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By intimacy do you mean connecting with people on a deep emotional level where you give/receive support? What exactly constitutes intimacy to you and what do you gain or give when being intimate with someone. I think it depends on your job. I think being able to navigate and be intimate with others will be more important for a psychologist compared to someone who sits at a computer all day writing code. I think you can help people without having to get too personal with them. How do you want to help people? If you have a particular issue that you share with the people you are helping that may actually serve as a doorway to you being more comfortable being intimate with those you are helping.

this is the one video game I want to play. I haven't played video games in almost 8 years. I found out you can stream this game when it comes out so I will do that. Can play it on my old macbook with a $15 controller. Just do that. Save the rest of the money and buy a cool cheap sports bike to impress girls.

Yeah, he def has changed and grown in a positive direction for himself. It's quite apparent.

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Life is beginning to come back to normal here. Shops are reopening and the gym is opening on Monday. This made me happy. I really enjoy lifting weights and it is one of my favorite things to do. It pushes me to my limits and I get a deep sense of reward every time my lifts go up. I also find myself lookin better and better in the nude and there isn't really anyone that has a problem with that I'm looking forward to Monday to get back in the gym. This is the method I use. It's a popular strength training method and is a great way to get into great shape and be strong as well. I'm currently feeling a little confused. This tends to come up at night. I've had an awakening and mystical experiences but emotionally I still feel hurt sometimes and like there are negative beliefs and emotions I'm carrying around and views about my personality and personal human experience I wish I could change or accept. I've found reading theory in a confused state doesn't make me feel good so I'm going to start delegating this activity when I'm feeling sharp. I often times wonder if I have read enough books and know enough about the psyche and human experience and it's just time to explore it on my own or if I need me theory to guide me. I have gained quite a bit of self esteem this year where I have reclaimed a lot of personal power where I know I can further heal and integrate aspects of myself and past and understand better what I have been through and am. Mind mapping has been a good way of getting all these thoughts out. I sometimes feel a negative way and will write out a paragraph or few sentences in my mind mapping app on my computer. I will then link it to other thoughts that arise. Often times it is complex and looks like a knotted up mess of string. I often times find myself most confused when trying to strike a balance between letting it all go and resting in what I actually am, pure awareness vs making conscious of and doing an exploration of the psyche/ego/sub-conscious. I physically feel sometimes like my body is holding onto emotions/beliefs I'm not aware of or am aware of but have difficulty fully letting go. I sometimes wonder if I need to delve deeper into them to heal them (which is scary sometimes) or if there are ways to process it less intensely and release it. Anyways I will continue to work on giving myself love and being compassionate and caring with myself when I don't like something about my experience or feel an emotion I don't wish to feel. I think I will do some holotropic breathework while listening to this loving kindness meditation. I've found I feel good and in control of guiding my path to higher places of consciousness by mixing together all sorts of techniques I've learned.

Teal is somewhat deluded from my point of view. I don't think growth comes from delegating self power and insight seeking onto others so I'm not affected by her lunacy and all the stuff she says but I can view it with an open mind and do see she has some depth of knowledge when it comes to working with emotions. She has some good advice on healing. Some questionable advice as well considering this thread exists

which will lead him to seek. suffering makes good wood for fueling the fires of seeking.

He's at least aware of his spiritual path so he will be set with another 20 million or so to continue comfortably on it when he literally can't physically box anymore

apparently he is doing appearances on pro wrestling now too

https://news.yahoo.com/new-yahoo-news-you-gov-poll-shows-coronavirus-conspiracy-theories-spreading-on-the-right-may-hamper-vaccine-efforts-152843610.html This is the complexity of living in such a large country with large factions of people at different stages of development. It's a little frightening to me personally. I'm not sure a perfectly executed plan to overcome COVID can be executed with so many people at different stages living under one direct leadership.

has he recovered from his sleeping problems? oh wow I started listening and I feel really bad for him and his sleep disorder

this guy is stage orange and that isn't the best place to be when doing emotional work or healing from my perspective. I find stage green advice coming from someone who is somewhat deluded is often more authentic and helpful than a hard nosed rationalist that is deeply separated from their emotions and has little love to give.

