IAmTheHolySpirit

What kind of delusional comment is that?

"live simply and practice loving" > "gotcha asshole :)" You ain't so nice huh, hypocrit

Yes, take 200ug LSD for starters and watch some Moojiji videos on youtube.

You are a waste of life.

This is all a complete waste of time. You have no life purpose. You ARE life's purpose. You merely being that which you are is already fulfilling the highest purpose. You must understand that you are not the "ego", the "ego" is merely a thought in your mind, believed in. You, pure consciousness, has been conditioned to believe in your mind, to believe the mind to be yourself, to believe the ego is yourself. That is simply not true. The ego is perceived. That which is perceiving the ego, that is pure awareness. You are that pure awareness. You must put all your being into finding out the true nature of the self. You must be the self, you must be enlightened so you can completely follow the universe's plan for you and enjoy this life how it is truly meant to be enjoyed. You must follow the path of ego-dissolution. Anything else other than ego-dissolution is a complete waste of time, waste of life, waste of joy, waste of peace, waste of love, waste of compassion, waste of serenity. If you could take 500ug lsd everyday for 2 weeks straight, upping the dose every day so it would be consistently at that dose (although I do not recommend) then that would be better for you than wasting your time on reading books and studying things and journaling and wasting your time in such ways. Do not feed the journey, look to end it quickly and enjoy the fruits of god, freedom, clarity, unchanging peace.

That is a misconception that you must express your truth. The truth doesn't need you to express itself, it expresses itself choicelessly, and so this is not a thing for you to worry about. That is just a story from the mind distracting you from achieving higher states of consciousness, it makes it appear as if though there is a blockage so you would stop there and not go for enlightenment. Your throat chakra is irrelevant to enlightenment. This is all a complete waste of time, you are working on a problem that doesn't actually exist. You imagine it and now "battle" with it. It is very delusional. All that is just "opening my throat chakra more"? Not even finished? This is a complete foolishness. Waste of time completely. Most importantly find out what the never-changing is, instead of being caught up in the world of the changeful. Yes, these are complete lies from the mind, none of it is true, it is just the way the mind keeps being around you, it keeps you distracted in foolish things, in coming and going things, in the realm of the changeful the mind tries to keep you. You are completely buying it, but you can stop buying it, you can just drop it completely. It is fine to not know what to do or what problem to have next, you don't need any problems. Just be aware of being aware. Stay there, forget all of your problems, forget your past, forget your future, forget your present, forget you even exist. Let things crumble. They crumble but it is a beautiful crumble and you are watching the crumbling knowing full well you are one with the higher power of the universe itself. You will have no fear when they crumble, you will be empowered by their crumbling. What are you trying to be conscious of? And why are you trying? You can't try to be conscious. You are either conscious or not. What you should be conscious of is, consciousness itself. Be aware of that ever-present awareness. The awareness that is witnessing this life is your truest position, you are truly that more than any other thing appearing within consciousness. You are that awareness, not these stories in your mind. They are simply another thing perceived in awareness. Awareness is the important thing to be conscious of, not anything else. Don't put any expectation on life, you don't need it open, you don't need it closed, you don't need it at all. Just forget about it. Don't set any expectations on what is going to happen. Maybe you just need to marinate in the silence of your own being right now. There is no rush, you have your whole life with this awareness that is ever-present, as long as you conscious of awareness, the time is completely utilized for the highest good of all. You can't be wasting time if you are aware of being aware. It is the highest "non-action" one can do in any certain point in the present moment. Nothing comes even close. Don't believe this thought. It is merely a thought saying "It's just very frustrating" yet you must not believe it. It has no power, no meaning and no substance on its own. But when you say it out loud, you give it even more power, and it appears so more in your experience. Maybe before this thread you felt pretty ok, but because now you are talking and perpetuating a problem that truly doesn't even exist, even though it appears that way, you are giving it more power, more belief, and it will appear true in your reality. Just forget about it. Be aware of being aware. It is nothing. You have no problems. You are pure awareness. You are before problems.

