IAmTheHolySpirit

By believing thoughts that make you feel good, you will automatically also give importance to bad thoughts. It is better to have nothing to do with thoughts at all, don't believe neither good nor bad, the source of all thoughts is selfishness. You don't need to listen to any "positive" thoughts because the one who sees them as "positive" is the person. The person only sees a thought as "good" when it is good for its own benefit. By believing "good" thoughts, you make yourself a person, and you are now in a very likely position to be suffering, because you identify as thoughts. You believe thoughts, whether good or bad, and that is the root of your suffering. Don't believe a single thought, live as if they do not exist.

Hello love, yes, you are completely deluded for thinking. You won't have a successful blog, because a successful blog can only be when the successful is creating it. You must realize yourself as the source of the universe itself, that is success itself, and only the source of the universe can write a successful blog. Now, when you discover yourself as the source of the universe, the desire to make a successful blog might fall away, because you no longer depend on the "success" of the "blog" to be happy. You only want a successful blog because you believe it will make you happy. That is complete delusion. The only thing that will ever make you happy is to realize yourself as god, the source of joy, love, peace and compassion itself. Until then, you will be deluded in every single action, thought, emotion or sensation that appears in consciousness. Literally your whole life is 1 big delusion. But that is fine, because the moment we recognize this, we can move towards that which is true. Just by understanding what I am saying you are already dropping off massive baggages of delusion. God has no passion for anything. God is dispassionate, and that is why it is so great. You must not look to stay "passionate". Only ego is "passionate", you are meant to transcend that. The fact that you are asking "Will this be successful?" and "How should I do this?" is already proof that you are not aligned with yourself. Your true self is not insecure, it doesn't need any help from outside sources, it takes care of itself automatically in a divine way. Stop entertaining all this personhood nonsense, all these insecurities, all these doubts. You have no question to ask anyone. You are already the highest intelligence. The universe's intelligence is what you truly are. It is comical to believe that you need any help at all from anybody. You are THE HIGHEST INTELLIGENCE, WISDOM ITSELF. But you must discover yourself as this first. You must not believe me, but see for yourself. I recommend instead of wasting your time on delusions like this blog, first realize yourself, I recommend watching Moojiji on youtube.

Don't try to understand it for a bit, just read through it till the end. I am here for any questions after that. Trust me love.

True. Die right now.

You are welcome. Luckily for you there is no one here to attack, so I don't even have anything to forgive you for. Enjoy the long, full of wisdom and love message.

Whatever, you choose to suffer and talk about all this nonsense and personal stuff instead of simply following my advice. It might take a bit more suffering for you until you are ready to actually take in the wisdom. Enjoy being delusional, hopefully it is in the universes plan to wake you up. Or not, I don't give a fuck.

You literally have the highest answer in your signature " Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away." What is it that when you stop believing in it, it doesn't go away? Life. You are that. That alone is real. You are not thoughts, emotions or sensations. You are that awareness which is ever-present. That is reality. Everything else is delusion.

This comment is ideal for existential crisis because existential crisis appears when you are believing the confusion, you believe there is a crisis. Existential crisis is actually just a thought. It doesn't exist. You are the one who is bringing beliefs and dogma into stuff. That is why you see beliefs and dogma everywhere you go. I don't even notice beliefs or dogma, because I couldn't give a fuck about this nonsense. This post isn't about jesus, it is not about religion, it is about what you truly are. I recommend reading it till the end, if you read everything and all you got to say after that is "would you say the same to a hindu"? you are either trolling or you simply didn't read. Don't comment with your delusions before reading my comment. It might appear "harsh" to you, but all the vitamins and spiritual juice is in the text, but you must read it if you want clarity. You can't continue and perpetuate your nonsense and suffering, unless ofcourse, you want to stay suffering. I am inviting you to freedom, will you take my hand or will you insist on your mind-imagined problems? About your comment on the other thread; Mind your own business.

