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@Thought Art Yeah, I guess I noticed a bit of impatience. Trusting the process is key. @Leo Gura Aye captain! @Yimpa Well ... Rich seems to be quite rich @Greatnestwithin Thanks for sharing your story David!! I'll coach a bit more for free and then start with the 1500$ for 3 months model. "serving my ass off" resonates a lot with me at the moment. It's hard, but also feels like the right path. I'll buy the book from Litvin, I've just recently discovered him through YouTube actually!! It's very kind that you offer to share the resources that have helped you! I would love to recieve them.

Hey there, So I started to do the iPec coach training program. It's great. One question that came up for me is: How to I start to offer my coaching service to the world? I really wanna learn, practice and master the skill of coaching, and one of the best ways to do that is to actually start coaching people. But I'm a bit afraid that I'll not be able to provide the value that I want to provide. (Eventhough I've heard only massively positive things about my coaching skills and presence) . How to decide when the right time has come to start offering it to the world. What other ways are there to actually practice the skill of coaching / to create learning fields? Should I be asking for a small fee from the beginning? (E.g. 1500$ for a 3 month program) or start for free? (Many people say, and I agree, that people who take on free offers often don't appreciate the actual service and are not committed enough to follow through on what comes out of the sessions.) Would love to hear your thoughts about this! (Also to fellow coaches on here: How did you start in the beginning?)

Update: I've gone through the experience! The crisis seems to be over. Ego-Structures recalibrated. Took about 3 1/2 months. Just the tinnitus stayed. Had my first psychedelic experience recently. 1 drop of LSD. It felt like 3-4 drops. Tolerance seems to have decreased. Sensitivity increased. I'll have to experiment further, but this experiences seems to have opened something. Very impressive. I wrote a whole book about what I learned about "Spiritual Emergency" and how to move through one. If you're interested you can download it here: https://cheerful-thinker-9998.ck.page/c5f3bb650b (Note for Mods: Please remove the link if this kind of promotion is not allowed, as you sign up for my e-mail list, but you can unsubscibe at any time). Bless