Hello dear one, When doubt appears, always let go and let god. At moments of doubt when we truly feel helpless, that is when surrender is simple, you remove all expectations from yourself, forgive the doubt for appearing, and simply let life unfold as it is unfolding, do not resist it and it'll dissolve naturallyThat time in which you doubt yourself, be forgiving but understand you are not the doubt. The doubt is trying to attack you and make you feel worse about yourself, it makes you feel almost hopeless. That is not true, and you can simply put no expectations on yourself whatsoever in this moment, and let the doubt be, knowing full well you have faith that you are the loving source of the universe. Doubt may appear but it will not shake you, the thought can be lost in its head but I know I am not that which is lost, I am that in which it all appears. When the ego knows it is in danger and is bound to disappear, it does its most to bring you back into being a person, instead of presence, but there is nothing that can stop you. You are that higher force, and it is not going to abandon you, because you are it. You have no choice but to ascend. It truly is beyond whatever you think, Jesus will save that soul of yours. I recommend you reading some of my other posts about the truth. These are thoughts that have been appearing in the vast consciousness that you are, but it is not yourself and it is not true. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear within you. You are the vessel, not the content. You are the sky, they are the clouds. God is inevitably within you, you are one with god whether you want it to not. The only thing that can block that clear seeing is believing the thoughts and the content appearing within you. You must realize that this is merely a thought, and that thought has no meaning, no substance and no power, the only reason it appears to be true is because you are giving it the power of your belief. Whatever you believe will appear true, so you must understand this and not give away your power to any content that appears within you. Instead of believing in all the content, believe in the consciousness in which they appear. The content which appears within yourself is not consistent, not reliable, it changes all the time, you can't trust it. You can't trust the mind, you can't trust thoughts, emotions and sensations. The only thing you can truly trust is yourself, consciousness for it is the only ever-present thing in life. You must see this and understand there is no other place to put your faith in. Do not waste your time believing thoughts about you being confused, do not take them as truth. That which does not feel aligned is not yourself. You are ever-presently aligned, you can't not be aligned. There is nothing to be aligned with. You are life and the witness of life, you are inevitably aligned, there is nothing you can do to disturb or disrupt the alignment. That feeling which appears within the consciousness that you are, is merely a feeling. Like thoughts, feelings and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You are not that feeling, and you are not the content of the feeling, the feeling merely is being perceived within you. Anything that is perceived within you, is not you, for you are that empty space and openness that enables all experience to appear, including the world, thoughts, emotions, sensations, imagination etc. These all appear within you. You are not any of it, you are that absolute emptiness that allows everything to appear. If there is a feeling that you are not aligned, you must simply realize that you are not that feeling, and that feeling says nothing about you or about alignment. It is literally just a feeling. Feelings by themselves don't mean anything at all, they have no substance, they are empty of meaning, it is only when you believe these feelings that they gain power and then they can feel "true", but if you simply don't believe it and see it for what it is, merely a feeling appearing within the vastness of yourself, it will be observed and dissolve into the emptiness. It is only when you believe that feeling, that you hold on to it, you try resist it, you don't want it there, it is only then that the feeling truly feels real, otherwise it simply comes and goes. When you believe it to be real, it stays longer than it should. Simply be aware that something is ever-presently perceiving all thoughts, emotions and sensations. And be aware of that which is perceiving. Perceive the perceiver of the feeling. Stay in that peace, rest in that peace, move in that peace, do not listen to merely thoughts, sensations and emotions/feelings that appear within what you are. The only thing you should listen to is silence, for in silence the intuition can be heard, and the intuition will guide you wherever you need to go. You say "My life is a mess and so is my mind", realize that this is merely a thought appearing within the vast consciousness that you are. You are not that thought, it is not true about you. You are that which perceives all thought, emotion and sensations. You are the highest intelligence of the universe. What happens when we believe these thoughts to be us, is we give them the power of our belief. So you say "I am lost and idk what to do" and if you believe this thought, it will truly appear as if you are lost and don't know what to do. Luckily the compass of life is always within you, and it is your own heart and your own ever-present truth of being. There is no conceptual knowledge or information that you need, for any information or knowledge appear WITHIN the consciousness that you are. That consciousness that you are is all-knowing and it is able to know anything it needs to know in the present moment. To connect with what you truly are you must be able to realize that there is a presence that is aware of thoughts, otherwise you wouldn't be able to tell me about these thoughts. Now, that presence which is ever-presently perceiving all thought, emotion and sensation, can also be perceived. Perceive it. Perceive that which is ever-presently perceiving. So most importantly you need to understand that we thoughts appear within you, but alone they are useless, they are just thoughts, they have no power, not meaning and no substance. It is only when you CHOOSE to believe these thoughts, that they appear true. Literally stop believing these thoughts have power and are true and they will dissolve into the empty silence that you are. To be able to navigate through this life, all you must do is follow the silence of your own heart. Expect nothing at all from life, do not put any expectations on it, do not expect to have different thoughts, do not expect to have different emotions or sensation. Whatever appears within you, let it be, know you are not that, but that in which it is perceived. You are beyond all of it completely. You are the power of life and the witness of life. Truly what you are is