He could be out of money that's why

Each one is different and the effects they will have will be different per person. I've had mostly good experiences with them. They diminished my sex drive some and made me not able to cry as easily. On the flip side they supported me greatly from delving into some very low and frightening places emotionally. I think they could be overprescribed a bit. I honestly am not really sure.

considering i've peered into the abyss and went to hell and back and went on a trip where I was tortured for hours by demons there is virtually nothing scary to me now about talking to girls on the street, it's literally one of the silliest things to be scared of and is entirely in your head due to a lack of loving yourself fully for who you are, someone who deserves love

hey... as long as it's transparent and clear to all those signing up to how he facilitates be my guest

On the same channel is a video of him pouring water down the throat of a participant as well as kicking and yelling at a guy having a bad trip.... I will reserve my judgement of his character but of his method.... it's dangerous and not a healthy way to trip I'd say for most people. But if someone wishes to still have him hold space for them be my guest, plenty still signing up for his seminars. You all can be the judge of whether or not you would work under him.

random guy asking question: does climate change pose a threat to the planet *long pause* *crickets* gary johns: I'm not smart enough....

I think with stuff like this it's a balance of both journaling about it to understand the psyche as well as the dismantling of the structure, which has been shared extensively by several others in this thread. Take a deep breath... go lie down and do some slow focused deep belly breathing for 10/20 minutes. Imagine this whole problem and put it in a beautiful chest and close it and put some distance between it and yourself. You can open the chest any time when you feel calm and you can journal about it any time you want but stay in the present and notice how it is just labels, thoughts, emotions, sensations, etc. Best to approach this from a calm mind rather than a triggered one where you get lost in the content, fear and thought stories. Nothing wrong with any thought or feeling, they are thoughts/feelings after all aren't they? Simply that. Doesn't mean anything about who you are as a person. Love yourself fully, no need to get pulled down by shame. I've noticed the root of a lot of these intrusive thought experiences are linked to shame. A person who has more shame is more likely to get pulled down and bullied by experiences that make them draw negative stories about themselves. Try your best to reclaim that power of having an outside source tell you something you are not. I can tell you you aren't some bad label and there isn't anything wrong with you, which personally I fully believe is true, but that source of reassurance, self trust, and acceptance is best when it comes from you, not others.

lol there are different degrees of fear and worry and it is all a form of love as well. I would move away from preaching and directing random people if I were you and focus on yourself.

Notice how your being stuck is just a belief that you are confident about. You don't lack confidence to grow, it's just placed in this belief. Nothing wrong with being stuck either. Explore fully where you are at. You can learn a lot about yourself where you are at. Love and accept this aspect of yourself. I'm sure since you are here you are quiet open minded and more developed than you give yourself credit for. Find stuff that resonates with you and move forward in a direction you feel is right for you.

lol I do have compassion and forgiveness for them. I as well feel worried and compassion for those who will suffer from the aforementioned's ignorance.

I have a few ways I journal - Future self: I write about and envision aspects of myself I wish to grow into. This can be powerful if you aren't always feeling a certain way or if you are feeling stuck. You can basically write love letter to yourself from a higher place while feeling low. - Gratitude: Always powerful, write about things you are thankful for. - Honest feelings journal: This is good for shadow content or stuff about yourself that confuses you. Write exactly how you feel about something, the emotions, pay attention to how your body feels and stay in the present moment, essentially talk therapy in journal form. - Affirmations: Write out things that are positive about yourself and aid in your growth. Write them so you feel they are honest and are things you feel you accept. If you feel huge resistance to them start with ones you feel you can accept and repeat to yourself. You can also journal about the blockages that come up "IE: I am lovable" if a block comes up when repeating this explore that blockage through writing.

ideology isn't necessarily a negative. I would say culture and ideology are intertwined. It's more so about if that ideology is beneficial towards growth vs if it hampers it.

*actually under multiple leaderships that take guidance from one leadership