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Thank you for sharing this information.

No, they aren’t needed . You study psychology. It’s well known that “depression “ as a clinical diagnosis has to do with with imbalances of things like Serotonin and dopamine in the brain .

Depression could be physical due to chemical imbalances in the brain , which is the most common form. or it can be caused by tragedies in one’s life , like losing a loved one. The second common one . or it can be seasonal. Like depression during winter . Which is the least common one. idk what is meant by depression “metaphysically “. But it’s an interesting concept to contemplate. I would guess something like existential crisis?

There is an old man whom I see almost daily, walking past me. I don’t know exactly how old he is, but he looks to be at least in his 70s. He is a stooped elderly man, with an ice-white beard and ice-white hair. He uses a stick to walk, and it takes him almost 15 minutes just to cross a street vertically. Watching him makes me deeply uncomfortable, because it reminds me of something I have always feared: old age. I have a very big fear of growing old. I don’t want to reach a point in my life where even crossing a street becomes a difficult task. The thought of gradually losing my independence, of having to move through the world with increasing difficulty, is genuinely frightening to me. I don’t want my own body to become an obstacle between me and the simplest things in life. Old people are also more prone to chronic illnesses, fatigue, insomnia, and all sorts of things that can make everyday life exhausting. My mother once told me that old age is very difficult, and she almost teared up while describing it. That moment stayed with me. There is something heartbreaking about it . I know that I tend to be a generally negative person and most of my expressions on this journal are negative . I use this journal for completely unrelated and free expression.My mind naturally gravitates towards the darker aspects of existence, and I have a habit of contemplating the unpleasant possibilities that other people might prefer to ignore. Perhaps this is why thoughts about ageing and physical deterioration affect me so deeply. I struggle to look at the human condition without noticing its vulnerabilities. This also connects to what I have been experiencing lately with mental fatigue. For some reason, I dislike the idea of being incarnated in a physical form at all. A physical body feels like a dense and gross substance, something heavy that I must inhabit and maintain for as long as I exist in this world. I wish I could be a breeze of cool air, an ethereal entity, or an angel made of pure light. Something weightless, free, and unburdened by the limitations of biological existence. Something that could simply exist without constantly having to worry about its own physical condition. When I look at the human body, I cannot help noticing how vulnerable and easily damaged its various parts are. The organs can be injured, the eyeballs can be pulled out, and the skull is essentially a rigid container protecting a mushy brain inside. The joints can break, and every bone seems capable of being dismantled under the right circumstances. Even the body’s most essential structures, the very things that allow us to perceive the world and experience consciousness, are susceptible to damage. morever the body must go through pain and must go through death . So I’m not sure if this is negative in and of itself or i am being overly negative about it.

I’m here. Why would I talk to you if I believed you were merely an inert character in my mind or dream? Leo, this makes no sense, and it’s not funny anymore. This solipsism bullshit has gone far enough. I suggest he cross-reference his insights on psychedelics with those of other enlightened people and double- and triple-check his position on this point, particularly regarding the idea that equating oneself with God is identical to the philosophy of solipsism. at this point , this is dangerous misleading from Leo’s part .

The commitment should be to teach the truth , not falsehood.

I’m sad that our teacher is teaching us delusion and falsehood.

I was meditating by watching my thoughts arise and fade while remaining as a witness to them which is the simplest meditation technique to me . It simply shows the gap between awareness and the mind or the thinking process. Thoughts which arise in my consciousness are not coming from my own authoring ..they arise on their own and also the mind chatter itself is very clearly and sharply distinct from awareness in the sense that I can observe the mind blabbering from a distance without me needing to engage with it. I have made that line very clear. A lot of times I reach a moment of complete silence of thoughts where there aren’t any thoughts at all present in my awareness but I still feel bad or restless in the back of my mind. I still feel tensed . My facial expression is disturbed and my body is tight instead of loose . I concluded it is because of years of conditioning and years of suffering and memories and the subconscious mind . But if all of what I mentioned now are not accessible directly in my awareness when I reach the zero thoughts phase in meditation..then where are they present ? The only answer that comes up to me is they are in the unconscious mind . But how can something exist and be unconscious? Either a thing is conscious or it doesn’t exist. What am I not getting or getting wrong ?