indescribable. Know this and follow the path of ego-dissolution, come into the silence of being and move in it, move in that silence, trust it, treasure it, fall in love with it. You must see your self (who you think you are) as an illusion. Who you think you are is just a thought. You are not depressed and you are not anxious, this is who you THINK you are, and because you believe it, it appears to be real. It is strictly NOT TRUE. You can't be depressed nor anxious, for you are the consciousness in which both depression and anxiety appear, thought, emotion and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You must be able to realize this, understand this and live this truth, it truly is like that. What you truly are is the perceiver of not only thought, but of the perceiver itself. You are able to perceive that which perceives. Be in that place for a bit, continue reading this piece What you truly are, is life itself, and the witness of life. You are not the thought and the story made by the mind, you are not the self-image created by the mind. You are pure presence, you are very light, very pure, very joyful, very loving, very compassionate, very true and authentic, the holy presence of the universe appears before you in this moment. You are the ever-present consciousness, that one element of life that never came and wont go, your truest self. You are not coming and going thoughts and beliefs, they are like clouds, you are the sky in which they appear. Consciousness can be conditioned to believe it is the mind, to believe it is doubtful, to believe it is anxious, to believe it is depressed. Consciousness naturally is none of these things, it is only when the consciousness believes in the thoughts that appear, and identifies itself as these thoughts, that reality appears from the perspective of the thought, and that changes how you perceive life. What you must do is understand that is simply thought, thought is perceived, and you are able to perceive the perceiver of thought. What you are has nothing to do with thought, you are way beyond thought, thought is just limitation to what you are. The mind won't be able to comprehend this but there is one thing that is still listening and reading and completely understanding what I am saying intuitively for it is the holy presence that you are, the pure awareness completely recognizes what I am conveying for it is true within yourself, your heart is truly overflowing with love with any moment, you simply do not look at it, and you look at the distractions the mind is presenting ( all kinds of thoughts that have personal interest in them), these thoughts only continue and make the illusion of being a separate entity from life, feeling alone and abandoned, feeling fearful etc. The moment you realize that all this appears within you and can be perceived, you will come to a place of seeing very pure, very quiet, very silent, very beautiful, you will be naturally yourself and have a clarity of life. You won't change, nothing will happen, you'll just shift the perception from thought-based perception to consciousness-based perception. Instead of perceiving thought you will be perceiving the perceiver himself, and just doing that will bring infinite joy, love, peace, compassion and serenity to experience. You mustn't suffer your experiencing, it is only when you rest your attention on the suffering that you suffer. When you rest your attention on your own being, you feel serene, tranquil and beautiful within. Natural well-being. Thoughts, emotions and sensations are not something that can help or be useful to the highest intelligence, awareness itself. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear to that which you are, because you are that which is able to perceive them. They wouldn't exist without you. You are not dependant on them, they simply appear because you are. You are such a vast intelligence that simply everything appears within you, the whole universe itself, including thoughts, emotions and sensations. You do not need to be attached to any thoughts, emotions and sensations, nor to be attached to anything that appears within that which you are, for they have nothing to do with what you truly are, you are not affected by anything that is, because you are that which is. You just stay that which you are, stay in the silence of your own being. The highest intelligence does not give any importance to any thoughts, emotions and sensations because it is aware of its own silence. The highest intelligence does not use thoughts, emotions and sensations in order to be. It is completely free from all of these appearing phenomena, it is not the phenomena and not the creator of the phenomena, it is all imagined within that highest intelligence which you are. You are not bound to something that appears within you, you are that greater in which it appears. You must stay in awareness of what you truly are, you must trust in that which you are. The highest intelligence won't be heard, because it doesn't like to talk. It would rather simply be, be in its own divine being and simply be aware of the vastness. The highest intelligence is easily perceived when one simply turns its attention on one's self. It is easily perceived because it is all that is. Every single thing in existence is that highest intelligence and an expression of the highest intelligence. There is nothing but the highest intelligence alone, pretending to be certain forms, pretending to be thought, pretending to be emotions, sensations, humans, life, death, these are all things it pretends to be, but in truth there is only itself alone. All these are not true, but appearances, when you believe these appearances you lose sight of what is true, the highest intelligence that is ever-present. The highest intelligence is the most obvious thing that is, but it is so subtle that everything misses it. It doesn't take much to realize that presence that you are. Truly you are that. The highest intelligence does not give in to any doubt, that which gives in to doubt is not the highest intelligence, it is merely thought, and that highest intelligence is aware of that thought. The highest intelligence has no fear of the unknown, since it is itself the unknown, and it is able to know itself through that which is perceived. By realizing all that appears, appears within the highest intelligence, including your own sense of self, even that dissolves into the silence of the highest intelligence that you are. Every single thought you entertain, every single emotion you entertain, every single sensation you entertain, simply takes you away from the recognition of what you truly are. Do realize that you are simply beyond them, there is nothing to do with them. Both what appears to be "good" and "bad" is the highest intelligence itself. There is no good and no bad, these are just thoughts, the highest intelligence doesn't see good or bad, it only sees itself and is what it is.

