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To wake up one day and find all men dead and there is only me and all the women In the world .and to have every girl in this world to me lol. Has anyone here ever wished this before ? I know it's farfetched and crazy but it is what it is I guess ?. Also ..I like my girlfriend's mouth better than pussy ..I like blowjob more than penetration..anyone else here like me ? Even when I watch porn ...I watch the blowjob part and skip the missionary and the doggy etc ..but I do like the money shot .

How do you know it doesn't mimic the effect ? Have you experienced vaginal orgasm before ? The G-spot in males is inside their ass near the prostate ..if you cum through your dick while at the same time finger your ass ...then Trust me ..you will experience earth shattering female-like orgasm.

Finger your butthole.

How could they when I'm handsome as fuck ?

Honestly I've reached a level of consciousness that is unimaginable low just few hours ago..and I became conscious that God is separate from me and from the universe. OK please let me explain..of course there cannot be separation between God and his creation because reality is infinite and all those boundaries dissolve at the highest level. But I'm totally and utterly not God-realized . I'm not awake. Because I asked god for help after my girlfriend left me . And I cried for his help .and I felt that I'm just powerless weak little human that has no clue in the midst of the darkness . Most of us think that the God is a very powerful entity residing in heaven or somewhere else watching over us with some crystal ball or something alike. He has taken something (or nothing) and created the Universe and us. But the truth is much more mysterious and intriguing. The Universe is just a fraction part of the God. There are infinite number of Universe exist but the god is one. The universe is materialistic.. It is bounded with time.. space and dimensions. God is Omniscient..Omnipotent..AND Omnipresent. Yet you can relate to God as other than you . Its simply beyond our imagination. Because how much you can imagine .. God is beyond that. So if you are not conscious that you are God. Be honest with yourself just like what I'm doing here and start treating God as the sky daddy that you pray to .

? it goes full circle though ..so usually when you hit your lowest low ..you come out the other side into your highest high . Does it feel better to be God or to pray to God? I discovered that praying to God as an other is one of the most satisfying experiences you can ever possibly find in this shitty existence. ?

Haha nah bro I'm being serious. Life will test your ass . If you think you're God..you gotta be zillion % dam sure of that .because in the first test that life will put you in ...you will cry like a woman in her period . It can be something as stupid and trivial as not being able to poo. Hahaha

I know that that's right .but I'm not conscious of it right now .

No worries bro.thanks for your apology ? it's not like I'm not prone to mental masturbation. So your critcisms might be valuable for me.

Like I said I don't really know..but there is some truth to what you're saying..I mean you can look at it from a scientific perspective..When one ends life..it only make space for other forms of life. All carbon. nitrogen .hydrogen oxygen, and other elements that build human being and any other life on Earth do not change in moment of death. Nothing happens. Same elements will be used to build other form of life very soon. Death doesn’t exists. We silly monkeys.. made that up in our heads. Even if When life ends.. death do not occur..another life is formed.

Great question. The only correct answer (even though I might be disappointing for you )..is NOBODY KNOWS! The body might disappear magically for no reason at all . Isn't that how you was born ? You just magically popped out of nowhere? What makes you think this body will die ?what if starting from age 60+ you start becoming young again ..? Or million other crazy possibilities? But you see you are deeply convinced by society and culture that this body will drop dead someday . The truth is both death and immortality are beliefs.

How so ? Can't you distinguish between concepts in your mind with physical reality? No I don't do that . Again..Taking DMT is not imaginary if you actually take it ..death is imaginary until you actually die .but the difference between death and snorting some substance up your ass is clear .one can be verified in quick way and the other is impossible to verify .of course I expect you to know which is which . I don't care about what Leo says .I'm not parroting Leo. I'm taking about direct experience. In direct experience there is no such thing as "death " except a THOUGHT in your mind . I won't repeat again. This should be easy to understand if you actually cared to understand me instead of calling me a Leo parrot. What did I say that makes me arrogant? I really don't get it. You asked a good question and I shared with you my thoughts on the subject. I'm not trying to sound smart .I'm literally telling you the correct answer to your question. Of course it's correct for me .if it's not for you.. then throw it in the trash bag. Good luck ?

