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Sufficient is to say truth is direct experience. Does that validate or invalidate solipsism? I'm not playing gimmicks or games with you ..I have no clue ..I'm asking a question.

No shit sherlock.

Holy crap girl that was rough 😬

Okay assuming you are correct here ..my life is I wake up at 7 AM..take a shower..go to college..listen to my Boring lectures..go back home around 3 PM. Eat lunch . Open this forum posting noise. Relax in my bedroom with a cigarette and coffee. Watch porn or horror movies all night and sleep at 1 AM. That's my daily routine .it's so disconnected from brutality of survival as a jungle man. Suggest to me challenging things I can engage in with. Thanks.

@Breakingthewall you know..its great that you have your own model of reality or your own unique understanding of such details . For me personally I always acknowledge that there is a lot of stuff which I don't know and I might die as Someone here before knowing it and I'm coming to peace with that . Matters such as absolute reality ..infinity ..inevitable ramifications of reality being unlimited are not to be treated lightly . So I appreciate your efforts sharing your understanding of these things here . I would just ask you to dial down the absolutism and certainty plus putting a fucking picture of your face in your profile .it's kinda weird that I've been talking with a person online for 6 years now without knowing how he looks like . Enjoy!🥂

Seems like you confuse awareness with perception or the five senses . Who or what is aware of the idea of the absence of awareness?

Dodo you want to discuss solip-fucking-ism AGAIN? its not my fault that you've disappeared for few years .we had like billion threads about this .. Which makes your post cute as fuck.

@Breakingthewall And what is a star or a plant exactly made of ? btw what do you think of this quote from Shunyamurti: "free yourself from any identity except that of pure awareness itself. From that point, the egosystem will spontaneously modify itself according to the higher order of the intelligence that you have recognized. There is nothing you need to do. "

No they don't actually say that. They say the whole world is real .only you are not . Getting into hair splitting territory. I do acknowledge your perspective that the self is like a software. The ego is an incredibly intricate and highly complex sytem. Yes Most of the spiritual teachings tend to oversimplify it saying "get rid of your ego and you'll be just fine" or even saying that the ego is the enemy and has to be killed. I mean.. we're talking about your current perception of reality. That's the very reason you're not criminally insane and you can function properly in this world. In the complete absence of ego you'd be lying in your room and drooling over the carpet. Maybe I'm exaggerating..but you get the point. In the light of this..I think it's quite understandable why the ego is so "sticky'' even if you've had some glimpses into your true nature. Anyways ..Good post .

If you are familiar with neo advaita teachers and teachings you likely know that the sense of individuality or separation is false or illusory. That there isn't an actual separate self inside the organism. Who you think you are is not who you actually are. Who you think are - the ego is literally just a thought. An arising sensation that says "im me here inside this body ". When this thought disappear.. What is left is pure awareness of various perceptions and sensations without any personal relationship to them. Without "my perception and my sensation" identification. You can grasp in direct experience that "you" is false identification with thought.. It is not real. Yet it sure apears real. But you make a good point about the self being like a software like the personality. What makes this body-mind here to have a different personality than that body-mind over there even tho there is no "person" to begin with? Obviously its some subconscious program or something like that.

Disclaimer : Don't Read if you have emotional sensitivity or you get easily traumatized. What are you afraid of? I'm gonna expose and explore some of your and my deepest fears.. Full on exposure.. Full nude.. No cosmetics.. Are you afraid from the idea of falling forever.. An endless free fall? Imagine falling down in an endless spiral with no bottom forever.. Or maybe you are afraid from the idea of being stuck inside a room with no doors.. Just four walls.. You stuck between four walls.. For eternity? What about the idea of these four walls starting to get tighter and tighter untill they crush your body into pieces? But then you will die.. That might be a refuge.. How about the four walls getting so tight just enough to make you almost crushed.. But not fully yet.. Such that you can't move and will be stuck like that... Forever? How about being conscious inside darkness forever? Losing your sight? Are you afraid of going blind? Are you afraid of the idea of hell.. Being stuck inside a lava chamber burning and suffering unimaginable amounts of pain forever? You are afraid of pain basically.. Right? All kinds of pain.. How about all kinds of pain possible all at once for endless time.. Are you afraid of that? As a male..you sure have some castration anxiety no? As a female you are afraid of breast cancer right? You are afraid of infertility right? As a child you are afraid of losing your parents in a car accident no? As a grown up..you are afraid to die alone or to spend your last years with the company of no one? Are you afraid of regret? Of failure ? Of realizing at your death bed that you did it all wrong? That you fucked up big time? And that there is no going back? What else are you afraid of? What if I told you that reality is absolutely infinite and that you wil in fact will experience all of these things inevitably and there is no escape? How does that change your relationship with existence?

