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I don't think you would either. But avoid such extreme examples or interpretations. you might miss the subtler aspects of where you might be.

I think you are mistaking the map for the territory. Do you think all aspects of red have entirely left everyone's psyche/personality?

It's a "spiral" in the sense that we circle back around but with a bit more wisdom each time. Doesn't mean the content always changes or we don't have several of the same hangups that come up. Don't take the model as being some straight linear path that you should directly experience. The same can be said for healing.

Sometimes a transition from being an unhealthy orange to a healthy orange can be quite a vast journey and lead to some deep realizations. I think separating growth by stages isn't always a good indicator of telling how well someone has developed.

where does the misnomer that awakening/enlightenment means automatically becoming an emotionally mastered terminator that experiences no uncomfortable experiences and is in pure heaven 24/7 with no chance of ever wavering from this state? I've awakened but still feel I have much to do when it comes to managing and integration my emotions and beliefs.

I'm in my late 20s. I haven't been tested yet. I was just wondering if there was any benefit to increasing testosterone even it wasn't low. I don't think it's so low for me but currently it may be a bit because I haven't been sleeping as much and COVID has kept me from going to the gym but I am going to be working on both really soon since the gym opens next week here.

I like to draw and look for different ways to express my emotions over writing. I've started a public journal here. I've also installed a mindmap on my computer for mapping out my thoughts and beliefs. I like and still do journal in my notebook but it's a bit boring so I'm looking for other ways to explore and release emotions.

I'd say what's most important is be honest to yourself and how you feel. Sometimes being honest isn't so clear cut. For instance I may want to eat some cheesecake and honestly express that desire but also want to put it off to benefit my fitness goals. Recognizing the complexity of it is a form of honesty.

what shadow work methods do you use and what books have you read?

By intimacy do you mean connecting with people on a deep emotional level where you give/receive support? What exactly constitutes intimacy to you and what do you gain or give when being intimate with someone. I think it depends on your job. I think being able to navigate and be intimate with others will be more important for a psychologist compared to someone who sits at a computer all day writing code. I think you can help people without having to get too personal with them. How do you want to help people? If you have a particular issue that you share with the people you are helping that may actually serve as a doorway to you being more comfortable being intimate with those you are helping.

this is the one video game I want to play. I haven't played video games in almost 8 years. I found out you can stream this game when it comes out so I will do that. Can play it on my old macbook with a $15 controller. Just do that. Save the rest of the money and buy a cool cheap sports bike to impress girls.

Yeah, he def has changed and grown in a positive direction for himself. It's quite apparent.

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Life is beginning to come back to normal here. Shops are reopening and the gym is opening on Monday. This made me happy. I really enjoy lifting weights and it is one of my favorite things to do. It pushes me to my limits and I get a deep sense of reward every time my lifts go up. I also find myself lookin better and better in the nude and there isn't really anyone that has a problem with that I'm looking forward to Monday to get back in the gym. This is the method I use. It's a popular strength training method and is a great way to get into great shape and be strong as well. I'm currently feeling a little confused. This tends to come up at night. I've had an awakening and mystical experiences but emotionally I still feel hurt sometimes and like there are negative beliefs and emotions I'm carrying around and views about my personality and personal human experience I wish I could change or accept. I've found reading theory in a confused state doesn't make me feel good so I'm going to start delegating this activity when I'm feeling sharp. I often times wonder if I have read enough books and know enough about the psyche and human experience and it's just time to explore it on my own or if I need me theory to guide me. I have gained quite a bit of self esteem this year where I have reclaimed a lot of personal power where I know I can further heal and integrate aspects of myself and past and understand better what I have been through and am. Mind mapping has been a good way of getting all these thoughts out. I sometimes feel a negative way and will write out a paragraph or few sentences in my mind mapping app on my computer. I will then link it to other thoughts that arise. Often times it is complex and looks like a knotted up mess of string. I often times find myself most confused when trying to strike a balance between letting it all go and resting in what I actually am, pure awareness vs making conscious of and doing an exploration of the psyche/ego/sub-conscious. I physically feel sometimes like my body is holding onto emotions/beliefs I'm not aware of or am aware of but have difficulty fully letting go. I sometimes wonder if I need to delve deeper into them to heal them (which is scary sometimes) or if there are ways to process it less intensely and release it. Anyways I will continue to work on giving myself love and being compassionate and caring with myself when I don't like something about my experience or feel an emotion I don't wish to feel. I think I will do some holotropic breathework while listening to this loving kindness meditation. I've found I feel good and in control of guiding my path to higher places of consciousness by mixing together all sorts of techniques I've learned.

Teal is somewhat deluded from my point of view. I don't think growth comes from delegating self power and insight seeking onto others so I'm not affected by her lunacy and all the stuff she says but I can view it with an open mind and do see she has some depth of knowledge when it comes to working with emotions. She has some good advice on healing. Some questionable advice as well considering this thread exists

which will lead him to seek. suffering makes good wood for fueling the fires of seeking.

He's at least aware of his spiritual path so he will be set with another 20 million or so to continue comfortably on it when he literally can't physically box anymore

apparently he is doing appearances on pro wrestling now too

https://news.yahoo.com/new-yahoo-news-you-gov-poll-shows-coronavirus-conspiracy-theories-spreading-on-the-right-may-hamper-vaccine-efforts-152843610.html This is the complexity of living in such a large country with large factions of people at different stages of development. It's a little frightening to me personally. I'm not sure a perfectly executed plan to overcome COVID can be executed with so many people at different stages living under one direct leadership.

has he recovered from his sleeping problems? oh wow I started listening and I feel really bad for him and his sleep disorder

this guy is stage orange and that isn't the best place to be when doing emotional work or healing from my perspective. I find stage green advice coming from someone who is somewhat deluded is often more authentic and helpful than a hard nosed rationalist that is deeply separated from their emotions and has little love to give.

He could be out of money that's why

Each one is different and the effects they will have will be different per person. I've had mostly good experiences with them. They diminished my sex drive some and made me not able to cry as easily. On the flip side they supported me greatly from delving into some very low and frightening places emotionally. I think they could be overprescribed a bit. I honestly am not really sure.

considering i've peered into the abyss and went to hell and back and went on a trip where I was tortured for hours by demons there is virtually nothing scary to me now about talking to girls on the street, it's literally one of the silliest things to be scared of and is entirely in your head due to a lack of loving yourself fully for who you are, someone who deserves love

hey... as long as it's transparent and clear to all those signing up to how he facilitates be my guest