All you will ever need to know will offer itself in the present moment. Contemplating and trying to dig into all these things is a complete waste of time, and waste of life. You don't learn to become a sage, you don't become a sage by making plans and by having an intention to become a sage. You "become" a sage by simply unveiling your true nature and seeing that the true nature is all there is. Simply resting in your true nature will completely dissolve all concepts and ideas, false knowledge into emptiness. To be a sage you must be empty. And all these things you are listing here won't make you more empty, in fact they appear to be more things to think about. This only brings you away from sagehood, you have listed many things that serve only as a distraction to you. The action of listing these things in order to become a sage is itself a distraction. To be a sage you simply reside in the silence of your own being. You don't need to learn anything, contemplate anything except maybe the question "Who am I" if it is useful in your experience. Simply know what you are and stay as that, discern between yourself and the egoic-mind. Contemplation, open-mindedness, concentration, enlightenment, love, mindfulness, holistic thinking, business and marketing, listening, questioning, explaining and convincing are not skills. If you see them as skills you are wasting your time. The true nature within yourself already has mastery over every single thing in existence, and it does not need all of these concepts and "skills". "Skills" are useless for a sage, all necessary skills life has in the present moment. The moment you believe you need to "attain" these "skills" then you already rob yourself out of them. All that is necessary is already within you, literally, I don't mean that you can look at it, but it will naturally unfold in the present moment when you are simply abiding by the silence of being. Most importantly you must understand that the one who has a desire to become a sage, will never become a sage. The one you are identifying as yourself "I want to become a sage" is merely a coming and going phenomena appearing within consciousness. It is not your true self saying and desiring these things. Your true self is already a complete and fulfilled sage with infinite wisdom. But you are not aware of that because you trust the mind instead of trusting the silence and stillness of being. Because you put so much belief in "I want to become a sage" you rob yourself out of your own natural sagehood. The one who wants to become a sage is merely appearing within that whose nature is already a sage. Drop all attachments, drop all identification and naturally the sagehood within yourself will be revealed. Instead of wasting time sharpening all these skills and thoughts, simply reside as much as possible within the silence of your own being. Be aware of being aware. Don't distract yourself.

