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How do I realize the Love in effect in the middle of a difficult time such as when I lose a parent, become homeless, have a really bad fight with a parent, loose a limb, or during long periods of physical pain such as while trying to pass a kidney stone or having a severe stomach pain ? Can I do so without an 'awakening to Love' ? Can 'rationalizing into Love' in my mind help me here ? Like while in the middle of a stomach pain I'm contemplating how this is a manifestion of Love or something like that.

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Also known as Paruresis. I have difficulty peeing in public spaces when people are nearby. Its almost completely a mind issue, not a physical problem. I experience mild to intense irrational anger towards people nearby moving around or making sounds, or just being present. A field of irritation courses throughout my body. This causes me to standing there like an idiot with my dick out trying to concentrate or doing other techniques for starting a stream of pee. It sometimes gets so bad that even if my bladder is completely full and ready to explode, I'm unable to start a stream. I'm afraid I'll go to the hospital becuase of this someday, while making a scene. I can't tell people around to go far away from the washroom and explain this weird condition of mine. Nowadays I sometimes even have problems at my home with parents around. However, when I'm not concerned about anything and not concentrating on this pee problem while going to pee, I usually pee comfortably. Also, even when people are not around, I can have problems due to a time limit. Like when I leave an ongoing exam and I'm supposed to pee quickly and come back. This is when I might visit the toilet, suffer for a few minutes and come back without passing urine, forced to give rest of the exam in pain. I'm afraid this might hamper my ability to go out of my house for multiple days in the future. Maybe this is an anxiety/social anxiety issue. Does anyone else have this ? What can I do to solve this issue ?

I've not been able to come across a concrete answer to this question, and not able to figure it out properly by reading various stuff related to it.

@Rilles Thanks ! By the way, is it similar to what Leo talks about in this one (assuming you have seen the video) ?

@pdude Thanks ! Also, it gets weird when you go for your third or fourth attempt within 40-60 minutes and people start noticing. Sometimes when outside of home, it gets scary even to drink sufficient amount of water.

@Preety_India https://www.actualized.org/insights/my-health-situation

I too, sometimes pause and look at people and realize how awkwardly and comically serious they are about regular stuff and especially matters related to themselves.

When we laugh, we tend to be kinda selfless and in the present moment. I had this thought, that maybe God laughs at itself all the time. In addition to being infinitely intelligent, its also kind of an idiot. I mean look at all the lunacy it has created. Its a huge prank and I'm looking for the camera. It is everything yet nothing, it's infinite but can limit itself, its all loving and a racist, its omniscient and Trump, and so on .......

@Rilles I'm not talking about peeing in the open man, the problem is in stalls (closed spaces) and urinals too. @Nahm Tried all sorts of body positions including leaning forward, they don't seem to work. The thing is its not about pressure of pee or position, its all in my mind. But yeah, I'll try leaning forward more. Thanks !

Watch both of these videos :

Its an incentive to inspire you for taking the spritiual practices seriously and doing them consistently. According to him (or any legit spiritual teacher), you'll find all the hard work worth it once you're knocked out of your sleep. So one must hone their desire to wake up. Leo's words, whether polite or rude, work as a catalyst.

@IJB063 ''Proven'' ? You're giving authority to whom, for trying to quantify something as multidimensional and infinite as intelligence ? ''Pseudo science'' ? What do you think science actually is ? And even in the conventional sense you're talking about it, anything not conforming becomes outcasted ? Because science is some sort of highest Truth ? You're aware of the lots (and lots) of limits and assumtions and chimpery within science, right ? ''Burdening them with existence'' ? I suggest you some serious spiritual contemplation. (Btw it'll be interesting if you list some of those ''ramifications'')

Thanks to everyone for the caring words ! Yes. Not enough though, survival still at stake. My exams were over before this pandemic closed the planet, but the results have come out just now. And I took things seriously.

I thought this won't affect me. I was wrong. High school final exams result is out. I scored bad. What is life ? Why am I here ? What am I doing ? Why am I doing it ? Why can't I just be happy.............

