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I prefer to stay away from delusions as much as I can. When I experience suffering there sure exists a desire to sooth onself with a metaphysical plan or divine plan "oh this is all for the greatest good this must happen because look xzy etc". I honestly don't buy any conceptual explanation for reality or any part of reality at this point. When you are experiencing suffering.. There is just the experience of suffering... No matter how sensical your story of "why the suffering is happening" it is still a story. Something that YOU are making up. Interesting story btw.

Yes. Next?

Why do humans feel the need to explain suffering away? To come up with a story that suffering must be for the greatest good (whatsoever that means)? Why can't we just accept that suffering exists and is apparently completely pointless?

Does having ten million dollars in your bank account =having "nothing" in your bank account? It's often misunderstood what is the real meaning of "form is emptiness and emptiness is form".

Mimicking Leo's pfp. I need a bald head tho

I wouldn't go this far.

How do you know there exists anything else (other POVs) than what you are conscious of atm? Isn't that just a baseless belief? Is it even possible to know that? After all will you ever experience anything else but your own POV?

Reality is indifferent. The universe doesn't know evil. Evil only exists in your skull. Forget about "why all loving God allow this" these types of abstract questions have no answer . Any mental gymnastics can be tossed away easily.

Yes totally agree. I've hit rock bottom I'm considering isolating myself so I can quit. It's a bit extreme but extreme proplems require extreme solutions I guess. Will get rid of all cigarettes in the house.

Yes I'm not postponing it. I'm totally in. But it's disappointing how. Weeks of discipline could just end by moment of weakness. I actually think about isolating myself so I can stop.

I had a similar experience a week ago in a dream. And I asked about confirmation in here. Did you become conscious that all infinite potential will become actual? Once can certainly imagine infinte scenarios.. But does it necessarily have to be manifested in a alternative reality.

Beautiful and insightful as always thanks for sharing and good luck in your journey man.

@Mvrs are you saying we shouldn't trust our memories anymore?

@BlackMaze there is no "when I feel like it" man. This is an absolute necessity. I cannot continue like this im raping (sorry) my health. Yet all this doesn't seem to make me stop. I have other reasons that I believe are making it difficult for me but I won't get into them here to not make this too abstract.

Is covid imaginary?

I guess I do it subconsciously. After years of do it automatically I find my hands automatically slip into the cigarette pack and takes one to smoke it.

Relapse. I messed up big time im so upset.

This is true and not true.

@Lyubov I think it has more to do with psychedelicds. Leo takes a lot of psychedelics. I remember he did 30 days 5 meo retreat. The psychedelic fucks with your perceptions to the point you start to notice that how the world appears to you is nothing of an objective way.. It's just a hallucination by your mind. So there is no one "objective" way that world is other than however it appears to you.

Who is that guy?

@Javfly33 If I told you "stay as awareness".. Who is there to stay as awareness ? Awareness is already always effortlessly staying as itself. If I told you "don't listen to thoughts".. Who is there to listen or not listen ? If I told you "don't judge thoughts let them come and go"..who is there to do these things. There is nothing there that can choose to do this or that. Even if I say let everything as it is.. That's still assuming there is a you that can either surrender or resist. There is nothing to be done. Who would do it?

@RedLine This is more of a linguistic and conceptual game than it is of any relation to actual reality. There is no such thing as good or bad or love or Love or absolute. Point to any of them in direct experience. And notice you are not pointing to "Love".. You are pointing to whatever you are pointing to. At some point you gotta realize these are just empty words attempting to describe the indescribable. We are merely creating maps with language and conceptual understanding. We give names to everything but we don't know what anything is. And the name does nothing in revealing or unraveling the mystery of the thing. For example you call a cat a cat. Let's call it a dog. A biological entity. A dream. matter. consciousness. An appearance. An illusion. God. Donald trump. Love..... Doesn't matter. The name does nothing. and all names are equally meaningless vibrations. The cat is simply exactly how it looks smells feels etc. And that's it. You can't get more direct than direct. Arguing whether reality is "absolute good" or whether good and bad are inherent or mind created is just foolish.. The entire language and conceptual description is mind created. Reality is not "absolute goodness". Reality is exactly what you are conscious of right now. Stop projecting your bullshit onto it.

Beautiful ❤️

What is holding everything together in a dream? .. The one that is dreaming.

No he is not experiencing "another life" in that sense. It's just that his bubble is disconnected from your bubble. For example when he goes to sleep his bubble gets turned off and you literally disappear from his life. Yet from your pov you didn't disappear. So he is living a different life in the sense that what is occurring in his bubble is not accessible to anyone else but him. Same with you. What you can access in your bubble is only yours. No one in the universe is looking through your eyes right now except YOU.