearable at times. I thought that she might be perfect only in my imagination. I had to verify that so I contacted her.. and the worst part: she really is. Even though I was never rejected by her (it was the opposite!) it's still painful. I guess in your case it's not just imagination or one sided thing.

I find out annoying when someone tries to motivate me. It doesn't feel genuine. If something is worth doing there is no need for motivation. As mentioned before. Psychodelics and suffering are the best motivation for this work.

@Kamran You can always fly out of your body when there is a lot of energy released. It happenned to me few times during kriya practice (stretching) that I have blacked out and have fallen on the ground or even hit my head against the wardrobe. It's always good to have safe environment.

I found that technique myself and it happened to me few times to experience an inner explosion. It was pleasant and felt healing. Just be sure that you will not hit your head against something (it's rather unlikely when you are sitting cross-legged). You shouldn't be worried about that.

@Hello from Russia Smaller mass means that it takes less time to grow to full size => less time to accumulate any pollution. Sardines and mackerels aren't more expensive than meat. You can eat them instead of using fish oil capsules. Flax has ALA which isn't an alternative for fish oil.

@Leo Gura What about sardines? - They are smaller so they accumulate less crap - You are eating a whole thing. Sardines contain a lot of selenium which blocks absorption of mercury - Fish contain much more Carnosine meat - it to removes plaque from brain - Fish also contains omega 3 fats which is good because I helps to maintain proper omega 6/3 ratio. Also my impression is that people living near sea / on islands are often living longer. It seems that replacing meat with fish might be a good idea.

@Arthur Thank you for your response! You answered all my questions perfectly My last trip was less unpleasant than my first proper 5 meo DMT trip. I might be contradicting myself but I even had some desire to trip again same day. In my case it might be better to wait another week to. Integrate properly. I was a little afraid that the entire existence is made of suffering ;]

After 10 days I forced myself to trip again. This time it was more pleasent, probably stronger (same dose but probably better vaping technique) and definitely more energetically cleansing. How many trips do I need to finally stop being anxious using 5 meo? How many trips it takes until they actually become pleasent? They rather remind me my worst nightmares. I just wished that I never existed. Is existence a never ending hell or it's rather heaven? It feels like hell to me, but maybe it's just because of my ego refusing to let go.

I highly recommend Anthony de Mello's book Awareness. It's great!! You can probably listen to an audiobook on YouTube.

@Proserpina Imagine a person that you really want. I don't mean physical looks, but what kind of person they are. How it feels to be around them. There is that warm, sweet feeling while being around or chatting with TF.

You are not.

@Keyhole The mistake that OP made was acting too fast and too intensely. Maybe she is attracted but she had to cut him off because she was already getting into relationship. Being attracted is a good reason to act this way, because it's thretening her relationship. She was forced to make a decision. I think Twin Flame term isn't entirely true as anything else. We are constructing our reality and unconsciously attract people that match us. If we are interested in procreation we find a partner who we can have kids with etc. If we are developed enough (heart chakra awakening??) we might attract TF. TF is a person we can love unconditionally. I suspect that we always get what we really want. Sometimes we want stupid things and we also get them.

Luckily there is no heart to be broken

In instruction video it wasn't explained that to have 20 mg you need to use two 20 mg scoops. Because of that dosing might be confusing at first. My guess is that a lot of people post that they used 60 mg, but in reality it was only 30 mg. Still it's better to underdose than overdose

Google "how to plug psychedelics"

I'm instantly getting hungry when stressed (I have always been very lean). Consciousness level is definitely related to hunger. Are you getting super skinny? There is nothing wrong with eating one meal a day. This is my goal, for now I'm trying to stick to eating only twice a day. Just make sure that your are eating nutritious food. Smoothies aren't the best idea. You are destroying fiber (not always but often) this way and increasing glycemic index.