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@Blackhawk are you still depressed and suicidal? No improvements whatsoever even little?

Agreed. I need to find a job ASAP .

Thank you. Will definitely listen to what he has to say . But I have a question..how can I feel that I already have it when in reality don't actually have it ?

What do you mean by "mastery" ?

Maybe. But perhaps it's designed to be shot out inside a vagina not into the toilet

Isn’t semen like a Vital fluid that contains a Lot of energy and nutrition ?When you give it away its natural to feel lethargic and down .Makes sense ?

Good point .I don't claim to be enlightened or attained the highest truth.but I've seen some facets and missing other facets .like goodness and love for example. I'm not conscious why existence must be good .and Death is another example. I'm not conscious of what happens after death. I wish eternal rest though.

Because I fear The unknown. And Death is the biggest unknown. I wanna make sure that everything will be okay in the end . Eternal darkness. No experience whatsoever. Eternal sleep . Idk.

I awakend to the fact that I'm the only conscious thing In existence. And there is nothing but me .and everything is my dream .that in itself is not enough to tell me where I came from ,why I am here ,and what happens when I die .these are two separate subjects.

I have no fucking idea .

How so ?I'm not repressing my sexuality. I'm allowing myself to fap whenever I feel like it .and I watch whatever kind of porn that arouses me . Do you think fapping and porn in general are healthy or not?

I heard that orgasms trigger a release of certain neurotransmitters that cause the mood to go down .is that correct?

You look in your 30s .

I disagree. It's the opposite.

Okay so you search for happiness in sex and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in food and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in drugs (tobacco, weed,herion etc) and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in homosexuality and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in religion and you don't find it .in spirituality and you don't find it . Where does it end ? When are you going to be truly happy ? What do you think is always lacking ?what will send you home once and for all ? Probably nothing?

@Inliytened1 cool pic bro .Good to see you

I agree and that's what I came to notice recently. Although it takes a long way of chasing your tail in endless desires before you surrender to unconditional love .

How do you do it in practice?

@itachi uchiha why do you demonize masturbation?

@itachi uchiha what's wrong with having some fun?

What does it teach ?

@Leo Gura I've realised no self and no free will .I've realised absolute Solipsism and the fact that I'm alone as God dreaming up the entire physical world from scratch. All perspectives. All people. .all animals. .all objects. .literally everything is the activity of my imaginative mind .But I Wanna go deeper .I want to explore this rabbit hole to its end (If it even has an end ).I recently started researching psychedelics and dark room retreats to manifest a Mystical experience. I want the highest understanding of reality possible. What am I Missing ? How you define total and final awakening? How to make sure that I Understand everything correctly? Thanks.

Since no one really knows what the fuck is going on here (what reality is ) should we only focus on hedonism and acquiring as much pleasure as possible? I mean life is short and no one has a clue what happens when you die ..probably go to hell..so we might as well enjoy the ride while it's last. These are my thoughts recently. I wanna hear what you think of this ?.

Pray to God.

@machiavelli you're welcome.