Lyubov

INFJ I think a lot of people here are neurodivergent and spiritually inclined.

Yeah, I enjoy making YouTube videos. But it’s ok. When your source of income and what you enjoy don’t align sometimes it’s a good opportunity to mature. I’ve come to terms with a lot of things and am grateful I can do what I do. We sometimes think accepting our lives is a form of giving up but it isn’t. Often times it’s in the acceptance where you’re able to think more clearly and shape your life how you wish.

Stopped reading like one paragraph in then scrolled and saw your bolded statement. My instincts are good.

Forgiveness is bogus because nothing can ever diminish your value so just creating this idea that you need to forgive someone before realizing your value or feeling better is a self imposed limitation (false). There is no rule that says you need to forgive anyone as if you have power over someone if they did you wrong, nor do they over you if they wronged you. The better word to use is acceptance. Do you accept reality as it is?

Don’t worry they will find someone else equally as demented to hitch their wagon to in 2028

Not even wine occasionally?

You can always get support from them until you are doing better and are stronger and then get off of them under the supervision of a doctor. They aren’t a life sentence.

We are in the same boat

2000 vocab words is definitely bullshit. That is B1 level, intermediate.

That is their prerogative. You can communicate your values and expectations. We don't get any guarantees others will agree to them.

In that case yeah most women will be pretty pragmatic about things and think about what you can provide, what your long term planning is like, etc. I wish my YouTube paid money but I can’t put that pressure on it or expect it to substitute for my real job which I use to support myself and my wife financially. There is nothing wrong just focusing on your art but we gotta be honest with ourselves and realistic about the way the world is. If no one wants to make long term plans with you maybe it means you haven’t set your life up to do so while considering another person?

I don’t know

My dad is 76 years old. This is sometimes really hard for me to accept. Does anyone else have aging parents where you are aware most of their years are behind them and they don't have so much time left?

I've never had an issue going in that direction. My energy has always ran too high, doing too much. Yeah if someone is exceptionally passive and "doesn't know what to do" then I'd have a different response.

So I came back. I left end of July. I am done with China for a while lol.... it just gets overwhelming and you feel like you're on an alien planet after a while. I had so much fun. Hope to go to Tibet next year.

Those are hierarchies based on utility which is more a function of one's use in reality than of perceived status which is maliable. A doctor is always in demand from society while a handsome gym instagramer bro who dies from an overdose or gets put in jail for sexual assault always had their efforts based in quicksand. I would also contend most of the people who succeed in those professions you listed did so not out of their pursuit of success in comparison with others but with bettering themselves and making the best of their unique strengths. You do not go into medicine for status, there are far easier things you can do that don't require the time and exceptional amount of effort needed to practice medicine. Medical doctors know this. Most do not go into with status in mind.

I probably missed out on sleeping with easily 10-15 really high caliber beautiful women because I thought I had to pull that night, people, especially women reallllyyy feel your presence. desperation and "goals" to get into their pants are interpreted as an ulterior motive. I interviewed some web developers to build my website. They had a mediocre portfolio and offered little substance in the meeting but seemed desperate to close, I could feel how desperate one of them was and they brought almost nothing and offered no help for me during this meeting. I ended up hiring a guy who did a completely free mock up for me unasked, he just sent it over a few days after I had meeting with him without responding to his offer (and it actually looked good regardless of how much he prompted AI to build it, I could not do this myself), and he had the attitude during the meeting of fixing all my misconceptions and helping me, his expertises shown and he was not desperate for the job. why would he be with his skill sets and value he offers? It's really not so different with women. They feel what you have to offer and give them and then pick you and show you when they're ready to be pulled. Many do not want to be pulled the first night because they think 1) they will be seen as a slut and 2) you will ghost them after you get what you want from them (sex). You don't have to do anything except not fuck it up. If you aren't getting this experience with women it means your batting average is bad and they do not want to be pulled by you, so you need to go back to your original intention and see what foundation it's built on before taking off again.

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pulling is like language, how well you speak it, know it, all that, it plays a role. your timing is important, you don't need to pull that night. in fact a lot of great things work out with girls in the first week or so. results forward approach is the thing which counter intuitively blocks your progress.

Yeah the places I went def had a lot of tourists but I also liked how a lot of local life and culture was still preserved. We drove on a scooter around and there was a ton of farmers and local life still. I think Phuket had the most tourists. Krabi had it too but much more local life surrounding it. Bangkok was a mix of everything. I got a DTV workcation and hope to go back next year for 3-6 months. Apparently Chang Mai is really worth visiting too.

Time really flies. It’s sometimes really quite astounding to fathom. I’m 35 now, seems like yesterday I was 22 and just thinking my dad was this ever present person. My dad is in good health but 76… at that age most of your years are behind you.

Because there is an economic drought but every idiot with a mouthpiece is shouting at you that you suck and are lazy if you're not rich. It's a weirdly perverse and conflicted belief system that the average American views their life and success through. People would actually be happier if they were simple poor as dirt and had clarity of mind and understanding why the world the way it is. Simple poor happy folk. Instead in a perverse way the average American clings to judgement, blames themselves and looks to bully people bellow themselves in order to feel better about how shit poor and stupid they are.

You're optimizing the wrong stuff when you focus on nofap and whatnot. If you need to learn game and pick up, if it isn't effortless for you or you don't have some super chad foundation... then chances are you have a good bit of emotional inner work, self esteem and inner child work, inherent value awakening work, etc and you will probably have to socialize a lot understand the terrain. If porn and fapping is an issue for you obviously yeah that could be it's own pathology or unhealthy coping mechanism but generally speaking you don't need to give something like that so much thought.

Where about in Thailand are you? I spent 3 months there this year. I was in Bangkok, Phuket and Krabi. Lovely place. I went to several temples, Bangkok had the most impressive, really such a beautiful place. Krabi had one on top of a mountain you hike up. I absolutely love Thailand. Maybe not a place I would want to live in year around but it's a great place to spend several months in at a time. Such lovely people there.

Status is ultimately a loser's game. You can become conscious of how imposing hierarchy boomerangs back to hurt you. Any time you chronically play the comparison and judgement game it shapes your life in a way where eventually you question why you still deep down don't feel good about yourself. This needs to be distinguished from getting recognition and approval. Those are nice things we can experience and help us both relate to each other as well as receive signals we are often times on the right path with our efforts. For example, you make a YouTube video with the intention of helping someone or showing something and you receive back positive praise for your efforts. This can be very useful and nice.