Cool question..But you're twisting the order here .I would first need to know if this future experience brings suffering or not First before judging if I'm willing to go through it or not ..not the other way around .

Why are you with him if he isn't your type to begin with? obviously it makes all the difference in the world . I would never be with a girl who isn't my type even if the alternative is being forever single.

You lost me here . It seems that you like spiralling around and dancing around the Bush so much instead of actually deriving genuine answers. If I engage you here we will literally ramble for 5 pages with no end in sight . I hope no offence taken.

Great. Then I won't. Proplem solved .

You mean you have big dreams..goals..and ambitions and you want to give it your all but you are afraid you can't handle the hard work it might require to achieve such an awesome life ?

If you want to be real then there is no such thing as transcending sex unless you have the karma of a monk. Find a partner and enjoy your life. In the meantime while you are single there is no alternative to masturbation and porn. But just don't turn it into addiction.

Kiss his stomach and scratch his ears as the foreplay. Lick his testicular bag as the warm up. Let him stick the entire length and girth of his cock inside your mouth while looking him in the eyes then let him bound you until you are sore for a week.

@UnbornTao when you ask what is something...how should one answer?

Interesting. another person who doesn't understand my problem despite me stating it in 4 different ways in this thread .you guys still confuse not knowing with not being able to cook or flush my stink in the toilet or knowing how to function in society. Is that really what I mean? From the moment you open your eyes in the morning you are forced to engage with reality on a practical level. Even if you stay in bed all day that's still an engagement and you will reap what you sow .the problem is you are being bombarded by 10000000 choices every second .you are being treated by society as if you are a person who thinks ..instead of being formless consciousness in which the person and thoughts arise in. So you are never good enough .you chase the carrot like a donkey but never arrive. I've been complaining why Peter Ralston doesn't have free books online. But luckily I found the book of not knowing and its resonating with my problem. So I don't think anyone in this forum is as conscious as Ralston at the very least to understand my problem...so thank you all but none of you understand my problem with enough depth .

Of course it all boils down to fear of pain . All these examples are to be faced with fear because they cause pain. Pain and pleasure are what the entire drama of life and existence is about. Pain and pleasure are the real God that got people by the balls . Not some unconditional love and who knows what . If you observe most people..all they are doing is trying to maximise pleasure and minimise pain. Even people who say I only care about truth..he wants truth because its pleasurable to know the truth and painful to not know .

Happy for you. Life has ups and downs obviously you are not gonna feel depressed forever nor enthusiastic forever. Both are transient and part of life .

@UnbornTao You don't know what the word "fear" means ? Do you need to go look it up in the dictionary? Are you gonna go Ralston mode on me once again ? Please don't tell me you gonna ask me what is (X) ad infinitum.

Correct me if I'm wrong ..you're saying you become one of a kind person. Like Neo exiting the matrix and you have a totally different worldview ..motivations..goals..etc than the majority of people in society? If that's what you mean then what I said is accurate. All of us already believe we are doing this .

Yes ..all of us .The truth is that every single person in the world thinks of himself or herself as the most badass hotshot ever . Not just paranoid and narcissistic people but everyone . We all believe we are the main character in this movie called life . My sister's husband has been diagnosed with lungs cancer just few weeks ago yet he literally told me I'm not going to die ever. I'm not joking ..he doesn't care .