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2 months without smoking . But the cravings are driving me crazy . I literally feel like I'm stressed 24/7 even when I'm resting in my bed ready to dive into deep sleep after taking hot shower and drinking hot herbs . I do everything I can to stay relaxed .but no idea the withdrawal from smoking can be this daunting. I stopped jerking off .but watching porn is also one son of a bitch of a habit . I also want to question the existential nature of porn . This thing called porn is making me question reality itself . Yesterday I've went to jail for few hours .because I had a fight with a drunk guy in the back alley . This motherfucker thinks I was trying to chat up his girlfriend. But my brother came to the police station and paid a bunch of money and got me out. In a way I'm sad because such experiences can grow me as a man . I wish I could spend few weeks in prison . Maybe then smoking and porn will be no option .

I can relate when I was your age . Listen ..there is no other way around doing it until you fucking conquer this world and achieve your dreams by getting the girlfriend you want . It's not easy. It's a numbers game. My hottest and most extroverted friends do get the most dates..but 90% of it is still shit for them too. Then the odd person will not suck. You'll stick together for what... 6 months..2 years? Then do it all again. Same for everyone. Leave your comfort zone.and learn by failing. Try..fail..try again..fail again ..and try once again. To infinity and beyond . What else are you going to do? rape a girl or kill yourself? You know deep down that's cowardness and failure . Succeed. Listen to hypnosis about Success and being an alpha male and a woman magnet .

I don't think there is anyone who has ever succeeded in preventing such situations from happening when one contemplates to end his life . I played around with the idea of suicide plenty in the past . And honestly it is 100% logical . Life in many ways is really such a hell hole. The only thing that prevents me from commenting suicide is...obviously..fear of death . If the suffering got even bigger than that fear I'm gonna say bye bye to this mortal dream drama .

@Santiago Ram I don't exist . I'm just your own mind talking to you . Wake up! Life is but a dream within a dream . no seriously think about it ..anyone who claims Solipsism is true In one breath and then in the next breath talks to others about Solipsism is definitely not awake to Solipsism. There is a difference between being lucid in a dream and playing pretend that you are lucid .

Oh and Fuck Solipsism BTW.

No sir you absolutely have not. Why ? Because who are you posting this thread to if you know there ain't nobody nowhere but YOU? How do you know you are not deluded ? How do you know this is not just spiritual by-passing? How do you know anything?

Yea thats correct . We all gonna die and turn into dust and rot in the end anyways. For what your are looking for here..only physical death will do .

Stop begging the question. You should inquire into whether Solipsism is true or not ..instead of believing its true and then looking for arguments to justify your predisposition.

Now dont judge a book by its title ..hear me out ..I do believe there is a correlation between happiness .. Pleasure.. Pain.. Suffering.. Etc. Tbh there is no such thing as what Buddhist rats call "causeless" happiness. Unless you can explain it to me.. Maybe then i will change my mind. But I do think happiness is a condition. And just like all conditions.. Temporary and unsubstantiated. It's not like you can be happy all the time. You have to experience pain and suffering.thats just part of life isnt that obviously true ..? In fact I'd argue that happiness is only 20% of life (generally). While 30 % is suffering. And the rest 50 % is mundane and boring (just another day). Tbh I'm leaning towards a depressed nihilistic view on life recently. But this nihilism also has been a great pain-killer. I was walking home one evening earlier this year.. my existence shifted with a single passing thought...I was chronically stressed at college overwhelmed by expectations.. grasping for a sense of achievement or greater purpose and tip-toeing towards full-on exhaustion. Then it hit me: “Who cares? One day I will be dead and no one will remember me anyway.” I can’t explain the crashing sense of relief. It was as if my body dumped its cortisol levels and i started crying like a baby . I looked at the sky and thought: “I’m just a chunk of meat hurtling through space on a rock orbiting the sun In the middle of the nowhere. Pointless.. Futile.. meaningless.” It was one of the most comforting revelations in my life.. To discover that real happiness along with other kinds of illusions are indeed illusions. Please anyone reading who are having the best time of their lives like @Aaron p dont get upset or anything.. Im just sharing honest opinions on hope for clearer communication. Don't know if any of you guys ever went through a nihilistic phase in your life. But I'm stuck in one atm . It's kinda like when you are so autisticly smart that you simply can't buy the BS that people use to comfort themselves with in this dumb meaningless weird existence. share whatever comes to mind please!.