Ask God

I don't subscribe to any religion, any greek philosophy, atheism, agnosticism and I'm aware of the limits of science and know that its agenda in practice is far from the Truth. I'm not into any kind of conspiracy theory either, and I was convinced by Leo that reality is not a simulation, although I'm open to investigate this for myself in the future. I'm not involved in any special field like Astrology or Witchcraft too. Is my worldview Materialism ? I don't believe in Materialism at all, but in practice in daily life, I do act like there's an outer world, but just that. I personally have no reason to belive that there's a universe completely independent of me and I was born into it + I will move out of it after death. Although I will act like I'll be gone if you aim a gun on my head. I dont believe reality is just atoms bouncing around and I don't plan on chasing material possessions only for the rest of my life. I'm not able to point to any perspective as mine. Before I started watching Actualized.org 2-3 years ago, I was like 15-16 and had no desire to hold on to my own pet theories. But now, since I've been watching Leo I kinda just agree on everything he says not questioning too much, and feel an irritation when some other spiritual teacher says something contradictory to what Leo says. So have I turned Actualized.org into my perspective? @Leo Gura have you indoctrinated me LOL ? (Btw I enjoy the cult)

Why can't I be bothered about building my 'worth' ? What is that which people call 'worth', which everyone around me, friends, parents, teachers and more supposedly smart people keep preaching about and bugging me about ? That I should build my worth in society. Why can't we just enhance ourselves as a piece of life ? Looking at the miracle of creation going on every second, what's your 'worth' in front of it ? They are more interested in their fake vanity than the outrageous fact that they don't know what's going on right at this moment ? At the same time, why does judging them on this criterion give me a sense of superiority, giving me the same thing I'm criticizing and apparently don't like ?

@Forestluv lol what ?

When something is happening to me or especially when I'm doing something, in the back of my mind there's this, idk what to call it, maybe thought/awareness of acknowledgement and acceptance ? Or many times even in addition to that, a kind of feeling that ''Yes ! This is happening ! And I like it that I'm doing this !'' - lets call this '#'. To me, this can happen even if I'm crying in reaction to, lets say death of a kin. Logically I know I might suffer in many ways after that incident, but # is still there. In fact many times in general, It feels like I act myself into crying. This can be distracting many times during, like when I'm meditating, and something pleasant or unexpected happens, I will be attacked by # and think something like ''Damn am I about to get some awakening or shit ? Its about to go down !!''. Doesn't happen all the time with all experiences, but still more than usual. By this, it feels like I'm not actually doing the thing that I'm doing for its own sake and purpose, but rather acting like an actor, as if I'd like to do this, to make myself 'special'. What is this ? Is this something natural ? Do I got issues ? If I do got issues by the way, and I hear that from you guys down below, I'll again start having #. Also, I have this general notion/feel that everything that happens is ultimately for the 'greater good' or 'whatever is happening is accepted' - although I will NOT have this or # either if I'm in a state of deep physical suffering, like a very painful stomach ache. At that moment, ''this pain better go away right now''.

Not commenting upon the validity of their statement, but why do they have this assumption ? Did they derive it for themselves ? Did they investigate all possibilities of what a 'human being' is capable of ? If not, which is highly probably, why are they grounding themselves like this ? And what 'information' are they even talking about ? Why do they assume all this 'information' is reducable to language and could be written down on a paper ? Why can't 'omniscience' transcend language ? And what does 'keeping' information in the brain mean ? Memory ? Why do they conflate memory with infinite intelligence ?

Might save many lives.

Out of lazyness. Since past few months now I've been extremely non-productive and it is getting worse and worse. I was not always this way. But now, even the thought of working (for anything) turns me off. I can see that I'm actively creating this identity of ''a lazy normie who can't work hard'' and I'm afraid this will take me deeper and deeper till I'm at a point of no return. Its like though I don't really even feel that bad being like this, but have a sense that I might pay heavy consequences if this doesn't change rather quickly. Comfortzone101. Can you suggest something which I should do right now/start doing regularly which will cause my mind and body to work ? Thanks.