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it can be tested directly. Right now existentially ..what is your true essence? What are you ? 1- the true essence is always the case because it is true . It isn’t true conditionally. 2- you can’t collapse something which doesn’t exist . If you collapse the subject-object duality you are saying this duality was real in the first place .

Thanks for your perspective. I honestly don’t know what you are describing or haven’t experienced it . I’m describing why is it insanely difficult to even meditate for 10 minutes for newbies .. it’s because when you stop engaging with thoughts and put them in front of you and watch them flow while you remain as a witness to them like sitting on the shore of a river and watching it flow without interference.. I say when you do that you experience your true essence as pure awareness. This awareness is empty in the sense that it is just pure being . It is not big or small . Not intelligent or dumb . Not happy or sad. Not a male or female . Not a person at all . Not even a self . Not even a thing . It can’t be said because if you say it you are back to thoughts . You put a barrier between your true essence and thoughts . What I mean by “inside my being “ is metaphorical. I don’t mean it literally inside my human body . I mean the core of what I am . Pure being . Pure witnessing. Pure watchfulness . Pure consciousness. And pure emptiness. And this emptiness feels boring and terrifying which is why you feel like going crazy if I locked you inside a room with nothing to do staring at 4 walls for 6 hours .im not denying your point but I’m just describing a different realization.

Yes and "Me” is pure emptiness. There is nothing there at the deepest core of your being . And this terrifies you.

@No1Here2c that’s irrelevant to OP and the insight I’m sharing . Thank you .

@No1Here2c the river cannot be stopped. You swim with the current in total surrender or you attempt the impossible by trying to stop the flow .

I would like to add that as Buddha taught we should not even waste time by discussing suffering or evil in relation to a perfect god because what’s the point ? The Buddha dismissed the topic of god completely and erased him from the equation. What matters is there is suffering in this world which everyone must go through one way or another. So Buddhas main concern with how to put an end to this suffering if possible instead of speculating about why would a perfect god make me suffer . And I agree . it is unproductive to spend time debating suffering or evil in relation to god . set the concept of a creator god aside entirely. His central concern was the reality that suffering exists and is an unavoidable part of human life. Instead of engaging in metaphysical debates let’s understand the nature of suffering and more importantly if there is an end that we as humans can put to it .

The problem of evil says that if there is an all knowing ..all benevolent..and all powerful God then He would not create anything evil. But since evil exists ..at least one of these three attributes must be false. This means that either God is not all knowing or not all good or not all powerful. If any of these are true then He would not be considered God in the first place . I am not sure whether there is a creator God with such attributes who created the world as it is portrayed in Islam and Christianity. I tend to lean more toward the Buddhist perspective. The Buddha taught that there is no creator God with such qualities and that life is dukkha orsuffering. Pleasure is kinda overhyped ..exaggerated.. temporary and fleeting .. whereas suffering appears to be more constant and dominant. I mean We are literally born crying while our mothers endure intense pain and screaming. So what does that signify? After that we continue to suffer and even if we become millionaires we die and death hurts like hell . So Buddha will just deny his own human hood to exit this suffering completely through total indifference towards the world . He said the root of all suffering is desire or craving and we can add attachments and expectations. Apparently even Buddha himself didn’t slay the suffering bitch because he is a child with bone cancer somewhere .

I’m not sure whether this has to do with gender identity ..sexuality..or simply your role in life. Being afraid to take responsibility for yourself and your life isn’t necessarily the same as feeling like a woman in a man’s body. I understand that as experiencing a conflict between your identity and your physical body.. a desire for hormonal changes or gender change surgery. If that’s not what you’re experiencing.. then it may not be about gender or sexuality..but rather about personal development and maturity. Maturity can’t be forced.you grow into it over time. it develops when life challenges you ..rather than when you try to push yourself into it prematurely.

@eTorro Is it physical or mental ? Do you eat because you feel hungry or just to enjoy food ? It could be either physical or mental as Natasha said . If it’s physical..try to eat only when you’re truly hungry. Waiting until you feel really hungry can make food more satisfying and delicious which may help you feel full with smaller portions. also stop eating before finishing your entire plate. If you find yourself getting hungry too often eat more filling foods in your diet like Complex carbohydrates like oats because this can help you stay full for longer periods of time. If the habit is more mental or emotional then the approach is different but you need to clarify that first .