Yes, that is normal. Because you are not abiding in the idea created by the egoic-mind, he makes guilt appear, as if that idea was even important. That idea is literally just an idea. It is not real, it has no reality, no validity. It literally appeared in consciousness, and naturally you were aware of it. The ego took that idea very personally, the ego became attached to the idea, and therefore now that reality is not aligning with that idea, the ego makes guilt appear. As if life is guilty for now aligning with an idea appearing within it. The only way you can be affected is when you are ignorant of what you truly. Once you know what you are, all of this intuitive knowledge comes down pouring, very naturally and spontaneously. The ego made you believe that you must "save the world", that is not true. It is just a thought. Thought has no meaning, no substance behind it. It is only when you believe it, that it appears more powerful. It is because you are lending your own power of belief to that thought. Then it becomes bigger and it appears as if it is some entity. It is all untrue, and you are the one who is truly powerful. You can simply drop entirely the belief in that idea, and understand that life does not conform to merely ideas, thoughts, emotions and sensations appearing within consciousness. It is independent, and you are one with that consciousness. Do not hold to this idea and guilt, simply observe it as consciousness, it will naturally dissolve quickly into the silence of being. Don't take it seriously, do not make a story about it, it will naturally dissolve. As you hold on to it, it stays longer than it wanted to. But that is your doing. Simply let go of that idea, it is not true. That which says "I feel guilty" is just a thought, it is not your true self. You are that awareness behind the thought "I feel guilty" and so you are not the one thinking the thought, nor are you the one feeling guilty. That is just a thought pretending to be you. You are the pure awareness behind the thought, so you can relax, just rest in your natural state, be aware of being aware.

