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It's good that you recognize that the problem isn't outside of you - it's inside. Exactly speaking inside your mind. Keep focus during the day and try to not get lost in the thoughts.

What about cucks?

Yeah, the boy enjoying his matrix, what's wrong with that?

@UDT "Heavy metals?" - no idea to be honest. "Smoke?" - i smoked weed last few years like 1 time a week. No cigarretes tho "Do you live in a house with mold on the wall?" - in my room - no. Bot there's mold in the house, yes. "Do you drink tap water?" - i try not to, but yeah it happens. "Whats you diet?" - balanced and healthy i'd call it. I should add some more veggies into it but it's pretty good.

Hey guys. Since the last couple of yeras i've been strugging with being tired most of the day. I don't even know how does it feel to wake up fresh and rested. I want to sleep atleast 10 hours a day (and still not getting rested). In addition to this i often have massive mood swings, feeling depressed and anxious. My hair are falling down and my skin is dry and itchy. My joints (especially knees and spine) are in pretty bad position. My hands go purple and dry even when it's 20 degrees celsius outside with a little wind. My mother has thyroid issues (taking medication to the end of her life) and her sister got her thyroid removed. I've done some tests in the past. Ultrasound detected nothing wrong at all. My blood works (31-01-2019) FT3 - 3,20 (pg/ml) norm: 2,00 - 4,40 FT4 - 1,06 (ng/dl) norm: 0,93 - 1,70 anti-TPO - <9 (IU/ml) norm: 0,00 - 34 anti-TG - <10 (IU/ml) norm: 0,00 - 115 Blood works from 14-05-2019 TSH - 1,190 (µIU/ml) norm: 0,270 - 4,200 I'm going to do the tests once more next week, what should i tell the doctor? I wanna get rid of that tiredness...

I love your posts man. Keep it up.

@electroBeam Yeah i need some cash if you ask me. Jokes besides - that's pretty fucking glorious realisation mate! Goob job and enjoy.

@electroBeam hey bro i'd love to hear more about your awakening.

@Leo Gura How do you know that heavy metals are the cause in autoimmune diseases?

Great post. I've been interested lately in feminine energy as i block it (consciously or not). Going to try this out!

"I love Truth and I'm allergic to delusion." Sorry my guy, but you are full of shit.

Basically this. Great answers guys!

What are alpha and beta traits? Why are those a traits?

Hey guys. Another quick one from me as i noticed something profound i my life and maybe you can relate it somehow to your life. Sooo lately i've been struggling with tension in my body. It produced anxiety and anger feeling or "feelings" (a thought disguised as a feeling). Yesterday i promised to myself that the next day i take 100% resposibility for myself. How did i do that? I allowed everything to be. I felt Deep drive and anger and i said "fuck it, let it be and let's take 100% out of it". And wow boy. I went to the gym as always but it wasn't as always. Everytime (or atleast 80% of the time) i feel some kind of anxiety or tension during my training session. This time i allowed myself feel my anger 100% and express it. WOW BOY. I just feel sooo light and good. And the other thing is i am kinda crazy. I mean i do some stupid faces, talk some crazy shit but i guess that's the way i am and i need to celebrate that. When i stop my inner needs i become tense. This tension produces anxiety, fear and anger. I think happiness is when you don't laugh at this video but you sincerely understand it and resonatee with it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyPzl8M4yCE Be your true self. Or atleast strive to it. Godspeed.

Yeah, get some of that trippy acid anal babe! Good luck.

What causes you not love them?

Well for me it's just a part of life now. I mean - i don't think about motivating myself to eat and go to gym. It's just a habit. And i love it. I think for me the greatest motivation is knowing that if i give me best i'll grow my muscles better. I'm a big fan of growing bigger

That's pretty harsh. And untrue also. Seems like you project a lot on those people.

Wow mate. This is simply one of the best comments here on the forum.

@Leo Gura Why so obssesed with heavy metals lately? Have you become metalhead? But jokes aside i'm actually pretty curious if yo urelated your health problems to heavy metal poisoning. I struggle with feeling of tiredness and sleeping for atleast 10-11 hours daily.

@The0Self Okay. Let's say i could theoretically grasp what you say to me and i could agree that's true. But if i'm honest - this sounds like a bullshit to me, atleast for now. I need pointers. Something to grasp on and continue my road. Didn't meant to be mean.

@Leo Gura Well my approach is kinda different here what you've proposed in Letting Go video. I "get into" my body and try to feel those feelings or thoughts labeled as feelings only to find nothing at all and stillness in the end. Does it serve the same role? Becouse i perceive letting go as an abstract construct and i can't really wrap myself around it. Actually i find it a lot easier to solve my problems when staying detached as Leo mentioned that in the letting go episode. I work towards solving things but feelings and thougts are right there right now so i need good technique to not create resistance and FEEL. FEELING creates peace and stillness. It is layered. Layered as fuck. I'm not sure if i can just de-layer everything at once so i focus on being and maybe working at one thing at the time. But i thing i get what you mean with putting attention into something - neurotic thoughts can be really unbearable and affecting my social life so i try to put my attention and focus on what i feel. Then i can really feel into wat others say. That's pretty counterintuitive.

Hey guys. After some experiences from the nearest past i think i got it. Or i got it at least partially. I've been trying to focus on what is and my feelings trying to feel in in the body. And what i can report is that is true. And what is definitely not true is mind's theories, self-talk and various kinds of judgements and anxious thought. As i move my attention for the mind to the body i realise - Fuck! That's all false! However i'm still here finding myself lost in those thougts and feeling angry, anxious and hopeless sometimes. Is there any way to quit it for good? To use the mind as a practical tool? To enjoy life how it is? I'm going to dedicate myself more to meditation as it seems to the best possible solution, however this is just crazy how it's easy to get lost in this pattern of feeling "stuck" inside the mind. And i got it that shrooms are so hard experience for me - the mind on powerful substance is just getting even bigger and stronger and i need a lot of attention and focus to be in the moment and not get lost in this crazy ass thing.

YES! It's a hella difference to live as "a mind" and live knowing that there's a mind and trying to understand it and maybe ultimately overcome, be present. I simply feel more happy and stable when not believing and being sucked by stories, beliefs and imaginary tales. I'm more grounded and ready to work. I want to try 5 meo anyway, such a profound experience it seems. Thank you @Nahm for your beautiful response. What i learned from you is that i want to focus on my feelings more as what they are rather than labeling them and trying to control - as that doesn't and simply can't work for my good. And i am incredibly excited about the path. I feel like i'm changing on week to week basis. It's crazy. That's what i aim for. Thank you for theses words. It's hard but pretty rewarding experience.

@Moksha Exactly. It's horrific that i'm not conscious 95% of the day time. That's truly horrific. Keeping that consciousness is hard af but i'm trying my best. Do you also experience feeling more tired and needing to sleep more as you force yourself to be more consicous during the day? @latch I don't really understand. The mind will always find something. ALWAYS.