Hey everybody, I hope you're doing fine. 4 days ago I had my first MDMA experience. 200mg of pure MDMA (+75mg after 4 hours). It was a really beautiful experience. Very healing. After working through a lot of personal stuff I felt the desire to go deeper into the transpersonal realm. I've crafted 5-MeO-DMT Vape Pens a few weeks before, but I've only played around with them in the lower doses (1:12 or 1:4 solution strength). But now in the MDMA experience, I felt ready to go all the way. I've heard about this combination before. Most of the community is just not sure as there's just not enough data. There's very little information online and the perspectives vastly differ. I heard Rick Doblin talking about it at a psychedelic conference and he said it was a wonderful idea and a wonderful experience. And I've read in James Oroc´s “ Tryptamine Palace” that this combination should be avoided as it had resulted in negative experiences that appeared similar in character to an overdose of tryptamines alone. But in my state I was sure that this was the right choice in the moment. I went in three times. First experience with one long-hit of the 1:1 vape pen ( should have been around ~8mg). It was a beautiful, sacred, very intense experience. but I felt there was more. So I went in a second time after a few minutes had passed. this time I went with two long hits ( so probably around ~15mg) This experience was absolutely stunning. A very clear glimpse of Enlightenment. God realization. Satori. I felt complete and whole. It is very nice to start out from the loving space of the MDMA into the 5-MeO-DMT. There's very little fear (or no at all). And after you come out of the 5-MeO-DMT experience you land into the loving space of the MDMA. Still, remembering my first and only 5-MeO-DMT Breakthrough experience, I felt a subtle desire to go all the way. from conscious god realization to Infinite nothingness. Complete annihilation of existence back into source. So after waiting for around two hours (and taking the 75mg MDMA re-dose) I went back in for the third time. I was taking three big hits (~20mg of 5-MeO-DMT) and was expecting to jump into the Nothingness. It was a very intense experience, hard to put into words. a little bit emotionally challenging at the end. definitely not full annihilation of consciousness. There was something happening, but I couldn't really grasp what it was. Coming out of the experience I was a little bit confused but still fine. I was feeling like it was a successful session, with a lot of valuable insights. The day after I had a really really heavy headache. ( also just getting two hours of sleep). I was taking a lot of Vitamin C ( maybe a little bit too much) and a 5-HTP supplement to prevent the damage and common low known from the MDMA. The headache went on for the whole day and my social battery was kind of low. ( I was arriving at a mini-festival). The two following days at the festival were fine. I was able to talk, give a workshop about psychedelics, get enough sleep and have a little bit of fun. ( I didn't take any other substances at this time). While having a long drive home, I was feeling that something was a little bit different. My state was not quite at baseline. I thought: “ well maybe I just touched a little bit of acid and that is the reason why I feel a little bit off”. After five hours of driving I arrived home and felt a little bit sick. I thought maybe the week was just a little bit hectic, with all the traveling and socializing. And I went to sleep. Today ( 4 days after the MDMA + 5-MeO DMT experiences) I woke up and still felt a little bit different. I feel healthy. But definitely not at baseline. Now that I'm alone I can actually notice what is going on in my perception. And I assume that it is coming from this experience. This is where I asked for your advice: How do I integrate this experience and what steps are reasonable to take? I feel a little bit all over the place. Not fully at ease. There are significant mood swings. A subtle sense of anxiety that I haven't experienced before. A slight visual distortion in my perception. Noticable vibrations in my body and heart. And as I have never had such long term, persistent effects from psychedelics, a little fear: -Did I somehow damage my brain? ( I don't know much about serotonin syndrome, or certain cardiovascular reactions, but these topics just jump into my mind). -Do I just give it some time and take it easy? When is the right time to seek out professional help or a doctor? Do you have any practices that can be very useful for grounding? Today I tried a long meditation, breathwork, going to the gym, a long cold shower, and all these things seem to help but only in the moment. Also an interesting site note: I still fall back into the “ chewing” of the MDMA. Not as intense as in the journey, but still noticeable. In the experience itself I was chewing so much that I injured the inner side of my lips and it's very hard for me to eat hard food. It's very interesting to observe this whole process and to write the waves of this period of integration. We open ourselves up to these kinds of experiences and dimensions when we explore deeper and deeper and sometimes even mix certain substances. Safe journeys everybody.

@bebotalk Yes, I need to get more clean on my ideal client. And maybe even on my coaching package. There are two different approaches: Designing a process that takes them from A to B (clear transformation) or client led work (the client leads and is deciding what they wanna work on). I do offer free sessions at the moment to practice and people are actually willing to try it out! (That´s amazing!) All came through my social media channels (which is targeting people who are kind of in the area of my niche). Two out of three want to focus on other areas in their life than my field of expertise (which is helping people work with psychedelics in a mature and responsible way for Self-Actualization and Self-Realization). I'll see how that flows, as it's about the skill of coaching it's fine I guess. @Thought Art Sure they do. It's an overwhelming amount of content, resources and training they provide. But the webinars are gonna be hosted weekly over the next few months, so there is no access to some information as of now. Otherwise I am practicing with peer coaches and a mentor coach through the program, which is really empowering and helpful. I just wanted to do even more @Dauntment I've been building the fist path now for a few years. Giving giving and more giving. Out of Love. It's a slow path but I can almost smell that results and also financial return in just around the corner! (Finally!) And also: it feels best to combine both! @Yimpa Nice idea! Did that on LSD the other day

I used 'POLYETHYLENGLYCOL 400 (PEG 400)', (from 'my-eliquid') but I think it doesn't really make a big difference.