There are no "gifted children" because all children are gifted. Some are paying more mind to their thoughts, emotions and sensations (egoic-mind) more than to the natural gift that is our awareness that is available to every single being. Those who are aware of awareness will be able to be one with the gifts, while those who are aware of ego will be separated from the gifts, simply because you believe you are separated, then it appears like you are separated. Once you become aware of awareness itself, separation disappears, and you are aware and one with all of the natural gifts that awareness naturally knows, spontaneously. Actually there is no "gifted child", it is the child itself that is the gift.

Smoking itself is not bad, but if the smoking comes because of identification with the mind, and if you think a lot about smoking, if someone says "smoking is bad" and you take it personally, then it is bad. So what is ultimately "bad" is just your identification with the ego. Smoking is harmless for consciousness.

You are delusional.

Yes, your biggest problem is your ego. You identify yourself as a "woman" and you get caught up in doing "feminine" or "masculine" things which are completely irrelevant. Gender doesn't exist. It is all consciousness. As long as you are stuck in that foolish identification, there is no hope for you. You'll be stuck in egoic patterns until you die. Yes, the ego will make you believe that it is bad to let go and surrender to the present moment, while in fact, self-actualization is could literally be summed up in this sentence: "Surrender to the flow of the moment". And yet, you believe the mind when he says "Surrendering to the flow of the moment is immature and not "self-actualized". So you are being foolish and naive, unable to see through the egoic-mind and its plot to deceive you into unconsciousness and identification with whatever appears in the vast consciousness that you are. You say 'I am afraid because I am the only one taking care of me and my life" Can you please clarify whose life is it? You don't have a life. That is delusion. You are life. There is no one taking care of life. Life is taking care of life, you are simply identifying with the illusory mind that tells you "I am taking care of us", that is a lie. It is a very big lie, and you buy it. There is no entity taking care of life, you are not taking care of life, you are life itself and life is taking care of life. You must understand this. "You" don't exist. There is literally only life alone. There is no such thing as "feminine self-actualization" that is just a trick of the mind to make you believe that you have some special self-actualization path. That is complete bullshit. There is no such thing as a feminine self-actualization, and genders (male, female) are completely useless for self-actualization, they are only distractions. Instead of wasting your time on this foolish egoic-mind that you currently identify as, I recommend watching Moojiji on youtube.

You don't have a problem with self love, your problems stem from the fact that you see yourself as an individual person. You are not aware that you are consciousness. Your biggest problem is identifying as thoughts, emotions and sensations appearing within the vast consciousness that you are. You believe the mind (thoughts, emotions and sensations) to be yourself. That is absolutely false. Aslong as you continue believing the false, nothing in life will appear to be true.

Absolutely everything in this list is useless except God. Seek god only and everything you'll need will appear. As long as God is not your #1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 priority, you ain't going anywhere in life. You are going to be stuck.

It is completely irrelevant. The type of content you consume is absolutely meaningless. If you are consuming enlightened content and you are being unaware while consuming it, just listening without actually being aware of being aware, without the intensity of the pull to be enlightened, it will be completely useless. If you are consuming Instagram feed content and you are being aware while consuming it, in a meditative state, it is time well spent. As long as you are aware of being aware, anything is good. If you are not aware of being aware, anything is bad.

