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When did you realize that nothing matters ?(I'm assuming you've realized it already). i think I was maybe nine or ten years old. I was in my bed at night thinking about life and what to make of it. Then somehow I realized it was all empty.. everything. I cried the rest of the night. Some time early in the morning my mother came in asking me what was the matter. I said “you will die..dad will die..I and every one else will die.” she told me yes honey but you will live your life first. “No you don’t get it" I responded. YOU WILL DIE ONE DAY.this fact alone if grasped fully can totally make you totally liberated and you might outsmart Ramana Maharshi himself in a spiritually nihilistic debate about existence.

I think what we say when we say "God" is all encompassing. I think that you are making distinctions between "emptiness" and "God" . What you are experiencing right now and all that could ever exist is God. But yea if there is only God... It's neither simple nor complex because it can only be compared to itself. God is beyond distinction but also includes all the distinctions which it imagines.

Well what do you think "God in its purest form " is if not nothingness/pure emptiness/formlessness etc ?

Ur welcome . No I don't use guided meditation . I don't even meditate that much . I meditate maximum 1 hour in the morning of my day offs from college. I just simply watch the blank space between thoughts. And that's it . That's all it takes to calm down your monkey mind chatter and relax and enjoy the present moment. Because that's all there is to do in life . I mean imagine you have so much free time ..what the fuck are you gonna do with your life? Yes you can try this and that ..but at the end of it all you will be back to baseline and bored. So all that is left is to just bask in being and chill out on nothing.

You're welcome bro . Not to give your ego a stroke but whenever I see you chiming in in a topic I just go like "finally someone who is ACTUALLY awake in this forum 😂 ".

Bro this is dope as fuck . Is it written under the effect of drinking 🍻? What's that you're about to take a sip from in your pfp 😂? Much love man . 🙏

Just take a moment to observe your thoughts. Notice that there is a gap between them. Right ? It's not like thoughts are going on24/7..correct? there is a gap between every two thoughts .it lasts for few seconds between each thought and the next one. . There’s a space or a gap between this thought and the arising of the next thought. With time and practice the gaps become much bigger . At first you will experience them as short breaks between thoughts. But as you pay attention the gaps become bigger and bigger until you see that the entire background of your mind is spacious.it’s a big gap. And all the thoughts that come however many there may be cannot obscure the gap. Keep on noticing this gap and not react to the thoughts in between..As you keep doing this the gaps keep growing. You know you are doing it right when you start to have the sense that the gaps are actually much truer much more real than all the superficial little thoughts that bubble up and can seem so important.

The "do nothing " technique. Just watch your thoughts and don't do anything. Just watch them. Let them come..let them go..let them do their worst.. let them drive you crazy and you don't care. let them. But don't you try to stop them ..let them. Just surrender 100%. do nothing and watch what happens. You're actually just doing just absolute zero. You've turned yourself off and you have the attitude of: even if I die right now..so what? It doesn't matter. Even if my worst fear manifests..good.. let it. It seems difficult. But it's not really.. it seems difficult but it's easy if you do it.. try it. Get by yourself and just sit down..put your hands together and do absolutely nothing. Don't tell yourself you're watching or you're practicing anything at all. Give all practices up.. give it all up. This will send you into amazing levels of peace and serenity. Good luck !

Buddhism Says there is no ground . Leo says the ground is God..which is infinity .which means God is the groundless ground. Its the same .

@Never_give_up I totally feel you on that . I've wrestled with existential questions since I Was 14 yo trying to figure out life through philosophy. To some healthy degree philosophy is needed .but at some point you just have to smoke that damn DMT(which I haven't yet like you ) and drop philosophy. Can you go crazy from too much philosophy? Yea that might very well be the case ..Because all philosophical questions can only come after you wake up/become conscious. You waking up/becoming conscious is the beginning to everything. Like Big Bang.

Happiness/bliss and Love generate truth.. as does Truth generate pleasure and Love..because they are the same thing. So it's a two-sided way . I always wondered about what I value most .. truth or happiness? And everytime I contemplate this question I answer : happiness obviously. Because love/bliss/ happiness are "faster" than Truth..because Love is a bit more closer to Truth than Truth is. Omg look at the hippy things you made me say

How so when I am Truth ? You think there is a capital-T truth hiding behind God's butthole that you can discover if you keep doing colony to reality assuming that Truth is not this ?

The truth is that no one really values truth . They value money ..success..comfort ..health..and happiness. Truth is this present moment. There you go I solved the entire mystery of existence for ya. Now go enjoy your life 😂.