@Lyubov thank you .

You’re repeating the same suggestion, and I don’t accept the premise that it’s true. You’re saying, “the discomfort is real, but you are unconsciously creating it because of a Conscious belief.” Pure contradiction. that is the very thing we are supposed to be investigating you’re presenting it as the conclusion before it has actually been established. To cut to the chase: I experience this discomfort even while I’m asleep, when I’m supposedly unconscious. So what belief exactly is creating it then? If your answer is still “there must be an unconscious belief,” then thanks because you just proved my point . There is indeed an unconscious mind . So if we’re going to actually get to the root of this, you need to stop starting from the conclusion that “I’m creating it because of a false belief im doing intentionally ” and instead acknowledge the possibility that the cause genuinely isn’t known yet. It’s completely unconscious. See?

I can reach a state of absolute zero thought in meditation but there is still some tension in the background . also a hypothetical question: what is memory ? I can right now recall an event that happened when I was 10 years old. Where is that memory stored if there is no subconscious mind ?

I understand what you’re saying, but I don’t agree that I’m deluding myself or consciously creating this issue. The discomfort is real. I’m not choosing to experience it, and I’m not inventing it because of some belief that I’m refusing to acknowledge. The fact that I don’t know the source of the discomfort doesn’t mean the discomfort itself isn’t real. I literally experience something uncomfortable in my mind, and I don’t currently understand where it comes from. That uncertainty is the issue I’m trying to communicate. I also don’t think the main issue is necessarily locating some hidden subconscious belief or turning this into an abstract philosophical question about the “ is there something beyond consciousness for the fuck of it just meaningless abstract philosophy .” Make sure to get that right before projecting . I’m willing to examine my beliefs and be honest with myself. But being honest with myself also means not forcing myself to conclude that I’m creating something when I genuinely don’t believe that I am. I can take responsibility for understanding what’s happening without taking responsibility for having deliberately created it. I do experience discomfort without apparent cause in the surface of consciousness.

I remember very vividly one of the most vivid dreams in my life . It happened in childhood. I saw Jesus in the sky telling me “I’m the truth and light and love and I can heal all your wounds . My love for you is infinite “ . I kid you not , I did actually have that dream . At the time I was agnostic /atheist .

@LastThursday @Lyubov Thanks . I’m going to read and respond soon .

I would like to revive this thread because this inquiry is an issue for me for a while now . I wrote this today in my journal . If anyone got insights regarding this topic, please share . “Lately, I require more hours of sleep than I normally do. It does not feel like ordinary physical tiredness. My body does not necessarily feel exhausted, and I do not have a headache or any particular discomfort in my head. It is something subtler. my mind is tired. Not my head or brain . There is a kind of tension within me that I find difficult to locate. It is not in my head, not in my brain, not in any physical place I can point to. It exists somewhere in the experience of being conscious . Or rather in my subconscious mind because Even when I am doing nothing, some part of me seems to remain occupied. Thinking. Anticipating. Worrying about things that have not happened. Trying to understand things that may not have an answer either In the moment or at all . There is an invisible effort involved in all of this, and its exhausting and I’m not sure how to resolve this issue without resorting to bad habits like smoking . When I sleep, I am temporarily released from myself.there is no need to hold myself together. For those hours, the constant internal subconscious activity becomes quiet. Maybe that is why I need more sleep lately “ . and this is OP; “ I was meditating by watching my thoughts arise and fade while remaining as a witness to them which is the simplest meditation technique to me . It simply shows the gap between awareness and the mind or the thinking process. Thoughts which arise in my consciousness are not coming from my own authoring ..they arise on their own and also the mind chatter itself is very clearly and sharply distinct from awareness in the sense that I can observe the mind blabbering from a distance without me needing to engage with it. I have made that line very clear. A lot of times I reach a moment of complete silence of thoughts where there aren’t any thoughts at all present in my awareness but I still feel bad or restless in the back of my mind. I still feel tensed . My facial expression is disturbed and my body is tight instead of loose . I concluded it is because of years of conditioning and years of suffering and memories and the subconscious mind . But if all of what I mentioned now are not accessible directly in my awareness when I reach the zero thoughts phase in meditation..then where are they present ? The only answer that comes up to me is they are in the unconscious mind . But how can something exist and be unconscious? Either a thing is conscious or it doesn’t exist. What am I not getting or getting wrong ?“.