Yeah it's difficult no matter how you slice it . You will reap what you sow . And you seem to achieve this high levels of God consciousness after putting incredible amount of work into it . Enjoy the fruits of your hard work .

Yes that seems like a solid reason . Reminds of the parable of the elephant and six blind men ..each one touching a body part of the elephant mistaking it as the whole elephant.

Thanks. Can I achieve this without psychedelics? I like listening to you late at night ..it puts me in a quasi mystical experience..you are right I have no actual consciousness of myself as God. I have just theory from listening to you .

I understand your perspective brother. Its just I'm afraid of going all the way to not lose my mind basically. Your mind is like a quantum computer that keeps processing shit without stop .just take a break and relax and unwind a little. For me personally i value happiness and sanity more than truth .

Beautiful brother! But Leo I have a question..the way you are describing it here appeals to the ego..as if God is only rainbows and butterflies..isn't full consciousness of God reveals that God Is also by virtue of being all that there could ever possibly exist and more ..I say doesn't that mean God has an ugly side if you flip the coin on the Beautiful side ? God is no more beauty and profundity than it is anguish.. Stress.. Pain..sickness.. Death.. Murder.. Rape.. Theft.. Cancer.. Sorrow...depression.. Madness.. Loneliness.. Disability.. Disasters.. Chaos.. Hell.

Thats fine man .all good .thank you for participating.

Could be.

That's correct. Well it's just an axiom I assumed. I have to start somewhere right ?

Yes the gurus are fooling you if they tell you do this to be happy . Happiness is an illusion . there is no happiness in this world .this has been established. Happiness is somewhere else...

@Schizophonia you silly boy you . When you gonna marry "her" ?

Sorry but i don't think you added anything here . You basically rephrased my OP. haven't Answered .

I understand all that BTW. It's good that you are so "done " with it all and you have seen through the cosmic joke . But you are being so much of an absolutist. We can still explain phenomenon with relative knowledge .The human mind perceives reality by creating ideas about everything it perceives. The human mind defines and names everything it experienc.and then it creates descriptions of what it is..what it means and how it works. We can be aware of the illusionness of everything but still lose ourselves in the movie . Cuz it's fun

What sources these differences in motivation? Why some people go to church and some people go to the pub ?

Well well well you are denying space and 3d dimension and using analogy of a screen ..it seems like you sill haven't figured out that the world is not a computer screen? In a one-dimensional cosmos..things could not pass each other without also merging (since the universe would be described by a line/curve without width). In our cosmos.. things can pass each other without merging I know What we experience is an illusion. We know that our brains piece together memories and perceptions to create a kind of movie show for us..and that movie is just a “barely good enough” model of reality. Hence we have optical illusions but you are taking too far and I'm not wiling to go to these depths to not lose my goddam sanity .

Solipsism 101#. Been there done that . Ain't fucking around with Solipsism ever again in my life . Nobody here interacting with others really buys Solipsism. Even Leo himself doesn't buy Solipsism because why he still rambling to the camera (basically to himself ) for 3 hours about god ? It's called "what if reality is nothing but perspective ?". There is no way to prove that the red 🛑i see is the same red you see because I can only have access to my own visual field not yours .if I was to see the world through your eyes ..I would be you and stop being me which will then turn the problem to other side .

Your mind is wacky dude 😂. But I think I understand what you're saying . You're saying there is no such thing as objective reality .so if Jerry from Tom & Jerry believed the moon is made of cheese instead of rocks and dust then its true ? I argued before for relativism and idealism/solipsism. But recently in my readings I'm leaning more towards there being objective world that should not be however it wants or switching according to our wishes.