Lyubov

thanks for the great post. I will say this, I think my parent's intentions are very much out of love and caring for me. I actually don't wanna change them and don't wish that on them cause it doesn't feel good to me. I feel quite accepting of them even though this does hurt my feelings a bit. I'm a grown man by the way so we aren't going to counseling lol. I also do agree that telling them I don't like how they act like this isn't a good idea. I think letting go on this to the resistance and just setting reasonable boundaries will help. Maybe addressing it a bit in a non-confrontational and non-judgemental way if I feel my boundaries overstepped. My parents are quite reasonable and not toxic when I bring stuff up in a healthy way.

I feel a little angry and unsupported by my parents and it hurts my feelings some. I don't like their dynamic about how they worry about me and think I'm this overly reckless person making dangerous decisions with my life but both act this dynamic out in that sort of mom and dad way. The overly neurotic mom and the aloof uncaring dad. My mom has this neurotic approach where it seems like she is hyper focused, way too much in her thoughts/worries and controlling and projects her worry out onto me and is critical in this passive aggressive way and then my dad is just sort of aloof and has this sort of like "let him do whatever the fuck he wants it isn't my problem, I don't wanna argue" ; which then hurts my feelings like he doesn't care about me or is lazy and unwilling of sharing his thoughts cause he wan't to avoid an argument with me and he is lacking wisdom to share with me which he doesn't have. I wish they were both in the middle. I think yall know the dynamic I'm talking about, seen it in the movies. The overly worried mom and the dad telling her to calm down and not care. Overly caring mom complaining to the dad and the dad being like CALM DOWN KAREN and then her yelling at him and him being quiet rolling his eyes like whatever. I don't think there is anything to do about it persay. Just set my boundaries and let go of any conflict or resistance to it. I don't wanna change my parents and I don't wanna put that energy on them to change cause it doesn't feel good to me. Just makes me a little sad that one doesn't seem to trust me and the other doesn't seem to care.

It is totally your decision If I was in this much debt though personally I would try to stomach getting a job in CS. It pays well and if you get a good job you can pay down that debt at a fairly decent pace. What are your salary prospects and skills? Can you land a decent CS job that pays 60k-100k? 77K could be payed off in 5 years, maybe a bit longer and then from there you can transition. I would try to use your degree tbh. It's a great degree and can open up more doors in the long run. I studied liberal arts and if I was wise back when I was younger I would of avoided university all together. My degree has hardly come into play in getting me work. Should of saved that money.

these dumb hypotheticals do precious nothing for actually embodying / awakening to love. take some Ayahuasca with the set intention of experiencing the suffering of a holocaust victim, it will give you that experience if you ask it, then come back and practice unconditional love / forgiveness for hitler. stop pondering these stupid message board questions.

nah, she was involved in a car crash that killed a person though, she payed almost a million dollars to the family

True, and like I said I do not want to change them. Feels awful wishing to see another person change. It's not for me and I feel much better accepting people how they are. There is a part of me though that feels a sort of innocence and hurt however. Both are true for me. Just makes me sad there is this aspect to life sometimes. It doesn't ruin our relationship. We still manage to see each other about once every week to every other week, but I think I have some releasing on and perhaps some better boundaries to set with telling them I don't want to discuss something.

Not a single food online and on youtube with the amount of bro science videos produced have I seen two sides that completely disagree with each other. One side says fermented is bad, raw is okay, another side says both is bad, and finally another side that says the other two are morons and are completely wrong. What do you all think? Does soy raise estrogen and is it good for you to eat processed or unprocessed?

I think it comes from a time when life and duality was physically far more brutal and chaotic and people were really just tormented a lot by physical pain. I think today, if a person integrates their shadow and works on their emotions and physical health and such, you can live an incredibly joyous and pleasant life. modern medicine has come far enough that it can treat most physically excruciating ailments and survival is much easier today in most countries.

BTC is honestly a very risky investment and basically a quick in quick out scheme for most people into it. You are far too generous with your words, even by saying it isn't bad lol.