I live in Germany, it was not too difficult to find everything. https://dabbing.de/produkt/ccell-th2/ 0,5ml volume 2 mm hole size (Get like 6-10 of those) https://dabbing.de/produkt/ccell-m3-cartridge-battery/

I crafted different strengths solutions with this guide from Erowid: "Jaguar (5-MeO-DMT) Vape Pens How They Are Made, BY GRACE WITHIN" It's very easy to control your experience. Especially with the 1:12 or 1:4 . The 1:1 is a one-two hit breakthrough.

Best way I've found is a Vape Pen. Very simple to craft. There's a few guides on how to do it online.

That's a crazy story!! Shows once again how many pitfalls there are on the psychedelic path. This is an extreme example but we can all fall into the traps and dangers in more subtle ways and it's good to be aware of that!

One approach I like: Eyemask, psilocybin therapy playlist, lie down and breathe. Observe. Maybe set an intention for yourself. What topics do you want to look into? (But make sure to let go of the intention once you eat the truffles).

I'm doing iPec at the moment. It's pretty good. I don't know how it compares to all the other offers.

God is breathing. "When you really look for me, you will see me instantly — you will find me in the tiniest house of time. Kabir says: Student, tell me, what is God? He is the breath inside the breath." ~Kabir

A little update: The energy hasn't decreased at all. It's absolutely insane and remarkable how intense the experience still is. I got kind of used to the vibrations in the body. They are not really unpleasant. (Someone else told me it could also be a sign that my body is still in panic / Fight or flight mode). Tinnitus is really loud. Hard to get used to that one. 3 times now I heard a sound of a deep singing bowl in my right ear at night. Very interesting phenomena. First time it kind of freaked me out. Now I'm meeting it with curiosity. Focusing on the sound as an object for meditation doesn't do anything special. Trying to distract myself from it works during the day. The emotional turmoil, disorientation and confusion is what's most challenging. I am in such an open state that I feel everything very intense. A lot of fear is there. And I don't really know why. It seems like all spiritual practice and understanding I've learned over the years is being tested or has to be re-learned from scratch. The foundation of my life has been my sense of purpose and that is being shaken (a lot) through this heavy earthquake. It's hard to grasp onto anything. There is a sense of groundlessness. I have been searching for my old sense of self, but there's nothing there. It doesn't exist (obviously). Still, it's a very sad feeling that comes up, recognizing it's loss ( "I" really liked that version of myself). Interesting sidenote: my girlfriend felt disconnected from me while we were spending time together. (Maybe that was also because I was sick and driving 30hours to Spain), but still very interesting. (And sad). The openness had also a positive side to it (but less so than the suffering and struggle). I went to a mantra singing circle, chanting Sat Nam Mantras. And it resonated as so much Truth that I cried and cried and cried. It was a big release. Still. Tripping for almost 2 months now is very exhausting in a sense. Hard to find a balance between doing something to resolve that state, focusing on it and making people in my surroundings aware of it and keeping it to myself ( I don't wanna bother people too much with it, displays a certain sense of self-centeredness), just going on with life (sadly away from my purpose) and ..... I don't know. There are many more details but that's about it for now. Blessings

Your are not gonna have tolerance if you just do it once a week.

Personally, I find other psychedelics to be more effective for that purpose.

@LSD-Rumi I took a good amount of Vitamin C and 5-HTP supplements for a few days after the experience.

