Lyubov

holy fuck I'm watching this and it is so cringe ruddyyyy what are you doinnggg???? dude legit thinks he's about to smash

he seemed like a rude contrarian just for the sake of being one tbh

this would officially be the end of the US as a democracy

I'm watching this now and it's good ahaha omfg it is cringe though

Is it just me but I can't even watch this cause it's so cringe.. omfg what are you doing rudy???

Well I sent it. Feels scary and I don’t know how she will take it but at least I was honest and if it hurts and she gets more angry then so be it that is her stuff and doesn’t make me a bad person. I was honest here and it really hurt to be this way but at least I was and I can sleep better at night knowing I was.

I’m going to write the the letter but perhaps not send it. I’m going to think on it. It feels complicated and this person has their own baggage and I don’t wish to add another layer of complexity to this situation because I also feel like they are being really selfish with how they reacted and don’t want another earful from them shaming me. I will write it but I’m not going to ask for anything from them and I may not even send it. Just tell them that I realized I had a crush on them and due to our physical distance and them having some things lined up and I feeling too attached that the best thing I felt for me was some space.

Idk I don’t think I should message her again. She got really angry and didn’t reply to my last message. I feel sort of ashamed I wasn’t more honest with telling her my feelings for her. At the time it just seemed like a bad idea and potential to complicate things but now it feels like the most honest thing I could of done. Feels like it’s too late idk maybe I should write her one last message but I don’t want to be THAT guy.

I told her I felt too attached to her but didn’t tell her my exact feelings why I felt attached to her and she was actually angry at me cause she said I didn’t explain myself well enough maybe I wimped out and wasn’t as honest as I could of been I didn’t want to throw all that into it and make it more messy. Idk I just feel bad now like maybe I should have been totally transparent up front with exactly how I felt i think she could have sensed this and was telling me she was mad I wasn’t straight forward with her enough.

I feel sad and blue about it and it sometimes leads me to an existential feeling I haven't fully resolved. I take peace in the fact that I know humanity becomes more loving each generation. I feel compassion for victims and the perpetrators for their ignorance. I make sure not to focus on just the suffering as well. With every murder a baby is born that will grow up and help people. I see humanity as a project of love and learning. We can always help society and others in some way to grow and make the world more safer and peaceful for future generations.

Is it shallow or low conscious to desire a partner that blows your mind with their physical beauty? I don't think I could be with someone I don't find sexually attractive. I don't even think I'm a perfectionist but I could never settle for someone I don't have a serious and fiery sexual polarity with where their beauty makes me speechless and I just want to fuck their brains out and merge with them physically.

I have overcame neediness before and have had great success with women but I think it is a process that doesn't ever fully end. It seeps in subtly and when things are good it isn't such a problem but when something goes south or comes up it's a ticking time bomb for a person. I do admit I have feelings for her but I don't think that should automatically mean we can't be friends. It's why I wanted some space from her but she took it really hard. I wrote her a letter and she got really mad at me saying "that's not what real friends do" and stuff like that... Can't really get through to her and she is throwing so much blame at me saying I didn't explain myself well enough and really angry stuff. I realize she is reacting to it in her own way and she has anger coming up. I'm standing my ground and telling her I understand she feels this way but it doesn't make me a bad friend for wanting space and tending to my own emotional needs. I hope she can at least see through that she is bringing a lot of her own insecurities and past abandonment to the table here and if she doesn't want to be friends anymore I won't hold a grudge against her.

I'm feeling real tore up about this now. We haven't spoken since they confronted me and I just noticed they unfriended me on social media Just feels bad... I wonder if I could of handled it differently. They were the one nagging me and I didn't want to lie to them about how I was feeling before she started reacting and getting defensive. I don't know how I could of handled it differently I feel like I was honest but I just wonder if there was any other way I could of handled it so I could get some space and they wouldn't feel hurt like I am abandoning them. They have abandonment issues too so I know this probably really hurt them as well and I feel so bad that I made them perhaps feel this way. I just don't know and it hurts

that was painful and boring to watch but Biden didn't do too much to mess up and neither did Trump.

eh, let's not dump our problems on them. they are messing with social media but Q is american as apple pie.

I believe for this particular even there were very few black people. it was held in a very white rural florida county. there are some black voices for trump events in michigan that had some black people turn up.

I have experienced this but I just wonder what new creation maya will lead to

Love the mastery stage blue can produce. Pure refined beauty in the art of sword making. You don't see as many master craftsmen in orange or green.

they held a "black voices for trump" rally recently in Florida and I'm not sure any black people even showed up

what about in the conventional sense? it's fun to wonder what new creation or reference point will be established. I personally would like to come back as another human.

Some people here like to set up some sort of purity test over who experiences the "lower" tier emotions and set up some sort of straw-man out of it to discredit how conscious someone is. You can have emotions of resentment towards a person's actions and still recognize the divinity at their core and their undeniable worthiness of love.

Seems short sighted and like he has his own emotional stuff still clouding his experience. I realize there are many degrees to awakening but as a life I know we all wish to personally experience those filled with joy. His just seems to lack this. I don’t know though, only speculating. All of “this” is not out of a lower conscious emotion such as boredom.

He seems quite yellow as well. There is depth and dynamism and an openness to considering JP's viewpoints as well that accompanies his holistic views on JP.

what's the root issue of the OP though if we look at it as fundamentally as possible? That ultimately everything is meaningless? why is this a problem? Isn't this perhaps the best thing about life? it could be no other way... how else then could we create meaning?

Sometimes I feel like I have sort of pent up emotions of anger and hurt that expresses itself through various outlets of life, subtly. I’ve done a lot to release it about 60% of it is gone, but it still feels like these is some still energetically left. It makes me feel ashamed and disgusted I have it. It feels like it’s part of my shadow and I’m maybe 70% conscious of the pattern. How can I further work to release it? Some of it feels trapped. As a young child I was made to feel deeply ashamed when I was angry and was not given enough love by my parent when I felt this way. They were dysfunctional and ignorant didn’t know how to regulate their own emotions or how to give proper love and understanding to a child. This was only compounded growing up and in adolescence where I felt further shame and repression as a rebellious teen in trouble at home and at school. How can I further let go of this trapped energy and accept how it has subtly seeped it’s way into aspects of my life?