Yes you would be imagining closing your eyes until you actually close them .Once you close them It would not be imagination anymore . Same with death .you are imagining it until it actually happens. The question is :will it ever actually happen?

Ok

You don't get it . It's more radical than that . You say "what happens to my visual field when this body ceases to function ". "This body will not live forever ". Actually..YOU ARE IMAGINING THAT RIGHT NOW . isn't that what's happening? What evidence (scientific or otherwise) do you that "this body will not live for eternity "? Death at all levels is just a belief.

You're imagining death . There's actually zero evidence that death is real . But don't listen to me ..I'm probably a nutcase

Gotcha. Here's a Salvia trip report from one of our members here ..he post it a while ago ..see if you resonate with what he is saying : it's absolutely ineffable. It tore me apart and reassembled me in the outer layers of infinity, and this kept happening forever, for all infinity. And when I say forever I mean forever. It showed me worlds that are so beyond this one that describing even the tiniest part could fill 500 books and not get even remotely close. It showed me all levels of existence, and then threw me out of them as if they're nothing. It's simply unimaginable, no words could come close, or touch this experience in any way imaginable. If you've ever done some psychedelic and broken through, multiply that by a million and it's still a tame experience in comparison. It breaks reality. This experience happened more than a decade ago and I'm still collecting the pieces. I honestly have no idea what the fuck happened. It's hard to talk about because while I faintly remember the experience, I just know I can't English it because it would be like trying to stick a fork into the moon. I know this doesn't help much but I literally can't share the experience not because I don't want to but because it was out of this world and as such, unable to be mapped to any concept from this world. If you ask me, it was beyond even death. I was infinity, forever. How I ever found a way back to my body is a mystery. It was the weirdest thing that ever happened to me by a factor of one trillion. This should go without saying but please do NOT take Salvia. I haven't benefited much from this experience, other than being shown that everyone is completely full of shit and nobody actually knows what's going on. If you're going to do psychedelics, take any "lesser" psychedelic, they are far easier to integrate. Even DMT, while I haven't done it, doesn't sound like it has the potency of Salvia. I've read hundreds of trip reports from DMT and not a single one mentioned being stuck in infinity or experiencing months or years in another world. Salvia CAN take you there. So can Datura. Stay away from those two.

@Breakingthewall have you tripped on Salvia before? They say it's pure insanity.

Yes..I agree. The biggest risk that comes to my mind is the possibility of spiritual bypassing. That's when we use spiritual practices to avoid dealing with our emotional issues or unresolved wounds. It's like using spirituality as a band-aid..temporary relief..but the wound is still there beneath the surface. Also "Spirituality" is becoming such a vague word that it can mean anything and so it means nothing. You get gurus and other charlatans making up spirituality claims all over the world where they find people gullible or desperate enough to follow the scam. I'm obviously not talking about Leo though ?