The only model of truth that can work is one that defines absolute truth as all that there is..therefore it would be prior to knowing. It is not something you can come to know as a specific piece of information in the future after reading a thousand books. It is both the journey and the destination..not just the destination. If you assume there is an absolute static truth in the form of a piece of information that you will eventually come to know ..you also have to account for the constant changes in your experience..thoughts..worldview..and convictions. How many times in your life have you believed you had found the absolute truth only to later change your mind?

What matters is whether that aligns with your level of development or not. From my understanding..both mentalities have their own role and utility.

Technology and luxurious lifestyle play a huge role in this as much as social conditions and upbringing. One reason we feel boredom is that we are not sufficiently occupied …or there isn’t much going on in our lives to put it as it is. If you lived in nature and had to hunt for your food every day ..you likely wouldn’t experience as much boredom. There would be little room for it, because you would instead be dealing with a more intense emotion like stress. You don’t feel bored when you are stressed right ? in practical terms one possible solution to boredom is to take on a demanding or tiring job. Or purposely creating more challenging lifestyle for yourself .

Another issue is that meditation is based on quieting the “monkey mind” and its constant chatter.. or at least being able to observe the mind from a third-person perspective ..as if there is literally a monkey blabbering inside your head..and you create distance between that monkey (the mind) and yourself as awareness. The problem is that we are so accustomed to identifying with the mind that we believe the voice in our head is important. But when you try to silence or calm the mind..it often grows a hundred times stronger and more chaotic. This is especially true for me because I’m addicted to stimulation ..constantly doing something like listening to music or playing video games in my spare time. Because of that I struggle with insomnia. It’s difficult for me to lie in bed in complete silence and darkness without being occupied by something. I need to cut certain habits from my life and start living more meditatively.

I think there are two sides to my answer to this question: the mental side and the physical and physiological side. Mentally… I understand that not a single atom in the universe is out of place. Everything is exactly as it should be :right ..okay and perfect in its own way ..no matter what is happening in my life or in the world. Physically the body will still experience pain if I am being tortured or harmed. The goal is not to physically tolerate everything that happens in life because that is impossible by design. For example ..if you ignore hunger your body will eventually die. Instead.. the goal is to lessen mental suffering by becoming more conscious of the neutrality..inevitability.. and indifference of life. This awareness can reduce suffering and eliminate the unnecessary layers of suffering we add on top of what we experience.

I’m running out of temper lately and my tolerance for human bullshit is starving thin. What I mean by human bullshit is this mentality that ordinary people have believing their personality is something fixed.. they have a self image ..they engage in drama to protect their character. Nothing wrong with that since that’s the majority of people . Let’s not assume that everyone are high conscious people or aware of some egoic behavior. I have anger issues and I am losing tolerance for dealing with people especially toxic people with toxic traits..I immediately scream and insult and get into fights. unfortunately I went back to smoking and drinking caffeine because the stress is just disgusting. It seems to me that that’s how people are and how life is..people can’t love each others and respect each others. People like to protect their overutilized self image. I don’t know how to put up with people anymore.. if I leave them go to hell with their toxicity they step on me and if I beat the living hell out of them I feel regret .

Obviously it has . If not the main factor then it plays a part no matter how trivial it is . I don’t see women bullying other women on the street .

Which is the whole problem.

@Natasha Tori Maru maybe it makes no sense to women . Some men are bullies. Some guys are edgy by design..maybe it’s in their genetics.

Life will teach you it’s a trap . You are already a hedonist . Are you happy ?

Ok cool. What’s next ? You just mentioned that you talked to her and found out that she was trans …what happened after that ?

So you sleeped with her already? How are you sure she is trans ? Did she tell you or you checked her genitals ? Be careful with STDs .

What confuses me about god is god’s substance or what is god in itself . By being infinite and all pervading he (it) must be nothing . that’s the truest and most essential nature of god. It has to be that way . It can’t be anything else because any formed substance would be limited and incomplete and therefore cannot be god . On the other hand when you look at the manifest world or all of creation .. the sun and earth and planets orbiting with consistent motion..the living creatures with consciousness and complex designs (it’s a design . Evolution can’t design a butterfly out of randomness) etc then you conclude that there is a designer or god but I don’t know how could god create when he was in the godhead (nothing ). It should remain nothing forever . The answer I hear is there is no ultimate difference between nothing and something but still there is something incomprehensible about a pure formlessness giving rise to intelligence and design .

@Mellowmarsh thanks . I’ve heard it here . Give this a listen as you meditate or fall asleep . Incredible pointers 🙏🏻

@Rafael Thundercat love you too.

The truth about immortality is as the Nisargadtta quote says “ the real can never die . The unreal never lived “ .