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@Carl-Richard you do not understand my problem enough.

yes i can . But my point is much deeper . So what is going to happen exactly after you have the best sex ever ? What are you expecting to happen ? Do you feel incomplete and think that sex is going to make you finally truly happy? What's the difficult thing about transcending sex other than just coming to peace with the fact that fucking the entire human race isn't gonna do shit to you ? @Princess Arabia what do you want?

@samijiben then why did you bother ?

I criticize him as much as I want . You never get a single conclusion from his word salad. You can't argue with him about anything or get anywhere because he uses no strict rules to his logic. he just uses anything he wants to justify anything he wants. @Breakingthewall I like you .

@Aether Phoenix if you go back and read where it all started it was Leo telling me what the fuck is wrong with this guy just because i asked why Ralston doesn't have any ebooks. So it's actually Leo who started all this nonsense. But I'm thrilled about the direction of this thread .

I mean man needs woman and woman needs man. We are social creatures . I'm not just talking about sex and fucking (although that's definitely an absolute ruin and shakes your entire nervous system with endorphins)...but intimacy..family ..children..a soulmate..love..Romance . This is more mighty than awakening to God.

@UnbornTao funny. But I mean what I say . Who the hell else besides me has the balls to post a thread like this one ?(although it has zero replies):

@Thought Art if that's true then you know very well that I made this forum a totally different place. When I'm absent for a while I check the forum when it's offline..and I see a bunch of nonsense being posted like "kundaliny" .."my spine hurts when I meditate ".."Leo, what's blasphemous is to call oneself God ?"..etc . Then I think I hop online and post a super cool story that conveys a deep confusion I have. A genuine question or insight that no human can live their life without going through and pondering it . I think my threads are the most beautiful threads.. and in a way that’s really what it’s all about. It might be written off.. dismissed..idk & I love you and also idc to be understood ...but I will say it again..these couple marbles clankin in our brains are not intelligence. Unless your conscious of your foolishness as you insulted me then youre lost in ego. I recived private messages saying mad props to you for pushing the inquiry limits like you do on weekly basis. Hope ya have the best day ever brother!

@Thought Art the forum has improved ? Go read the forum in 2016-2018 ..real genuine geniuses like Nahm and Forestluv and Winterknight were posting top tier shit. All of them left and you've got people now who rehash shit endlessly like Breakingthewall..he has to split hairs here everyday about platonic pipe dreams of semantics every single day otherwise he cannot sleep . I'm the only one in this entire forum who posts good posts . And this is non negotiable.

What's wrong with little shit posting here and there though? Most of my posts are without pride the most logical and intelligent posts here. You think Leo doesn't shit post himself? Look at this amazing profound life-changing video from leo ,the last prophet to humanity after Muhammad:

@Leo Gura ok he needs to eat i get it now . If i was you i would make millions out of my followers asses .

Nothing . I'm just wondering why your daddy Ralston is so keen about cash.

Yes my point is that thousands of books are free . Only few elite writers who have their nose up in the sky demand you gotta pay for their life changing books on Amazon or wtvr.

What's that ?

@Thought Art why there are no free books from him online ? I can find books like "7 habits of successful people" or "think and grow rich " or"the power of now " free to download..but mister Ralston doesn't want his work if it's so profound to be free.

Why don't you gather a few people in your neighbourhood and arrange satsangs like Robert Adams's style or Mooji? Or maybe promote your own unique version of spirituality and make money out if it? You can arrange Zoom meetings online with people seeking spirituality.

Good point James. Thanks.

Sex is overrated. Ice cream and cigarettes feel better to me . Its like what ..you cum and done and its over .so what now ? If you really want to transcend sex then keep indulging in it until you get sick of it and see its futility.

How do I trust the flow of reality that it leads to a good destination? I'm not after anything more than knowing everything is going to be perfect in the end . What if x y z?

@Javfly33 thanks for the reply . Great news to hear you improved your life . I want to lay out my issue once more hopefully with more perssion. Once upon a time There was nothing . Then for whatever the hell reason a baby came out of a womb crying and having perceptions. A consciousness is born out of nowhere to see the light . Now if that's not the most miraculous mind blowing thing ever then I don't know what else is . Then this baby grows into an adult . He learns everything from his or her environment. Its not like you are born with Kantian a priori knowledge of abstracts and shit . You learn what society teaches you . Then you go on with your life . But actually life is doing you ..you are not doing it. You take a walk late at night and you observe old souls walking at around 3 AM. Those people have something in common ..they just happen to be conscious completely that there is something incredibly and unbelievably mysterious going on . That's why you have Leo. That's why you are in this forum . Then you start to get intrusive thoughts : what if I die ? What if i end in hell burning in eternal fire and god will stick his cock into my ass for eternity..? What if what if what if ..there is millions of them . So what does the modern person do? He smokes ..he drinks ..he eats junk..he watches 90000 hours of pornography and cums 200000 times ..he try drugs ..he suicides and dies . Where did he go ? Nobody knows. Why was he born in the first place if he was going to die ? Nobody knows .Old souls start thinking there must be something to solve this madness. What is it ? If you can tell it to me and convince me I will cut my balls off .

@Sincerity great advice and tough love man .thanks for sharing. I will consider what you wrote and try to apply it in my life .thank you .

Yup . To some degree. I guess some things just can't be expressed with words . You'd have to experience it first to understand it . Like trying to explain colors to blind person . Not gonna work . But actually I'm not that much bothered by lack of relating to me from the commenters here..I learned that everyone are doing the best they can at any given moment and if I was in their shoes I would invetiably do the same thing. So it's still cool to see how different people relate differently to different things .which is obvious isn't it ?

That's true but the video he is referring to is about the illusion of ego. There is no "little you" inside your brain giving orders to the body . How do you wake up every morning? Do you will it or it just happens?

Yes it seems like me and you guys are just functioning at totally different wavelengths or modes of being that we cannot relate to each other's. But its okay what can I do ? Appreciate you all.

@Carl-Richard yeah . Your comment above is basically get busy in some hobby or Job or some socialization or start a business or go hit on some chicks with your nonexistent bad friends and you will immediately forget about what the fuck is existence and stuff like that ..correct?