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You are still pretty young . You have all the time in the world ahead of you to change Internet addiction. I think one of the things that might help you is using an addiction journal (I use one for my smoking addiction). When you’re using the internet..take a moment to write down how you feel in the moment. When you’re not using it..but are craving the internet..write down how you feel in that moment. Do you feel smarter..wittier..and more confident online than you do in real life? Do you feel depressed.. isolated, and anxious when you’re not on the internet? Our brains naturally rewire themselves when we do dopamine fast . You will start to appreciate food and the sun and the birds more. So your baseline for enjoying things will shift from highly stimulating stuff like maybe porn or the internet in general to more mundane things . Good luck 👍 @Charlotte🙏

Liberation is realizing there is no such as Liberation. Enlightenment is realizing there is no such thing as Enlightenment. "happiness means you are having a good dream. Suffering means you are having a bad dream . Awakening is waking up from the dream ".

@Tboy thanks. If you have any questions please feel free.

First of all I really hope that we will start a good conversation here that maybe will help others too. Second of all ..I do have some gay sexual desires .(like being banged in my butthole ) Idk if you guys consider this as emasculation but I consider it normal . It's important to distinguish here that this Is not a problem with my sexuality ..it's a problem with my personality. Ok..so I will start by saying that I do not feel like being a real man. I am a sensitive guy that gets uncomfortable when someone is angry on him or even raises their voice at him. I am also sensitive towards harsh people and also I fell many times like running away from conflict . I am tired of being this way..because I am seeing examples of men around me .and even as a kid I was looking at those men and really felt that I was in the presence of a man..you could feel that he had authority. And now that I am 26 years old I should become a man. But the problem is that unlike solving a math problem or creating a website or getting shredded I don't know what formula should I apply for this. What are the things I could do to become a real man? Should I join the military even if I don't want to become a soldier but because they yell at you and put you in difficult situations maybe this would mold me into becoming a real man? Should I move out of my parents house even if it is not the right choice to do because I am still a student and I am living with my parents because college is in my home town so why would I pay for rent if I can save money living with them? Besides following my dream ..going to the gym and have a hobby or opening a buisniess (or at least try) I don't know what to do. I wish there was an exercise that I could do so I could deal with life's tough situations . I was sensible even in childhood.. and parents tried to speak nice to me so I don't cry that much and I was also a shy obedient kid and also I was my only parents child so they took care of me much more than maybe parents are taking care of other kids when they more than 1. This latter was also pointed out when for example I was at a meal with my family and some family friends who hold me and my parents a long discourse about the fact that they should let me be more independent ( and this all started from the fact that my dad took a boiled egg to boil it for me instead of letting me to it). Also I had a girlfriend who was more independent than me ( she moved to another country and worked there) and she also pointed out stuff. Now here is my last point. You know.. it is not about just doing this to get girls or get a wife..I want to be a man because I have to be a man. I am tired of being just a boy ..a lil' boy. I want to change because I don't want to be that dad or that husband that runs away when there are difficult times ..i don't want to be a coward. If you have also experiences that you have been trough that made you become a man let me know! And more importantly..what exactly is a real fucking man ? Thanks. 🙏

Because he suddenly disappeared. And he used to post like every single hour and was super active .

@Breakingthewall it seems like Leo has banned Razard and now he opened a new account . The tonality and the overly analytical style is very similar. Idk just guessing.

Are you Razard86?

I actually disagree with the entire world view of Leo. But I don't mention this to not get banned lol 😆.

Yeah it is what it is . I'm bisexual. Im attracted to both girls and handsome dudes . So i allowed myself to stare at gay porn. The clip was between a "top ".and "bottom "gay couples. The "top " dude was extremely good-looking and his dick was so impressive almost shaped like a fresh banana . So I nutted .and failed No Nut November. And I feel proud of myself that I finally came to terms with my gay side. I still like cute girls as well and been masturbating to softcore (boy & girl ) clips since I was 14 . AMA.

@Princess Arabia I said what I just said . you are not dreaming. Slap yourself in the face .

Lol . You still didn't tell me what are you high on ? I asked you this before 😆 1-No offence hopefully..Why you must jump into anything I post and comment on it ? 2-your profile says you joined in mid 2020. Curious why all the sudden you became so active on here and post every five minutes? I mean so am I. But I don't have a life ,technically. Are you the same? There is no self and there is a self simultaneously. If you mean the entity residing behind the eyes ..yeah that's fictitious..but YOU are all of existence. Not just consciousness which is the empty canvas that forms take place within..but you are these forms as well. You =everything.

He is saying that implicitly when he says there are no awakend characters. No awakened me or you or Leo. So he is unwittingly saying there is nothing the character can do to awaken . Which is just BS. There are literally hundreds of different meditation techniques to awaken . Is there an individual or not ? How can the individual be enlightened and yet be absent and "reality " just rushed in . Look..both No-self and solipsism are nonsense. I dont buy them with a spit on the ground . Anyway..Ivan is a brilliant guy ..but I'm shocked by this post which is like he moved one step forward and ten steps backwards.

What's so funny about it ..it's a fucking Buddhist fish. Like duh..

Indeed. I apologise @ivankiss for derailing the thread . Was just trying to spice it up with some humour.

Haha that will get me so close to an unresponsible ban from @Sincerity. he gave me 6 points .

@Thought Art I was just Trolling around 😂

I mean seriously..you guys are so lost in spiritual puffy buffy land of impersonal cloud of "consciousness " floating around without a "you " owning it . You gotta outgrow that shit . That's kindergarten to this work. Are you aware of cartoon wolf awakening 2.0 ?

@Osaid I meant *crap , you creep

Damn .you are a smart guy. Did not expect that you easily fall into the "there is no you to awaken " Neo-Advaitan crap.

And what's that ?

@Dioxide2533 he did that without free will😅

Ramana Maharshi was a homeless nobody who died from cancer and he didn't complain a single bit . Be grateful that you live in the technology era where you can connect with other spiritually interested people. Enlightenment is your nature. Not something you do or maintain. That's all "leo-ism"

Can confirm 👍. Just a cup of coffee with regular 3 hours of mindfulness meditation raises your consciousness and makes existence more sparkling.

The Egyptian girl ..remember her? Her beauty is ruining my goddam life

@Princess Arabia aight girl ..go drink water and go to bed .