I got both shits. After about 14 hours after the 2nd shot I got a fever and felt quite sick. The fever lasted about 12 hours and I was feeling much better by the evening. I was feeling much better about 28 hours later from the fever starting. It's been about 60 hours since I had the 2nd dose and I'm 100%.

she even supported/voted trump too lol if she tried to get votes from the left (identity politics votes) she would be rejected cause the left is too smart to fall for such a stupid side show she is hated as well by the party she votes / is running for oh, to be in such conflict with oneself

you don't be a zen devil.... you just said it's groundless you contradict yourself with your own question

unique is key for sure I think also always having fun with it, not letting it become a grind so to speak but also putting in a lot of energy so consistent content is released.

cause their self deception mechanisms and spiritual ego have tricked them into thinking spiritual awakening is knowing something greater than an antithesis they assigned themselves (psychology) when in fact all they have had is spiritual awakening and maybe are only contributing a slight alternative to a problem that is far more complex than what they are attempting to reduce it down to. that, and they can see there is a ton of unneeded BS in the field of psychology having taken a general wider perspective. my criticism cuts both ways when a guru tries to talk up that they can help people more than a psychologist.

Can't say I really care unless if it's advice being given to a person in a really bad mental place. That or health advice or psychedelic dosing advice, etc. Basically any situation that requires high ethics and a measured response so the person taking the advice isn't harmed. Can't say I really care about the "enlightenment wars" that pops up sometimes in the meditation sub forum.

nice take @Michael569 so don't worry too much about soy affecting estrogen/testosterone and focus more on getting exercise, eating healthy diet and losing body fat to have a more optimal hormonal level?

the guy is a coward and does not have integrity. he wouldn't be fleeing if he wasn't guilty of something tbh.

it's par the course for a guru to use a couple of his students as concubines. I believe it, which means I THINK it's true. I don't KNOW if it's true but I believe it to be true cause it's old as the hills when it comes to this stuff. Every guru does not have allegations thrown at them like this.

"Checking forum's level of consciousness" lmao... probably better if you focused on your own

it's not such a big problem but I agree that the rating system should be respected and little kids don't need to be playing violent games. fantasy is an important and healthy part of the human experience. it's fine for people to explore fantasy through video games. it's fun and a way to experience stuff in a safe way that otherwise wouldn't be safe. I think it comes down to moderation. some people just get totally addicted to fantasy when they need more of a balance.

1) just look around at people you consider healthy, functional, mature and wise. people who have a sort of flow to them. it's not hard to spot a person that isn't holding on to much. 2) therapy, mental health services, self discovery, self esteem work, journaling, stuff to get in better touch with your emotions, self love, healthy friendships and socializing with people in a healthy way, transpersonal stuff, proper diet, exercise and posture, nature and petting animals.

Yeah a can of tuna every now and then ain’t so bad IMO. I think some people lee ch up metals more than others. I got tested recently and had literally no metals in my system besides arsenic which I’m gonna try to detox.

I’ve felt good on one meal a day if it’s a really large fatty meal with meat and cheese and bread. Thing is though I don’t think it’s the best quality of nutrients but I felt good. Oddly enough I feel sort of bleh on low fat diet where I’m having to eat 3 meals a day plus snacks. I’m gonna stick it more though and see if I feel any long term changes. It’s good for losing excess body fat though which is what I’m doing right now.

Stage green... I swear. So cringe. 99% of gurus are scammers. There are few I actually look at and feel inspired by because I can see they have embodied a wisdom higher than mine. You are actually the guru. Be your own guru. Not really surprising to hear about this. Mooji, Osho, etc all mix work and pleasure and exploit. I think some of these women too get all caught up in their feelings and fall for their guru then find out he is playing them like how a rapper has 7 girlfriends at once. This is the stage green equivalent of that type of manipulation. Now this is some truth, if you are a guru, don't SHIT where you EAT. Don't date your disciples even though there will be some western girls from the US doing their little free spirit tour want the fairytale of marrying their guru.

I am trying to find an all around mix of multi-vitamins that are right for me. The thing is though I'm not sure I can trust many fo the brands that produce this stuff. I think you gotta do your research on the brand to make sure you are actually getting what it says you are getting and more importantly if taking the dosage they give you in pill form actually treats you. I remember reading something that some vitamins aren't even ingested properly in these stamped pills. anyone have any websites and resources on finding the right daily mix and trusted brand of multi-vitamin?