Disclaimer: I am NOT trying to put Leo's teachings in a bad light or anything.. this is simply words of caution for those who are prone to depression and also pathologically and seek truth in all aspects of existence. I used to be a "light Hindu" as a child .. I was brought up with the notion that there is some sort of God and afterlife.. but I never cared anything about it and didn't really pay the God question any time. In my teens I started getting existential.. unlike most teenagers..but also unlike most teenagers I got almost obsessive. Leo's videos helped me to move from stage blue to stage orange (before even hearing of spiral dynamics yet ). The separate God/after life perished from the realm of "possible" quite soon because his videos In 2016. Objective morality followed shortly after that . Free will evaporated as well easily once my intellect had taken full control of my mind. The last "battle" for my sanity was the ultimate "Is there ANY sort of meaning to life" question. And fair to say: sanity lost to reason once more. A few months post these radical realizations ..a realization added ontop of years of those other realizations I found myself isolated..without any ability to think forward in time. I was stuck in a frozen brick of existence. I tried to desperately fool myself back into the "safe" blissful ignorance. I tried to convince myself that I could live normally again without those comforting beliefs that leo have shattered for me ... But I realized it was just a futile reflex trying to perserve my being. Then I decided to join the forum .I joined two years ago ..and started asking questions nonstop to the point Leo has threatened me to "do the work " and stop "mentally masturbating" my way to awakening. But what he meant is I should basically start doing psychedelics .I couldn't get my hands on any because of their illegality in India. I went to Thailand to hunt some hookers few months ago but also I found that all psychedelics are banned there . So I continued posting here my contemplations and my mental masturbations . And to be honest ..I had glimpses of the "Ox " here and there just listening to Leo's videos . Until I stumbled upon his solipsism video .and that was the final nail in my coffin. Ever since I listened to that video I can't get out of my mind the idea that I'm all alone (the only conscious "thing " in existence ,as Leo tells the viewer in that video). I went mad for a while .my ego was out of control. It took almost a year to get past it. It took more than a few sexual experiences ..learning some skills or making some money .i told myself One day you'll realise how stupid you were for thinking any of that would help. I overcame it through understanding that not only did I not have all the answers..but that the answers I had were not the whole story. There's far more grey than there is black or white. I told myself: "Why are you so concerned with things you can't do a thing to change? What difference will knowing "the truth" actually make in your life? If you focus your mind on things you can't influence.. you will naturally become detached and depressed". I suffered.. and still suffer.. from clinical anxiety disorder. I formed a nihilistic view on life before I'd ever even heard of the word..or the works of philosophers like Nietzsche. Yet.. I've found..existentialism and nihilism to be of benefit to my mental welbeing. Although.. I can understand how the idea that life is inherently futile could be construed as depressing. But now ..I consider myself "enlightened ". NOW what do I mean by that ? I mean the following: I no longer believe in any thing .no belief systems whatsoever. Not even direct experience. Nothing at all. Total and complete not knowing and childlike wonder . I see all worldviews including nonduality and solipsism as just mental noise . I'm completely free from the shackles of the conceptual mind .I see that nothing I think or deduce has nothing to do with TRUTH. TRUTH is more serious than finding it on a forum or listening to a guy talking on YouTube. You must commit your whole life to it .and that's what Leo is doing .and I'm not.

@SQAAD it means you are the ultimate authority in existence. Because your direct experience is absolute.

Spiritual escapism is the biggest danger. At some point.. one has to integrate their spirituality with their everyday life. Otherwise its not doing the person any good and he wastes his time with endless spiritual masturbation. I know because I had fall prey to it plenty of time before( and still to some degree) Useful reminder ?

You only think like that because you take existence for granted . What's happening right now is am unexplainable miracle. 100000000 years of science won't unravel the mystery of a single atom.

I dont want to a professor in a college or university. I want to write books (I'm actually writing a book in the meantime) and share my thoughts with basically the whole world . Selling per thousandson Amazon etc. For that I need a degree in philosophy. I agree that I might need to take some classes in understanding how business work..but not to be my major field of study . Thank you .

I'm not doing so good at college. I want to change from studying business and marketing to studying philosophy because that's what I'm passionate about. I love reality ..yes ..but that doesn't mean I don't feel pain if I put my hand on a hot stove . There is pain. There is physical suffering. But there is no conceptual framework that I try to box the universe to fit in. I love all human beings .because I'm conscious that everyone is me . I can't make water run down hill any faster. There are many things about the world that I can't change. But Since I can see those things clearly now..much of my day includes simply recognizing things as they are. I'm not fighting anything anymore. And that to me is more enough than enough. So there is some obstacles in my practical life ..but I don't see them as something that is not ought to happen .everything happens for a reason.