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@Tim R please move this to the spirituality section. Thanks.

Sure we can chat .do you have discord?

So I was planning on doing nofap for the whole year of 2022. But I relapsed yesterday to porn .I didn't masturbate .just looked at some porn .it took me three hours. And I downloaded some of the videos to replace my old collection that I deleted .it turns out that this stuff is not as easy as it sounds in the beginning of the year .I don't feel guilty or anything .i actually enjoyed myself and it was overall a positive experience. Maybe porn Is not that bad after all. It kinda depends on how you use it and how you relate to it .addiction is a problem for sure .but I'm not sure if should classify myself as an addict or not .anyways just sharing with you guys and being honest about my journey. I'm continuing my nofap journey for the rest of the year .only porn is allowed. Masturbation is not allowed. At least that's the rules for now. And we'll see how it goes .

As spiritual awakening is happening, layers of the onion of the body-mind are being melted away. Many of these layers have an emotional component. Most of us have suppressed much sadness/anger/fear over the years, and as these emotional layers are melting, the suppressed feelings come to the surface. So it is a very beautiful thing that im crying a lot these days. It means much is being released.i should Love the tears — accept them from my heart. After the rain a cool clear sunrise is bound to follow.

@Nivsch i understand. No worries. We're good ?

@WelcometoReality its OK we're good ?

Sure .from your pov guys I could be deluded. I could be insane .I could be lying .or whatever. But from my pov I'm absolutely certain of the stuff I became conscious of . I'm not asking you to believe me .find out what's true in your direct experience and Go with that .

@WelcometoReality then I don't know how else to explain it to you. Sorry .

@Nivsch you will never get it through logic and reason. Turn around and go do something else for you to be ready to fathom the consequences of what's being said here. It might take you decades of work and contemplation to getting the answers. For me one video was enough and it clicked. I Don't know what it will take for you .but the best advice is try not figure it out through the mind and conceptual thinking but through direct experience.

@WelcometoReality God's formless mind is the essence of all of existence. It's pure potentiality. From which all creation manifested . we as humans are figments of God’s imagining. That is an unfalsifiable possibility Think about it ..if an omniscient being was going to create a universe, then it would have to imagine all possible universes from which to choose one. The interesting thing is that it could imagine the entire duration of each and every particle in each and every universe including this one right down to the planck length. That means it essentially runs a full simulation of an infinite number of universes. Do you know what you get when you run a computer simulation of flocking birds using the same rules birds actually use to flock? You get real flocking behavior. The birds may be digital, but the flocking is real. The real flocking is an emergent property. In the same way, if the fundamental rules of each of the imagined universes are simulated with perfect fidelity, then all the behaviors of the particle interactions will be similarly real as our crude flocking program above. Some of those interactions will be the consciousness of beings within those universes. So we are one of the simulations running in the mind of the omniscient being.

@WelcometoReality Wherever you are, whoever you are, you are always floating around as a figment in the eternal mind of God.

Yes .I as God imagined the human self and the human other. But both self and others are Imaginary characters in God's formless mind. Yes it can't be falsified because you can't falsify that which is absolutely true.

@Nivsch read this part again and make sure you get it. I'm getting tired of explaining the same thing over and over again lol ?

No .the imagner is the only thing that's not imaginary. but of course you can't see this imagner because it's pure formlessness.

Because they are Imaginary. Notice this in your direct experience . have you ever experienced other povs or just your own pov ? Your own pov is what's real .other povs are the imagination of your mind . Check this. Don't just believe .check it in direct experience that this is true .

Yes .but it's even more radical than that. The same is true from your pov as well. I know its a mindfuck and you can't wrap your mind around it. An awakening is required to grasp this issue in its full depth . Just the solipsism video +deep contemplating for hours . No .I'm the eternal singular mind that imagines everything else around itself

This is not a matter of agreement or disagreement. It's not a personal opinion or emotional issue. It's about what's actually true .and I became absolutely conscious that all others beings are a figment of my mind .

No .I'm imagining all my family members. They don't exist independently outside my own mind .

Leo's video. It was incredible.

Awakening is solipsism .as long as you are not conscious that all others are a projection of your own mind then you are not fully awake . You may have awoken to no self or infinite love or infinite intelligence but you still gotta make the final step and annihilate all sense of otherness. Awakening Is the most radical realization that you have. It's not ego.its the ultimate truth.

Of course. But it's a deeper layer of Imagination.

I'm not asking you to believe me .nor should you believe me .remain skeptical all you want . I'm just laying down a possibility that you can and should validate for yourself in direct experience. I've awoken. And you can awaken too .just contemplate the shit out of this stuff and do all the work to deconstructing your mind and reality and maybe then you will have the same epiphanies that I had.

Thanks. Yeah..my perspective on life is constantly changing, but awakenings can often happen spontaneously, so how you spend your time and even your awareness and perception of reality can change dramatically. These are often very profound experiences, but you can expect many awakenings in a lifetime. Yet life goes on. But You are reborn. You do not “shift,” and go on from there, with a new, ‘spiritual’ perspective of life. “You” are gone. 100% stark, non-existent and gone. The “character” continues to move around. Things continue to happen. Tasks continue to get done. Movement moves. But “you” are not there. Life flows. But there is no longer a ”you” that watches, analyzes, judges or even participates in the flow of Life. You are the Flow of Life. You can no longer separate “yourself” from Now, from the flow, from Reality, as if you are this separate ‘entity’ that is the “liver” of this life. You are Life. As Life, you have no concern for ‘how “you” feel.’ Life doesn’t think about, or stop to alter, how It “feels.” It just Is. It just goes on. You just are. So there’s no “you” looking to see how you can make yourself “feel” better across your day. Nor is there an “enlightened” you “feeling” permanent Oneness and bliss. As Life, you have no thought called “I’m awakened/enlightened.” You’re just Life, Reality. Feelings come and go, phenomena seem to rise and fall, but “you” are gone. So You must just be a part of this One Thing. And of course that's just one facet of awakening aka no self.

Yes .I'm living the happiest days of my life .I'm finally Woke .I'm drowning in infinite love and serenity that there are no words to describe.