Brother , you are all over the place . Every other day you contradict what you said earlier. I suggest long-time of introspection and spending time figuring out your most authentic desired lifestyle. I know you are a young man and it’s normally to be confused in your age, as you don’t have that much life experience. Do you REALLY Want to be a virgin and single for the rest of your life ? I don’t buy it .

Lately, I require more hours of sleep than I normally do. It does not feel like ordinary physical tiredness. My body does not necessarily feel exhausted, and I do not have a headache or any particular discomfort in my head. It is something subtler. my mind is tired. Not my head or brain . There is a kind of tension within me that I find difficult to locate. It is not in my head, not in my brain, not in any physical place I can point to. It exists somewhere in the experience of being conscious . Or rather in my subconscious mind because Even when I am doing nothing, some part of me seems to remain occupied. Thinking. Anticipating. Worrying about things that have not happened. Trying to understand things that may not have an answer either In the moment or at all . There is an invisible effort involved in all of this, and its exhausting and I’m not sure how to resolve this issue without resorting to bad habits like smoking . When I sleep, I am temporarily released from myself.there is no need to hold myself together. For those hours, the constant internal subconscious activity becomes quiet. Maybe that is why I need more sleep lately.

It has everything to do with it . What’s the value of repeating “‘ nothing ultimately matters “ all the time, when in your actual approach to life, you live as though things like survival, comfort , happiness etc matter to you ? it’s not what you blabber that has any relevance. It’s your actual lifestyle day to day , there is no value whatsoever to the statement “nothing ultimately matters” except being used as an excuse for escaping negative experiences and emotions.

Keep in mind that we don’t know you or your level of actual success and experience with women to be able to assess your qualifications of being an online dating guru .

Bring Nahm back ffs.

But you don’t live your life and behave in it as if nothing matters. Right ?

So what you’re saying is it’s okay to kill animals and eat their meat because those animals are not sentient and they don’t experience pain? thats a load of crap.

Please clarify if this for real . my sister’s husband had a cancer tumor in his lungs due to smoking about a year ago and he healed from it through chemotherapy because it was discovered early . There is hope .