I am the first one to comment so I'll bring you the non-dual comment of the day. Hello dear one, When doubt appears, always let go and let god. At moments of doubt when we truly feel helpless, that is when surrender is simple, you remove all expectations from yourself, forgive the doubt for appearing, and simply let life unfold as it is unfolding, do not resist it and it'll dissolve naturallyThat time in which you doubt yourself, be forgiving but understand you are not the doubt. The doubt is trying to attack you and make you feel worse about yourself, it makes you feel almost hopeless. That is not true, and you can simply put no expectations on yourself whatsoever in this moment, and let the doubt be, knowing full well you have faith that you are the loving source of the universe. Doubt may appear but it will not shake you, the thought can be lost in its head but I know I am not that which is lost, I am that in which it all appears. When the ego knows it is in danger and is bound to disappear, it does its most to bring you back into being a person, instead of presence, but there is nothing that can stop you. You are that higher force, and it is not going to abandon you, because you are it. You have no choice but to ascend. It truly is beyond whatever you think, Jesus will save that soul of yours. I recommend you reading some of my other posts about the truth. These are thoughts that have been appearing in the vast consciousness that you are, but it is not yourself and it is not true. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear within you. You are the vessel, not the content. You are the sky, they are the clouds. God is inevitably within you, you are one with god whether you want it to not. The only thing that can block that clear seeing is believing the thoughts and the content appearing within you. You must realize that this is merely a thought, and that thought has no meaning, no substance and no power, the only reason it appears to be true is because you are giving it the power of your belief. Whatever you believe will appear true, so you must understand this and not give away your power to any content that appears within you. Instead of believing in all the content, believe in the consciousness in which they appear. The content which appears within yourself is not consistent, not reliable, it changes all the time, you can't trust it. You can't trust the mind, you can't trust thoughts, emotions and sensations. The only thing you can truly trust is yourself, consciousness for it is the only ever-present thing in life. You must see this and understand there is no other place to put your faith in. Do not waste your time believing thoughts about you being confused, do not take them as truth. That which does not feel aligned is not yourself. You are ever-presently aligned, you can't not be aligned. There is nothing to be aligned with. You are life and the witness of life, you are inevitably aligned, there is nothing you can do to disturb or disrupt the alignment. That feeling which appears within the consciousness that you are, is merely a feeling. Like thoughts, feelings and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You are not that feeling, and you are not the content of the feeling, the feeling merely is being perceived within you. Anything that is perceived within you, is not you, for you are that empty space and openness that enables all experience to appear, including the world, thoughts, emotions, sensations, imagination etc. These all appear within you. You are not any of it, you are that absolute emptiness that allows everything to appear. If there is a feeling that you are not aligned, you must simply realize that you are not that feeling, and that feeling says nothing about you or about alignment. It is literally just a feeling. Feelings by themselves don't mean anything at all, they have no substance, they are empty of meaning, it is only when you believe these feelings that they gain power and then they can feel "true", but if you simply don't believe it and see it for what it is, merely a feeling appearing within the vastness of yourself, it will be observed and dissolve into the emptiness. It is only when you believe that feeling, that you hold on to it, you try resist it, you don't want it there, it is only then that the feeling truly feels real, otherwise it simply comes and goes. When you believe it to be real, it stays longer than it should. Simply be aware that something is ever-presently perceiving all thoughts, emotions and sensations. And be aware of that which is perceiving. Perceive the perceiver of the feeling. Stay in that peace, rest in that peace, move in that peace, do not listen to merely thoughts, sensations and emotions/feelings that appear within what you are. The only thing you should listen to is silence, for in silence the intuition can be heard, and the intuition will guide you wherever you need to go. You say "My life is a mess and so is my mind", realize that this is merely a thought appearing within the vast consciousness that you are. You are not that thought, it is not true about you. You are that which perceives all thought, emotion and sensations. You are the highest intelligence of the universe. What happens when we believe these thoughts to be us, is we give them the power of our belief. So you say "I am lost and idk what to do" and if you believe this thought, it will truly appear as if you are lost and don't know what to do. Luckily the compass of life is always within you, and it is your own heart and your own ever-present truth of being. There is no conceptual knowledge or information that you need, for any information or knowledge appear WITHIN the consciousness that you are. That consciousness that you are is all-knowing and it is able to know anything it needs to know in the present moment. To connect with what you truly are you must be able to realize that there is a presence that is aware of thoughts, otherwise you wouldn't be able to tell me about these thoughts. Now, that presence which is ever-presently perceiving all thought, emotion and sensation, can also be perceived. Perceive it. Perceive that which is ever-presently perceiving. So most importantly you need to understand that we thoughts appear within you, but alone they are useless, they are just thoughts, they have no power, not meaning and no substance. It is only when you CHOOSE to believe these thoughts, that they appear true. Literally stop believing these thoughts have power and are true and they will dissolve into the empty silence that you are. To be able to navigate through this life, all you must do is follow the silence of your own heart. Expect nothing at all from life, do not put any expectations on it, do not expect to have different thoughts, do not expect to have different emotions or sensation. Whatever appears within you, let it be, know you are not that, but that in which it is perceived. You are beyond all of it completely. You are the power of life and the witness of life. Truly what you are is indescribable. Know