Hello everyone, open for discussion and questions The ego isn't bad, it is not something to be "pushed aside" because that is just a waste of time. It is not our job to interact with the ego at all. This is not life. Life is independent from ego. Ego is an extremely small box life puts itself in, unconsciously. Ego is when you identify with some thought, emotion or sensation about yourself, and believe yourself to be that appearing thought, emotion or sensation. The ego is not always there. In sleep there is no ego, but there is awareness/consciousness (while dreaming, while in deep sleep), ego is not there when you wake up first thing in the morning, it takes checking the phone or some interaction usually to boot it, or if you are very identified in daily life then it will appear first thing in the morning, but in deep sleep there was no ego. That is why we all love sleep, because there is no ego there, total rest. Ego is personality, whatever you believe yourself to be as a personality is ego. You believe you are great, that is ego. You believe you are worthless, that is ego. Ego is just the psychological-mind that needs to be set free for the soul to flourish and be what it was truly meant to be here on earth, free, pure, joyful, loving, compassionate and peaceful, being wonderful and divine. The ego must be transcended for the soul to shine and for the soul to radiate the infiniteness of one's-self, if the ego is not transcended, you are in an extremely limited box, unaware of life completely, stuck in your own mind and helping the suffering to manifest and appear. Unconsciously that is what most souls do, simply because they are conditioned to do so. The ego does not actually exist, it is merely a thought believed in. There is absolutely nothing there, no substance, no meaning, nothing. It literally exists only as a thought, and that isn't really existence. It is not living, it is not alive, what makes any thought appear to be alive and "real" is only when you (consciousness, the true aliveness) identify yourself with a thought, and therefore that thought borrows your energy (consciousness's energy) and appears to be real and powerful, but that is only because yourself has given the thought/emotion/sensation the power. Without you supplying power to ego/thoughts/emotions/sensations they naturally dissolve into the infinite silence and emptiness of being. The habit currently is to be identified with ego, thoughts, emotions and sensations. The "goal" is to reclaim our true nature, our buddha-nature by simply being aware of the awareness that is ever-present. By being aware of the awareness, it means we are perceiving from our true place, and we are perceiving that which is true (awareness). When you stay in the place of perceiving the perceiving itself, you are calm, serene, peaceful, joyful, compassionate, loving, beyond fear, doubt, anxiety, you are in a timeless space, you are home, you are one with the universe. The "goal" is to stabilize yourself in the knowing that you are that. To not feed anything with your attention other than awareness itself. That is living meditation, enlightenment, by being that which you truly are, you are radiating infinite impersonal love, presence, joy, peace, compassion, freedom. Naturally in this state the whole universe conspires for you and life becomes blissful externally just as much as it is blissful internally. First you realize yourself internally, and then naturally the realization follows and appears in the external. You did not change, you simply have discovered your true nature, and rest in that, instead of chasing useless thoughts, emotions and sensations. By being what you truly are, unconditioned and pure, you are an infinite blessing to the whole universe, to yourself, to your family, to the birds, to the fishes, to the trees, to anything that is, you are a blessing. Every single thing will appear to flourish in your presence, naturally, effortlessly, simply because you have reclaimed your own true buddha-nature. Thank you.

If you are experiencing being human, you are simply delusional. You are still identifying with the illusions of the world, you are still identifying with ego. That is fine, but I had enough of it. "You should try it"

You simply interpret neutral impersonal loving energy as "sexual arousal". No, simply intense energy of the presence appears, and you feel that, and it may cause the mind to interpret it as "sexual arousal" based on your conditioning. None of that is happening. It is merely energy appearing in a certain form. You are that which is perceiving the energy, you are that presence for whom this "sexual arousal" thought is appearing. Even that presence itself is perceivable. Be aware of being aware.

Even the "higher level" would be perceived by pure awareness. No matter what kind of experience there is available, that experience will appear within myself. I am that in which anything appears, so even the most blissful orgasmic experience is just another coming and going experience. It is insignificant in comparison to the infinite source itself. I would not want to experience that, if it comes; it will be perceived, and then it'll go. There is no attachment. I do not feel happy where I am now, it is beyond feeling happy about any matter. Things could definitely not be better, this is god's movie and I am the life and the witness of life also. All other "things" are merely coming and going and there is wisdom to be able to discern between important "things" which is the awareness of god, and unimportant things, for example: life situation, financial situation, feeling of bliss etc. These are not important when you have found that which is unchanging, ever-present, infinite and timeless.

I don't feel strongy that everything is myself, I simply know it beyond belief. Yes, reality is perceived completely differently. There is no identification with anything appearing within the consciousness that I am, confusion and doubt can appear, and yet they are simply perceived by the awareness. They are not taken seriously, they are not believed in, they are simply perceived to be what they are, thoughts, emotions and sensations. They are not the truth of what I am. They are coming and going, I am that in which all coming and going phenomena is perceived. That is not coming and going.

