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I’m at a point in my life where I’m questioning my priorities. Ten years ago..I was deeply interested in philosophy and existential questions.. driven by curiosity and fascination about existence. When I discovered Leo’s content ..I immediately got hooked. I watched almost the entire playlist on metaphysics and epistemology. I wasn’t (and still am not) interested in topics like politics. Lately however I’ve been rethinking this. I have a strong theoretical understanding of existential topics.. largely thanks to Leo..but now I’m leaning more toward living a peaceful..fulfilling life free of suffering. That feels more important to me now. There’s no need to endlessly question existence..not because these questions can’t be answered (they can..and Leo has done so for himself) but because I’m trying to think more realistically. The apparent situation is that a human being who was born into this world and the basic conditions of life are already given. I have a body and a mind. The body has its own design and requires constant care and attention. It needs air..food, water..sleep..and basic hygiene. It also seeks pleasure and comfort. Sometimes it craves adventure and risk..other times it seeks dopamine..adrenaline or serotonin. Its needs are not static. There isn’t just one single thing that matters to me..it’s more complex than that. I am now 30 years old. In another 30 years..I’ll be 60 approaching the later stages of my life..and I don’t want to look back with regret. At the same time..I’m aware of the idea that my existence might have a kind of “mission” and that even simple actions like raising my hand to write these words can feel almost fated. I also recognize how this perspective could become an excuse for inaction. But I believe I’ve resolved that paradox for myself. The insight of non-doership is not a justification for passivity. Even if individual choice is an illusion, that doesn’t imply success or failure ..only that whatever happens isn’t entirely “my doing.” Returning to the question of priorities: I simply don’t want to suffer. That’s it. I don’t want to deal with constant discomfort or headaches anymore. I don’t think that’s too much to ask. The question is how to achieve that…although in a way it may not be something that can be treated as a future goal. It’s now or never .

Lately, I’ve been having difficulties with my sleep patterns. I struggle to go to bed early, mainly because I overuse my smartphone. I’ve identified the cause ..it’s really just the phone. If I were living in a camp in nature without any technology, what would keep me up all night? I would probably go to bed early because there wouldn’t be much to do. I would simply lie down, relax, and let my mind wander, or watch the stars or the moon if it’s out, and just be present. This would gradually turn into a form of meditation and relaxation, and it wouldn’t take long for me to fall asleep. So, I’ve realized that I need to do something to stop overusing my phone at night.

A journal for posting anything that comes to my mind regarding literary anything in my life or in life in general . I want to look back at it after few years and find that I went through a lot of things yet I’m still thriving and maturing.

If God’s Love is infinite then how is it possible to not experience it ?

I think this is too unrealistic and hunky dory Even if you are enlightened you just see life and tough situations differently with less negative emotions but the body appears separate from your psyche. Or do you think that you have no problem with the human condition? my question is if everything on the surface of consciousness appears peaceful.. then is there unconscious elements that might make us disturbed without knowing them consciously? And if so I would like to know how to cleanse the unconscious mind completely in the same way you cleanse your body with water fasting ? And hopefully achieve light state of consciousness.

Is there such a thing as unconscious beliefs at all ? A person trying to succeed with attracting girls might believe he isn’t worthy because of something buried in his unconscious mind or all of those limiting beliefs are conscious and appearing on the surface ? why can you be feeling bad without there being any apparent cause on the surface ? In the case of the body ..we are not aware that low blood sugar or under slept time might make us make less wise decisions like getting into a fight . Is there a similar dynamic with the mind ?

What does this mean? Please be clear . Thanks.

I was meditating by watching my thoughts arise and fade while remaining as a witness to them which is the simplest meditation technique to me . It simply shows the gap between awareness and the mind or the thinking process. Thoughts which arise in my consciousness are not coming from my own authoring ..they arise on their own and also the mind chatter itself is very clearly and sharply distinct from awareness in the sense that I can observe the mind blabbering from a distance without me needing to engage with it. I have made that line very clear. A lot of times I reach a moment of complete silence of thoughts where there aren’t any thoughts at all present in my awareness but I still feel bad or restless in the back of my mind. I still feel tensed . My facial expression is disturbed and my body is tight instead of loose . I concluded it is because of years of conditioning and years of suffering and memories and the subconscious mind . But if all of what I mentioned now are not accessible directly in my awareness when I reach the zero thoughts phase in meditation..then where are they present ? The only answer that comes up to me is they are in the unconscious mind . But how can something exist and be unconscious? Either a thing is conscious or it doesn’t exist. What am I not getting or getting wrong ?

You sound skeptical of what kind of ontology applies to this reality you inhabit . It makes no difference what others have told you about what reality is or what is possible and what is impossible within it . an absolute control over reality would just be impossible for the human self by definition because a human being is confined by a body and mind which in turn are shaped by nature itself . An absolute control over reality requires redefining what is meant by “you “ to mean the world or the universe..because all of that is you and it’s already functioning perfectly (not perfectly according to human bias ) if you have everything you need or want instantly you would be bored out of your mind. Appreciate limitation and lack as the very thing that gives life taste . law of attraction works though within limits again . Focus on your goals ..envision them ..take massive actions towards them consistently and keep them in your mind and by doing this you will raise the probability of them occurring in your life.

Yes I agree . Emotions are ethereal ..abstract and unlocalized . Unlike sensations and perceptions .

Do you mean the emotion was felt out there exactly where it was occurring instead of inside your brain in the head ? That’s not correct either . A sensation can be pinpointed as being in the hands or the head etc but an emotion can’t be pinpointed to in the body or outside the body and yet it is experienced and it is real .

@Ramasta9 What’s your weight ? I find it extremely difficult to go for more than a waking day dry fasting (12 hours) . I feel like I’m gonna pass out if I don’t put anything into my mouth . I find fasting very cleansing and purifying for my body and mind and soul but I if I pass the 2 days mark I’m legit going to pass out . Maybe because I used to eat carbs and sugar and junk . Do you plan to quit eating and drinking And becoming a breatharian?

I believe you shared a similar message to this in the past . I’m happy for you that you’ve made it out of what you describe as darkness into what you describe as light . you never mentioned though what was the driving force behind this radical shift ? Or why were you in such deep suffering in the first place ?

There is no separation already. If it’s real then it cannot be dissolved in the future.