below is Quotation from the Holy Quran . chapter 5 . I listened to it in Arabic and I understand the full meaning . I don’t necessarily agree with the Islamic worldview of good deeds vs bad deeds resulting in the day of judgment into either eternal hell or eternal heaven . I just find beauty in the literature and concepts . So it begins by talking about the disbelievers standing before hell fire in the day of judgment and describes their regret after they are made certain that their destiny is burning in hell fire . 27. If only you could see them when they are made to stand before the Fire! They will say, “If only we could be sent back, we would never deny the revelations of our Lord, and we would be among the believers.” 28. But what they used to hide will become clear to them. And even if they were sent back, they would return to what they had been forbidden to do. Indeed, they are liars. 29. They say, “There is nothing beyond this worldly life. We will not be resurrected.” 30. If only you could see them when they are brought before their Lord! He will say, “Is this not the truth?” They will say, “Yes, by our Lord!” He will say, “Then taste the punishment because you refused to believe.” 31. Those who deny that they will meet Allah have truly lost. When the Hour suddenly comes upon them, they will say, “How great is our regret for having neglected it!” They will carry their sins on their backs. How terrible is what they carry! 32. The life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. The life of the Hereafter is far better for those who are mindful of Allah. Will you not understand? 33. We know that what they say causes you [The Prophet ] pain. But they are not really accusing you of being a liar; rather, the wrongdoers reject Allah’s revelations. 34. Messengers before you were also rejected, but they remained patient despite being denied and persecuted until Our help came to them. No one can change Allah’s words. You have already received news about the messengers before you. 35. If their rejection is difficult for you to bear, then if you could find a tunnel into the earth or a ladder into the sky and bring them a sign, you might do so. But if Allah had willed, He could have gathered them all upon guidance. So do not be among those who act without understanding. 36. Only those who listen with an open heart respond to the call. As for the dead, Allah will resurrect them, and then they will all be returned to Him. 37. They say, “Why has no miraculous sign been sent down to him from his Lord?” Say, “Allah is fully capable of sending a sign.” But most of them do not understand. 38. There is no creature on earth, nor bird flying with its wings, except that they are communities like you. We have not neglected anything in the Book. Then they will all be gathered before their Lord. 39. Those who reject Our revelations are deaf and unable to speak the truth, living in darkness. Allah allows whoever He wills to go astray and guides whoever He wills to a straight path. 40. Say, “Think carefully: if Allah’s punishment comes upon you, or the Hour comes upon you, would you call upon anyone other than Allah—if you are truthful?” 41. No! You would call upon Him alone. If He wills, He removes the hardship for which you called upon Him, and you would forget the false gods you used to associate with Him. 42. We sent messengers to communities before you, and We tested those people with hardship and suffering so that they might humble themselves. 43. If only they had humbled themselves when Our hardship came to them! Instead, their hearts became hard, and Satan made their deeds seem attractive to them. 44. Then, when they forgot the warnings they had been given, We opened for them the doors of everything they desired. But when they became extremely pleased with what they had been given, We suddenly seized them, and they were left in despair. 45. Thus the wrongdoing people were completely cut off. And all praise belongs to Allah, Lord of all worlds. 46. Say, “Think: if Allah took away your hearing and your sight and sealed your hearts, what god other than Allah could restore them to you?” Look at how We explain the signs in different ways, yet they still turn away. 47. Say, “Think: if Allah’s punishment came upon you suddenly or openly, would anyone be destroyed except the wrongdoing people?” 48. We do not send the messengers except as bearers of good news and warnings. Whoever believes and reforms their conduct will have nothing to fear, nor will they grieve. 49. But those who reject Our revelations will be touched by punishment because of their disobedience. 50. Say, “I do not claim that I possess Allah’s treasures, nor do I know the unseen, nor do I claim to be an angel. I only follow what is revealed to me.” Say, “Are the blind and those who see equal? Will you not think?” 51. Warn with this revelation those who fear that they will be gathered before their Lord, where they will have no protector or intercessor besides Him, so that they may become mindful of Him. 52. Do not drive away those who call upon their Lord morning and evening, seeking His pleasure. You are not responsible for their deeds, nor are they responsible for yours. If you were to drive them away, you would become one of the wrongdoers. 53. In this way We test some people through others, so that they say, “Are these the people among us whom Allah has favored?” Does Allah not know best who is grateful? 54. When those who believe in Our revelations come to you, say, “Peace be upon you. Your Lord has prescribed mercy for Himself: whoever among you does something wrong out of ignorance and then repents and reforms, Allah is certainly Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.” 55. This is how We make Our revelations clear, so that the way of the sinners may become evident. 56. Say, “I have been forbidden to worship those you call upon besides Allah.” Say, “I will not follow your desires, because if I did, I would go astray and would no longer be among those who are rightly guided.” 57. Say, “I stand upon clear evidence from my Lord, but you reject it. I do not control the punishment you are asking me to bring. Judgment belongs to Allah alone. He tells the truth, and He is the best of judges.” 58. Say, “If I had control over the punishment you demand, the matter between you and me would already have been settled. But Allah knows best who are the wrongdoers.” 