Lyubov

im so confused rn

wait wut. I thought you said 5meo is the only substance for you... you now are stanning for regular dmt?

thanks for the advice but I'm not 40 I'm in my late 20s. I feel this blockage when I start getting closer to a girl, like I'm scared to receive love from them or I'll be hurt or limited by being with them. I push away those that want something more and attract those that are sort of closed off and not looking for anything serious. I'm going to practice giving myself more self love and being willing to jump in and focus on looking for deeper intimacy.

yup, they will damage your mind if done incorrectly

Psychadelics are the most powerful way but powerful doesn't necessarily mean a healthy or good in the same way steroids are the most powerful way to gain muscle but can cause health issues for many people if done incorrectly. They def aren't for everyone and need to be done super carefully, sometimes this isn't stated enough.

Check out the work by Peter Levine. He talks about this in detail. You can use the healing of trauma to awaken. It's what has been my path. I've found it's a balance. You can get treatment and therapy and you will find it aids in awakening. Healing and awakening compliment each other and go hand in hand, strike a balance which works for you!

dude this is a great way of looking at things I also sometimes feel like I'm unlovable or flawed as a person and that's why I am not married yet but I think I'll find someone for deep intimacy the more I give myself love. I can be a bit scared really opening up to a girl and find myself finding excuses to keep things casual and not get too serious. I am a little worried about still being a bachelor at 40 that just has casual sex and never experiences deep intimacy.

yeah same... DMT turns into a visionary ride that sucks me totally in... Can't say I enjoy it much at all. I think more gentle substances are better for introspection work and self healing if that is one's intent (Mushrooms, Mescaline, MDMA). DMT is for people who can handle their shit and really let go into it fully or just powering through and doing it a fuck ton until things click I suppose? I see myself doing it in the future one day though when I can handle fear better while tripping and ground myself out better after.

I have a more Laissez faire approach to this. It should be done consciously but I don't have a problem with the plethora of fantasies and emotional ways people engage in sex as long as it is consensual and legal. I think we too often find ourselves secretly judging and wrapping shame around all the ways people choose to enjoy sex. We will approach it with judgement, a protector mindset, a critical one or as a perfectionist of how it should be to be the most healthy expression.... all because someone has a thought or an emotion that may be seen as objectionable. It's fine if someone wants to have more detached or aggressive sex. It can actually be cathartic to acknowledge those desires and if done so consciously, play with them through sex and masturbation. I often times find myself wondering if there is something wrong with me sexually because I enjoy porn so much... there isn't, wrapping stringent expectations about what should bring one pleasure through sex is just another form of toxic shame since it is usually this emotion which is the container or boundaries of sorts for these standards. It is not what I would call healthy shame. Fully embrace, accept and love oneself regardless of what desires of energies of the sexual nature one might be carrying. Healthy shame around sex would be the ability to distinguish mistakes that bring on pain to another and making amends for it. I can't see myself applying the same standard to someone exercising what is essentially their imagination or consensual play that doesn't live up to some sort of purity standard.

hmm right... just like it was said that was supposed to be the deciding factor in 2016 what's going to beat Trump is a strong showing by the other side offering a dynamic, genuine and inclusive platform that attracts the middle. Not just counting on Trump to do something disgusting cause that seems to be a weekly since 2015

https://finance.yahoo.com/news/spain-porn-star-held-man-dies-toad-venom-200004558.html First off... I'm confused why this was listed under the finance section of yahoo news He was facilitating Bufo ceremonies out of his home apparently. Secondly I'm curious what exactly caused the body to die... Can Bufo or 5meo if dosed way too high bring on a heart attack or respiratory failure? Are there any other deaths associated with this psychedelic? people have died from taking Ayahuasca: Usually from doing something dangerous while tripping like jumping off something, someone is believed to have died from choking on vomit while not being supervised. A few cases I believe where someone taking a prohibited medication that caused a lethal mixture. I think some people who already had a preexisting condition may have died as well from drinking. Finally drinking tobacco water and mixing various other substances all at once has caused death before during these retreats.

Yeah I do agree and I do have a great life regardless of the hardships and stuff I wish I could fix about myself. I guess it just hurts a bit sometimes to feel I don't fit in this way or not having met anyone that has really drawn me to want to commit and wondering if I'm flawed in some way. I do desire to be in a LTR but I don't want it to come for desperateness in order to not be judged by my family.

That knee on his neck cut off blood flow and is actually an incredibly dangerous thing to do to another person. It's basically a lethal submission move to put someone in a choke hold in martial arts. I can't even imagine the full force of someone's weight... I have no clue where that cop learned to do that. I wonder if they were even trained to do that. I think they mostly just don't give a fuck and value black lives less.

the sedona method is really good with hang ups like this. practice letting go and then when you feel you are in a more stable place journal about it or find ways to explore why you felt that way. Sometimes doing nothing and just letting an emotional cathartic expression take over can help.

Thanks for the information. I currently lift weights and eat alright... sleep could use work. I'll look into natural ways and get tested to see if I'm in a healthy range.

Has anyone here taken steroids before? What can you tell me about them? What are some other ways to boost testosterone safely? Does anyone have any reading material or books on the positives and negatives of steroids and TRT? Seems like there is so much conflicting opinions on this topic with some saying it's fine if done properly and others saying don't do it ever.

Bangladesh will basically be submerged and I think civil war and anarchy will break out in developing countries that are greatly affected by climate change.

I haven't seen the video but if this is the case def bring murder charges

I don't think the cop "intentionally" killed him (IE kept his knee on his neck with the intent of ending his life purposefully) but it was such an incredibly careless, dangerous and callous was of handling oneself as well as motivated by racial discrimination. I'm not sure of the laws in this state and what best fits his actions but I think the highest degree of manslaughter as well as hate crime charges should be what they are charged with. I haven't seen the video though. I think murder could be a reasonable charge as well.

I would also assume the secretion from the sonoran desert toad might be hard to properly dose as well. I don't know anything about how toads secrete their slime but I'm wondering if each secretion is consistent or not ie one toad may produce more 5meo than another. No clue why anyone would use toad slime over pure synthetic molecules that can be properly dosed. New agers like magical stuff that comes directly from the ground or a plant I guess.

Oh ok I see. The article doesn't state exactly what happened besides that he inhaled it so I'm assuming he did a line of it and it was a tremendously huge does and it brought on respiratory failure.

I did a bit more research and apparently the "toad" secretes not only 5meo but also bufotenin in it's slime. Seems like bufotenin can actually be quite toxic. I've yet to find anything about 5meo itself brining on a death of the body.

so what exactly is in control of our choices and actions both physical and mental? our ego? the observer that is eternal? who is the executive making the choices? or is choice and control an illusion? It doesn't feel like it from perspective of ego.

Real cool, be safe

Well... you have recognized the first step and that there is indeed a problem. I'd say when it comes to this it's about trying to be as conscious as possible when it comes to what we consume. Try to buy clothing made in ethical countries. If everyone did this (and could afford to do so) then those countries would find large portions of their citizens out of work so now they have an even bigger problem. I'd say we need to buy from companies that are treating their workforce ethically. I know some clothing manufacturers actually follow through with their oversights. It isn't about perfection but I'd say being my conscious where each dollar goes is a start. I'm in the process of trying to cut out fast food from my diet. I'll get food at a Dunkin Donuts close to me because it is a franchise which is family owned and only employees members of the family that own it.