this and follow the path of ego-dissolution, come into the silence of being and move in it, move in that silence, trust it, treasure it, fall in love with it. You must see your self (who you think you are) as an illusion. Who you think you are is just a thought. You are not depressed and you are not anxious, this is who you THINK you are, and because you believe it, it appears to be real. It is strictly NOT TRUE. You can't be depressed nor anxious, for you are the consciousness in which both depression and anxiety appear, thought, emotion and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You must be able to realize this, understand this and live this truth, it truly is like that. What you truly are is the perceiver of not only thought, but of the perceiver itself. You are able to perceive that which perceives. Be in that place for a bit, continue reading this piece What you truly are, is life itself, and the witness of life. You are not the thought and the story made by the mind, you are not the self-image created by the mind. You are pure presence, you are very light, very pure, very joyful, very loving, very compassionate, very true and authentic, the holy presence of the universe appears before you in this moment. You are the ever-present consciousness, that one element of life that never came and wont go, your truest self. You are not coming and going thoughts and beliefs, they are like clouds, you are the sky in which they appear. Consciousness can be conditioned to believe it is the mind, to believe it is doubtful, to believe it is anxious, to believe it is depressed. Consciousness naturally is none of these things, it is only when the consciousness believes in the thoughts that appear, and identifies itself as these thoughts, that reality appears from the perspective of the thought, and that changes how you perceive life. What you must do is understand that is simply thought, thought is perceived, and you are able to perceive the perceiver of thought. What you are has nothing to do with thought, you are way beyond thought, thought is just limitation to what you are. The mind won't be able to comprehend this but there is one thing that is still listening and reading and completely understanding what I am saying intuitively for it is the holy presence that you are, the pure awareness completely recognizes what I am conveying for it is true within yourself, your heart is truly overflowing with love with any moment, you simply do not look at it, and you look at the distractions the mind is presenting ( all kinds of thoughts that have personal interest in them), these thoughts only continue and make the illusion of being a separate entity from life, feeling alone and abandoned, feeling fearful etc. The moment you realize that all this appears within you and can be perceived, you will come to a place of seeing very pure, very quiet, very silent, very beautiful, you will be naturally yourself and have a clarity of life. You won't change, nothing will happen, you'll just shift the perception from thought-based perception to consciousness-based perception. Instead of perceiving thought you will be perceiving the perceiver himself, and just doing that will bring infinite joy, love, peace, compassion and serenity to experience. You mustn't suffer your experiencing, it is only when you rest your attention on the suffering that you suffer. When you rest your attention on your own being, you feel serene, tranquil and beautiful within. Natural well-being. Thoughts, emotions and sensations are not something that can help or be useful to the highest intelligence, awareness itself. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear to that which you are, because you are that which is able to perceive them. They wouldn't exist without you. You are not dependant on them, they simply appear because you are. You are such a vast intelligence that simply everything appears within you, the whole universe itself, including thoughts, emotions and sensations. You do not need to be attached to any thoughts, emotions and sensations, nor to be attached to anything that appears within that which you are, for they have nothing to do with what you truly are, you are not affected by anything that is, because you are that which is. You just stay that which you are, stay in the silence of your own being. The highest intelligence does not give any importance to any thoughts, emotions and sensations because it is aware of its own silence. The highest intelligence does not use thoughts, emotions and sensations in order to be. It is completely free from all of these appearing phenomena, it is not the phenomena and not the creator of the phenomena, it is all imagined within that highest intelligence which you are. You are not bound to something that appears within you, you are that greater in which it appears. You must stay in awareness of what you truly are, you must trust in that which you are. The highest intelligence won't be heard, because it doesn't like to talk. It would rather simply be, be in its own divine being and simply be aware of the vastness. The highest intelligence is easily perceived when one simply turns its attention on one's self. It is easily perceived because it is all that is. Every single thing in existence is that highest intelligence and an expression of the highest intelligence. There is nothing but the highest intelligence alone, pretending to be certain forms, pretending to be thought, pretending to be emotions, sensations, humans, life, death, these are all things it pretends to be, but in truth there is only itself alone. All these are not true, but appearances, when you believe these appearances you lose sight of what is true, the highest intelligence that is ever-present. The highest intelligence is the most obvious thing that is, but it is so subtle that everything misses it. It doesn't take much to realize that presence that you are. Truly you are that. The highest intelligence does not give in to any doubt, that which gives in to doubt is not the highest intelligence, it is merely thought, and that highest intelligence is aware of that thought. The highest intelligence has no fear of the unknown, since it is itself the unknown, and it is able to know itself through that which is perceived. By realizing all that appears, appears within the highest intelligence, including your own sense of self, even that dissolves into the silence of the highest intelligence that you are. Every single thought you entertain, every single emotion you entertain, every single sensation you entertain, simply takes you away from the recognition of what you truly are. Do realize that you are simply beyond them, there is nothing to do with them. Both what appears to be "good" and "bad" is the highest intelligence itself. There is no good and no bad, these are just thoughts, the highest intelligence doesn't see good or bad, it only sees itself and is what it is. You must simply stay consistently aware of being aware. No depression, anxiety, sadness or whatever can touch you there.

