Myioko

This song is so dramatic but I love it

@Preety_India It's interesting hearing you write this out in words, because I don't hear it often, and a similar sentiment has been in the back of my mind for a while. I usually don't feel content with my profile picture either, even though it's just a picture it does always have a 'feeling' stuck to it. How it feels to me goes beyond just profile pictures, it's anything visual that is around me in my settings, especially my environment, its looks and 'feel' of the room start to cling and weigh heavy to me after a while. I wonder if part of this has to do with anxiety, or the fear of stagnant energy. I can totally see how this may seen not relatable to other people too, it doesn't logically make much sense. I've often wondered, especially in the past, if I was a super materialistic person, just because I always wanted to be changed the looks of the living space I live in: The furniture, the pictures on the wall, the colors. Even certain colors seem to really agitate my mind after some time. Or the clothes that I have. I can let go of this feeling when I'm traveling or walking in a new environment because there are so many new things around me, and I feel free. But back at home I sometimes feel this restless energy that I always want to be changing things around. What to stay happy with, what to change? How to stay happy with a look, a decision, an energy? That's the ever present question that's in my mind. Do you have fun looking through new pictures that resonate with you emotionally? Or is the anxious feeling more present? I feel like this thought extends to cleaning or decorating my room as well...usually I feel anxious and annoyed with my environment and trying to tackle it and I'll feel resistance to clean and change. But other times if I gather up inspirational ideas or a clear, energetically inspiring idea of 'what my room is going to look like', the process of changing my room can actually give me a sense of catharsis and clearing of emotions, in a way like I'm dream boarding or brainstorming inspirational ideas...that feeling. It can really go either way. And going back to the profile picture, wanting it to change: I've always thought of it as 'oh the feeling is off', but I like what you said about it just not emotionally resonating anymore. I guess that highly sensitive people and people who's emotional states of feeling change rapidly, that a picture starts to feel outdated and misaligned real fast.

I just wanted to say, that I've known of your journal for weeks now, and it was just this week that I realized that your title was 'It's All Write' as a word play, and not 'It's All I Write.' My brain made up the 'I' for so long! Ahhh! @mandyjw That felt pretty poetic right there. August, the last dying breath of summer...soon leaves will fall with a heavy sigh. I should give August more appreciation, I used to say it was my least favorite month, but really that is February for me. Right?! For me, after the burst of inspiration wears off (if there is one,) of the initial brainstorm, it's actually starting for real that is scary to me. The doubt comes afterwards in waves.

@MuadDib Melanie Martinez was a big 'late 2019' mood for me Her songs are on the farther end of what I'd describe as more stylized/cartoonish songs to me

She's so gentle/shy sounding (and her husband..is that her husband..?) when she talks

@modmyth Ooh I really like the 20 minute version song. I've only ever heard the Temptations version

First time watching this music video and the amount of time it took for them to flush the toilet really bothered me

@mattslev Hmm I wonder too. I looked up the song through the app soundhound and it didn't show up...so I don't know. A similar song popped up and holy shit it only has 15 views. It's a really good song, maybe give these songs some likes/love and support!!

Also nice selfie, the color black suits you really well

Nice remix! Jumping on the Massive Attack bandwagon, I listened to a tonn of Aurora in 2020 so she introduced me to massive attack/other musicians through song covers Besides Teardrop I like these ones

Songs I've been vibing to today: Such a specific mood

Maximized wholesomeness:

@Preety_India I don't know anything about reiki but I'm interested in learning more. I've heard of the name of it but that's about it. I love crystals! I started a small crystal collection since I was little, I love the various shapes and patterns. One crystal that I got a few months ago was bismuth, it looks pretty magical and like it could have been 3d printed What about you? Do you own crystals? I'll watch and comment on the video tomorrow, thanks for the recommendation. (:

current mood: also this

Yeah. I still don't feel fluent at all in swearing! Besides the really common ones occasionally. Sometimes I'll put them in and awkward part of a sentence, or feel self conscious while saying it, or I'll make up really random words to go along with them. I've found that similarly helps too, if I'm feeling mindful enough on a particular day. I'm not in the habit of meditation yet, but my go-to is short walks. Or was, since the weather has been inconveniently hot in the past month or two...so meditation it should be I guess.

