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@allislove thank you

@Javfly33 @Breakingthewall thank you for your input. Appreciate it. Good questions.i need to contemplate them deeply. I've been recently diagnosed with anxiety disorder. I'm anxious about everything. Every fucking thing in life. Even the mundane everyday stuff seem like a chore. And in general I feel like my health is going downhill. I've had enough of this thick material plane of existence. It's taxing on my body and mind. I don't like life. I like to question existence a lot.. And as I dig deeper I feel like I'm losing my mind or myself and not finding answers.. And /or finding answers that drive me insane. Questions like what happens when I die seem to cause me panic attacks when I contemplate it enough because my mind says "anything can happen. You might go to hell etc).

@allislove thanks for the suggestions. Will look her up. I get you now. What about the body? Lol. Yeah.. Ofcourse. Disagree. I'm asking you because I'm suffering in my life and you seem to claim to be enlightened and have transcend suffering..

You don't even know what anything is.

Just like everyone else ?

@Leo Gura does reality have an end? In terms of time ... Am I going to have a final experience? Or this stream of experience will keep going forever?

@allislove I'm not experiencing peace or happiness in my life. I'm suffering from severe anxiety and other issues. And it's hard for me to accept that. Akshay Yes. Where it is?

Akshay Yes. Where it is?

How is happiness my true nature? Could you explain that? Do you suffer? Do you feel pain? Do you ever have a bad day? So you agree that pain is intrinsic but "suffering" is optional? To me these are just semantics and don't serve any actual purpose for ending human suffering. Do you think suffering exists? And how do you define it? And how to end it permanently? Is that even possible?

@roopepa @Nahm fair enough. How to achieve uninterrupted true genuine happiness? ... Please think this question through and without denying that suffering is inevitable and pain is intrinsic part of life. @Adamq8 nice pic bro ?

What does it mean that truth =happines?... Exclusively?... What about suffering? If Truth is infinite then it must include all sensations and emotions and not just happiness?? (I think we've had this kind of discussion before).

@allislove who knows? Perhaps infinite

Absolute Truth and Absolute Happiness.

My main point is the double standards... Why is killing human bad or wrong or evil while killing animals for food is not?????? I'm not saying we should then justify killing humans... I'm saying why are we using double standards?

@SilentTears then why do we kill insects and animals? Doesn't the same principle apply to animals and other life forms? As I said it's only selectively bad which is my main point. If we can justify killing an animal for food.. Then we can justify killing people or else we will be using double standards.

Because it's mysterious and question-worthy.

Because I don't take it for granted..unlike (maybe) you.

just want to vent a little and say: Fuck religion.. fuck politics.. fuck stoicism.. fuck emotions.. fuck the economy.. fuck philosophy.. fuck Zen.. fuck the Buddha.. fuck psychopath.. fuck cancer.. fuck starvation.. fuck illnesses.. fuck Corona virus.. fuck anxiety.. fuck fucking..

I'm dealing with difficulties recently. Anxiety and stress and mild depression. This is a journal for tracking my experience and my battle against it.

Thanks for the useful participation ?

@Origins please try to simplify and summarize the point you're making. Not sure I understand what you are getting at.

@Origins are you saying it's beyond our capacity to comprehend such things?

Well you need to define your terms first.. Not sure I understand your question definitively. Indeed lol. Then it must be true because Jesus said so??? Wow... I know which is exactly my point. Why it is the way it is? You simply don't know?

How do you know what is it "all" about?.... It seems to me to be about nothing at all.