Hello dear one, When doubt appears, always let go and let god. At moments of doubt when we truly feel helpless, that is when surrender is simple, you remove all expectations from yourself, forgive the doubt for appearing, and simply let life unfold as it is unfolding, do not resist it and it'll dissolve naturallyThat time in which you doubt yourself, be forgiving but understand you are not the doubt. The doubt is trying to attack you and make you feel worse about yourself, it makes you feel almost hopeless. That is not true, and you can simply put no expectations on yourself whatsoever in this moment, and let the doubt be, knowing full well you have faith that you are the loving source of the universe. Doubt may appear but it will not shake you, the thought can be lost in its head but I know I am not that which is lost, I am that in which it all appears. When the ego knows it is in danger and is bound to disappear, it does its most to bring you back into being a person, instead of presence, but there is nothing that can stop you. You are that higher force, and it is not going to abandon you, because you are it. You have no choice but to ascend. It truly is beyond whatever you think, Jesus will save that soul of yours. I recommend you reading some of my other posts about the truth. These are thoughts that have been appearing in the vast consciousness that you are, but it is not yourself and it is not true. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear within you. You are the vessel, not the content. You are the sky, they are the clouds. God is inevitably within you, you are one with god whether you want it to not. The only thing that can block that clear seeing is believing the thoughts and the content appearing within you. You must realize that this is merely a thought, and that thought has no meaning, no substance and no power, the only reason it appears to be true is because you are giving it the power of your belief. Whatever you believe will appear true, so you must understand this and not give away your power to any content that appears within you. Instead of believing in all the content, believe in the consciousness in which they appear. The content which appears within yourself is not consistent, not reliable, it changes all the time, you can't trust it. You can't trust the mind, you can't trust thoughts, emotions and sensations. The only thing you can truly trust is yourself, consciousness for it is the only ever-present thing in life. You must see this and understand there is no other place to put your faith in. Do not waste your time believing thoughts about you being confused, do not take them as truth. That which does not feel aligned is not yourself. You are ever-presently aligned, you can't not be aligned. There is nothing to be aligned with. You are life and the witness of life, you are inevitably aligned, there is nothing you can do to disturb or disrupt the alignment. That feeling which appears within the consciousness that you are, is merely a feeling. Like thoughts, feelings and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You are not that feeling, and you are not the content of the feeling, the feeling merely is being perceived within you. Anything that is perceived within you, is not you, for you are that empty space and openness that enables all experience to appear, including the world, thoughts, emotions, sensations, imagination etc. These all appear within you. You are not any of it, you are that absolute emptiness that allows everything to appear. If there is a feeling that you are not aligned, you must simply realize that you are not that feeling, and that feeling says nothing about you or about alignment. It is literally just a feeling. Feelings by themselves don't mean anything at all, they have no substance, they are empty of meaning, it is only when you believe these feelings that they gain power and then they can feel "true", but if you simply don't believe it and see it for what it is, merely a feeling appearing within the vastness of yourself, it will be observed and dissolve into the emptiness. It is only when you believe that feeling, that you hold on to it, you try resist it, you don't want it there, it is only then that the feeling truly feels real, otherwise it simply comes and goes. When you believe it to be real, it stays longer than it should. Simply be aware that something is ever-presently perceiving all thoughts, emotions and sensations. And be aware of that which is perceiving. Perceive the perceiver of the feeling. Stay in that peace, rest in that peace, move in that peace, do not listen to merely thoughts, sensations and emotions/feelings that appear within what you are. The only thing you should listen to is silence, for in silence the intuition can be heard, and the intuition will guide you wherever you need to go. You say "My life is a mess and so is my mind", realize that this is merely a thought appearing within the vast consciousness that you are. You are not that thought, it is not true about you. You are that which perceives all thought, emotion and sensations. You are the highest intelligence of the universe. What happens when we believe these thoughts to be us, is we give them the power of our belief. So you say "I am lost and idk what to do" and if you believe this thought, it will truly appear as if you are lost and don't know what to do. Luckily the compass of life is always within you, and it is your own heart and your own ever-present truth of being. There is no conceptual knowledge or information that you need, for any information or knowledge appear WITHIN the consciousness that you are. That consciousness that you are is all-knowing and it is able to know anything it needs to know in the present moment. To connect with what you truly are you must be able to realize that there is a presence that is aware of thoughts, otherwise you wouldn't be able to tell me about these thoughts. Now, that presence which is ever-presently perceiving all thought, emotion and sensation, can also be perceived. Perceive it. Perceive that which is ever-presently perceiving. So most importantly you need to understand that we thoughts appear within you, but alone they are useless, they are just thoughts, they have no power, not meaning and no substance. It is only when you CHOOSE to believe these thoughts, that they appear true. Literally stop believing these thoughts have power and are true and they will dissolve into the empty silence that you are. To be able to navigate through this life, all you must do is follow the silence of your own heart. Expect nothing at all from life, do not put any expectations on it, do not expect to have different thoughts, do not expect to have different emotions or sensation. Whatever appears within you, let it be, know you are not that, but that in which it is perceived. You are beyond all of it completely. You are the power of life and the witness of life. Truly what you are is indescribable. Know this and follow the path of