I second Etherial Cat, the thought of 'what your writing is cringe' has never come across my mind. The way you write comes across to me as you being very socially aware and not awkward. But at the same, I can really relate to the feeling of embarrassment and cringe while posting here. I feel it ALL the time, haha, and end up hiding most of my posts. I'm still figuring out how to overcome embarrassment myself. It's interesting reading about other peoples experiences with identifying as asexual. I was late in reading about the term asexual so I didn't start identifying as it until I was 21, and still I keep it mostly quiet because most people I know just don't ask. Also I was an extremely sheltered kid, so that was a double blow of being clueless about sexuality. It must be pretty strange for you to stop identifying as it/being uncertain about it? For me I feel pretty certain in being asexual, but at the same time, it's kind of a placeholder name too since sexuality can always shift over time. And then there's figuring out romantic attraction, that's a whole different thing. If I ever decided if I wanted to get into a relationship I would feel pretty overwhelmed due to being behind on the learning curve. Have you had any luck with online dating? Or are you more interesting in making in person relationships/friendships overtime and seeing where that leads? I wonder if online dating is as awful and unromantic as some people make it out to be. Surely it isn't completely devoid of compatible genuine people out there, but it does sound tough and a bit draining. The male gaze videos were interesting to watch. Many of the cliche male gaze movie shots have an action movie, stage orange male vibe to me.

Sorry about your lawn mower ): SWEET holy Jesus, oh my god, it does feel nice Something about dealing physical reality/chores can be so overwhelming, like today I was cleaning a messy room and running errands (and the cherry on top of my day was that I came home to see that my house plant died, RIP Neville...) I was thinking I'd rather be attacked by a wild dog in exchange to having to to deal with this, because at least that would be more interesting...but then again, would I have actually preferred that? I doubt it That's an interesting double meaning to the word Mess!

@Hulia I think it's best to let the matter rest. It's his journal

I heard this song at a clothes store today, and I was like...yeahh this is my jam! I took out my phone but saw that my soundhound app wasn't downloaded and I was too embarrassed to ask siri outloud what song it was. So I downloaded the app but it took 7 minutes to download to find out what song it was. Luckily it was a 9 minute song so I caught it in time

(*river nymph eyes staring into my soul*)

@Zigzag Idiot Oh! I saw 1/3rd or half of Dr Zhivago half a year ago with my family. I never ended up finishing it though. The frozen house in the video you posted is really interesting looking, I've never seen anything iced over like that. So cold looking. I liked the beginning intro to Van Halen's album in particular. Very space-y sounding. I recognize a few of the more famous songs from the album

Oh my gosh thats great!! Congrats!

@Zigzag Idiot Haha yeah, I woke up with the song stuck in my head...it's very catchy. Are there any songs in particular that sticks out in your mind from when you were a teenager? Either popular songs, or a favorite song or band of yours? (and thanks btw (: ) The most annoying song that I remember being all over the radio 10 years ago was 'Sexy and I know it' (can't remember if I already posted this song here, but I like it)

You feeling joyful makes me feel joyful, so right back at ya I do enjoy reading your journals on characters, as well as things like ancient civilizations or different cultures. Oh, I've never seen that version of beauty and the beast before. Her hair is really pretty in that style. When I was little I don't remember watching too much cable tv, but I watched the same few VCR movies over and over again, like Black Beauty and Pinocchio. 'Taken to another world', and having a certain grace and spirit pretty accurately describes how it feels to watch older movies and music videos. They're like visual time capsules from decades gone by, it's pretty amazing. I've been a bit enamored by Audrey Hepburns voice/accent as of lately, she has an elegant and gracefulness to her. I've never gotten round to watching Gone With The Wind, I'll add it to my watch list. (: And for sure, if you ever would like an illustration for anything in particular, feel free to let me know! (and maybe I'll draw something somewhat inspired by your characters or writing, like the palace garden. If I do I'll be sure to tag your name and give you credit) Thank you sm for the compliment too.

I heard someone say 'I can dance if I want to' and something resurfaced from my memory...I tried really hard to remember just what it was, then 10 min later this song popped into my head. I watched this on youtube with my sister 10 years ago and had thought it was funny. I just reallly really hope it doesnt get stuck in my head, because it's pretty annoying too. Zella day's new song Her comment: ' “Dance for Love” post quarantine thriving with a wedgie and a mask fetish'