Hello dear one, When doubt appears, always let go and let god. At moments of doubt when we truly feel helpless, that is when surrender is simple, you remove all expectations from yourself, forgive the doubt for appearing, and simply let life unfold as it is unfolding, do not resist it and it'll dissolve naturallyThat time in which you doubt yourself, be forgiving but understand you are not the doubt. The doubt is trying to attack you and make you feel worse about yourself, it makes you feel almost hopeless. That is not true, and you can simply put no expectations on yourself whatsoever in this moment, and let the doubt be, knowing full well you have faith that you are the loving source of the universe. Doubt may appear but it will not shake you, the thought can be lost in its head but I know I am not that which is lost, I am that in which it all appears. When the ego knows it is in danger and is bound to disappear, it does its most to bring you back into being a person, instead of presence, but there is nothing that can stop you. You are that higher force, and it is not going to abandon you, because you are it. You have no choice but to ascend. It truly is beyond whatever you think, Jesus will save that soul of yours. I recommend you reading some of my other posts about the truth. These are thoughts that have been appearing in the vast consciousness that you are, but it is not yourself and it is not true. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear within you. You are the vessel, not the content. You are the sky, they are the clouds. God is inevitably within you, you are one with god whether you want it to not. The only thing that can block that clear seeing is believing the thoughts and the content appearing within you. You must realize that this is merely a thought, and that thought has no meaning, no substance and no power, the only reason it appears to be true is because you are giving it the power of your belief. Whatever you believe will appear true, so you must understand this and not give away your power to any content that appears within you. Instead of believing in all the content, believe in the consciousness in which they appear. The content which appears within yourself is not consistent, not reliable, it changes all the time, you can't trust it. You can't trust the mind, you can't trust thoughts, emotions and sensations. The only thing you can truly trust is yourself, consciousness for it is the only ever-present thing in life. You must see this and understand there is no other place to put your faith in. Do not waste your time believing thoughts about you being confused, do not take them as truth. That which does not feel aligned is not yourself. You are ever-presently aligned, you can't not be aligned. There is nothing to be aligned with. You are life and the witness of life, you are inevitably aligned, there is nothing you can do to disturb or disrupt the alignment. That feeling which appears within the consciousness that you are, is merely a feeling. Like thoughts, feelings and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You are not that feeling, and you are not the content of the feeling, the feeling merely is being perceived within you. Anything that is perceived within you, is not you, for you are that empty space and openness that enables all experience to appear, including the world, thoughts, emotions, sensations, imagination etc. These all appear within you. You are not any of it, you are that absolute emptiness that allows everything to appear. If there is a feeling that you are not aligned, you must simply realize that you are not that feeling, and that feeling says nothing about you or about alignment. It is literally just a feeling. Feelings by themselves don't mean anything at all, they have no substance, they are empty of meaning, it is only when you believe these feelings that they gain power and then they can feel "true", but if you simply don't believe it and see it for what it is, merely a feeling appearing within the vastness of yourself, it will be observed and dissolve into the emptiness. It is only when you believe that feeling, that you hold on to it, you try resist it, you don't want it there, it is only then that the feeling truly feels real, otherwise it simply comes and goes. When you believe it to be real, it stays longer than it should. Simply be aware that something is ever-presently perceiving all thoughts, emotions and sensations. And be aware of that which is perceiving. Perceive the perceiver of the feeling. Stay in that peace, rest in that peace, move in that peace, do not listen to merely thoughts, sensations and emotions/feelings that appear within what you are. The only thing you should listen to is silence, for in silence the intuition can be heard, and the intuition will guide you wherever you need to go. You say "My life is a mess and so is my mind", realize that this is merely a thought appearing within the vast consciousness that you are. You are not that thought, it is not true about you. You are that which perceives all thought, emotion and sensations. You are the highest intelligence of the universe. What happens when we believe these thoughts to be us, is we give them the power of our belief. So you say "I am lost and idk what to do" and if you believe this thought, it will truly appear as if you are lost and don't know what to do. Luckily the compass of life is always within you, and it is your own heart and your own ever-present truth of being. There is no conceptual knowledge or information that you need, for any information or knowledge appear WITHIN the consciousness that you are. That consciousness that you are is all-knowing and it is able to know anything it needs to know in the present moment. To connect with what you truly are you must be able to realize that there is a presence that is aware of thoughts, otherwise you wouldn't be able to tell me about these thoughts. Now, that presence which is ever-presently perceiving all thought, emotion and sensation, can also be perceived. Perceive it. Perceive that which is ever-presently perceiving. So most importantly you need to understand that we thoughts appear within you, but alone they are useless, they are just thoughts, they have no power, not meaning and no substance. It is only when you CHOOSE to believe these thoughts, that they appear true. Literally stop believing these thoughts have power and are true and they will dissolve into the empty silence that you are. To be able to navigate through this life, all you must do is follow the silence of your own heart. Expect nothing at all from life, do not put any expectations on it, do not expect to have different thoughts, do not expect to have different emotions or sensation. Whatever appears within you, let it be, know you are not that, but that in which it is perceived. You are beyond all of it completely. You are the power of life and the witness of life. Truly what you are is indescribable. Know this and follow the path of ego-dissolution, come into the silence of being and move in it, move in that silence, trust it, treasure it, fall in love with it. You must see your self (who you think you are) as an illusion. Who you think you are is just a thought. You are not depressed and you are not anxious, this is who you THINK you are, and because you believe it, it appears to be real. It is strictly NOT TRUE. You can't be depressed nor anxious, for you are the consciousness in which both depression and anxiety appear, thought, emotion and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You must be able to realize this, understand this and live this truth, it truly is like that. What you truly are is the perceiver of not only thought, but of the perceiver itself. You are able to perceive that which perceives. Be in that place for a bit, continue reading this piece What you truly are, is life itself, and the witness of life. You are not the thought and the story made by the mind, you are not the self-image created by the mind. You are pure presence, you are very light, very pure, very joyful, very loving, very compassionate, very true and authentic, the holy presence of the universe appears before you in this moment. You are the ever-present consciousness, that one element of life that never came and wont go, your truest self. You are not coming and going thoughts and beliefs, they are like clouds, you are the sky in which they appear. Consciousness can be conditioned to believe it is the mind, to believe it is doubtful, to believe it is anxious, to believe it is depressed. Consciousness naturally is none of these things, it is only when the consciousness believes in the thoughts that appear, and identifies itself as these thoughts, that reality appears from the perspective of the thought, and that changes how you perceive life. What you must do is understand that is simply thought, thought is perceived, and you are able to perceive the perceiver of thought. What you are has nothing to do with thought, you are way beyond thought, thought is just limitation to what you are. The mind won't be able to comprehend this but there is one thing that is still listening and reading and completely understanding what I am saying intuitively for it is the holy presence that you are, the pure awareness completely recognizes what I am conveying for it is true within yourself, your heart is truly overflowing with love with any moment, you simply do not look at it, and you look at the distractions the mind is presenting ( all kinds of thoughts that have personal interest in them), these thoughts only continue and make the illusion of being a separate entity from life, feeling alone and abandoned, feeling fearful etc. The moment you realize that all this appears within you and can be perceived, you will come to a place of seeing very pure, very quiet, very silent, very beautiful, you will be naturally yourself and have a clarity of life. You won't change, nothing will happen, you'll just shift the perception from thought-based perception to consciousness-based perception. Instead of perceiving thought you will be perceiving the perceiver himself, and just doing that will bring infinite joy, love, peace, compassion and serenity to experience. You mustn't suffer your experiencing, it is only when you rest your attention on the suffering that you suffer. When you rest your attention on your own being, you feel serene, tranquil and beautiful within. Natural well-being. Thoughts, emotions and sensations are not something that can help or be useful to the highest intelligence, awareness itself. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear to that which you are, because you are that which is able to perceive them. They wouldn't exist without you. You are not dependant on them, they simply appear because you are. You are such a vast intelligence that simply everything appears within you, the whole universe itself, including thoughts, emotions and sensations. You do not need to be attached to any thoughts, emotions and sensations, nor to be attached to anything that appears within that which you are, for they have nothing to do with what you truly are, you are not affected by anything that is, because you are that which is. You just stay that which you are, stay in the silence of your own being. The highest intelligence does not give any importance to any thoughts, emotions and sensations because it is aware of its own silence. The highest intelligence does not use thoughts, emotions and sensations in order to be. It is completely free from all of these appearing phenomena, it is not the phenomena and not the creator of the phenomena, it is all imagined within that highest intelligence which you are. You are not bound to something that appears within you, you are that greater in which it appears. You must stay in awareness of what you truly are, you must trust in that which you are. The highest intelligence won't be heard, because it doesn't like to talk. It would rather simply be, be in its own divine being and simply be aware of the vastness. The highest intelligence is easily perceived when one simply turns its attention on one's self. It is easily perceived because it is all that is. Every single thing in existence is that highest intelligence and an expression of the highest intelligence. There is nothing but the highest intelligence alone, pretending to be certain forms, pretending to be thought, pretending to be emotions, sensations, humans, life, death, these are all things it pretends to be, but in truth there is only itself alone. All these are not true, but appearances, when you believe these appearances you lose sight of what is true, the highest intelligence that is ever-present. The highest intelligence is the most obvious thing that is, but it is so subtle that everything misses it. It doesn't take much to realize that presence that you are. Truly you are that. The highest intelligence does not give in to any doubt, that which gives in to doubt is not the highest intelligence, it is merely thought, and that highest intelligence is aware of that thought. The highest intelligence has no fear of the unknown, since it is itself the unknown, and it is able to know itself through that which is perceived. By realizing all that appears, appears within the highest intelligence, including your own sense of self, even that dissolves into the silence of the highest intelligence that you are. Every single thought you entertain, every single emotion you entertain, every single sensation you entertain, simply takes you away from the recognition of what you truly are. Do realize that you are simply beyond them, there is nothing to do with them. Both what appears to be "good" and "bad" is the highest intelligence itself. There is no good and no bad, these are just thoughts, the highest intelligence doesn't see good or bad, it only sees itself and is what it is.