ego-dissolution, come into the silence of being and move in it, move in that silence, trust it, treasure it, fall in love with it. You must see your self (who you think you are) as an illusion. Who you think you are is just a thought. You are not depressed and you are not anxious, this is who you THINK you are, and because you believe it, it appears to be real. It is strictly NOT TRUE. You can't be depressed nor anxious, for you are the consciousness in which both depression and anxiety appear, thought, emotion and sensations all appear within the consciousness that you are. You must be able to realize this, understand this and live this truth, it truly is like that. What you truly are is the perceiver of not only thought, but of the perceiver itself. You are able to perceive that which perceives. Be in that place for a bit, continue reading this piece What you truly are, is life itself, and the witness of life. You are not the thought and the story made by the mind, you are not the self-image created by the mind. You are pure presence, you are very light, very pure, very joyful, very loving, very compassionate, very true and authentic, the holy presence of the universe appears before you in this moment. You are the ever-present consciousness, that one element of life that never came and wont go, your truest self. You are not coming and going thoughts and beliefs, they are like clouds, you are the sky in which they appear. Consciousness can be conditioned to believe it is the mind, to believe it is doubtful, to believe it is anxious, to believe it is depressed. Consciousness naturally is none of these things, it is only when the consciousness believes in the thoughts that appear, and identifies itself as these thoughts, that reality appears from the perspective of the thought, and that changes how you perceive life. What you must do is understand that is simply thought, thought is perceived, and you are able to perceive the perceiver of thought. What you are has nothing to do with thought, you are way beyond thought, thought is just limitation to what you are. The mind won't be able to comprehend this but there is one thing that is still listening and reading and completely understanding what I am saying intuitively for it is the holy presence that you are, the pure awareness completely recognizes what I am conveying for it is true within yourself, your heart is truly overflowing with love with any moment, you simply do not look at it, and you look at the distractions the mind is presenting ( all kinds of thoughts that have personal interest in them), these thoughts only continue and make the illusion of being a separate entity from life, feeling alone and abandoned, feeling fearful etc. The moment you realize that all this appears within you and can be perceived, you will come to a place of seeing very pure, very quiet, very silent, very beautiful, you will be naturally yourself and have a clarity of life. You won't change, nothing will happen, you'll just shift the perception from thought-based perception to consciousness-based perception. Instead of perceiving thought you will be perceiving the perceiver himself, and just doing that will bring infinite joy, love, peace, compassion and serenity to experience. You mustn't suffer your experiencing, it is only when you rest your attention on the suffering that you suffer. When you rest your attention on your own being, you feel serene, tranquil and beautiful within. Natural well-being. Thoughts, emotions and sensations are not something that can help or be useful to the highest intelligence, awareness itself. Thoughts, emotions and sensations all appear to that which you are, because you are that which is able to perceive them. They wouldn't exist without you. You are not dependant on them, they simply appear because you are. You are such a vast intelligence that simply everything appears within you, the whole universe itself, including thoughts, emotions and sensations. You do not need to be attached to any thoughts, emotions and sensations, nor to be attached to anything that appears within that which you are, for they have nothing to do with what you truly are, you are not affected by anything that is, because you are that which is. You just stay that which you are, stay in the silence of your own being. The highest intelligence does not give any importance to any thoughts, emotions and sensations because it is aware of its own silence. The highest intelligence does not use thoughts, emotions and sensations in order to be. It is completely free from all of these appearing phenomena, it is not the phenomena and not the creator of the phenomena, it is all imagined within that highest intelligence which you are. You are not bound to something that appears within you, you are that greater in which it appears. You must stay in awareness of what you truly are, you must trust in that which you are. The highest intelligence won't be heard, because it doesn't like to talk. It would rather simply be, be in its own divine being and simply be aware of the vastness. The highest intelligence is easily perceived when one simply turns its attention on one's self. It is easily perceived because it is all that is. Every single thing in existence is that highest intelligence and an expression of the highest intelligence. There is nothing but the highest intelligence alone, pretending to be certain forms, pretending to be thought, pretending to be emotions, sensations, humans, life, death, these are all things it pretends to be, but in truth there is only itself alone. All these are not true, but appearances, when you believe these appearances you lose sight of what is true, the highest intelligence that is ever-present. The highest intelligence is the most obvious thing that is, but it is so subtle that everything misses it. It doesn't take much to realize that presence that you are. Truly you are that. The highest intelligence does not give in to any doubt, that which gives in to doubt is not the highest intelligence, it is merely thought, and that highest intelligence is aware of that thought. The highest intelligence has no fear of the unknown, since it is itself the unknown, and it is able to know itself through that which is perceived. By realizing all that appears, appears within the highest intelligence, including your own sense of self, even that dissolves into the silence of the highest intelligence that you are. Every single thought you entertain, every single emotion you entertain, every single sensation you entertain, simply takes you away from the recognition of what you truly are. Do realize that you are simply beyond them, there is nothing to do with them. Both what appears to be "good" and "bad" is the highest intelligence itself. There is no good and no bad, these are just thoughts, the highest intelligence doesn't see good or bad, it only sees itself and is what it is. Be aware of being aware and stay in that silence. That is your only "job". It is effortless to stay in that silence.

