Lyubov

Sometimes I feel like I have sort of pent up emotions of anger and hurt that expresses itself through various outlets of life, subtly. I’ve done a lot to release it about 60% of it is gone, but it still feels like these is some still energetically left. It makes me feel ashamed and disgusted I have it. It feels like it’s part of my shadow and I’m maybe 70% conscious of the pattern. How can I further work to release it? Some of it feels trapped. As a young child I was made to feel deeply ashamed when I was angry and was not given enough love by my parent when I felt this way. They were dysfunctional and ignorant didn’t know how to regulate their own emotions or how to give proper love and understanding to a child. This was only compounded growing up and in adolescence where I felt further shame and repression as a rebellious teen in trouble at home and at school. How can I further let go of this trapped energy and accept how it has subtly seeped it’s way into aspects of my life?

Easy, don't take psychedelics. Nothing wrong with SSRIs if you feel they are helping you. Be patient. You have time. Get to a place where you can let go of the SSRIs and then dabble in psychedelics when you are ready.

Thanks, great advice. I am focusing on my art and I have been making progress in this domain recently which feels amazing

Psychedelics, therapy and journaling. Cultivating compassion and self love. Meditation did a little but the formers were most powerful.

I’ve listened to JP speak on Jungian concepts but he seems quite ignorant on it like he is just reciting stuff in a book. Far from actually understanding it on any sort of experiential level. I can relate to having a lot of pent up anger and unconscious repression. I’m still working through this myself. I’m conscious of this though and learning to integrate these aspects of life. Sometimes feels like it takes forever though or like I’m blind to aspects of the overall pattern what to do?

I don’t know. It’s their experience. Doesn’t sound like an enjoyable or pleasant one. Seems devoid of any conscious embodiment of love. Perhaps too much psychedelics and choosing to walk down a path that isn’t actually serving them in this life? I’m not experiencing that POV so I can’t say. Hope they are doing well though.

thoughts on this? he says don't do it alone also. what is the difference so to speak about bufo vs synthetic? are there actual experiential differences ?

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a trump appointee is not the us intelligence community. you're gullible and falling for a "both sides" narrative if you think neither the left nor right is wrong here. this stems from a fake news article from of all publications the new york post... also that tweet is dumb. special investigators don't require senate approval, cabinet members do.

It's a super pathetic right wing fake news last minute attempt to try and drum up some public confusion over some EMAILZ only this one doesn't have a year long partisan house investigation and a ginormous propaganda apparatus and the alleged emails don't belong to the candidate running

I sure hope you aren't insinuating that a republican Trump appointee isn't somehow partisan or furthering Trump's reelection campaign

Fox News there are Q people in this forum?

you are being very simple minded and conflating a lot and projecting the flaws of your way of thinking as a statement I never said

Perfect...

KEKW for what reasons do you think they would secretly poison him on top of deporting him or are you just one of those OSHO followers that blindly believes everything he says?

I hardly ever get matches and I know my pics and profile are good. A few pretty girls that are friends have told me I have a good profile. I maybe get one match a week... Maybe I need to swallow some crow and admit my profile is meh? Thing is though I live in a small town. I got way more matches when I was in the city :\ I think tinder has their business model set up on the courtship men have to go through to get dates. I bet you anything most of the perks are purchased by straight men.

Sadhguru on Joe Rogan would be painful to watch

Can you imagine him though super freaked out watching his daily 8 hours of cable news and hearing them speak about how he might be in some deep legal shit if he loses the election He is paranoid for sure

When it comes to Trump that’s accurate. I just don’t get where people think he is gonna flee the country come from besides Trumps own irrational and crazy speeches. Maybe he is hiding bigger shit he’s afraid will be found out?

Some people were actually speculating that he would fly to Russia.... Let's not get ahead of ourselves people. Here is what's going to happen. He will lose the election and then throw a big tantrum, say it was rigged, but none the less leave office. Biden will not pardon him of anything. He will then be held up in some sort of court battle in NY about his finances for decades which wont go anywhere and will be used as witch hunt propaganda to mobilize right wing voters for future elections. Trump will not be going to jail... let's be realistic here people.

I do think it is far worse online than in person. That is for sure. Most men if you live in the US and are just a normal guy, maybe a low end job or in University, can do decent with women if you go out to meet them in person and build up a nice friend group. People don't realize these apps are running a business. They have monopolized the masculine/feminine dynamic. You have to pay as a man to get tons of matches. It's pretty straight forward. Most women on these apps gets tons and tons of matches for free. I rarely ever get matches but when I go out in person to the bar I always get attention and warm receptions from pretty girls. A lot of guys think dating is like tinder when they have a much better chance in person than online.

I doubt they were trying to actively poison him but I'm sure the rations he was given while being detained would do the job none the less

It isn't even up in the air as to whether or not it happened. The FBI did investigate his commune so of course he was on their radar. He was deported after all. That requires an investigation before being brought forward in front of an immigration judge who makes the ruling. Sounds like they did their investigation and forwarded it to the judge who made a quick ruling. Like @Jodistrict said at the time they were quite vigilante when it came to stuff like this due to their own paranoia of the USSR.

I really hope I can meet him one day