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yeah it just feels like they now are somehow playing some sort of game. like I'm trying to be as transparent with what I'm writing here and avoid my own self bias for the best possible advice. I came clean to them. I owned up to the fact that I could of been more straight forward with them about how I felt when I originally wanted some space and not had to have them pry for more information. I took responsibility for that and spoke crystal clear to them. They live in another country so I don't want to ask them for a long distance relationship like this. I'm just being realistic here. I feel like now something is being held back by them and it doesn't explain to me why they got so hurt (I think largely to do with their own past) and why they want to act like it didn't happen now. But is is all connected and I feel mostly unacknowledged by them.

@Preety_India @flowboy

Update: So this person reached out to me the other day and asked me if I wanted to be friends again and talk daily again. We have been talking a little and they seem closed off. I've been bringing up our falling out and how angry they got. They are acting like it never happened and like they want to just return to what it was like before it happened. It doesn't feel good to me. It feels like they themselves aren't being honest about something and here I am the one who had them blow up and get all angry at me because I quietly wanted to distance myself from them after developing a huge crush on them. They never have acknowledged how I felt and left my last message to them telling them how I truly felt on read. They then message me a couple months later asking to be friends and talk again... I really don't know what the deal is and I feel a little hurt... I don't know if I should come out and straight up ask them how they feel about me and why they are acting like none of it every happened. Like this is the reaction I was originally expecting to get when I originally wanted some space instead of them blowing up and seeming super hurt. I feel just confused more-so about them and wondering how they feel and their motives for writing me again out of the blue after they got so mad and seemed perfectly fine never talking again. Just feels off considering they are acting like nothing happened after I told them how I felt about them and them getting super angry at me for holding back about what was going on... Now it feels like they are being dishonest or holding back or idk trying to use me in some way to cope with their own incongruences about their own emotions... Does any of this make sense? Does anyone understand what I'm saying? I almost feel subtly gaslighted by them.

he hasn't said too much of substance critiquing Leo. I'm with him though on his more conservative integrative approach but aside from that he doesn't really say much else.

At first I thought I was going to read about some sort of sugar daddy / baby situation but it doesn’t even sound like that ? It’s a little weird and a pretty big age gap considering she’s a teen still.

I think it has a lot to do with a component of fear. As consciousness expands it can be scary to integrate everything so one retreats to something that feels solid or stable like an old popular ideology.

what's your point? I don't know too many dads who are in conflict with their wives over what their kids should wear or how the kitchen should be redecorated.

Exactly. It is no secret. No one here will say men have it easier in what I would label or define as the "attraction phase." That sort of limbo period where you first meet a person and start defining the relationship and mutual attraction begins to form. Women are vastly more powerful in this area. It's sort of their super power. The cards are in their favor greatly during this phase if you wanna call it like that. Some men are more powerful than others during this phase and it comes down to inner work, masculine/feminine communication, pick up skills, statues, call it whatever but for the most part the woman usually has the advantage. Men tend to have long term power. If women's strength is tactics men's strength is strategy. Men grow in value over the long term and can play the field much longer than women can. How often do you see a 35 yo woman with a 20 yo man? I take a sort of game theory approach to it which I don't think is a good way of seeing the entire domain of romantic relationships but it is useful for describing certain aspects of it. Overall I think both are equal but more like a ying yang symbol equal rather than being perfectly balanced in every aspect.

you ever drank ayahuasca o_O?

There really are too many to name but to me https://www.instagram.com/polinamalinovskaya/ Polina Malinovskaya is one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen

Conor come back to the forum!!! Conor come backk, you can blame it alll on meeee! I was wronggg and I just can't live without youuuu!

Bars and clubs are sort of out of the question which I've always used. There is one or two places open at night where I am which I may check out but they look a little dead. I have only done day game a bit and there is decent opportunity for this where I am. How to get back into pick up during the pandemic? I think I will do it with a mask perhaps and only outside? I live in a college town with a lot of girls walking around the downtown.

I mean... aside from him looking ridiculous is he really in any danger? He is eating again and he isn't talking about hurting himself and by his word he says he feels great. Looks like he is just out getting some attention while in christ consciousness. I would feel otherwise if he was going off like this with a negative tone. He is gonna ground out what he is going through eventually and then probably have to delete some youtube videos. Not that big of a deal.

I need to work on my discipline and looking at healthy blue examples helps

thanks, this is good advise maybe something funny will create a friendly conversation

I read a good quote. I don't remember who said it but it goes something like "the mystic swims delightfully in the same ocean the psychotic despairingly drowns in."

So basically if you were a kid in the 90s all those old Pokemon cards you may still have lying around somewhere have gone up in value over the years until recently where they have completely ballooned to insane numbers of value. Basically a big social media influencer (Logan Paul) got into it and now buying old Pokemon cards is now something instagram celebrities are doing.... and of course whenever this happens it attracts stage orange devils looking to scam and manipulate the market in their favor and make some money.

please make the discussion public after if it has useful information in it

Yeah I get you. I can only watch a single Rupert video a week, max.

You make me want to start approaching again. I haven't done pick up in almost a year and it sucks. I think I may start doing it outside even during the pandemic cause I'm feeling lonely without feminine in my life. I never really did daygame. I had good success with clubs and bars at night and I considered that my roadhouse. My logic was why approach at day when there are a ton of horny girls going to the club specifically to fuck? sure there is competition but if you get good enough you can count on getting action regularly and getting to that point was easier for me in this setting. That is out of the question since they are all closed here. I suppose I need to adapt to current situations and start pandemic approaching with a mask outside and in shops.

To each his own I suppose. Rupert has that sort of Neo Advaita style where he doesn't ever say too much or anything too deep, contrasted to Leo who is the equivalent of a grind house action movie, over the top. I like to listen to a little of everyone cause I enjoy different perspectives.

conor is going down the solipsism route it looks like to according to his leo video someone send him this

if anyone wants to see the Conor Murphy Leo Gura video

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