What does "unconscious day" mean? I am always conscious. Choicelessly so

No, there is not only "you", but there is what is. This "I" is only a thought. It doesn't exist. Again this "I" doesn't actually exist. You are not "24" that is just a thought. There is no one to "handle" anything. That is a thought, pretending to be you by claiming to be "I" but actually it is just a thought. You don't have to hold on to it. You can simply be aware that in fact this is fiction, it is merely a thought, it is not true. It is not "you" personally. It is "you" universally. You are the universe itself. It is not just "you" personally. "you" personally don't exist actually. It is just a thought in the mind that is believed in, what you believe in appears to manifest itself as true. But it is not absolute truth, and you can easily see through it by being aware of being aware. You, the universe, has no mother, no sister. "My mother" "My sister" are merely projections. They don't exist. They aren't real. You are seeing through the filter of the ego, and through ego there appears to be a thought-construct "mother" and a thought-construct "sister", none of these thoughts are real. There is only purely the universe. The one who is "confused" is also just a thought. That which is perceiving the one who is confused, is that confused? That which is aware of confusion, is that itself confused? That is what you truly are. You are not the confused, the depressed, the "not able to handle it", but you are the neutral, calm awareness behind all these thoughts. Be aware of that. It is not you saying this. These are just thoughts in your mind that you are identifying as. "I thought I was able to" is just a thought. It is not true. How can you not be able to be what you are? You are ALREADY the universe. It is about being "able". The one who is saying "I don't want it" is yet another thought pretending to be you. You are the universe itself. What exactly do you not want? Actually you don't care about anything. You are completely neutrally observing. All these thoughts are meaningless to you. It is only because you put trust and belief in these thoughts that they appear to be you. They can't exist without you. Reclaim your power by realizing that in fact this is all just fiction in your mind. "It's too grand beyond my feeble mind", who is saying this? Again it is merely a thought. "It is too grand" how can something be too grand for the infinite universe itself? The mind is obviously delusional. You don't have a feeble mind, you have an infinite mind, and you are that which is perceiving the infinite itself. You are the infinite and beyond. There is no such thing as deliberate ignorance. You are either ignorant or you are wise. You can't really choose. If you know what you truly are, you automatically are the wise one. If you believe yourself to be something other than what you truly are, you automatically are the ignorant one. That is good. You must throw all your ignorant "Knowledge" away, because it is not useful for the highest intelligence. The highest intelligence has no use for mere thought, emotions and sensations. They are just another experience perceived in awareness. You are the highest intelligence. Don't take this shit so seriously and personally. You don't need to "know" anything at all, except your true place. Be aware of being aware.

