KaRzual

Leo do you watch porn or actually cut if off?

@SQAAD Mind telling more about this suffering and what caused it? I'm really curious.

I mean it's really damned hard for me to stay conscious through the day. When i let my mind slip in it causes havoc, monkey mind and makes me unhappy. When i feel into my emotions i feel pretty ok even when they are "negative" ones (or so called by the mind). How do you guys stay conscious in your life? Is it that hard for you too?

Okay i get it. By not eating junk food you eat healthy ones. But what about monkey mind? You replace that with what? I found in my personal experience that paying attention to my emotions and how i feel is a gamechanger.

@Eternal Unity Thanks for your reply Greg. I was just wondering if i'm that prone to monkey mind and being lost in thoughts and concepts or it is a more popular state. It is hard and i see fruits of my labor arleady. I can't wait to see more of them!

And how did you achieve that grounding/knowing?

I feel like i should into many things. All this while trying to live my life and having some fun. That's hard.

THANKS! Reading through it right now.

Mind telling me more about labeling meditation?

Great advice, really solid. I'm going to try it from now.

So yeah i'm in the place of getting my life together. And i'm pretty ok with feeling bad. But what drives me crazy is my constant inner chatter which tries to undermine whatever i do/however i feel.

Anxiety = resisting? What do you guys think? And i have one additional question - what is (or are) a specific emotion that pulls and keeps One in "the past"?

This guy got this right

this

Hey guys. I'm struggling with certain feeling (or whatever this is). This is happening much rarer lately but it's still a problem when it does. I feel massive anxiety. Something like panic, i feel doom. And i don't know why. It happens mostly around people but not only. It happens also when i trip on shrooms or lsd. If i don't navigate my behaviour or thoughts i fall into this trap of incoming doom. I hate it. This is terrible. I feel miserable then, out of control and hopeless. I can't even name it, i can't even tell you guys what i'm having problem with. This is very hard for me. When i happens i feel massive tension. I feel not good enough. I feel sad and anger. I feel sorry for myself. I want to shout and run away. Everything pisses me off then and i can't be near people. This happened on weddings before and other social gathering. I can't stand sitting and talking and doing this stuff. I feel massive anxiety. Guys i really want to hear something from you. What i wrote is pretty chaotic but i can't write that out more "properly". Does somebody have similiar experience? Why does this happen?

Typing this out and thinking pretty much helped me - i feel like i care too much about others opinions and i drift away from myself. From myself which is sometimes chaotic, destructive and not cool. But that's cool. That's me. The question is - How can i keep this focus on myself and live in that moment?> When i do that feels great. I feel alive.

Maybe that's becouse i care about their opinion too much? Focusing on myself would be btter option and experiencing myself without distortions?

What is the answer? Be able to take care of myself 100% time? Like 100%? How?

Hey guys. Recently i've come to a realization that i embodied my masculine side pretty well. I got better in taking what i want, taking responsibilities, leading and getting shit done. But i feel like i need to get to touch with my feminine side and learn to cultivate it and not be scared of it. Any recommendations on books which will help me understand my inner woman? Thanks

Interesting. Mind telling more about your stay there?

What exactly do you want to escape?

Thank you for your great response in this thread guys. Something struck me today that i must contemplate and get perspective at. I'm not pretty sure that what i call "being angry", "feeling anxious" and generally speaking "feelings" are actually feelings or just a byproduct of a thought. When i feel into my body - it's fucking crazy but it can be pretty still and calm. HOW IS THAT? It struck me - I'm creating my unhappiness. Literally. My thoughts are creating so called "feelings" which are not real, not true. I'm having these thoughts about feeling thiis and that and i don't really know now if i seriously feel those feelings or those are just thoughts creating sense of "negative" feeling. I know this might sound hard to understand but i would love to hear what to do from here. I spend my days lately into practicing feeling. What's the next move? What should i focus on?

Some of them might be true given the context they are relating to.

Well every fail can be seen as a succes. Just give it a time and fresh perspective

Ok. I didn't expect Amorphis here. One of their best songs from great album btw.