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Indeed. Waking up every morning is a gift. A miracle that we take for granted.

to the people that don’t get it and don’t even try to understand it: I mean what the hell? All other illnesses get attention, but when it comes to mental health there are still people that think I am just “nervous.” or "pretending" or creating my own suffering. If that was the case .. I wouldn’t be trembling, crying, screaming, panting, dry heaving. So go educate yourself before you go to someone with anxiety and tell them something that is bull crap and make them feel insane. When people say, “That gives me so much anxiety” in a joking way, it’s not a joke. I go through nights with 3 or more panic attacks. I pace around my room as if it’s going to help. I text at least 10 people asking if they are awake just to make me feel less alone. Just when I feel like I’m doing well, it comes back. It has followed me for years and it gets worse when I feel like I have no one, when I feel like no one gets it. Change is extremely hard for me. Something as simple as rearranging my room can flip my world around. Anxiety and panic attacks are extremely painful some days, it is so hard to get up out of bed in the morning and go to class. I know I can be extremely irritable when I am anxious, but that is mostly because I am so mentally exhausted. I am so tired of calming myself down over and over again. I am so tired of trying to explain this to people that may just never get it. The best way I can describe it is this: Think of a situation where it feels like you might die. It feels like that. It’s so hard to not push people away because I depend on others so much and that’s because anxiety makes you feel helpless. It’s not something that’s particularly curable. People say there are things that I have not done to help myself which makes me so angry because I have been trying and working as hard as I can to make this go away. I know I can be okay and I know this is not forever, but when you go entire days feeling anxious, it’s easy to think that this is how you’ll feel forever.

@snowyowl I'm not sure if this app will work but I will give it a try.

Or you just don't want to admit that you don't know?

I want more details goddammit lol

LOL yeah I know! Right? ?

How so? If I think about a million dollars long enough... is it going to materialize?

I want more details.

@Vibroverse what are dreams?

@Fearless_Bum fair enough. Will give it a try.

Because it feels good.

General. I'm anxious about nothing in particular. Another way to say it is I'm anxious about everything.

Not sure if this should help or increase the problem.

No I didn't read the power of now. I tried meditation but it doesn't work so well.

I would be more happy and at peace. I would stop worrying too much and get more in touch with the present moment. Not sure how that will manifest practically . Since I have been anxious for a long time now.. That I almost forgot how to be normal lol. These days I can't even enjoy a video game or a beautiful song because of how much stuck in my head and anxious I am.

@MuadDib @Inliytened1 thanks for the tips and advice.

Unfortunately I do not know what's the root cause of anxiety. And that makes it even more difficult to deal with.

@WokeBloke can you point to it?

Because you fear death. Simple.

@WokeBloke Experiencer is a duality. Nonduality means not two. There is no experiencer.

How do you define the "permanent experiencer "?

No.

Because of their genetics, firstly.

How about you prove that there is a devil controlling you?

@Nahm thanks for the advice and the resource.