So there is meow_meow There is an awareness of meow_meow (otherwise you couldn't say you are meow_meow) And you can be aware of even this awareness of meow_meow So instead of identifying yourself as meow_meow, be the awareness that is aware of awareness itself That is enlightenment

There is no such thing as a "material problem", the only "material problem" you will ever have is an "ego problem"

One thing for sure is the ego does not want to get rid of any beliefs. Intuition is obviously guiding you I do not recommend holding on to the idea that you "need money to do all you want to do", instead it is better to simply ask yourself "Who am I?" and be aware of being aware. You don't need anything to do anything, simply be in your oneness and everything will come to you.

Look at your hand You are now aware of a hand Now be aware of being aware

That which is having trouble "letting go" is itself merely a coming and going thought, the one having trouble is itself a thought. How can thought let go of thought? You must simply see this. There is something before "I am having trouble", there is something ever-present, it is not clouded by thought, it is there to perceive thought. You don't need to "let go" of anything, but simply remain aware of the awareness that is ever-present. You must understand thinking is not helping navigate anything at all, actually it is the opposite, it is only because of you trying to think about the past or future, that you have forgot what you truly are. You are not supposed to navigate an illusion, you simply wake up to the truth, and in the light of the truth there is no need to navigate anything, you simply are and everything automatically works. You simply remain aware of being aware. No, you are not part of the illusion. That is merely a thought pretending to be you. It is saying "I am a part of an illusion" but that is literally just a thought appearing in that which is true, in you. You are that vast consciousness in which all thoughts, emotions and sensations appear. You CAN'T be anything other than the pure truth itself. You literally are choicelessly the truth. Nothing can ever make you not true, but that which is true can believe the mind when the mind says "I am a part of this illusion", it is not true even if you say it is, it is literally just a thought. No meaning, no substance at all. You don't dissociate from this illusion, you simply see that the one who needs to dissociate is ITSELF an illusion, appearing in that which is true. There is no one that needs to dissociate, there is no need to be a part of an illusion. You simply remain as the truth that you are. That ever-present awareness, that is there unconditionally whether there are thoughts, emotions or sensations appearing. It is so absolutely clear that you are not ANYTHING APPEARING IN CONSCIOUSNESS, you are that consciousness itself, you literally can't not be consciousness. The mind will say "I am not consciousness" and that itself is just a thought appearing IN that consciousness that you truly are. Buddha, Christ, Mooji, Eckhart Tolle, Osho, they all are able to have conversations, and actually all conversations become beautiful and of a higher, truer consciousness, instead of silly, foolish egoic-talk. Don't believe all these nonsense speculations of the mind. It is not true. None of what the mind wants you to believe is true about pure consciousness, is true. Mind literally can't ever know ANYTHING about the consciousness in which itself appears. You are that consciousness. Don't trust the mind to tell you how it is to be consciousness. It can't know. Stop taking its advice, it literally is a function appearing within that consciousness that you are, it can't know anything about you. The mind appears in time, you are timeless presence. You are the timeless that perceives time itself. You are eternal. You are pure consciousness, whether you'd like it or not. Whether you identify with appearances within you, you are still that pure consciousness. Simply be aware of being aware.