I still remember when i first discovered what an orgasm is during puberty..basically the very time i masturbated ..my first thoughts were something like "Holy shit holy shit holy shit...white stuff came out of my dick. What the fuck did I do? This has to be bad for me. I'm never touching myself again" And then the next day I did it again.😂 Back then I didn't even start watching porn ..I mean I could..but it just didn't arouse me..I don't want to just insert my penis into some fucking vagina while looking at the window and the woman is looking at the wall 😂 (isn't that 90% of porn scenes ?). So for the first few years in my puberty I used my imagination to jerk off .and it felt better than jaking off to porn. But obviously as the years went by I started getting lost in Pornhub and other XXX tube sites . That's not what I want to talk about today though so let's get into it : I did nofap for years on and off .meaning I abstained and relapsed a million times .I tried to quit porn and masturbation as much times as there are hairs in my beard .but it just didn't work . Plus I always thought that masturbation is bad and unhealthy. And that was my opinion expressed here on this forum around the topic of masturbation since my first day joining this forum . Now I've changed my mind . I started jerking off again . And I believe now that it's 100% healthy and normal. And in fact not masturbating is actually bad for you . Why is that ? For the following reasons: 1- it just feels gooooood ,okay ? Why should you deny yourself self-love ? Why should you keep gallons of Cum inside your balls and become a sexually repressed creep who will harrase girls in public because you can't think straight from the amount of Horniness you are experiencing? 2- actually it's healthy to cum every once in a while . Why ? There is a scientific study that shows that men who ejaculated more often have lower risk of prostate cancer . https://www.health.harvard.edu/mens-health/ejaculation_frequency_and_prostate_cancer 3-there is a scientific study that shows that ejaculating once a week actually INCREASES testosterone levels . https://www.healthline.com/health/masturbation-and-testosterone . So I'm convinced now that masturbation is good..healthy &NECESSARY. The only problem is when you overdo it .obviously if you squeeze your fucking balls dry by Cumming 3 times a day everyday you will feel lethargic..depressed..zero libido ..not motivated..temporary ED..etc. so just use common sense boys and cum twice -4 times a month and enjoy your life . Move over !.

Yes I do . You too .stop putting fake front .I have not found a single person in my whole life who has the same degree of honesty and authenticity like me . Maybe That's why I struggle with making long term friends irl or keeping a girl locked . Obviously? Wet is good .

Whatever.

And here is a legitimate "sign " that you've actually got it..Aka are awake or liberated or enlightened etc..is that you literally can't be bothered by anything anymore. It becomes literally impossible to give a single crappy fuck about all the human bullshit .People might be cracking their skulls open banging the wall and some celestial planets might destroy the entire earth crashing down on it and you will not even hold your breath .

I get it relax man .lol Well ....enjoy 🥂

@NewKidOnTheBlock why are you putting the word "porn" in quotations? Implying that porn can't be defined? This is gay as fuck 😂

Lol First of all God is not really separate from you . But lets just pretend God is the bearded man in the clouds .. If God is really all-loving then he will overlook all the degenerate shit you've done .. The abrahamic religions god is the equivalent of an abusive parent who threatens to lock you in the basement and torture you if you don't behave or tell them you love them. That makes God immoral.. and I'm not going to give a blowjob to a terrorist just to avoid eternal suffering..so fuck God. but the cosmic joke is of course that when you say that its equivalent to looking at yourself in the mirror and saying " go fuck yourself ".

@D2sage idk man I'm guessing all this "steam " You're blowing out of your chest against porn comes from a negative experience with porn earlier in your life .like you were addicted to the point you were about to suicide yourself or something and then you had an explosive awakening that you must stop this habit or else you gonna screw your whole life away straight to hell . Between me and you it's fine to wank It to some hot clips every once In a while ..its not like it does actually matter On the grand scheme of things or the most "zoomed out " perspective possible. Don't you think so ?

@Never_give_up think of it this way my dear... Do you realize you are me? Cool then you are not just me you are everyone else.. Cool then you are not just everyone else you are everything.. Who knows everything? Everything. And who is everything? You. So who knows everything? You. Which is me. When you get it you will get it.

@Carl-Richard I mean who the hell takes you seriously with that "thing " in your signature ? jk. It's not like that .peeps masturbate to porn everyday...go to a live stream porn sites like a sex chat live when guys pay money so that the pornstar can spank her ass or squeeze her tits ..thousands if not millions if not billions if not trillions (yes trillions because even aliens and ghosts watch porn ) of guys watch porn everyday...and they have no problem getting it up to the computer. Or do you Just mean they can't get it up with a real chick ?

And now I'm sure you are indeed a nofap mod 😂. Much love man 😅🙏

You're good to go man I wish you the best most awesome life possible on nofap .you got this . I did read a statement online today that made me shit myself "life is too short to not cum everyday "