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@Javfly33 dude ..go open up some porn site ..find the most despicable porno out there and jerk off 15 times till you peel the skin of your penis ..by this you will kill your libido for good 3-4 weeks ..use them to focus on your "Sadhna ". Proplem solved . I'm not trolling btw .

@Keryo Koffa yeah yeah yeah ..not the first time i hear this cop-out. if I'm God and to me belongs every single thing in existence..why can't I have it right now out of sheer magic and pure will ? We are stuck in a body that needs to eat ..shit ..sleep ..get sick ..get old ..and die when our true nature is infinite boundless perfection ..i don't want to settle for less than EVERYTHING I've ever dreamed of . Sorry I'm not convinced.

First World proplems . You are so out of touch . People in 3d world countries and in Gaza are starving to death and you want to suicide yourself because you can't find a girlfriend? Boo fucking woo. I'm not judging you..but you are so ungrateful to what you have and you are out of touch with the world.

But why I can't have access to my full on God mode right now and snap my fingers and materialise a million bucks? You said before that I deliberately did this .but why ? Isn't it kinda dumb of me ?

Use money to fuck prostitutes till you get sick of it and realize sex will never make you happy and then get over it and go straight to the mountains.

@Loveeee have you experienced the collapse of the duality of good vs bad ? Are you speaking from experience?

@Loveeee interested to know more . How exactly am I good without opposite? What about pain and suffering?

Great! So you are saying it doesn't cost God a penny to compose an infinitely intelligent complex system (like this universe) and manifest it directly out of thin air . And since that is the case ..then here we are in this universe!. Did I understand this correctly? Because im asking why is that the case in the first place? Am i just pushing back the proplem one level and this is answered by infinity and groundlesness ? I mean If you take a simple object. A rock. This rock alone can be looked at in many different ways which can get extremely complex. What's the composition of the rock? What's the history behind it? How was it is formed? How did it end up at this exact spot? You can even put it under a microscope and look at how its particles are made up. Then furtherdown work out its atoms. Then you can go smaller than even an atom. And when does it end?

Leo ..why is the universe so complex? Not intelligent but complex..like literally my little lamp in my house is composed of copper wires and iron chips which came from some factory in some distant country which took hundreds and thousands of engineers and labor workers just to get me this little lamp. And ofcourse none of this were possible without the sun and the water and the soil etc. It seems like everything is interrelated in infinite cycles . Like literally you can trace back your teapot to the big bang and even before where there Is nothing but formless godhead . Why is that ? I don't really get it . It boggles my mind thinking about the complexity and intelligence of reality . Just oh my fucking god !

It's very weird and ironic that you can dispel the belief of others and not dispel the belief of shiva and japa .

Not to sound pessimistic..I'm just saying..both life &death don't actually present peace and happiness. I'm not depressed . But I'm really bumped out by the suicide of the user Buba and his suffering with continuous unexplainable pain . Like what kind of sick God created this shithole called this life ? In life you are suffering and the more you age the worse it gets . Now what's the other option? Killing yourself ? It doesn't really matter cuz you gonna die in the end anyways and death itself is such a mind boggling existential dilemma that makes you piss and shit your pants just by thinking about ..let alone actually dying. It seems to me that we are stuck and there is no salvation in any form of existence.

OK help me set this straight ..you're saying : life is a dream..therefore its illusory..therefore death itself is a dream . But so what ? Imagine that you're having a nightmare in a nightly dream and you are being raped and tortured and even burned or castrated..now I come to you in your dream and tell you: hey! This is all a dream .don't worry. Etc That doesn't help ..I understand that everyone and everything is being dreamt up on the fly RIGHT FUCKING NOW and so there is actually no such thing as yesterday or no such thing as WW2 or Hitler's holocaust etc..but this is only from the absolute perspective as you said . So please tell yourself that when you are suffering and contemplating suicide and see that it doesn't alleviate the suffering.

This is not actually true . Money is the actual God. Most people actually worship money and sex . Wake up .

Which makes it all even more terrible and terrifying..thanks for ruining my day 😅

Oh my ..life is not a dream literally.. Life is just life .just like apple is apple and not a potato chip. A=A. c'mon this is the most basic logical law ever . Stop trying to define life or existence in terms of something else .

That is a non-sequitur. Solipsism is the position that only I exist as a real self and objective reality is a figment of my imagination..what does that have to do with what comes after death as an example?

What if solipsism is a big crock of dogshit?

Thanks for everyone for the sharing of perspectives . I unfortunately (obviously) can't help but gloss over them all ..I can't respond to all that . I just want to share some thoughts on the subject..I think I understand why would a person choose to take his life away if he is going through unresolvable suffering which he knows for absolute certainty that it is never going to end as long as he is alive ..so as Leo have said ..suffering +hopelessness seems to be the equation at play . So does that mean that the following : if I lose hope completely I will also lose fear of death absolutely and decide to jump into the midst of the unknown(death)? Umm..to me still..this doesn't make sense..seriously..death is so scary this ain't no joke it's a jump into the Absolute horror of idk how to describe it ..but death terrifies the absolute shit out of me that I would still choose to gamble on hopeless suffering in this world than to die and ..(who the fuck knows what's going on here)..to risk eternal suffering that might be waiting for you after death!.

@Husseinisdoingfine All so called middle Eastern religions have both esoteric and exoteric sects and teachings. Mainstream Islam is very very strict and take the quran and the sharia literally. All hallaj was a sufi. Sufisim is the only Islamic sect that understands the roots of Islam . It's a fascinating religion btw and I don't get at all the hatred it gets from western people if not for 11/9 and such.

Thanks . Just curious..why did you decide to share this after 4 months of the suicide? He said clearly in the post that he is contemplating suicide. Leo and @Michael569 have tried to help him out .. I'm clueless about this specific disease. But from his description it was such a nasty experience I would imagine. Anyways i wish him all the best in whatever place he is in right now and for you to find a releive from negative emotions.

That's false . You can surrender your whole life and go live on some cave like what Ramana Maharshi did after his awakening when he was still a teenager. What I'm talking about is surrendering control. Surrender is giving up actively trying to figure things out in the head. That is what is being surrendered. What gives ego or the separate self a sense of validity is its sense that it is in control.. what gives it that sense of control is the belief it is figuring things out through the use of the analytical capacity of mind. So detach your attention from "figuring out mind" and stay anchored in your sense perceptions and let go of the false control of the separate self. That's when all the fear and resistance comes.. then you still stay out of mind..y ou're surrendering your control.

@Salvijus it's very heartbreaking. Reading that post and now his suicide incident..im literally shedding tears right now ..my day is ruined.

@Leo Gura

Not in my basement. She has her own house .we ain't married but we probably will in the soon future. Love (romance ) is the most beautiful thing in exists.

Ur welcome. I didn't say existence is illusory. I said free will is . When you raise your hand like this 🖐..you ain't actually doing it. Its being done by God's will and none else. My point was you only think life sucks because you actually believe you are real and In control or in charge of whats showing up in the movie called your life. If you surrender..you will be liberated.