Most people think self-consciousness means you are "self-conscious" or being critical of yourself. That is not self-consciousness, rather that is self-unconsciousness. If you are self-conscious, you are aware and conscious of the self. Meaning that you are conscious of the fact that you are NOT the thoughts, emotions and sensations, but rather the awareness behind them. Self-consciousness means you are conscious of the self as infinite, vast, silent emptiness. That is self-consciousness/Self-awareness. What most people refer to as self-consciousness/Self-awareness is simply being conscious or aware of the ego. If you are aware of the ego, you are not self-aware, but rather ego-aware. That is the problem of most people. Ask any person and they will tell you "Yes I am very self-aware, I know all my qualities, what I like or not like, etc as a person". But ask a person "what are you that is self-aware" then they will have absolutely nothing to tell you, they will just make some answers up from the mind and the answer won't be correct because the question came from the mind, and the mind can't know what you are, for you are the consciousness in which the mind appears. The ego is associated with thoughts, emotions and sensations, it is pretty much the thinker of the thoughts and the content of the thoughts, same as emotions and sensations. It has to do with monitoring itself as a thought, it is thought monitoring itself and then judging itself to be good/bad, but it is completely false and not what you are. You are the consciousness in which the thinker of the thought appears. You are way beyond all thought. You are the silent holy spirit which is ever-present. If you stay in the mode of limited ego-awareness then it will force unfavorable decisions in life, and will behave very limitly according to what the thought believes and thinks about itself. Nothing in life will change until you realize that you are beyond what the thought might think and believe. You must completely transcend the mind to step into your true light as consciousness. Until then the mind will keep distracting you, until you suffer enough and stay with god only, not seeking anything else, not seeking anything from the mind. Let god be your rock and you will not be disappointed. Ego is the psychological part of the mind, which makes the experience of being a person appear. Because the ego is active and believed in, the consciousness acts, thinks, and sees life through this limited ego-awareness. That ego-awareness barely ever develops and is only there for you to suffer for you to awaken to the true nature of what you are. The problem is most people do not even know that its there to awaken you, and people simply believe it and trust it for they know nothing else. The key is to realize and experience what is beyond the mind, only then will you have the power to be able to stand in the truth of the being instead of mindlessly following around anything the mind says. Ego is simply unconsciousness, these thought/emotions and sensations that you currently identify as, makes the ego what it is. Having an ego doesn't mean you are boastful and proud, it can also mean you are miserable and anxious. Anything that you believe yourself to, any thought, any emotion and any sensation is ego. You believe yourself to not be able to dance (a thought) - that is ego. You believe yourself to be angry because someone made you angry (an emotion) - that is ego. You believe yourself to be in pain because you burned your finger (a sensation) - that is ego. Beyond the ego there is the infinite vastness of being, a unity, a harmony, peace, love, joy, compassion, serenity, a higher power and an awareness that can simply will things into existence effortlessly, it is to be treasured, valued, not set aside for mere distractions and thought. It is to be your ultimate beloved for it truly is the only ever-present being in your life, every other thing comes and goes, the personality that you currently believe you are (ego), money, sex, any other distraction. The only thing consistent in your life is consciousness, and truly that is what you are. We were simply conditioned to believe the mind and trust it, instead of believing and trusting life itself, consciousness itself, the only thing that won't ever abandon us, the only thing that won't ever judge us, the only thing that can truly make us whole.

There is no separate "knowing". Being aware and "knowing" is the same thing. When you are aware of being aware, you know awareness. Naturally. It is not some "knowing explosion and some experience gets revealed", no, you simply acknowledge that which is completely obvious, awareness itself, and you stay aware of that. That is the unchanging, and it is so simple to perceive it, because we are already the unchanging. We simply must notice what we truly are. Be aware of being aware.

Because everyone expects to find the truth with the mind. The truth is extremely simple, the mind is extremely complex. The extremely mind complex can't see the simplicity of the truth. It can't believe it truly is so simple. And because of this belief, many will go on searching and seeking and reading and teaching and talking and whatever they do, they are not aware of that which is true. They will go and beat around the bush because they are interested only in the intellectual complex concepts instead of the simple and natural truth. It is fine, it is a stage consciousness goes through also, eventually you understand that there is no way to comprehand the truth using the mind and so you give it up. You are obviously open to it and you are blessed for that. You mustn't suffer and you mustn't look any further, the complete truth and the essence of what you are which is eternal and infinite is right here. Be aware of being aware.

Physical activities would be really troublesome as you can't do them at any point you want. They take too much effort. I can recommend the most ideal one that has worked for me for dissoluting the ego completely and it is simply being aware of being aware. It is exactly the "simple" you are looking for, and yet it is actually the most powerful. Most people are not able to handle with simple things. They want complex concepts. I can see that you in fact want the mind to settle into the natural equanimity, and therefore I suggest being aware of being aware, and simply staying in that state. In that state, thoughts, emotions and sensations will all be fighting for your attention (slightly "unpleasant", yet not harmful at all), and you will just be trying to observe the awareness that is aware of the thoughts, emotions, sensations and attention. You'll just be accepting what is and being ok with the experience. It is literally tailored for you.

How is it not the case for most? Literally even a child can be aware of being aware.

Yes, and these kinds of feelings don't really come up anymore isn't it? It is like you have cured yourself of certain states that would have lasted for weeks. Now they are unnoticeable even. You must have had many behavioural changes and maybe even a change of awareness? Do you want to expand on that?

Nobody is denying or suppressing any feelings, we simply must see feelings for what they truly are. A coming and going phenomenon, that appears within the unchanging, the one that never came and will never go. The unchanging is the important thing, not the feeling. Yes feelings might help point you to the unchanging but it is more efficient to not be looking for feelings but simply dive straight into the unchanging source itself and be one with the stillness that is. Yes, that is exactly what I am pointing to. Surrender to whatever appears. Do not hold on to it. When it comes, whether it is sadness or love, let it come, and let it go also. Do not become attached to it, do not identify yourself as it. Know that it is appearing within you, be with it fully, and it will naturally dissolve in the silence of being.

The body will be moving by you but you are not moving the body.