Thanks for all the responses! They helped me a lot! Okey, a little update: @Breakingthewall Wow, LSD + 5-MeO-DMT sounds very intense! @Leo Gura Now it has been 1 week since that experience. The intensity of the aftereffects has not decreased at all. Maybe even increased in intensity at times (it comes in waves). But I am less afraid of it. There is still very intense vibrations in the body. I wake up at 3 AM completely electrified. Feels like I am charged with so much energy. Even at daytime I am shaking a lot. Feeling it all the time. My guess is it´s coming from the 5-MeO-DMT, as I feel like I am on a modereate dose of 5-MeO 24/7. I feel a little spaced out. Extremely aware. Similar visual distortions. I spoke to a friend and he reminded me of the concept of "Kundalini -Energy- Awakening". It does sound very similar to what I am experiencing. But I don´t know too much about it. Anybody here who has some advice on how to move that energy? Work throgh it? Release it? Ground myself in that experience? @Razard86 Thanks for sharing these words. Intellecutually I knew that permanent changes should be expected from this work. Experiencing such intense, radical changes in perception without psychedelics for the first time just caught me a little bit off-guard. (Wow, now I just start to begin to apprechiate the work some of you guys do here, of tripping for a month straight, back-to-back, for a month.) I asked myself:- -What is there to be afraid of? --- Nothing! -What am I not willing to face? -Could I manage to live in this state permanetely? -- Yeah, I could manage. Maybe focus on a lot of practices to calm the nervous system (Yin Yoga, Slow Breathing, etc.) to find my way back to grounding and peace. Through that I am now able to allow that which wants to unfold to unfold. In it´s own time. Letting go. Trusting. Surrendering into it. It is still very intense. I can´t really work or focus. Cause all my attention is drawn into this process, when I am not distracting myself. There is also and underlying sense of suffering and very challenging emotional labor that I notice. @Jowblob Yeah, I notice that I was kind of attached to my baseline state of conciousness. I really liked it. And I really apprechiate that, grounded, peaceful state that is able to enjoy the little casual things in life. It is good to let go of that attachment tho, as this work requires letting go of the attachment to any state. Not prefering any state over another. @OBEler Could you share the interviews you refered to? It was not my first "Breakthrough" or God-Realization. I had a few before on different substances and also on -MeO-DMT. All had different flavours to them. The experiences I had here were not too shocking in the moment. Just intese and very beautiful. I was not in shock, but in absolute awe. @BlurryBoi Both was not the case. @Carlos MK What made this worry so interesting is that I usually never expereince any worry. I am one of the most centered and clam persons I know. This is why I was so suprised by the senssation of worry, fear and anxiety, as I am not familiar with these sensations and expereinces. Thanks for sharing these reassuring words of support! @PurpleTree It was an incredible trip! So beautiful. So insightful. So healing. I´ll post a more extensive trip report on YouTube oneday. @Aaron p Yeah, I was not aware of the intense release of any inhibitions in the MDMA expererience. I don´t plan to do MDMA more than 2x per year. Maybe even less. @deamordeamar Glad this thread is resonating so much! All the best on your path! You´ll get through this! That´s also a good saying I remebered: "The only way out is through". There is much more detail in my perception and other interesting stuff is going on (like eating 5 grams of mushrooms in my dream and actually feeling it coming on strong pretty strong, waking up and still seeing all the visuals in the room). In the last days I was conciously distracting myself a lot, spending time with family, being in nature, eating, mundane stuff. It helped me process a lot but still there seems to be something that wants to come to the surface. I actually signed up for my first 10 day Vipassana retreat next week (independed from this experience) and wonder if it is a good idea to actually go. First my tendency was leaning towards "no", because of fear, but now I lean more towards "yes" out of curiousity and excitement. I want to look at whatever is coming up. I think it could be the perfect time for integrating this experience, no matter how difficult it might get. Blessings, Blessings, Blessings One and All. Om Shanti.

Look up Kilindi Iyi

Maybe look into the work of Stanislav Grof. He talks a lot about similar experiences.

One of the very few good academic research projects in the psychedelic space. What are your thoughts on it? https://www.youtube.com/live/Myq_Hc_39aI?feature=share

What's the dose of Bufo Alvarius that gets you to a nice breakthrough?

Interesting, 60-70mg didn't quite got me there, so I'm thinking to ramp up to ~100mg.

Yeeah, it's a strange one for sure. But honesty, a lot of substances are. I can relate to your dilemma. I would say next time you decide to go in, make sure you're 100% dedicated to embrace every experience that wants to occur. It's truly mind blowing how it can increase the intensity 4 hours into the trip sometimes.