59. He possesses the keys to the unseen; no one knows them except Him. He knows everything on land and in the sea. Not a single leaf falls without Him knowing it. There is not a single grain in the darkness of the earth, nor anything fresh or dry, except that it is recorded in a clear record. 60. He is the One who takes your souls during the night, and He knows what you do during the day. Then He brings you back to life in the daytime, so that your appointed lifetime may be completed. Then to Him you will all return, and He will tell you everything you used to do. 61. He is the Supreme Authority over His servants. He sends guardians over you until, when death comes to one of you, Our messengers take his soul, and they never neglect their duty. 62. Then they are returned to Allah, their true Master. Surely, judgment belongs to Him alone, and He is the quickest of all in taking account. 63. Say, “Who saves you from the darkness and dangers of the land and sea when you call upon Him humbly and secretly, saying, ‘If You save us from this, we will surely be among the grateful’?” 64. Say, “Allah saves you from it and from every hardship, yet afterward you still associate others with Him.” 65. Say, “He has the power to send punishment upon you from above you, or from beneath your feet, or to divide you into conflicting groups and make some of you suffer at the hands of others.” See how We explain Our signs in different ways so that they may understand. 66. Your people have rejected this message even though it is the truth. Say, “I am not responsible for you as your guardian.” 67. Every message has its appointed time, and you will come to know. 68. When you see people mocking or arguing disrespectfully about Our revelations, turn away from them until they begin discussing something else. If Satan causes you to forget, then once you remember, do not remain sitting with those who do wrong. 69. Those who are mindful of Allah are not responsible for the wrongdoers’ account in any way. Their duty is only to remind them, so that perhaps they may become mindful of Allah. 70. Leave those who have turned their religion into entertainment and amusement and whom worldly life has deceived. But remind them through this revelation, so that no soul may be destroyed because of what it has earned. No protector or intercessor besides Allah will be able to help it, and even if it offered every possible ransom, it would not be accepted. Such people will be held accountable for what they earned. For their disbelief, they will have a drink of boiling water and a painful punishment. 71. Say, “Should we call upon others besides Allah—those who can neither benefit us nor harm us—and turn back after Allah has guided us? We would then be like someone whom the devils have led astray on earth, leaving him confused, while his companions call him toward guidance, saying, ‘Come to us!’” Say, “Allah’s guidance is the true guidance, and we have been commanded to submit ourselves to the Lord of all worlds, 72. and to establish prayer and be mindful of Him. It is to Him that you will all be gathered.” 73. He is the One who created the heavens and the earth with truth and purpose. On the Day He says, “Be,” and it is, His word is the truth. On the Day the trumpet is blown, all authority will belong to Him. He knows what is hidden and what is visible. He is the All-Wise, the All-Aware. 74. Remember when Abraham said to his father, Azar, “Do you take idols as gods? I see that you and your people are clearly misguided.” 75. In this way We showed Abraham the magnificent dominion of the heavens and the earth, so that he would become one of those who possess certainty. 76. When night covered him, he saw a star and said, “This is my lord.” But when it disappeared, he said, “I do not love things that disappear.” 77. Then, when he saw the moon rising, he said, “This is my lord.” But when it disappeared, he said, “If my Lord does not guide me, I will certainly be among those who have gone astray.” 78. Then, when he saw the sun rising, he said, “This is my lord; this is greater.” But when it set, he said, “My people, I am completely free of what you associate with Allah. 79. I have turned myself completely toward the One who created the heavens and the earth, following the pure way, and I am not one of those who associate partners with Allah. 80. His people argued with him. He said, “Are you arguing with me about Allah when He has already guided me? I do not fear the things you associate with Him, unless my Lord wills something to happen. My Lord’s knowledge encompasses everything. Will you not take this to heart? 81. And why should I fear what you associate with Allah when you do not fear associating with Allah something for which He has given you no authority or proof? So which of the two groups has a greater right to feel secure, if you truly know?” 82. Those who believe and do not mix their faith with wrongdoing—they are the ones who will have security, and they are rightly guided. 83. This was the argument We gave Abraham against his people. We raise in rank whoever We will. Surely, your Lord is All-Wise, All-Knowing. 84. We gave Abraham Isaac and Jacob, and We guided all of them. And before them We guided Noah. And among Abraham’s descendants were David, Solomon, Job, Joseph, Moses, and Aaron. This is how We reward those who do good. 85. And Zachariah, John, Jesus, and Elijah—all were among the righteous. 86. And Ishmael, Elisha, Jonah, and Lot. We favored each of them above the people of their time. 87. And We also favored some of their forefathers, descendants, and brothers. We chose them and guided them to a straight path. 88. That is Allah’s guidance. He guides by it whoever He wills among His servants. But if they had associated others with Him, everything they had done would have become worthless. 89. These are the people to whom We gave Scripture, wisdom, and prophethood. If these people reject them, We have entrusted them to others who will not reject them. 90. These are the people whom Allah guided, so follow their guidance. Say, “I ask no reward from you for this. This is only a reminder for all people.” end quote . i might post my own reflections on the passage later . I deeply enjoy reading the Quran .